It's a One-shot but I added chapters. All rights to Veronica Roth.
Couples :
Christina-Will : dating, 1 year, both 17
Shauna- Zeke : dating, 2 years, both 19
Marlene- Uriah: dating, 3 months, both 17
Chapter 1: Life as Dauntless
Last year, I cut my hand and let my blood dripping on the hot coals. Last year, I passed initiation ranking first. Now I am a dauntless member and a ambassador for Dauntless. The year was eventful, first Peter tried to kill me, twice, so he is now in jail for the rest of his life and second, Eric changed, he became nicer and he's one of my closest friend, maybe the fact he's gay changed my way of seeing him.
I'm still here, in the training room waiting for Tobias or Four to the other. He has been my bestfriend for the past year and helped me training everyday so I could be a trainer for the next initiation. He told me about his past 2 months after initiation. I can't say that sometimes I think of what my life would be if Tobias and I were dating. Stop I can't think like that, it would ruin our relationship and then it would be awkward between us and I don't want that. I hear the door open.
"Took you long enough, Four" he hates when I call him Four when we are alone.
"Eager to see me, Six ?" You can't even know...
"No, I just want to kick your ass one more time before initiation" he walks to me and hugs me like we usually do.
"What make you think you can do this ?"
"I already did it" I say grinning
"It happened once" we laugh and begin the training.
We fight and speak at the same time.
"So are you coming to Zeke's party tonight ?" he asks, trying to kick my side.
"Of course, are you ?" I reply kicking him in the stomach.
"Of course"
We finish like every time, him pinning me on the mat, both laughing. I stare in his beautiful dark blue eyes and he stares back. We stay like that, staring in each other eyes, trying to catch our breath, until we hear someone clearing his throat. Uriah.
"Why aren't you already dating ? Don't you feel the sexual tension ?"we both glare at him "Okay I leave you two alone" he turns around and walks out the door not before yelling "Kiss her" we laugh and get up.
"See you later Tris"he says hugging me
"Yeah see you later, love you Tobias"
"Love you too" my heart flutters every times he says it even if it's only friendly.
I take a needed shower and get dressed. I put on the more layers I can since we're playing Candor or Dauntless. I quickly look in the mirror than make my way to Zeke's apartment.
Chapter 2 : Candor or Dauntless ?
We sit in a circle including Zeke, Shauna, Uriah, Marlene, Christina, Will, Lynn, Eric, Tobias and me. Each girl is sitting on her boyfriend's laps so I sit on Tobias' and Lynn on Eric's, we felt awkward just sitting by ourselves. I lean in his arms and he puts his hands around me. They all look at Tobias and me, they always keep saying we should date, not that it would bother me, but I know Tobias doesn't feel the same way.
"So.." Zeke says "Let's begin... Four, Candor or Dauntless ?"
"I think I will begin with Candor" he glares at Uriah who began to say 'Pansycake' but instead shuts his mouth.
" Is it true you kissed Tris this afternoon in the training room ?" What ? Ugh...Uriah.. I look at them and they all look at us hopeful.
"What ? No, we are friends when will you understand that ?" I feel a little sad as he said it but it's true. At least I'm not the only one sad. Eric looks at us like he will cry, since he told us his secret he is more emotional.
"Eric don't tell me you're gonna cry" I tease him
"Of course not, I just have something in my eyes" he says rubbing them
"Yeah and we call that tears" Marlene says, we all laugh and Eric turns red.
"Well, Lynn"
"Dauntless"
"I dare you to propose to Max, then slap him and finally hug him saying thank you" Good one "Done" she says getting up, I wanted to see it but I prefer staying in Tobias' arms so only Eric go with her. Ten minutes later, they were laughing and they explain that Max didn't move during all the dare, he was completely shocked.
"Tris, do you love Four ?"
" I can't even chose ?"
"Nope, now spill" They were all looking at me so I decided to play a little.
" Of course I love him" Christina squeals
" I knew it"
" He is my best friend, of course I love him" her smile disappears. After 3 hours of embarassing dares and truths, we call it a night and we all head towards our apartment. Tobias insisted to come with me, since the Peter incident, he always goes with me even if there isn't any threat. He kisses my forehead before leaving. I lay down on my bed thinking of him. Is it bad to love your bestfriend like more than a friend ?
Chapter 3 : The initiates
I wake up the next morning with a smile, today the initiates come and I will work with Tobias. I quickly get dressed in a black tank top, black skinny jeans and boots. I enter the Cafeteria and I am greeted by everyone
" Hi guys"
"Someone's excited" Christina says
"Yep" I say eating one of Tobias' muffin
" Umh Tris can you tell me what you are doing ?" Tobias asks smiling
"Eating your muffin ?" I laugh so does everybody.
Christina, Uriah, Tobias and I stand at the bottom of the net, soon there are blue clothes landing in the net. I help him getting out of it.
"What's your name ?"
"Tomi"
"Make the announcement Four"
"First Jumper, Tomi"
"Welcome to Dauntless" I say. 30 minutes later, all the transfers are gathered with us, there is 7 of them.
1: Tomi, Erudite, boy
2:Pame, Candor, girl
3:Alec, Erudite, boy
4:Jamy, Erudite, girl
5:Leïla, Amity, girl
6:Nico, Candor, boy
7:Cam, Candor, boy
"So listen, I am Six and this is Four, we will be your trainer during initiation" no comments about our name, good. " We'll begin with a tour, then we'll have dinner. Questions ?" The Amity, Leïla, raises her hand.
" Why are your names number ?"
"It's the number of fears we have, but you'll understand later. Follow us." I say and turn. Tobias smiles at me and I smile back. We enter the Pit, I smirk when I see their faces.
"This is the Pit" I yell "Now, we'll show you the Chasm" We walk for 5 minutes when Tobias stops us. He stands in front of a transfer.
"In Dauntless, we respect women so you'll respect Six and stop staring at her ass." My eyebrows shoots up in surprise.
"Why, because you're doing her ?" Tobias punches him and I hear the familiar noise when bones break. I join him and take him away of that boy.
"Are you okay ?" I ask him
"Yeah, I'm sorry" he looks away
"No, I need to thank you" he smiles at me with that smile which make my knees weak.
We ended the tour with the cafeteria and dismissed the transfers for the night.
Today, we are throwing knives. Yes ! I grap two muffins for Tobias and I. I enter the training room and see Jamy and Four making out. I freeze and feel a pain in my chest. I drop the muffins and run out the door. Don't you dare cry, he is your bestfriend not your boyfriend. I stop running and someone takes my hand, I don't have to look at him to know it's Tobias, there is the electricity like every time he touches me. I finally look at him, blinking the tears away.
"Tris, are you alright ?" No
"Yes, it's just, I... I don't know, now that you have a girlfriend, we won't be so close, I'm sorry. It's stupid, I shouldn't have react like that" It hurts to say the word girlfriend but I hope he will buy my lie. His face clearly shows he doesn't.
" Who ? Jamy ? It's not what you think, she..."
" You don't have to explain"
" Of course I do, she kissed me, I was going to push her off but you came in" he hugs me
"Sorry I just thought we wouldn't be friends"
" Tris, look at me, even when I'll have a girlfriend, there's no way we won't be friends anymore." I smile at him even if his words hurt. Of course one day he'll have a girlfriend he'll love.
Chapter 4 : Anger and movie
We enter the training room and all the initiates were waiting for us. We teach them how to throw knives and Tobias explains the three stages of training. I walk behind them and correct some stances. I'm always thinking of Tobias, what will I do when he'll have a girlfriend. I help Nico, as I go away he slaps my butt, I turn around, I am about to yell at him but Tobias has already a grip on his shirt.
"I thought I warned you. What make you think you can touch her ?" Tobias whispers
"Oh come on, Four, can't you share ? And she loved that !" he says smirking and winking at me, this boy disgusts me. Tobias' fist joins Nico's head and he is unconscious. Tobias let him there and nobody helps him, scared of Tobias. I walk to him and whispers
" thank you Tobias" he smiles at me
" you don't have to thank me, I had to do it, nobody can talk to you like that" I grin at him
" thank you anyway". We dismissed the initiates and clean. Zeke burst in the room,
" Candor or dauntless round 2, tonight" and goes away. I look at the door until Tobias speaks
"Do you want to watch a movie before tonight ?"
" Sure, let me change and I'm coming over" I hug him and leave. I get dressed for tonight and head to Tobias' apartment. I knock and he opens the door, shirtless. I've seen him shirtless, more than once, but I am still mesmerized.
" Tris ?" he looks at me confused
"Yeah ? Sorry I was thinking of... something"
"Yeah, it's what I thought." we laugh and I sit on his couch. He comes back with a shirt. Damn it ! "So, what are we watching ?"
" What about Pirates of the Caribbean ?" He smiles and put the movie on. I lean in his arms while his arm rest on my shoulders. We watch the movie then go to Zeke's.
Chapter 5 : Candor or Dauntless Round 2
"Welcome, Welcome, please sit and let's the game begin" Uriah says a little tipsy.
"Alright, Christina, Candor or Dauntless ?"
"Dauntless"
"I dare you to make out with Tris" She looks at me to see if I'm okay with it. She is my bestfriend and there is no need for her to take her shirt off for that. She comes to me and straddles my lap. I cup her face in my hands and brush my lips with hers, then we kiss, the kiss become more and more heated and we pull away for breathing. I kiss her jaw, neck and ear before pecking her lips one last time. She stands up and walks to Will. His eyes are dark with lust. I smile and look at Tobias. I'm surprised to see him already looking at me with the same glimmer of lust in his eyes. I blush a little and look at my lap.
"So, Tris"
"Dauntless"
" I dare you to find Lauren and ask her if she wants to come here, and when you come back you must sit on Four's lap and kiss him." I look at Tobias to see if he is okay and he says
" At least she'll let me alone after that" I stand up and look for Lauren. I spot her in the Pit. "Lauren !" I yell
"What do you want ?"
"I wondered if you wanted to come to Zeke's and play with us ?"
"Us ? Is Four here ?" I nod
"I'm coming". The walk back his awkward, Lauren keep trying to push her breast up. We enter the room and I sit straight on Tobias' laps, facing him. I stare in his eyes and bit my lower lip. Can I do that ? Lauren tries to catch Tobias' attention " Hey Four..." is all I hear before his lips are on mine. I feel a jolt of electricity spreading in my body from my lips to my toes. I here a girl screaming and a door slamming shut, it must be Lauren but I really don't care. I pull away breathless, so does Tobias and I turn around to face the others. They are all smiling widely, oh they planned that. I glare at them and continue the game. Then Tobias dares Zeke
" I dare you to do what you talked about this afternoon" I frown then Zeke stands up in front of Shauna, she joins him, then.. he gets down on one knee. We gasp
"Shauna, I love you more than anything, I love you since the first time I saw you, will you marry me ?" She nods, unable to speak and he slides the ring on her hand. He stands up and kisses her. We congratule them and begin to play never have I ever.
Chapter 6 : Never have I ever and mistake ?
"Never have I ever throw knives at someone" Tobias and I drink, I did it to him after initiation, when he lost a bet.
"Never have I ever been engaged" Zeke and Shaune drink
"Never have I ever transfered" Tobias, Christina, Will, Eric and I drink
20 turns later, we are all pretty drunk but Tobias and I are the worst. We keep staring at each other before laughing our heads off. We all go home and Tobias comes with me, as always. We keep laughing in the hallway. At my apartment, he leans to kiss my forehead like every night, but instead he kisses my lips. I immediately kiss back and wrap my arms around his neck. I pull him into my apartment and he closes the door with his foot. I push him against the wall, never stoping to kiss him. He takes off his shirt and soon mine comes on the floor too. He turns us around so my back is against the wall and I wrap my legs around his waist and he leads us towards the bedroom, he lays me gently on the bed, still kissing me. My head is fuzzy, but I keep kissing him. Soon we are both naked and all is a blur.
I wake up the next morning with a huge headache, luckily I never puke when I am hungover. I want to get up but I realize I am naked. What happened last night ? I move and try to get up but an arm tightens his grip on my waist. Someone is in my bed and I am naked. Oh no, I didn't do it, please, tell me I didn't ! I turn around and find Tobias. Tobias ? Oh my god, what happened ? I kind of have an idea but I really hope I am wrong. I sit up, covering myself and shake him awake.
"Tobias, wake up, Tobias" he groans, his eyes still closed
" 5 more minutes Tris, and what are you doing in my apartment ?"
"Actually, it's my apartment" He opens his eyes and sits up, he looks at me and then realizes I am naked and looks away.
"Uhm Tris ? Why are you naked ? And what am I doing in your bed ?" he scratches his neck.
"Well, I have an idea but I really hope I'm wrong" he looks at me confused, I motion to the sheets which cover him and his eyes widen when he realizes he's naked too.
"Oh my god, Tris, do you think we …?" I just nod. "Oh no, what if you get pregnant, please tell me you're on birth control because I highly doubt we use protection"
"Yeah I am" and we both let out a breath.
"Listen Tris, I'm really sorry for that, I..we were drunk, I..I am going to leave" he looks around for his clothes and I spot his boxer under my thight. I hand it to him and he mumbles a thank you before he gets up and leaves.
Chapter 7 : The truth
Once, he is gone, I lay on my bed. I had sex with my best friend yesterday. Oh no ! I really hope training will not be awkward... what am I thinking ? Of course it will.
I must say I don't regret what happened, I regret the fact that I can't remember it. I stay there until I hear a knock.
" Tris, it's Christina, can I come in ?" I quickly dress up and open the door, I let her in and we sit on the couch. "Tris, what happened ? I saw Four leaving your apartment and he was totally panicked, what happened ?"
"Well..." I don't know what to say
"Tris you can tell me"
"We had sex" I whisper
"You what ?" she yells
"Shh, Christina, we were drunk yesterday after the game, he walked me home like usual but I can't remember more. I woke up this morning, naked, with somebody's arm around me. I looked at this somebody and it was Four. Christina, I had sex with my best friend, what will happened, it will be really awkward and we still need to train the initiates." I begin to panick, she hugs me
"Tris, first you need to calm down, second, it will only be awkward if you make it awkward. You need to speak about this with him. Do you like him, like more than a friend ?" I look down and nod " So tell him" she says smiling
" I can't Christina, it will get worst, we won't be friends anymore after that"
"Tris, I saw the way he looks at you, you don't see it but I can say he really likes you, more than a friend." I glance at the clock
" Damn it, I need to go to the training room, I'll tell you all tonight" she smiles and leaves. What am I going to do ? I can't say it to him. I get dressed and walk to the training room.
Chapter 8 : I just regret...
I enter and Tobias is already there. I look at him and he stares back. I look away and help him to hang the punching bags. Once we are finished, he talks,
" Please Tris, look at me, we need to talk about it" I look at him " Can we talk after training ?" he asks and I nod. The initiates come in and we begin the training, but it still feels awkward every times I think about this morning. Soon I can see that Tobias can't take it anymore and he yells " You're dismissed for the day and come tomorrow morning". The initiates get out and Tobias and I go to my apartment and sit on the couch.
"Tobias..."
"Listen, Tris, I need to tell you something so, can you let me speak ? Then you'll do what you want, okay ?" I nod. He takes a deep breath. "I love you, I love you so much, you think I say that like we usually do but no, I love you more than a friend, I am in love with you. I can't say I regret what happened because it's not true. I just regret I can't remember it.. I needed to tell you, I love you since I helped you out of that net. I tried to tell you since that day but I couldn't and wouldn't take the risk of losing you as a friend...but after yesterday, I can't hold it any longer" I can't believe it, he just said the words I always wanted to hear from him, I can feel a tear sliding down my cheek. I stare at him, did I really hear the right thing ?
"Tris, please, say something" he begs. Then, I crash my lips to his and kiss him. He kisses back and hold me closer to him. I put my hands on his cheeks and deepen the kiss. I pull away and stare in his eyes
" I love you too Tobias, since that day when you helped me out of that net, I regret as much as you the fact that I can't remember it. I love you so much" He kisses me and picks me up. He makes his way towards my bedroom and this time I remember everything.
Chapter 9 : Finally
I lay there with Tobias holding me, rubbing circle on my back.
"How do you think our friends will react when they'll know we are finally together ?" I laugh
" I don't know, I'm sure they made bets" We laugh at the thought. I look at him and kiss him.
"You don't know how long I wanted to do that" he says between kiss. I chuckle
" I think I can guess". We get up and get dressed. We enter the cafeteria together, hand in hand and our friends looks at us wide-eye with a smile on their lips.
"Wait ? Did I miss something ?" Zeke asks
"They were both completely drunk yesterday and they had sex, now they talked about it and they are together" Christina says smiling. Uriah smirks and yells
"Yes, I won, alright pay up everybody" I look at Tobias
"Told you" they all groan and give 10 points to Uriah each.
"What was the bet ?"
"I bet you'd get together within the five first day of initiation, Zeke and Christina said 5 to 10 days, Shauna, Marlene and Lynn said 10 to 15 days, Will said 15-20 and Eric said after initiation, and I won !" I sit down on Tobias' lap and kiss him while all our friends cheer.
Chapitre 10 :One year later
One year ago, I finally told Tobias my true feelings, two weeks later I moved in with him and now I am sitting in the bathroom, waiting for my three pregnancy tests to tell me if I am pregnant or not. Tobias and I talked about having kids, he said he wanted to wait but it seems it could come sooner than we want. I look down at the tests and they are all positive. I am pregnant. I smile and a tear slides on my cheek. I'll tell Tobias tonight. He said he'll take me to my favorite restaurant to celebrate our anniversary.
I get dressed and wait for tonight. At 5 p.m. Christina comes to help me getting dressed. She hands me a plain black dressed with high heels, she curls my hair and adds some make up. It's now 8 p.m. and Tobias will be here soon. I hear a knock at the door and I know it's him. I open it and here he is, as handsome as always, holding red roses in his black and white tux. He looks at me wide-eye.
"Tris you look gorgeous"
"Thanks, you're not that bad yourself" I say taking the flowers and kissing him. We enter the restaurant and eat the best meal I ever had but my mind is off. When should I tell him ? Now or when we'll go in the Chasm later like we always do after a date ? After..
"Tris ? Are you alright ?" he looks concerned, I smile
" Of course, just deep in thoughts" he smiles back
" about ?"
"you...and the future"
We make our way into the Chasm and say together
" I have something to tell you" we laugh
"you go first" I say. Then, he gets down on one knee. I gasp
"Tob.."
"Tris, I love you with all my heart, you're all I want and all I need. I want to be with you until the day I die. I want to be the one who is beside you in the morning when you wake up and at night when you fall asleep. I want to be the only one who can say ' I love you' to you. Tris Prior, will you marry me ?"
"Yes" I whisper, he mustn't have heard me because he's still looking at me expectanly. "Yes" I say louder "Yes Tobias, I'll marry you" he smiles and stands up. He kisses me before sliding the ring on my finger. We kiss until he breaks it.
"So Tris, what did you want to tell me ?" he asks smiling, I smile back and take his hands.
"Tobias, I'm pregnant" I say placing both of his hands on my stomach.
"Pregnant ? As there is our baby inside of you ?" he says with a little smile on his lips.
"Yes Tobias, you're going to be a father" he kisses me with passion, his hands still on my stomach.
" I love you Tris, you gave me the family I always wanted and you don't know how thankful I am for that ! And you don't know how much I love the baby ! Thank you, thank you so much"
"I am the one who must say thank you, I love you so much and I love the baby too"
We stay like that, kissing in the chasm, his hands on my stomach and mine on his cheeks. I still don't know how I get a man as wonderful as Tobias who love me as much as I love him, and who gave me another person to love.