Chapter 5

Complicated

'My God, Nattie... what have you done, girl?' the Canadian Diva whispered to herself, staring at her reflection in the bathroom mirror.

She hardly could believe it... she had never, ever thought she would do this in her entire life... sleeping with another man while she was married. Yes, that was right. Last night, in a fit of burning passion, she had slept with Cesaro. He had given her everything she had missed so much during the past weeks; comfort, understanding and most of all, romance. Her best friend was in fact a passionate lover in disguise. Everything he did to her in that bed last night felt so good, she couldn't get enough from him. The Swiss made her feel like a woman, she hadn't felt like that in ages. How many times did she call out his name? Countless times, perhaps. Tyson hadn't entered her mind not one time, she had completely forgotten about him. After that one special moment, they cuddled up together and enjoyed the peaceful, relaxing aftermath. Natalya had rested her head on Cesaro's chest while he had wrapped his strong arms around her; she felt so happy then, she couldn't describe it in any other words. Resting her body against his, they both fell asleep, ending that wonderful night...

But the next morning, guilt crashed onto Natalya like an avalanche.

She had cheated on Tyson with Cesaro... When she realized that, she immediately sat up in bed, her eyes widened with horror. Oh God, oh God, oh God, what had she done?! Tyson was her husband, this was so wrong! Yes, he had been trading those perverted texts with Nikki, but... this made her just as bad as he was, maybe even worse! Natalya thought she was going to scream, but she controlled herself. She didn't think of Tyson for one time when Cesaro gave her what she needed so badly, God, she was so ashamed of that. He had hurt her so much last night, but still... she loved him. He was the only man for her, the only man she wanted. The Canadian Diva was so blinded by the passion, she had forgotten all about him... It was so hard not to freak out. Looking next to her, she saw that Cesaro was still asleep. Trying her best not to wake him up, Natalya had snuck out of the bed and got into the bathroom, where she put on a bathrobe the hotel would provide to their guests. Staring at herself in the mirror, she still couldn't believe what she had done. God, she felt like crying at this point...

Natalya was hurt so badly by Tyson and yet her feelings for him hadn't died. She still loved him, with all her heart. There was no way she was going to give up on her marriage, not even because of this. She still had hope, things would get better, she was convinced of that. The Canadian Diva was willing to forgive him for what he did, he meant the world to her.

How was she going to tell this Cesaro without hurting him...?

A knock on the door made Natalya snap out of her thoughts.

'Natalya? Are you in there?' Cesaro asked on the other side of the door.

'Um, yes! Just a minute!' she replied.

The Canadian Diva took a deep breath and slowly breathed out. Just stay calm, and everything would be alright... She had to tell it to him, she hoped she wouldn't hurt him too much with this. Cesaro made her feel good, he gave her what she needed, but what she had done... it was unforgivable. But she hoped Cesaro would at least understand. But cheating on Tyson wasn't the only thing Natalya was feeling horrible about; there might be a chance her friendship with Cesaro may be forever ruined all because of this...

Turning around, Natalya opened the bathroom door. Cesaro was standing right in front of her, smiling when he saw the Canadian Diva.

'Gutten morgen.' the Swiss said. There wasn't a single time where Natalya wasn't beautiful; even when she was wearing a simple bathrobe, she had the beauty of a goddess. Last night had to be, without a doubt, the best night of Cesaro's life. Being able to give her so much pleasure and take away her pain was such an honor to him, you couldn't even imagine. Only in his wildest dreams, he thought he would be able to do this, but last night, his deepest desires had become reality. He touched her on the most intimate places, made her emit sweet sounds of pleasure and got her craving for more. The most magical moment had to be when they cuddled up together after they reached their highest point; Natalya had rested her body close against Cesaro's while he ran his fingers through her long blonde hair and gently kissed her forehead. He wished that moment would've gone on forever and ever...

But right now, the Swiss felt like there was something wrong with the Canadian Diva, just by looking at her face. It had something sad... but why?

'Is there something wrong, Nattie?'

Natalya sighed. This was going to be so hard.

'I'm sorry Cesaro, but... I can't help but feel guilty.'

'Guilty? What do you mean?' Why? What was going on here? Cesaro's smile disappeared and slightly frowned. Last night she was possibly the happiest woman alive and now she was on the verge of tears.

'I... I have cheated on Tyson! I can't believe I did that!'

'Natalya, listen to me now.' Cesaro couldn't believe what he was hearing. This was ridiculous! Tyson had hurt her in the worst way possible and yet she was the one who felt guilty?! 'There is no reason for you to be ashamed! Tyson is the one who should be, not you. Why do you feel so guilty if he is the one who hurt you?'

'Don't you get it, Cesaro? Cheating on Tyson with you makes me just as bad as he is!' Natalya let out a stressed sigh. 'I know, I was so mad and heartbroken last night... and yet, I still love him.'

'How? How can you still love him after what he had done?'

'Because I don't want to give up on our marriage.' Natalya stared at the floor in shame. Damn, Cesaro must be so pissed off right now. What was he thinking of her right now? That she had used him last night? That thought made her feel even more miserable. She convinced their friendship would come to a bitter end now, and it would be all because of her... God, she was such a wretched human being.

'Yes, I know... it sounds so crazy, but even after that, I still want to grow old with Tyson.' the Canadian Diva mumbled. 'I'm so sorry, Cesaro... I must have upset you so much with this.'

'I'm not upset, Natalya.' To be honest, the Swiss had no idea what to feel. Should he feel angry? Sad? He didn't feel neither one of them. Surprisingly, he sort of felt calm, as if he accepted this. One way or another, Cesaro had to accept this. He knew from the beginning, when he just had developed feelings for Natalya, that she would never be truly his. Natalya was a strong woman, perhaps a little bit too strong. No matter how difficult Tyson could make their marriage sometimes, she still found the will to continue their relationship. He remembered the talk they had at the gym. Tyson and Natalya had been together for so many years, they went through so much together and somehow, after every time Tyson screwed up, Natalya grew more attached to him. Did she really love him that damn much? It was pointless to argue about this with her, she would stand her ground and go back to Tyson either way. And the fact that she was willing to continue their marriage after everything he had done... it only proved she truly cared about him. Tyson was the only man in her life, the only man she ever loved.

Cesaro had no choice.

He had to accept it.

But, however, there was still some kind of hope. Time. Natalya needed the right amount of time to see how much of a worthless husband Tyson actually was. Cesaro couldn't convince her with words, but it would just be a matter of time before she would see the harsh truth. Hopefully then, her eyes would be opened. Cesaro just had to patient. Would he fall in love with another woman while he would wait for Natalya to see the truth about that failure of a marriage? No, not ever. Natalya was the only woman he would love; no other woman made him feel like she did.

Cesaro shook his head. 'I just find it hard to understand why you would return to him. But... if it's really what you want, what you makes you happy, then I won't stop you. I respect your choice. But I want you to remember, Nattie...' He put his hands on her shoulders, making the Canadian Diva look up. She noticed that even now, his brown eyes were warm, despite what she just told him. 'If he ever dares to hurt you again, you come to me, alright? This will change nothing between us, you don't have to be afraid of that. I will still help you if you ever feel miserable again.'

Natalya sighed in relief and smiled. Thank God, their friendship wasn't over. He would still be there for her when she needed him the most. But there was just one thing she needed to ask him about...

'About what we did... can we keep it a secret?' the Canadian Diva asked.

Cesaro nodded. 'Of course. It's safe with me, you can trust me on that.' Of course he wasn't planning to tell anyone, not even his closest pals, about what he and Natalya had done that night. The Swiss was pretty sure it would leak out one way or another; if it would reach Tyson, the consequences would be beyond catastrophic.

'Thank you, Cesaro.' Natalya wrapped her arms around his waist and pulled him in for a hug. Resting her head on his chest, she sighed and closed her eyes. 'I... I really want to thank you for what you have done for me. I'll never forget it, honestly.'

'Me neither, Nattie...' Cesaro held her close against him, gently stroking her hair. Holding her in his arms was such a bliss. Yes, he was willing to give her time. He would wait for her, his love for her would never die. He didn't care whether he had to wait a thousand years for her, as long as she would see what Tyson really was. He'd better treat her right; after all, he was blessed with the greatest woman on Earth. Tyson was already lucky enough she was able to forgive him for what he did, but Cesaro swore to God, if he ever dared to do anything like that again, the Swiss would be the one harming him.

He kissed Natalya on the forehead.

'Me neither.'

And that my friends, was 'Queen Of My Heart'! After seeing Cesaro and Natalya nearly touching hands during the last Smackdown, I decided to take a little break from 'The Golden Cross And The Golden Heart' and write this fanfic. Thank you all so much for reading and reviewing it and who knows... maybe I might write a sequel! ;D See you next time!