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Three Months Later
Knock! Knock!
I stand in front of the door; hands shoved in my pockets. I'm a bit nervous, but I take a deep breath. Moments later, the door swings open. It's Fang.
She wears a surprised expression.
"Holy shit, you're back from the dead"
I smile.
"Yeah, out here living Hell on Earth. Can I come in?"
She moves out the way and I enter her apartment. It smells like weed and incense, which doesn't surprise me. I walk over to the living room and see two empty wine glasses on the table.
"You have company?" I ask.
"Yeah. Claire"
I turn to her, eyes wide. She can't help but laugh.
"I know, I know"
"Can she hear…?"
"Oh, she's in the shower"
I nod.
"So, when did that happen?"
Fang walks over to the couch and sits down.
"About two months ago. We met up for a drink, and then we stumbled back here, where she went down on me for hours. Hence the beginning of our newly found romance!"
I chuckle as I sit next to her.
"Well hopefully she actually got you off before leaving your apartment in a rush" I tell her.
"Ah, just going straight towards the elephant in the room, aren't ya?" she teases.
"Eh, I suck at these. I thought I just get it out the way"
"Suck at what? Making girls come or coming yourself?"
"Alright, fuck off!"
She laughs as she falls back on the couch, playfully kicking my side.
"Sorry, I'm a little drunk" she confesses.
I smile.
"What I suck at is apologizing" I finally tell her.
She just lays there; ears perked up. I continue.
"I didn't mean to make you feel bad or confused or anything like that. I was going through something shitty and I felt like I was dragging you down with me in a way. So, I'm sorry for doing that…"
She just keeps lying there, smiling.
"… And I'm sorry I didn't at least get you off, so the confusion wasn't even worth it"
She starts laughing.
"Well, at least I don't have to worry about you stealing her" says a voice from behind me.
Fang and I turn around and see Claire standing behind the couch, wrapped in nothing but a towel, hair still dripping wet.
Fang smiles and sits up.
"Only you can get me off love" she tells her.
Claire starts walking towards us.
"Damn right!" They two embrace in a kiss.
Fuck, this is awkward. How long has she been standing there? And why is she so chill?
Claire comes around the couch and extends her hand to me.
"You must be Roxas"
I take it and nod.
"You must be Claire"
She nods.
"You try to fuck my woman again and I'll cut your dick off" she sternly says.
My heart drops. Holy shit, she's crazy.
Suddenly, the two burst out laughing. Okay, I know I smoked a bowl before I got here, but I have no idea what's going on.
Fang slaps Claire's ass.
"Stop fucking with my guest" she tells her.
Claire reaches for the joint and lighter on the table.
"It's so fun though"
She grabs it and walks towards the patio.
"I'll leave you two to talk. Nice to meet you Roxas!"
"Y-You too"
She enters the patio and closes the sliding door.
"I can see why you two are a good match" I tell.
"Sorry for that" she apologizes.
I shake my head.
"It's crazy you know. After our talk last time, I was starting to think if it really would be stupid if I took her back. I ended up just saying "fuck it", and trying it out"
"And did you feel like you were betraying yourself?" I ask.
"Not at all. If anything, I feel less cynical"
"I think that's the sign of love" I tease.
"Oh, fuck off!"
I can't help but laugh whenever she gets upset. It's been three months, and nothing's changed between us. I guess that's a good sign.
"So, we're good?" I ask.
"No. We're far from good. Come on Roxas, I invited you into my apartment"
"Oh, how I missed your sassy-ness"
"I smell sarcasm" she says and she leans down for her glass of wine. "So, how's your love life these days? You still convinced you're the universe's punching bag?"
"Well, I have been seeing someone"
"As in sleeping with someone, or actually…"
"As in seeing someone. Like, a committed relationship"
Her mouth drops.
"Now that is truly shocking. You in an actual committed relationship. Now, who is this mystery person you're seeing?"
She just loves to give me shit, I swear.
"Namine"
Her eyes widen. It's like her whole demeanor changes.
"Well, I say the Universe punched you around long enough. How's it been going?"
"It's been amazing! I've honestly loved every minute of it. It's like, it feels so natural being around her"
"That's good. I'm honestly glad you two finally found your way to each other" she tells me.
"Me too"
"Now, my immature self needs to ask a very serious, appropriate question" she starts.
Oh shit, here we go with the shit giving again.
"How's the sex?'
"Oh dude, best sex I've ever had! We've honestly haven't stopped"
"Like bunnies?"
I nod.
"I swear when we first did it, we didn't leave my room for a whole weekend. And she's usually quiet, but she wants to do it everywhere"
"That's exactly how it is with Claire. She fucked me in the coffee shop once" she tells me.
"I ate Namine out in that same shop!"
"Nice!"
We both high five.
"That coffee definitely does something" she says.
We catch up a bit more about school and work and what else I've been up to. I told her all about how Namine and I explored most of Traverse Town and got to learn about the city. I told her how I got a job at Pence's Photography Company and that I'll be working there for the summer. She thought it was cool that I actually found something I'm interested in.
She started telling me about how her and Claire are gonna start traveling, and that they might be stopping by Twilight Town, and how it would be cool if we all got to meet up. She also said she's gonna start looking for a career that isn't serving drinks.
We both got up and head for her door.
"So when are you leaving?" she asks.
"In a few days. School is all up so it's just gonna be some partying from here on out"
"Sounds like fun. Well, if I don't see you again…" she pulls me into a deep hug.
"Well wouldn't you like that?"
"Oh, most definitely" she laughs.
We pull apart. She suddenly realizes something.
"Oh wait! I forgot something"
She rushes over to her book shelf, grabs one, then runs back to me. She holds up "Spirituality: A World in All of Us". This is the book she wanted me to borrow.
"Here" she hands it over.
"Thanks, but I don't think I'll be able to finish it before I leave"
"Keep it"
I look up at her.
"Really?"
"Absolutely… that, or I'll steal it back when Claire and I visit you in Twilight Town"
I chuckle.
"Okay. I'll take it. Thanks" I tell her
"Anytime, love"
=0=
After Fang's, I make my way back over to the First District, hand shoved down in my pocket with the book in my other hand. I look around, taking in everything going on. The people walking down the street, talking and smiling amongst themselves; the cats relaxing by the corner store, the wind chimes going off outside a nearby shop. It's like I'm finally taking a notice of my surroundings. Like I'm not as trapped in my head like I used to be.
I cut down the corner and see the small café by Cid's Accessory shop. As I get closer, the cute petite blonde comes into view. Namine is sitting at our usual table outside, reading a book with two cups of coffee.
She looks up and smiles as I walk up to the table.
"About time you showed. I thought I was gonna have to drink both our cups" she tells me.
"You'd love that wouldn't you?"
I give her a kiss and sit next to her, grabbing my cup.
"Did you two finally make up?" she asks.
I take a sip.
"Everything's all good"
"Told you all that worrying was for nothing"
She takes a notice in the book Fang lent me.
"You read?" she teases.
"Occasionally"
She grabs it.
"I never took you for a spiritual person"
"It's a fairly recent interest"
She observes it a little before putting it back down.
"You always seem to surprise me" she tells me.
"Gotta keep you on your toes"
"Is that the plan?" she giggles.
I nod as I lean in and slowly kiss her. God, I love how I can just do that now!
I pull away.
"How else will I keep our summer interesting?" I ask.
She smiles softly, looking down at her coffee. She takes another sip.
"What time does the party start?" she asks.
I look at my phone.
"About two hours. Wanna head back soon?"
She nods.
She takes another sip as I wrap my arm around her. She leans in, resting her head on my shoulder. I don't know why, I just get the feeling something is off with her. But it could just be me. Right now I just wanna enjoy the fact that I can be like this with her.
=0=
"Party on Fifth Ave" by Mac Miller blasts outside the hallway as I take a long bong rip.
Inhale.
I hold it for a moment as the whole crew stare me down. I motion Namine to lean in and she does. We lock lips.
Exhale.
I shotgun the smoke into her. She starts to cough a bit.
"Damn, that was hot" Lulu comments.
Wakka chuckles at her joke.
Namine, Tidus, Wakka, Lulu, Kairi, Sora, and I are all sitting in my dorm room, passing around the bong. I pass it over to Tidus.
When they found out about Namine and I dating, it wasn't that big of a surprise to them. I mean, she got off the fucking bus to fix our friendship. If anything, they were happy it finally happened. Even Kairi. She actually told me how Namine and I made sense. She also told me if I hurt her that she'd stab me in my sleep. So I say it evens us out. Plus, I think her and Sora are talking again. I hope it works out. If anything, they're the ones that make sense.
I actually think back to that time Sora and I had our one-on-one back at the islands. He really is a good guy. Even if he and I aren't exactly the closest friends, we still have each other's back.
"You think we should open the window for the smoke?" Namine asks.
"No way, it's the end of the year party. This whole building is filled with smoke!" Tidus answers.
Outside our room, the annual end of the year party is going on. Everyone just gets smashed and have a good time, releasing all that stress from finals.
Oh, and if you guys reading are wondering if I passed or not. The answer is yes, but barely.
Tidus takes a bong rip.
"Well, I say it's time we go and enjoy it before the cops inevitably break it up" Sora suggests.
"That is a solid idea. Let's do it" I say.
Everyone gets up as Tidus is still inhaling.
"Wait, guys at least let me rip this shit" Tidus begs, still holding in the smoke.
We all don't listen and just walk out the room.
We hear him exhale and go "Fuckers!"
The dorm building was packed wall-to-wall. Everyone was drinking like a fish and smoking like a chimney. It reminds me a lot the parties earlier this year. Tidus eventually catches up and we all do our own thing.
Wakka and Lulu went over to chat with her group of friends, Sora, Kairi, and Namine sit on the couches, and Tidus and I are playing beer pong. We're kicking ass, as usual, for the first few rounds. But then these two jocks come in and wipe us out.
We hang our heads in shame as we cheers and chug the rest of our defeat-ridden beer.
"Downs for the rematch you Russian fucks!" Tidus shouts as we walk off. I hurry him away before he gets his ass kicked.
"Tidus, just sit your ass down"
He sits on the couch across from Namine and the others.
"I'm gonna get a drink. You want?" I ask.
He shakes his head as he pulls a joint from behind his ear. I look up at Namine.
"Anything for you babe?"
"I'm fine" she smiles.
That smile has made me the biggest lovesick loser in this room. And I love every second of it.
I make my way over to the table with the bowl of punch (it's never just punch), bottles of rum, whiskey, sodas, anything alcohol related you can think of. It's an alcoholic's bitter sweet fantasy. I grab a cup and reach for the whiskey.
"Roxas?"
I turn around. Both Serah and Shiki approach me. Where have these two been the whole story?
"What's up guys? Long time!" I say.
I hug them both as Serah answers.
"For real! Just hanging; enjoying the last of this place" Serah answers.
"The last of it?"
"This bitch is ditching me, it's her last year at Traverse" Shiki chimes in.
Serah rolls her eyes.
"Really?" I ask.
She nods. "I thought it'd be smarter if I just stayed home and helped my family out a bit".
I remember her mentioning her whole family drama. Her dad being an asshole and beating her mom. I can't even imagine how that must feel.
"I'll still be going to school over there though" she adds.
"That's good. I guess I'll see you there this summer"
She nods as I turn to Shiki.
"How's Beat?"
"We broke up. Thought it'd be smart to just stay single and focus on my career. Maybe travel"
"I mean, I could've told you that" I tease.
She slaps my arm.
"Fuck off!" she shouts. Though she can't help but giggle.
"How about you? Any summer plans?" Serah asks.
"Well, I was gonna go work at Pence's photography company. It's gotten so big now that he's partnered with another one, so they need more people"
"Photography? That's interesting coming from you. You see it as a long-term career?" Shiki asks.
I just shrug my shoulders.
"We'll see"
Shiki's phone starts going off.
"Ooo, I gotta take this!" she squeals before running off. I give Serah a confused look.
"It's probably a booty call. She'll stay single but can't resist any guys regardless" she explains.
"Sounds like Shiki"
We chuckle.
"Well, you'd know all about that life" she teases.
"I'll have you know, I'm locked down"
Her eyes widen.
"Roxas? Locked down? Call the press" she jokes.
"I know, it's like my first legit relationship"
"Who is it?" she asks.
"Namine"
"... Weren't you fucking her cousin?" she asks.
My face drops and she laughs.
"Jesus, even your relationships are complicated" she teases.
"Fuck off" I chuckle, looking back at the alcohol.
I can't but laugh. She is kinda right. I reach for the whiskey again and pour some in the cup.
"She must be worth it though" she adds.
I smile as I reach for the coke and start mixing it in my cup.
"She really is"
I turn back towards her. She's smiling, knowing how I feel. Knowing I've been struggling with myself.
"Well cheers to that"
We raises are cups and drink.
=0=
By the time midnight rolled around, the dorm was getting even rowdier. More beer pong tournaments going on, Tidus and Wakka were playing strip poker with Lulu and Serah and others; most of them already down to the underwear. Over at the lounge, Sora and Kairi are playing a fighting game on the TV, while others stand and watch, waiting for their chance to play. Kairi ends up winning and doing a little victory dance.
And yet in the middle of all this, Namine and I were just chillin' by the wall, watching it all. She was leaning back in to me, with my arms wrapped around her.
She looks up at me, laughing as we see Kairi still dancing and Sora goofing at her.
I smile at her. I then go in and plant a kiss. She holds my cheek and makes the kiss deeper. Our kissing turns into making out and before we knew it we were running back into my dorm, getting naked, and fucking on my chair. She rides me as the music outside is blasting.
With the noise, we didn't care how loud we were. We were drunk and selfish, only caring about what we wanted in the moment. I grab her ass while she starts riding faster.
"Fuck you feel amazing!" I moan.
She stops riding and starts bouncing. I keep one hand on her ass and use my other to grab her hair.
"Pull harder" she tells me.
I do.
"Oh god!" she moans.
We go at it for a little longer, her sliding up and down on me as I try to hold it in. She stops bouncing and starts grinding her hips. I let get off her hair and spank her; gripping on to her ass.
"Baby I'm coming!" she moans
I felt her tighting around me.
"Me too! Don't stop!
She keeps riding and we both start moaning louder and louder; coming at the same time. As we both finish, the crowd outside cheers, probably to someone winning a round in that game. We both look at each other and laugh.
She rests her forehead against mine.
"Holy shit" I say, still trying to catch my breath.
She chuckles.
"That was amazing" she says.
She pulls me into a deep kiss. I grab the back of her head and pull her in deeper. She still feels so good.
"God, I just wanna keep fucking" she tells me in between kisses.
"I might need a minute"
She giggles.
"No, I want more now"
She starts to grind her hips slowly. I let out a soft moan, causing her to giggle. I pick her up from the chair and throw us on the bed, still inside her. I start to slowly thrust.
"I can't wait to do this with you all summer" I tell her. I start to kiss her neck as I keep thrusting. But as I kept doing my thing, it didn't seem like she was into it as much. I look back at her. She's just staring at the wall, looking… sad?
"What's wrong?" I ask.
I see a single tear roll down her cheek.
"Whoa, what's wrong?" I ask again.
I pull out and sit down next to her. She was starting to worry me.
"Did I do something wrong?" I ask.
She sits up.
"No… I just… haven't been totally honest with you about the summer" she answers.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
Another tear rolls down her cheek. I'm really starting to get worried.
She looks up at me and takes a deep breath.
"I got accepted to Daybreak Art Academy. They want me to come in this summer for an early start"
Daybreak Art Academy…
"So… you'd move to Daybreak Town?"
She nods her head, more tears streaming down her face.
I grab her hand.
"Namine that's amazing! You were really aiming for that school"
She looks up at me, surprised.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" I ask.
"'Cause we just got together like three months ago and it's the happiest I've ever been. And now that I got accepted into this stupid school, we can't be together. It's all just gonna be gone now and I hate it!" she rants.
She keeps crying. I hold her hand tighter.
"How long is the program?" I ask.
"Four years" she sniffles.
Fuck, four years….
I smile softly.
"Okay" I say.
She looks back up at me.
"Okay?"
"Look, you've wanted to get into this school so badly. This is your dream school. I don't wanna be the reason why you didn't pursue what you've always wanted. Okay, you have to go to that school. I mean, we can figure this out"
"Daybreak Town is like six train rides away from here and eight from Twilight Town" she mentions.
"Who cares? Alright, I'll hop on all those trains and make my way out there"
She looks back down and starts crying softly.
"I don't think I can. That's too much…"
My heart sinks.
I then cup her chin and have her look up at me. Her eyes were bloodshot.
"Do you want this?" I ask.
We stare at each other for a moment; neither of us breaking eye contact.
"Yes" she says.
"Then we both have to try. Can we at least try? 'Cause this is way too good to give up"
She smiles. I wipe her tears away.
"… Okay. Let's try" she says.
I smile back and pull her into a deep kiss.
For a while, we just lied in bed naked in our drunken haze, with my arms wrapped around her. I wish she told me earlier, that way we could've prepared more or made the most out of every day. But right now I have no choice. Right now, I gotta try to hold on to the best thing that's happened to me. I'll just make the most out of every moment now, starting with this one.
But suddenly, our door swings open, where Tidus, Serah, Wakka, Lulu, Kairi, and Sora all walk in, ruining our moment.
"OH FUCK!" Tidus shouts.
Namine and I scurry to get under the covers.
"OH SHIT!" We shout in unison.
Next time, I have to lock the door.
=0=
A/N: I know this chapter took forever to get out but it just took me a while to figure out how to properly structure it. I feel like this was the best way to execute it. Only two more chapters and until the Simple and Clean trilogy comes to a close.
R&R and take care!