Accepting

Prologue

Austin's POV

"What did I tell you last week?!" I growled to the shriving freshman beneath my arched figure.

"To get you lunch money..." He trailed off.

"And where is it?" I sneered.

"It's in my locker..." He replied stuttering.

"Take me to your locker. So I know you're not lying." I glared darkly.

"I will. Just... Please let me go." He said.

I let go of his arms and said, "So where's your locker?"

"Right here." He said pointing to the green locker beside him.

"Open it."

He slowly turned around and opened it. A moment later, he turned back with ten dollars in his hands.

"Ten bucks. This will cover the next two days. You're off the hook." I paused as he still stood. "Get out." And with that he ran.

I chuckled darkly before a hand stopped me from moving. I didn't have to turn around to know who it was.

"Hey Dez." I sighed.

"Austin." He deadpanned.

"You saw that didn't you?" I asked.

"Yup." He replied.

"Now I have to give it back don't I?" I asked even though I already knew the answer.

"Yep." He answered.

I sighed before going to the kid's locker and slipping the bill into the slot.

"Happy now?" I asked as I faced him.

All he did was smile in satisfaction.

But that smile left all too quickly when his face turn to a look of seriousness.

"Not again..." I grumbled as he grabbed my wrist a brought me to an empty hallway.

Once he found a spot, he turned to me and said, "Seriously. You have to cut it out. I've been trying to tell you for three years and you still won't listen. One day, the school will find out who you really are and you will regret it. You have to stop before it's too late. Even though it already is, you still a have chance to redeem yourself."

"Dez. You know exactly why I'm like this. I don't want anyone to know. The only people who should know is my family and yours. That's it." And with that, I turned around and started to go to class.

"What about her?" He called out. I stopped abruptly. Dammit. I know who's he's talking about.

"Who?" I asked acting innocent.

"Don't play innocent. You know exactly who I'm talking about." He sneered.

I sighed. "It's not like it matters. She doesn't even like me! How I can I tell her if she despises my entire existence?!" I paused for a second and took a deep breath. "She'll never like me back. I gave up about a month ago. Because I know it's not worth going after someone who can't even look at you or say your name without flinching."

"But Austin-" He started but I cut him short.

"But no. I met reality. Reality told me she can't and she won't. I don't care what feelings I ever had for her. I have to move on."

"That's because you never even tried to get to know her. You never even talked to her. That's why she may never like you. All she'll remember about you is that you're the school jerk."

"And I'd like to keep it that way."

Later that day.

"See you tomorrow." The teacher had called to the class at the end of the day.

I took my backpack and slung it over my shoulder and headed to my locker. I wasn't in the mood to do anything. My conversation with Dez from this morning is still fresh in my mind. So I decided just get my stuff and head home.

I opened my locker grabbed a few books and papers. Just because I'm the school jerk doesn't mean I don't try to do well in school.

Before closing my locker I moved a poster out of the way. And grabbing a picture from behind. I took a moment to look at it. She looks beautiful.

I sighed. Dez was right. All she'll ever remember of me is being the school jerk.

All I wanted was just to get her attention. I still don't know why I had to turn the way I did. I looked up from the picture and there she was. Smiling, having a good time with her friend.

But I could be having a good time with her. Have my arm around her, making her smile and laugh, telling her how much I love her. And she would kiss my cheek and say "I love you too." And I would smile at her and hug her. It would be amazing.

But she hates my soul. She wouldn't dare lay her eyes on me. And I haven't really gone near her. Even if she fits perfectly into the kids I go after. But she's an exception. Because she's the only girl in school who makes my heart flutter or my stomach do flips. The only girl who makes me wanna come to school everyday because I would see her beautiful face, smile... everything.

Hurting her would just make things worse. And I wouldn't know what do if something bad happened her because of me.

And yes. I'm a jerk. With a heart.

Hey guys... It's been a while... Well. Three months. I'm so sorry. I had a really bad writers block and I was on vacation in December with no internet. But it's a new year and I'm ready to turn a new leaf and update every week like I used to. So this story is a little different from your normal Good Girl/Bad Guy stories and it's gonna be awesome. And for anyone waiting on IDWTBIHT, That's gonna come later this week so stay tuned. And ps. I really missed you guys. I hope y'all are doing well.

Until next time ~

BNYC