Clarke's POV
Clarke freezes and her eyes glass over. Only a single tear falls from her left eye. To Clarke, the world has completely obliterated. She can't think, she can't see, and she can't believe what she has just done. She can hear Raven whaling from inside the camp, but even Raven's screams can not snap Clarke out of her trance. She has just killed Finn. The boy who made her feel safe on the ground, and her only love. But he was also a murderer, a liar, and a cheater. Clarke turns her head slightly to see Finn standing in a pool of his own blood. Several grounders begin to untie him from the stake. Clarke doesn't want them to touch him. Clarke still can't move her legs to stop them, so she screams with the only strength she has left, "STOP!"
The grounders turn around to face Clarke, but Clarke can tell they are not looking at her, they are looking beyond her. Suddenly Lexa appears next to Clarke. Her expression has not changed since Clarke first pleaded for her to free Finn. She just holds her hand up and says something to the grounders, who were about to move Finn, in their language. They set Finn down and walk back to their posts. Lexa turns to Clarke and sticks out her arm.
"Now we may have peace. Our war is over." Clarke focus on Lexa's small hand that is covered in tattoos and scars. Clarke hesitates. Her eyes shift back to Bellamy, who is still consoling Raven. It's as if he can sense Clarke's gaze. He looks to her and nods his head. Abby and Kane are motionless. Clarke meets Lexa's eyes and shakes her hand firmly. "Our fight is over." She says as she releases Lexa's hand.
"You may take Finn back to your camp to dispose of his body. We meet at first light to discuss battle plans to take our people from Mount Weather." Lexa walks back to her tent and orders all of the grounders to rest. She then turns around once more. "What you've done tonight will haunt you for the rest of your days." She then disappears into her tent. Clarke looks back at her camp. The gate is opening and Murphy and Bellamy are on their way to meet her. Raven and Abby are no where in sight and Kane keeps the ark survivors calm.
Bellamy looks exhausted. Clarke has never seen him so weak. He seems breakable. Clarke can tell that Murphy cried because of how red his eyes are. When they approach, Murphy immediately walks over to Finn to patch the blood so they can carry him. Bellamy stops in front of Clarke. Clarke closes her eyes and braces for Bellamy to scream at her, to blame her for everything that has happened to Finn, and to tell her he hates her. Before Clarke can speak she feels Bellamy's warm arms wrap around her tiny body. His hands rest around her waist and her buries his head into her shoulder. She can feel his tears on her skin and she shivers. Bellamy pulls away from the hug and gently brushes she hair back from her face. He chokes on tears as he speaks.
"You did what had to be done. There was no way out of this one, Clarke. You allowed Finn to die in peace with you by his side. You saved him from a painful death. I know this is going to haunt you, but you did what you had to to protect hundreds of people and give the 47 in Mount Weather a chance to live. After this is all over, we might have the opportunity to live together in peace forever. You are so strong Clarke. We will overcome this." Bellamy releases Clarke and forces a small smile. Clarke still can't find words, and Bellamy nods understanding her pain.
Bellamy grabs her arm and they slowly walk over to Finn's corpse. Clarke's legs shake with each step. Bellamy notices her instability and wraps his arm around her waist as they walk. Murphy has cleaned up the blood as best as he could and backs up to give Clarke and Bellamy room to grieve. Bellamy just stares at the wound. "Did it hurt?" He asks sheepishly. Clarke peers into Bellamy's deep brown eyes. "No, during my medical apprenticeship on the ark, I learned how to kill someone painlessly in case it was necessary in the ER. We didn't want to use medicine to end people's lives because it was a waste of resources. I won't go into detail, but i can assure you that all he felt was a pinch as the knife entered his skin. It was quick, and he did not suffer." Bellamy sighs at Clarke's response. "Ok I will carry him under his arms. Murphy, grab his legs and Clarke, hold the center if you can."
Bellamy and Murphy bend down to pick Finn up. As they lift him, his eyes snap open. Clarke covers her mouth and turns away with tears in her eyes. She feels vomit forment in her mouth. Bellamy looks to the sky and then back to Murphy. "Set him down for a second." He says. Clarke composes herself and slowly approaches, closing Finn's eyes with her frail finger tips. She then bends down to help Bellamy and Murphy pick Finn up again.
They set off towards the front gate. Kane orders Major Burn to open the gates so that they can enter. Several people stand around waiting to see them. They set Finn's body down in front of Kane. Kane turns to Clarke. "What did Lexa say to you?" he asks sternly. Clarke gulps and scans the crowd. There is still no sign of Abby or Raven. She clears her throat. "Lexa granted us peace. Our war with the grounders is over, but the war with mount weather has just begun. Get some rest, we begin training at first light." The civilians standing around cheer as they make their way back to their tents. Kane stares in awe at Clarke. Murphy and two guards move Finn's body to medical to be prepared for burial in the morning.
"I underestimated you Clarke. You are a strong leader and warrior, as are you, Bellamy. I am going to need you two as we prepare to take on the mountain men. Clarke, I need you to brief us all tomorrow morning on what to expect at mount weather and what kind of army we are up against. Bellamy, I need you to work with the grounders and familiarize our guard with the terrain. You know it the best. Good night, and Clarke?" Clarke turns to Kane. "You saved everyone in this camp today, thank you."
Clarke shakes her head, "Not everyone. Finn had to pay the price." Kane sighs, "Finn will never be forgotten by anyone in this camp. His sacrifice saved us all." Kane walks away with Major Burn and the remaining members of the guard. The only two left outside are Bellamy and Clarke.
"Goodnight Clarke…." Bellamy says as he starts to walk away. Clarke stops him. "Bellamy, I..I.." Bellamy turns around and stands close to Clarke. "I don't want to be alone tonight." She cries. Bellamy pulls her in close to his chest and holds her, brushing her blond hair with his fingertips. He whispers in her ear, "You can stay with me tonight." Clarke looks up and nods, "Thank you."
Bellamy takes Clarke's hand and leads her to his tent. It is a little crowded for two people, but it's the perfect size for Bellamy. "I know it's not much but.." Clarke interrupts, "It's perfect." She whispers. He smiles and walks to the bed. He pulls off one of the three blankets and lays it on the ground. "I'll take the floor. Make yourself at home Clarke." Clarke glances at the bed and then back at Bellamy who is getting ready for bed. He reaches into a bag and pulls out a t-shirt. "You can sleep in this if you want." He says as he tosses it to Clarke. She smiles and thanks him. He turns to face the wall.
"You can change now I won't look, I promise princess." He laughs. "Please, don't call me princess. It's the last thing Finn said to me…" Clarke mumbles. Bellamy's eyes widen, apologetic. "Clarke I'm…" "It's ok Bellamy." Clarke interrupts. Bellamy turns around as Clarke slowly removes her jacket and her shirt. She notices she still has Finn's blood on her hand. She reaches down to a bowl of water and uses it to clean her hands. Bellamy is whistling as he faces the wall and Clarke realizes she still is not dressed. She slips off her jeans and puts on Bellamy's shirt. It is blue with two buttons at the top. It fits Clarke like a dress and smells like Bellamy. Clarke soaks in the aroma.
"I'm dressed." She says quietly. Bellamy turns around and admires Clarke wearing his clothes. "You ready for bed?" He asks as he sits on the ground. "Yes, and Bellamy…" Bellamy looks up with a quizzical expression. "You don't have to sleep on the ground." Clarke climbs into Bellamy's bed and rolls over to the edge so he has space. She soaks in the smell of him surrounding her. He pulls the blankets over top of them and blows out the candle. All Clarke can see is the outline of his lips inches away from hers. She listens to his breaths as they slow and he drifts off to sleep.
Clarke can't sleep, so she tries to count Bellamy's breaths to keep busy. "...45, 46, 47..." She pauses. 47. Thinking about the 47 saddens her. She's afraid it might be too late. Poor Jasper and Monty, she should have tried harder to bring them with her. Her thoughts are interrupted by Bellamy stirring in his sleep. Clarke can tell he's having a nightmare. Clarke pulls him in close to her and lays her head on his bare chest. She begins to hum and Bellamy returns to a peaceful slumber. Just Clarke's touch is enough to snap him out of a nightmare and return him to sweet dreams.
"Cl-arke?" He mutters. "Yeah Bell?" She responds. He holds her tightly. "When we went back to the dropship, I thought you were dead. I realized that the only purpose of my life was to find you, but you found me again. I've never met anyone quite like you. Youre intelligent, brave, kind, loving, peaceful, and beautiful. I have felt an urge to protect you from the moment I met you. Something deep inside me told me I'd need you. The voice was right. Without you, I'm nothing. I want to tell you this before things get dangerous again, before i could lose you again to mount weather…. I love you. Clarke, i've loved you since our day trip to get supplies. I've never loved anyone besides my sister so i did not know how to handle it. I also got caught up in everything we had to do to survive that there was never a good time to tell you. I thought that I would run away, wait out the explosion from the dropship, and then return to celebrate a victory with you and finally express how I feel. I was devastated when you weren't there. I thought I lost you…" Bellamy pulls Clarke in closer and kisses her forehead. Tears stream down her face. "After Dax tried to kill us, you told me that you needed me. The truth is, I need you more. You've taught me how to be a good person and how to love."
Clarke wraps her body around Bellamy and stares deeply into his eyes, inspecting his soul. His eyes prove to her that his words are genuine. Before she can respond he pulls her in for a kiss. Clarke melts in his muscular arms. She kisses him harder and more aggressive. They move together in harmony. Everything that went wrong today disappears from Clarke's mind. All she can focus on is the taste of Bellamy's warm lips and the feeling of his chest pressed against hers. She can barely breathe. Her adrenaline is pumping and she can tell his is too. His hands drift down to her hips. Clarke loses control. Fireworks explode in her brain, she never felt this way with Finn. They pull away, breathless, and gaze into each other's eyes. The moonlight illuminates Clarke's blue eyes and Bellamy can't let her go. He tilts his head slightly to the right so he can kiss her neck. Clarke shivers at the touch. His lips slowly travel down her neck until he reaches her shoulder. Clarke moans, "I love you too Bellamy Blake." Bellamy pulls Clarke ontop of him and slips her shirt off. Clarke stops. "Bellamy, the only person I've ever been with was Finn…" She trails off. Bellamy presses his index finger to her plump lips. "Shh...just enjoy yourself."
Clarke relaxes and lets Bellamy take control. They melt into each other and Bellamy takes it slow. Clarke closes her eyes and for the first time in her life, she doesn't just feel loved, she feels unconditionally loved. She moans again as he presses himself into her. They move their body's together in sync.
Bellamy closes his eyes as Clarke settles into bed again. His chest is covered in sweat and Clarke's hair sticks to her back. They are both so exhausted that they don't care. Clarke drifts off to sleep in the comfort of Bellamy's arms.