Wow, it has been awhile hasn't it? I'm really super sorry that I took so long! But well, school has been really busy for me. :P Hopefully now that summer vacation is right behind the corner, I will have more time to write.

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Kaoru's POV

"I can't wait, it's so exciting. It has been like forever since we were at the mountains the last time," Hikaru exclaimed as he flopped down on our bed after our return from school. Our staff was so kind to pack our things, during our time at school so all was set up for an unforgettable vacation.

"Do you think, Haruhi even knows how to ski?" I asked as I nibbled on a pocky. If you are surrounded by pure silence with the occasional chuckle from your brother, you come up with a lot of interesting questions. I saw Hikaru sit up and actually sit there for a second probably thinking if Haruhi ever mentioned anything about the ability to ski.

"Umm... I don't know. Though she wouldn't have agreed in the first place, if she didn't, right?"

"Ugh... well, I might have told her that there will be a lot of fancy tuna, so... She probably wouldn't have declined either way, so, I don't really know, Hika," I said, a nervous cough escaping my lips. I think that would quite the problem, since I and Hikaru normally spend all day skiing. We rarely go back, most of the time only for food, but that's about it.

"No problem! If she doesn't know, I'll just teach her!" Hikaru said enthusiastically. Yeah, sure, as if you would be able to. It's not like I doubted Hikaru's skiing skills, just I don't think he would be composed enough to actually calmly explain to her what she has to do and what she mustn't do. Aw, fuck it, we'll worry about that tomorrow after we ask her about it. Why concerning ourselves with a problem, which hasn't even occurred yet?

"Let's just drop it, it was a stupid question anyways," I dismissed the manner and took off to the bathroom for a shower. I don't know, but talking with Hikaru about Haruhi always exhaust me to an extent, it's hard to actually not to break into a raging fit or tears, depends on the situation. But the funny thing is that it's always me who starts the conversation, which involves our brunette friend.

I turned the shower on and just let the water cover my body in warmth. It relaxed my muscles and my senses were nicely stimulated as I felt the hot steam fill the room. A warm and really long shower always kind of washes all the worries for a moment away. Though... I'm well aware why I keep initiating these painful conversations. I want to know how much developed his feelings are.

I want to know to what an extent I have already lost my brother.

"You know that lately you take incredibly long to shower?" I suddenly heard a familiar voice as the glass door to the shower swung open and my brother revealed himself. Completely naked. I gasped in shocked and almost stumbled backwards. He just grinned widely at me and closed the door behind himself.

"H-Hikaru! What the hell? Get out, I want to wash myself in peace!" I yelled at him, looking anywhere but at him. If I were to get excited right now, it would bring up a lot of questions. Questions I'm definitely not ready to answer to him.

"Come on, don't be such a drama queen. We always used to take showers together," Hikaru said, pocking me with his elbow. I jumped in surprise at the sudden contact and immediately jumped a few inches from my twin. What in the actual hell? Why did he now decided to tag into the shower with me, when I wanted some alone time to think properly.

I don't know why, but I always told myself that I would just sit down, take my time and just go through my thoughts. And surprisingly I never get so far. I'm always so busy and then I realize it a few weeks later that I haven't really sorted anything out, at all! Really, what a pain in the neck.

"Man today of all days you decide to take a shower with me?"

"Well, you did take long and I want to go to sleep, so why not shower together? We're brothers and it's not like we have anything the other doesn't," He replied as he grabbed the bottle of soap and poured some on his hand to start washing himself up. I rolled my eyes and well, I didn't really think I would be able to actually shower properly like this.

"Hurry up, Kaoru. Don't stand there like a tree! Or should I wash you myself?" He teased throwing the soap bottle at me. I chuckled a little and then actually started to wash myself as well. I just avoided looking at Hikaru as much as I could and then my private parts wouldn't get excited. It seemed like it worked just fine, so perhaps this wasn't so bad after all. I mean, yeah, I felt more or less pretty uncomfortable, but I must admit it was kind of nice to be so close to my brother again after so long.

"So I hope you're excited, since we'll have a ton of fun in the mountains!" Hikaru said as he snuggled to my freshly smelling body. I yelped out in surprise but confirmed that I was excited too. After that I felt my brother's breathing slow down and soon I could hear his light snoring. I sighed and freed myself from his grip. I looked at this peaceful facial expression and cursed myself yet again for my affectionate feelings towards my brother.

I didn't know what to do anymore. This was seriously no way to continue my relationship with my twin and life. Should I tell him? Should I risk making him hating me? Starting to avoiding me? I was confused, it gave me a heavy headache. Maybe some sleeping pills would make my dreams a little calmer.

I carefully opened the wooden door and strode down the hall into our nursing room. Yep, we actually had a room reserved for doctors and meds in our house. Luckily the doctor and nurse went home for the day, since they had an anniversary or something. Normally, they would have to be here all night in case something would bother us like that headache of mine right now. I opened the big cupboard and started to go through the shelves in hopes to find something with instructions on it, since these Latin names don't really tell me much.

Finally I found what I was desperately looking for. It had an odd name printed on it, but under it, it was written that these were indeed sleeping pills my body so desperately needed. I opened the little plastic bottle and popped two of them in my mouth and drank them down with water. I sighed once again and muttered how it had come so far that I needed medicaments to help me sleep.

I strolled back into my and Hika's room and lay down, waiting patiently for the pills to kick in. After a while I felt my body relax and my eyelids getting heavier. All right, let's get some sleep done!

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"Kaoru! Damn it, wake up! How long do you intend to sleep?" I heard a rampaging voice in the distance. Sounds like Hikaru. I cringed a little and forcefully opened my eyes to see that the sun rays already entered our windows. So, I guess, it's morning then.

"Kaoru! I'm serious. Get your lazy ass out of bed, the car already waits outside and so does Haruhi at her place. I promised we would be there in ten," Hikaru yelled again, ripping the blanket from my body, making me shiver at the sudden loss of warmth my blanket provided.

"Sorry, I couldn't really sleep yesterday, so I doze off pretty late," I said, leaving out the pill part on purpose. I rubbed my eyes to clear my view and sat up, yawning. Wow, these sleeping pills really do make a difference. Maybe I should take them to the ski trip too. I saw Hikaru already dressed, so I went through my closet and searched for my prepared clothes as well. Our staff was so kind and prepared our things probably at the break of dawn and I saw through the window that they already put them into the car along with our skies.

"Now let's go skiing!"

I smiled at my brother's happiness. I hope, after our trip he will stay permanently happy. I had five days. Five days to make Haruhi fall for my brother. I could do it, I was convinced that I could. With the right motivation I was sure it would work out. Though, I can't deny that perhaps this isn't Hika's love story after all. Haruhi and Tono seem to a quite special bond there, but as long as Tono stays dense, I can make this work out. Well, I guess, the true reason for concern is Kyoya-senpai. I never worried about it before, but I guess Kyoya-senpai could actually come in my way. Whenever for Tono's sake or himself, he will probably interfere somehow.

Man, I'm getting way too paranoid. What am I? It's fine, everything will be as it should be. This was the only reality I was willing to accept.

"Haruhi, come on! We won't wait forever!" Hikaru yelled as he waved from the car window to our friend. Was I seriously so long it thought?

"Hey, you said you would be here in ten, I waited 20 minutes, Hikaru."

"Heh, sorry about that, honestly. Just get in so we can all relax and enjoy our winter break," He said, opening the door to let her in. She hoped in and now we would have to drive four whole hours before getting to our ski resort. I plugged my headphones in and decided that a nap was exactly what I needed, not to mention the fact that I didn't want to hear nor see the interaction between my twin and Haruhi.

Sleep, Kaoru, and forget everything. At least for now.

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A/NWell, believe it or not, this was 1,5K words. I don't know how, but somehow I always manage to prolong the plot without intending to. I apologize if it's getting boring, but any quicker, I would feel that the story is being rushed. See ya next time!