"…I don't care! This isn't about us. She needs you and you just left! I know you can't accept that or acknowledge that you actually have feelings for her. You love her…we all know it…"

I'm bundled up in the warmest clothes I think I own and I still feel cold. I hear the male voice trying not to scream on the phone and realize that its hottie cousin. He must have be in District 4 to see Annie and Mason. He must have been the one to carry me inside. I force my eyes open and am comforted by the glow and warmth of the fire.

"Katniss, I swear I will come drag you…" the voice gets lower and I realize Annie must have told Gale to keep it down for Mason, and me. "You better," he snaps as he slams the phone back down.

"Gale, sweetie, you can't force her…she thinks she owes Peeta a chance."

"Annie, I know, trust me out of everyone I get it. But if all I was getting was pity while she was in love with someone else…I couldn't do it. Especially when there's someone I love."

The conversation gets quiet and I'm jealous. After all the trials and tribulations they've been through they found each other. He makes her smile and laugh, something very few people are capable of. She makes him softer and a better person. I let my eyes close and doze off imagining her wrapped around my body, protecting me in her strong, lean arms.

My senses are on overload. I can make out a faint scent of coal dust and my body starts to stir. As I start to move I realize that I'm wrapped up in someone's arms, very tightly. My eyes jolt open and I can't believe anything. She's here, holding me, like it was all a nightmare or something. I feel a chill as I hear the faint drops of the rain shower on the roof. It's all too real; she left me for him.

I start thrashing around trying to disengage her from around my body. I don't want her because she pities me.

"What? Jo…" she mutters and pulls herself closer "love."

I can't take it and I use all the force in my body to throw her off my bed.

"The fuck?!" she so eloquently reacts while rubbing her head.

I didn't mean to hurt her but I couldn't breathe. I start laughing and this pisses her off even more.

She just looks at me, rolling her eyes. "S'not funny," she tries to tell me upset but a tiny smile breaks.

"Oh I was only laughing because when we first met you would have never used such language, Everdeen. It's just nice to see I had some influence on you," I say as I lower my eyes. I start to feel her gaze and drop my head further.

"Johanna, Jo, if you think that's the only influence you've had on me then you're crazy."

I look up, eyebrows raised, "Um, I am, remember?"

She just laughs and I can't help but join in. I roll out of the bed and offer my hand to help her back up. Before I know it I'm being pulled down to the ground with her. My breath hitches in my throat when our lips are merely centimeters apart. Our breath is mingled together and I want to be mad at her and pull away. I have to keep reminding myself that she left when things got hard.

Before I can reason with myself enough my shy Katniss fills the distance and her lips are on mine. I missed this, this connection with her. The kiss starts out slow and sensual, just trying to explore each other's mouths again. She pulls me on top of her, her hands running through my short hair.

"I like it," she tells me in between kisses "it really suits you."

Her lips are back on mine before I can even respond, her tongue trying to reason with my lips for entrance. I part them and am ambushed by her strong yet gentle tongue. She is everywhere all at once in my mouth like she's trying to learn every inch of it again. I give her enough time to finish exploring and softly introduce my tongue into the mix. She softly moans and I bring her tongue into her mouth with mine.

It seems like only seconds, hours, and days all at once when we finally pull apart. Her hands are on my back, pushing me into her body while one of my hands is grabbing her hair and the other pinned on the floor next to her. She's breathing heavy just as I am. Her face is flushed and her pupils are dilated; I can only imagine that I am a mirror image of her. I take my hand from her hair and lightly stroke her cheek. She closes her eyes and sighs.

"I missed this, us," she whispers.

That's all it takes to snap me back to reality. "You left!" I spit at her.

Her gaze loses focus and she can't look at me. "Jo, I know…I, I got scared. You of all people should understand being scared."

I shake my head. Sure I don't do love or feelings but I have my reasons. She knows them all too and can even relate now that Prim is gone but it's still not an excuse.

"Katniss," I sigh "You left, after everything you just left. You wrote a few words on a piece of paper and snuck off in the middle of the night. That's all I'm worth?" I look at her, tears building up.

"I, I owed it to him. He was always there and he's getting better. I need…"

"Stop! Just stop it Katniss! I don't need to hear how you and bread boy made up and he's on his merry way to recovery. Some of us are still broken, you included."

I push myself off of her and sit with my back against the wall. "Did you sleep with him?" I whisper not having the courage to bring my eyes to meet hers.

I feel like we sit in silence for an eternity before she lets out a barely audible yes.

"Fuck you!" I'm shaking from anger and hurt. "You sleep with him, realize it's not going to work and just show up here like we are fine?!"

She nods, looking so broken. I cannot feel bad for her right now though. I put my head in my hands and start shaking more. "My name is Johanna Mason. My, my name is Johanna Mason…"

Katniss starts screaming and tries to focus on her name. "My name is Katniss Everdeen…"

The door swings open and Gale takes in the scene playing out before him. "God you two can't ever make things easy can you?" He meets my gaze and I see the understanding. She did the same thing to him, with me and Peeta. He helps me up and before I know it Annie is bringing me to her room.

"Catnip, what have you done?" I hear Gale ask before Annie closes her door and I absolutely lose it.