AN: Sorry it's taken me so long to update! Life has just been kicking my butt lately. For anyone who is still reading I hope you enjoy. I promise I won't just leave this story.

It was only 8:30 when Amanda got a text from Olivia.

Hey Noah's asleep. You coming over soon?

Amanda was slightly dreading the conversation because she was worried Olivia wouldn't feel the same way she felt. She wasn't for sure, but she thought she loved Olivia and she didn't know if she could handle if the brunette didn't feel the same way. All she wanted was to be loved back.

Yeah. On my way.

Amanda arrived at Olivia's not too much later. The entire way there her mind was racing with fears and doubt. She loved Olivia. She didn't know why, or how it had even happened, but now that it had she couldn't stop her feelings. Her mind was consumed with thought of the brunette. Her perfect carmel breasts. The way she moaned in Amanda's ears. She just couldn't let those images go.

Olivia was sitting on her living room nursing her first glass of wine when she heard Amanda's timid knock. She jumped up to get the door. When she opened the door Amanda looked like she was about to run away. Her eyes were looking down and she was swaying back and forth nervously.

"Hey, I'm glad you came. Come on in." Olivia said while fully opening the door.

Amanda walked in and took a seat on the very edge of the couch.

"Do you want some wine?"

"No, I'm good." Amanda replied.

Olivia shrugged her shoulders and sat on the opposite end of the couch. Olivia could tell she was nervous. She thought the only reason Amanda would be this nervous is because she regretted it, she regretted all of it. This doubt made Olivia feel worse than anything ever had. The only thing she didn't was was to have Amanda feel she was taken advantage of.

Amanda could see Olivia's entire body demoner change. She felt Olivia's mind racing and worrying about what she was thinking. Her face fell when her mind came to a particular conclusion, and Amanda could not figure out what the particular conclusion was.

"Olivia, what's wrong? I can tell you're thinking about something"

Olivia was quiet for a long time before she replied quietly.

"Do you regret last night?"

"No. I regret nothing." Amanda said as sincerely as she could. "Do you?" she asked in return. She was almost afraid to hear what she would say back.

"Not at all. We both needed it to heal." said Olivia

Olivia noticed that Amanda was both pleased and dissatisfied with her answer. She wanted to say more, to comfort her somehow, but she didn't know what the blonde was thinking, or expecting from her.

The silence that surrounded them was comforting. It seemed to soothe them both as they sat there and thought over what they should say next. Olivia sighed as it was like a huge weight was lifted off her chest.

"Are you okay Amanda? You seemed awful nervous when you showed up tonight."

Amanda knew that if she was ever going to tell Olivia what she truly felt, now was the time.

"Liv, I gotta tell you something. I think I love you. I kissed you not because I broken and needed you, but because I love you. I trust you. I want to be with you. I know you probably don't feel the same, but I just had to tell you. I had to let you know."

Olivia was shocked, and yet at the same time it was almost like deep down she knew- she knew that Amanda loved her. She could feel it in the way she looked at her, the way she said her name, the way she made love to her. Olivia knew all of these things, but she didn't know how she felt. She liked Amanda, but love? Did she really love her?

Amanda could see that Olivia was thinking, and the silence made her nervous. She didn't expect Olivia to love her back, but she at least expected a reaction. The drowning silence made her panic. She got up quickly and started towards the door.

"Wait, Amanda, don't go!" Olivia yelled after the blonde while she stood up.

"I never should have said that. I have to go Olivia!"

"Amanda, please!"

"No, this is all my fault. I messed everything up, and I have to deal with that.' and with those last few ushered words Amanda slammed Olivia's apartment door before the brunette could say anything else.