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We are losing her, Gin-san! I don't know what we can do anymore…

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Okita-san, you know I wouldn't have called you, if I had any other choice…

She killed again?

On a job... And a bad guy… But still… Did he deserve to die? I can't control her anymore, not really. Strength-wise I still can restrain her but it's no use. I can't connect with her anymore. She's rebelling, like a teenager rebels against her parents.

But Danna, why me?

I don't know… You always seemed to have a connection with her.

A connection…

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AN: Okay, so here we go. This is my first Gintama fic! I'm absolutely in love with the series and finally braved myself to write this fic that has been lingering in my mind for some time already. Some parts in this fic will be quite dark, violent, and sexually explicit so I wouldn't recommend this for everyone. I have basically everything written out already, so the fic will definitely be completed. However, I can't post everything at once since I'm still polishing and rereading the chapters.

One more thing: I'm not a native English speaker, so I hope you can forgive some of my mistakes. :) I don't have a beta-reader for this fic, because it was difficult to find an active beta-reader who would be okay with the mature content in the fic. If any of you readers happens to be interested in beta-reading the fic, please contact! :)

I hope you'll enjoy!