Alright, I know this isn't what you expected...but it felt like something was missing during the whole Cat/Jenna reunion, so I've written this one-shot, just to give you guys a glance at what might have happened behind that closed door:)

I hope you enjoy, reviews are welcomed and I'm working on the rest of my stories and hope to get something posted soon for all of them:)

Disclaimer: I own Hannah and Cat, but I don't own Jenna:)

What Lies In The Past

"Shhh, it's alright, Jennabean." Cat said into her cousins hair, as she rubbed her hands up and down the other woman's back, trying to give her as much comfort as she could. Even after all these years, after everything that had happened between them, Cat still hated to see Jenna cry.

Jenna couldn't get over the shock and surprise of standing with Catie again after so many years. Every time she thought she had a handle on her emotions, she would hear Catie's voice and fresh tears would fall.

After a significant amount of time had passed, Jenna composed herself, and with one last quick squeeze, released Cat and just looked her.

"What are you doing here?" Jenna finally asked, the surprise still in her voice.

Cat looked to Hannah and smiled before turning back to Jenna. "Can we sit?" She gestured to the comfy looking sofa and chairs that covered the room. "Even though we slept when we got here, I'm still a bit tired."

"Oh, yes...of course! I'm sorry, I should have thought." Jenna walked over to the sofa and took a seat, waiting for the other two to do the same.

Cat sat next to her cousin, while Hannah sat in a chair next to them.

"Ah, that's better." Cat sighed, sinking into the sofa. "Alright...where do you wanna start?" She asked, a small smile on her face. Cat was unable to believe how easy this was so far.

"We can start with my apology, which I hope with all my heart that you'll accept?" Jenna replied tentatively, knowing that Catie had every right not to accept it and to throw it back in her face. "I'll never be able to say it enough...after all this time, it doesn't even seem to be enough. But I've missed you every single day since your parents took you away." A sob caught in her throat as she choked up a little, but Jenna controlled it and waited patiently on Catie.

"I'm not gonna lie, Jenna. I was angry for years. Angry at my parents, Aunt Nora and Uncle Alistair and especially you. I won't go in to detail about what I went through after I left, because...well, it wasn't pretty." Cat stated with a grimace, causing Jenna to flinch as if she'd been hit, but soon it disappeared, leaving a smile behind. "I will say that it made me a stronger person. It made me determined to be myself, and it showed me that the world isn't always a pretty place."

"I regretted what happened, in every possible way, because I didn't just lose a cousin, I lost my best friend." Jenna cast her eyes down to her hands, shame filling her, even after all these years.

"I know, Jen, but the past is the past, right? I accept your apology and I'd really like to move on, put it away and start from here." Cat said, waiting for Jenna to look at her. "So how about you tell me about life after I left?"

Jenna's face screwed up in distaste. "Now, that's not pretty." She said.

"Oh, c'mon, tell me...I really wanna know. Let's talk about that tennis career of yours."

"Well, I went on to join the WTA, touring and gaining ground in the ranks." Jenna smiled as she remembered how it used to be. "But then the French Open happened, and well...things just weren't the same."

Jenna talked about what had happened, meeting Rob and starting her family. Strangely enough, it was still easy to talk to Catie, even after everything that had happened.

"So tell me about this foundation that you've started?" Cat prodded gently, trying to get Jenna to open up about it.

"Well, that actually wasn't my doing." Jenna told her, not wanting to lie. "I've not been too involved in the planning stages, in truth, I've not been involved in a lot of things."

"What do you mean?" Cat asked, curious.

"I turned into my mother, Catie. I've been a horrible person to Rob, my kids, especially Emily...I've pushed the girls way too hard and expected more than their best and when they failed me, I ignored them and treated them as if they were strangers." Jenna took a moment to think about all the ways she'd hurt her girls. "I knew she was different when she was younger."

"Who was different?" Cat was suddenly confused, Jenna had reverted back to her old habit of quickly jumping from topic to topic, a trait that Cat had always found annoying and adorable when they were younger.

"Emily." Jenna stated. "I just found out recently that my Emily is gay, even though, on some level, I've always known, but ignor-,"

Hannah, who had remained silent until now, laughed. Cat and Jenna both turned to look at her, as the American tried to control herself. "I'm sorry, babe, I truly am, but you have to admit that's kinda funny, right?" Hannah asked, seeing the looks on both faces, one of embarrassment and one of shame.

"Hannah." Cat warned her girlfriend with a look, before turning back to her cousin. "I apologise about that, Jenna. It also reminds me I've been terribly rude. Jenna, this is my partner, Hannah."

Jenna was surprised by the information, as she turned to look at the woman sitting in the room with them.

Hannah stood up and walked the short distance to stand in front of Jenna and held her hand out. "It's almost a pleasure to meet you, Jenna. After Cat told me what happened, I was very angry at you." She stated as Jenna shook her hand.

Jenna felt her face flush, the shame she carried with her flaring up as Hannah released her and sat next to Cat. "I honestly don't blame you." She replied quietly.

"I'm not here to place blame, Jenna. I'm here because I love Cat and this is important to her." The American stated softly, willing the other woman to look at her. When Jenna did look her in the eyes, she continued. "I'm also here because I was promised Wimbledon tickets." She smirked, looking over at Cat and winked.

Jenna tried to stop the smile that started to break free, but once Catie started giggling, it was no use. All three of them broke out in laughter.

"So...," Cat trailed off, after wiping her eyes, wanting to get back to the conversation, "Emily's gay?"

"I was horrible, Cat. When I found out...I called...," Jenna choked up as she thought about that night, "I called her a freak. The look on her face...she was so heartbroken. And it was me that did that!" Tears flowed down her face as she remembered.

"So she came out to you and...," Cat didn't know how she felt about what her cousin told her. It threw her off a little.

"No. I've made it known for years about how I felt, you can't be on the tour and not see it from time to time, so no...Emily didn't feel safe enough to come out to me. Why would she? When all she's ever known is a homophobic mother?" Jenna stated. "I overheard her and Katie talking about it...I was...shocked, I think."

"I'm sure you were." Cat replied, not saying anything more.

"So what happened?" Hannah asked, sitting on the edge of her seat. "What were they talking about?"

Jenna was taken aback by the American's interest, not quite sure whether to be angry, insulted or relieved that she didn't drag Catie out of the room.

"Well, it was awful, if we're being honest..,"

"I think we should be, don't you, Jennabean?" Cat asked, with a smile. "Hannah's only curious because she works with young kids and teens, helping them learn to deal with finding out who they are."

Hannah blushed at the pride that Cat had for her. "I'm a counselor, with my main focus on LGBT youth. I don't discriminate, I counsel anyone who comes through my door, but please, continue." She urged.

"Um...okay, well...like I said, it was horrible. I was horrible...I've been horrible...to my daughter, actually to all my children, to Rob...," Jenna took a moment to compose herself. "I don't think...how do I deal with this? How am I suppose to adjust, when I've been so...bigoted?" She asked, truly wanting to know. "How can I be better?"

"Jenna, just the fact that you're asking that question, shows that you want to be better, that you want to be able to handle it, don't you think?" Hannah pointed out, having been faced with mothers like her before. "Look, it's not going to happen over night, but...it sounds like you've taken the first step."

Jenna didn't respond right away, she was too deep in thought. Had she taken the first step with Emily? Was this something she wanted for her child? Just then it hit her and it hit her hard.

She had always turned everything around to be about herself! Going all the way back to what happened with Catie until now, she's always wondered how things affected her. All her life she's been selfish.

"Jenna, what's wrong?" Hannah asked, concerned by the pained expression on her face, glancing over at Cat, noticing that she too looked concerned.

"Jennabean?" Cat asked softly, trying to draw her cousin out of her head.

"This has nothing to do with me." Cat and Hannah looked at each other in confusion, as Jenna stated it so simply. "Oh my...I've never once taken in to account how Emily feels." Jenna started crying again as the weight of who she's been felt like it was crushing her. "Rob was right!"

"He was right about what?" Cat asked as she knelt in front of Jenna wrapping her up in a hug.

"He...before Eastbourne, he told me...he said I didn't know who our children were...," she sobbed out, "he was right, Catie! I don't know them at all!"

It took a few more minutes to calm Jenna down, but once she had control of herself, Hannah reached out and grasped her hands, as if she wasn't a total stranger.

"Jenna, listen to me." She commanded and waited until she had Jenna's attention. "You were raised to believe that being less than perfect was unacceptable. And that being gay was a sin, that it was a choice."

"But I didn't have to think like that, did I?" Jenna was almost bitter about it.

"But without someone around to show you any different," Hannah quickly glanced over to Cat, making sure Jenna knew who she was talking about, "it's all you knew. But you don't have keep thinking like that. It's what happens now that matters."

Cat felt it was time to step in. "Jenna, remember when you first found out about me?"

"Yes."

"You were fine when I explained that I wasn't any different. Nothing had changed, did it?" Jenna shook her head and Cat went on. "It's the same with Emily. She's still the same, isn't she? The only thing different is that now you know and you can be better."

"Is that even possible?" Jenna asked, not believing it was.

Hannah smiled at her. "I think if you just remember that she's happy and that's all that matters, then yes, it is."

Jenna sat back in her chair and gave it some thought. Emily has been happier than she'd ever seen her, but that just could be due to the fact that she's actually been seeing her youngest daughter lately, it didn't actually prove anything.

"Don't rush things, Jenna. It's going to take a bit of time for you to fully understand everything, so just...take it one day at a time, okay." Hannah told her as she gave Jenna's hands a squeeze before she let them go and sat back.

"You make it sound easy." Jenna replied.

Hannah laughed gently at her words. "It can be. Or it can be hard. Think about it, Jenna? It's what you make it out to be. You just have to remember that Emily's life really has no impact on you."

"Jenna, tell me about your kids. All of them." Cat asked wanting to veer away from the heavy subject. "We met James today."

"Oh god!" Jenna groaned, causing Cat and Hannah to laugh. "I'm so sorry about that."

"Nonsense! He was wonderful to us." Cat supplied, hoping to allay her cousin's fears.

"My son? James Fitch?"

"Yes, he was the perfect gentleman, I'll have you know." Cat insisted, laughing along with Hannah, as Jenna went on to list her sons' "achievements".

"Actually, he's been quite wonderful this week. I mean, with everything going on with Emily, and all...he's been very supportive of her." Jenna stated, feeling a mixture of pride and shame. "Okay, enough about me. I wanna hear about you...I've missed out on so much, and I want a chance to catch up."

Cat smiled at her, feeling exactly the same, and as she started telling Jenna everything, she thought again how easy it was to talk with her. Maybe now that they've put the past behind them, they could move forward, something she'd always thought about but never hoped to achieve.

She watched as Jenna made an effort to include Hannah, as her girlfriend peppered her cousin with all sorts of questions about the tour, Wimbledon so far, and all things tennis related. Cat felt a weight lift off of her chest, a weight she had never realised before, as she felt a few tears slip down her face.

For the first time in thirty years, Cat was completely happy, and she hoped with all her might that she stayed that way.

A/N: Short and sweet, I think... let me know what you think:)

Marci