O lord, what have I done?

Chapter 1

Kate's POV

My dad made it a point to let us know from a very early age that we should trust in god and he will show us the way that everything happens for a reason. Being 17 and brought up in a religious family wasn't always easy.

My brother, Scott, was adopted he seemed to fit in with the family as we sat down at the table eating out breakfast we thanked the lord for we heard a truck break at the front.

"What in the world?"

My mum, Jennifer, walked to the front window smoothing out her pale dress with little flowers on "o honey, the neighbours have come"

Last month Mr and Mrs Peters moved out of that house when their son, Austin, moved away to the big city a choice they were not at all happy with.

"Can you see who's there mum?" Scott went to join her peaking through the blinds while my dad and I rolled our eyes at the pair. It was often said even though Scott was born into another family him and mum were like two peas in a pod

"I think I saw a man go inside the house but the woman there is just helping the driver" she walked away from the window and sat back at the table "We'll have to have them over one night Jacob, let them know we welcome them"

"Yes dear" he smiled softly at momma before finishing his meal

Momma waited two days for the neighbours to emerge but no sign

"Maybe there just uneasy, we don't know where they lived before, perhaps they had bad neighbours?" momma was currently baking a apple pie one of her many specialties in the kitchen.

"Maybe sweetheart" dad kissed momma on the head before setting down his bible "or maybe they need to get everything sorted in their home, it seemed like a lot of stuff they had to go through"

"Then we'll help" momma set the pie down in the oven and wiped her hands on the dishtowel "after the pie is done we'll go over"

Joy!

Knocking on the door with a chirpy rhythm my mother stood there, proudly with the pie in hand, my dad standing next to her with a proud smile on his face. Scott looked around the house no doubt finding the faults I just wanted to go back home

When the door opened a woman with jet black hair, light green eyes and flawless skin smiled at us

"Can I help you?" she spoke

"We're your neighbours and we're just wondering if you needed help settling in?"

The woman looked slightly confused before opening the door wider

"Sure, come in my husband is in the lounge"

"Thank you kindly" my dad tipped his hat at her and we made our way in.

The house was quite plain, no pictures on the walls no flower vase on the side not even the smell of…well anything but the fresh paint smell from the walls.

When we stepped into the living room I held in a surprised gasp as the man stood up and looked at us sceptically he was…handsome.

No handsome wasn't the word he was…god I didn't even know how to describe him. With his pouty lips and dark short hair he was a god in his own right. Ducking my head when he looked at me I tried to hide my blush

"My name is Vanessa and this is my husband Seth"

Seth, so the Greek god had a name, lifting my head Seth shook hands with my dad

"Pleasure to meet you, my name is Jacob Fuller, my wife Jennifer"

"Do you want a drink" Seth looked awkward like he wasn't used to this, his voice was smooth like honey.

"No thank you we just stopped by to see if you needed a hand"

We all heard a bump upstairs and Vanessa sighed with a agitated eye roll

"Sorry my brother-in-law Richie is upstairs"

Rubbing his neck Seth looked at me I smiled politely while my heart seemed to want to pop out from my chest he smiled awkwardly back and I think I may have made a girly silent squeal in delight.

"How are you fixed for dinner tomorrow?" dad wrapped his arm around mommas shoulder

"Nothing planned" Vanessa gave him a smile

"Please join us"

Seth was about to say something but Vanessa cut him short

"We'd love to"

After a few short pleasantries me and my family left

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Matthew 5:28

But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart

I sighed and put my bible away as I lay down one the and tried to get rid of the lustful thoughts I had about my neighbor. Tomorrow we would welcome them into our home and I had no idea how to act. I wasn't a very good at pretending I was terrified I would look at him a certain way or say something to implicate my true feelings for him. My momma and dad would be ashamed their daughter was having lustful thoughts about an older man, an older married man.

Trying to forget my thoughts I turned my lamp off and curled up in bed letting the covers rest comfortable over my tense body.

The next morning I was sweating from a rather vivid dream. Seth and I were in my bed and he was doing things to me I didn't even think existed.

"Katie-cakes you'll be late for school"

Slightly confused by my mommas words I remembered it was Monday with a groan I quickly got in the shower.

When my friend Ann and Brianna came Seth stepped out of his house and the gawked at him. Ann and Brianna went to the same Catholic school as me but I knew they were a lot more sexually active than I was. I used to think it was wrong, having sex before marriage, but at this moment when I saw Seth bend to pick the paper up from the pavement and his shirt lifted up ever so slightly seeing he had a tattoo on the side of his neck I didn't see last night my thighs clenched together and I bit my lip from moaning he waved at me and I waved back before grabbing my friends arms and quickly walking down the street

"O my goodness" Brianna fanned herself and trust me it was only 20 degrees it wasn't that hot

"I would be taking a lot more showers if I lived next to that" Ann giggled and Brianna joined in I looked at them not understanding what they meant. Ann caught my looked and rolled her eyes

"O come on Kate, you've never pleasured yourself"

I blanched and blushed masturbation was a sin

"No"

Brianna sighed "It's amazing, when you haven't got someone there to pleasure you, which you haven't I know, just try it I know you'll feel a lot better"

Hearing them giggle I was lost in thought as we walked into school.

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I played with my food at dinner while everyone chatted happily apart from Seth who was sitting next to me

"So where's your brother" I asked him, a little proud of myself I managed to sound normal but when he looked at me my heart began to beat faster

"Richie isn't really a people person" he took a sip of his beer "so you go to high school or something?"

I nodded "Catholic school, until I'm 19"

He frowned "I thought you only went to school now until you were 16?"

I shook my head "you can but my dad insisted this school was a better education, my brother I go there"

He nodded before going back to eating

I couldn't help but look to see how his jaw moved and I clenched my thighs together, how is it even possible for me to lust after him while he eats.

The rest of dinner was uneventful and when I went to bed I debated weather or not to take my friends advice. The ache between my legs was growing and I couldn't get rid of it no matter how much I prayed. I covered myself with the covers and started slow touching my breast through the fabric of my top I closed my eyes and imagined it was Seth hovering over me a coy smile playing on his pouty, smooth lips. He bent down, moving the top of the fabric away and started to suck on my breasts.

I moaned quietly as I tugged on my nipples which were now out from my top. I removed the top completely and felt so much better. Yet the fabric of my bedding felt sensitive to touch. My hips started to move involuntary and I placed my free hand inside my shorts and touched the part I knew to be the clit. My back arched off the bed and my breathing began to quicken.

'Seth's hands' began to move down my body toying with me

"Please" I whispered

I imagined he gave me a smile before his hands started to tug my nipples harder almost painfully but the pain felt good, new and exciting. 'His' other hand which was down my shorts began to quicken his pace and a unfamiliar feeling took over me like when you pull a elastic band and you know at any moment it's going to snap.

"O Seth"

I imagined his labored breath, his lustful eyes watching me intently

"Cum for me Kate"

The elastic band snapped and I came hard. My hand slowing in my shorts, the hand which playing with my breast dropped to the side completely limp. My breathing was irregular and a small smile played on my lips

Why had I not done that before?

Before I went to sleep I imagined Seth leaning over and kissing my lips.