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"Um Kanda i think we should stop..." Allen muttered as they reached the new location, his fiance nodding his engagement winged heart glinting on Mugen's hilt.

"What's wrong?" Lenalee whispered.

"It's too quiet... but all the innocence is still there and I don't feel any dark matter. What about you Yuu?" Allen whispered back softly.

"Same..." Kanda stated before pushing Allen to the side knocking the kitten into a tree as a deformed robot barreled towards them.

"A kourin!" Lavi hissed as a deformed voice echoed 'target locked'.

"Allen get me out of this thing!" Neah's voice echoed causing the four young adults to blink.

The group hissing "Koumi!" before flooring it towards the base need to lure the malfunctioning robot somewhere safe to dismantle.

"Uncle how much can you feel and what the hell went wrong?!" Allen screamed behind him.

"I lost sense when I lost control of this blasted contraption! Cross Arrived and threw a blasted bottle of wine at this prototype." Neah ranted in fury.

"Damn I was hoping he wasn't here." Allen called back as he ran dodging a dart as they finally made it inside the order just as Lenalee turned leaping into the air before landing a sharp kick destroying the main gun with trained ease.

"Main gun malfunction, switching from sedation tactics to elimination." came an animated chirp its eyes lighting up before a small beam of light flashed creating a mini explosion.

"I'M KILLING MY BROTHER!" Lenalee snarled as the next laser trimmed part of her hair making her pigtails uneven.

"The robot and Cross first Miss Lee." Neah agreed with the Chinese girl as Lavi attempted to set the robot on fire.

"To prevent fatal injury please sit still during all medical examinations." the robot informed to Lavi irritation.

"Lavi keep it distracted, Moyashi 'blade now." Kanda ordered Allen nodding as he pulled the Clown Crown out, blinking as the wedding ring expanded to seal around the part of his arm that remained.

Kanda smiled as the moved behind the robot working together to chop its head off before Allen moved back slicing at the robot's legs causing it to crash to the ground as Kanda brutally tore the remains to shreds. Neahs spirit floating nearby watching gleefully as Lenalee and Lavi joined with its dismantling, before moving over to his nephew as the band returned to his left hands ring finger after the massive sword returned to its 'true form'.

"Is that what i think it is?" Neah smiled.

"The repeating town, was repeating due to a something Mana did. He notice Arren as his son and after I asked I was granted permission to marry his son." Kanda admitted threading his own ringed hand into Allens.

" We're thinking Halloween for a date. If you don't mind giving me away that is?" Allen asked his barley corporeal uncle the man nodding frantically before inspecting the rings.

"Just be warned there's no Hen or Bachelor parties and no alcohol at all permitted." Kanda warned sharply.

"Well thank the lord for that, I assume the best man and head bridesmaid have been pre-selected?" Neah asked before frowning "Or should we wait for details until after we have revived the countless finders and what not who were sedated, along with in forming the few who barricaded themselves in the Hospital wing that all is safe now?"

"After... Kanda how are we going to tell my mother?" Allen asked softly.

"If all present can keep their traps shut i wanted to tell Jerry first and tell via one of those cake things, have one mini party and tell the whole fucking order all at once, if you don't mind wearing gloves for a little bit." Kanda stated gently pulling out a pair of matching black gloves a slipping them over the rings.

"How was he?"

"Happy, the 'me' there was barely 5 and it was the day after Cross was made my legal guardian. I got to talk to him tell him everything... and he still called me his son." Allen whispered his eyes filling with tears as Neah hugged him.

"We all got to talk with him, pulled us each aside to have a chat too, even gave us stuff, his notebook a bag filled with innocence even his hat." Lenalee stated gently before knocking on the hospital door. "Bots gone now, it's safe mission success with over 5 innocence."

"OVER 5 HOW!" Koumi stated throwing open the door only to be kicked hard across the room.

"It was repeating due to a Bookman trick at the hands of Mana Walker, he handed over the innocence and taught me some pointers handing over a few notebooks filled with war related information." Lavi stated glancing over at his grandfather seeing the panda sitting by Hevlaska.

"I see." The Bookman stated before glancing at Allen "How did things go?"

"Great even if he caught us within ten minutes... I got to actually see him again... Here he handed over these Lavi and i have both already read them on the train but you'll probably finds stuff that we missed." Allen said walking over and placing the 6 small notebooks in the elderly mans hands.

"Each ones on a different topic gramps... but their full, I used them to teach Allen the codes you've already taught me but at their were ones I felt would of had to be on higher codes." Lavi stated coming to stand by Allen earning a small smile off the old man.

"I'm glad you both got to see him, I assume he shoved aside your regrets?" the old man lowered his voice watching as tears filled his grand kids eyes before pulling them both into a hug waiting for Kanda to retrieve his boyfriend.

"I got permission." Kanda muttered softly "but that's classified until i inform the order, how fast can you get those closest to the moyashi here safely?"

"If Neah opens the ark give this old man two hours." the Bookman muttered back before sending Lavi off to being listing those they needed most.

"Ow Lena OWWWWWIIIEEE the sedative wears off WAAAHHHHHH" Koumi sobbed as Lenalee continued to attack her brother.

"Where in all seven hells! Did you think Neah's temporary body needed a sedative! Why did he need fucking laser eyes! For fuck sake make these blasted things watertight and waterproof before they end up killing someone! Do you know how scared we were returning to find NO ONE awake! If it wasn't for Kanda and Allen's messed up sight range Lavi and I would have thought you were all dead from a noah attack! Don't you Lena Beana me Gege! You always do this! Kanda and I have been destroying these abomination since we were SIX! Shìkě'érzhǐ! Wǒ bù zài shì nǐ de mèimei!" Lenalee screamed loudly in fury before storming away Komui sitting there in shock his face pale, his broken glasses hanging from his face as fear and sorrow filled his eyes, Allen quickly moving to the man's side.

"Shh it's ok she didn't mean that last part, she loves you. You just scared her and then made her mad... Kanda and I will calm her down ok? Please dont do anything drastic." Allen spoke gently touching Komui's shoulder surprised as well at the cold lines that fell from Lenalee's lips.

'Enough is enough, I am no longer your sister.' the chinese words echoing dangerously to those who knew the language like Allen, Kanda and the aged Bookman, the short man moving to grab the wayward supervisors arm and leading him over for the head nurse to check him for broken bones before the couple took off.

"Kitchens." Allen suggested.

"Where looking for Lena Moyashi."

"I know, that why I said kitchens... whenever Lena has a fight with me or Lavi she goes to the kitchens and devours all the chinese food and ice cream in the storage. She once built a fort out of the empty ice cream buckets and then threw several broken spoons at me after a fight..." Allen stated calmly.

"You pissed her off?"

"I was quoting Mana one day and she got mad for me rubbing it in that I had a loving parent where her parents were dead... I chased her down and while she was throwing stuff I admitted that my loving father named me after a dog right after he kidnaped me as payment for the said dogs murder, that he died and I was cursed for falling for the Earl's lies before god punished me by placing me in Cross's care. That yes I had a loving parent and so did she but they were gone that I was jealous she had someone who cared jealous that she was utterly beautiful inside and out where I am hideous and a compulsive liar. Jerry found us sobbing and caught in an apologize loop with both of us trying to each other shivering in the freezer finish off the last of the icecream." Allen admitted "It was not long after I came to the order thus we had only known each other maybe a month and a half. After that she insisted that I be her little brother and we could share Koumi so I'd have a family."

"Ah so that's how you became her family." Kanda muttered as they walked calmly not wanting to spook Lenalee and also letting her calm down by walking normally towards where Allen guessed she was.

"And you?"

"Her second week here she darted away from the C.R.O.W's and started crying at the same time I was beating them up and refusing another 'check up' ran into her and tripped the C.R.O.W's went to touch her and I might have attacked with Mugen and let out a stream of japanese that she recognized, then she hide behind me and cried for her big brother till she passed out. I carried her to Hevlaska when Lena woke up she mistook me for her brother and I said if she was that desperate for a brother i'd be it so long as she told me what a brother was and that she'd never cry in front of me ever again. She burst out laughing until the C.R.O.W's separated us and forced her to watch a test." Kanda admitted knowing how scared and furious Lenalee had been after witnessing what he was, but that hate was on the order until Koumi finally arrived.

Allen smiled opening the door ducking a broken bit of silverware.

"Hey its just your adopted fam, wanna talk or do you want us to grab the stuff too high for you." Allen asked slowly entering the room seeing the puffy eyed female sitting on her second liter of ice cream.

"I need a teddy bear..." Lenalee sniffled in broken english the word teddy coming out in chinese from her mixed up emotions, Allen moving closer before shifting into feline form snuggling against her letting her pet and snuggle him as her tears began to fall again.

"You gonna be ok imouto?" Kanda questioned moving past her and into the kitchens glaring at Jerry as he pulled down some of the more expensive brands.

"How could I say something so cruel, what is wrong with me..." Lenalee began in between mouthfuls of ice cream.

"You were mad and scared." Kanda stated bluntly.

"Honey cakes it be ok I'm sure whatever cause this will pass like a bad dream." Jerry tried not understanding why the young lady was sobbing and devouring his ice cream supplies.

"I disowned my gege how is that going to pass like a bad dream!" the chinese girl snarled throwing a bucket in the flamboyant man's direction only for Kanda to catch it.

"Kanda a word?" Jerry whispered after the batch was handed over. "Did she?"

"We arrived to find the majority of the order out cold with their body's cold, if it wasn't for the Moyashi sensing all the innocence, it looked like everyone was dead all due to Koumi's latest robot malfunction. Fear turned to relief and then to rage which she took out on her brother her final blow was in chinese, in her head she was probably going to say she wasn't his baby sister anymore more along the lines that she's an adult now but it came out as I'm not your sister anymore, she fled and Bookmans with Koumi." Kanda explained the chefs eyes softening as he came to understand. "Before that I wanted a word with you, the moyashi and I are now engaged I'd like you to make something that will tell the majority of the order in one big go without me having to actually say that were intending to get hitched on halloween."

"I'll get right on it sugar, Lena honey wanna help you can lick the bowl if Allen doesn't fall into it first?" Jerry offered wanting to take Lena's mind off it, earning a small whimpered yes before the chinese girl entered letting Kanda pull as apron on her as Allen curled up on her shoulders purring softly to calm her as Jerry distracted her.

"Mew." Allen inputted before realizing that they wouldn't be able to understand him thus looking at the clock till Kanda to the message.

"Its late so something simple, Lava cake maybe." Kanda suggested.

"We could do some glow in the dark icing... Lena cupcake mind finding and bringing over all the chocolate we can simmer up for its insides, Kanda be a dear and pull out the normal ingredients you can work on the base under Lena's careful hands." Jerry directed as the small group moved to finding what they need allowing Jerry to prepare what they would need for the icing.

"Iii..." Lenalee whispered as she moved robotically around the kitchen to gather ingredients and help Kanda.

"Its find imouto, all will be well. I'll help you but you both need time to catch your breaths, the sun will not rise on this argument." Kanda stated calmly cracking the eggs into the bowl as directed.

"Prrrow." Allen attempted to agree licking away some of Lenalee's tears despite wincing at the taste having tasted her make up with the tears.

"That must have tasted terrible... at least my eye liners not melting..." Lenalee half apologised to the neko earning a soft glance from the silvery male.

"It's nothing I've tasted worse.'" Neah translated for his nephew as he materialized in after handing over the 'keys' to the ark to the senior Bookman trusting his legally adopted father to go easy on the centuries old machine … no millenias old innocence.

"So you can?" Jerry asked slightly not taking his eyes off his work "Kanda are you still mixing everything?"

"Yes I am and yes he can, so can Kokoro and Clown Crown." Kanda stated as he worked.

"Not at first mind you, Koko chan and C.C, myself included had to learn to play nice before we were gifted with the ability to hear Allen in such a state... It took months before he could even hear us after being transformed. Not to mention the damage it would have done mentally... First we were always arguing just as my DNA started to awaken against my will from having gotten too close to my nephew, just as he began to 'hear me' but before I could explain myself Allen's living nightmare began and just as hearing my voice was becoming more regular my brother got his clammy pasty hands on him and did this to him deafening him to the world once more." Neah admitted.

"You fought?" Jerry asked slightly confused.

"Dark matter and innocence in their purest forms are identical but like opposite ends of a magnet, thus just my presence near Allen let alone his innocence began to harm him. Allen hid the pain well enough we'll asides in front of Kanda of course, however we instinctively bickered refusing to speak asides to blame the other for everything Allen's ever suffered. If it weren't for my family the world would be at peace if it wasn't for the Earl, Allen would have a father, if it wasn't for innocence Allen wouldn't have been taken from his mother if it wasn't for innocence none of you children would be forced into a war." Neah shook his head causing his brown curls to bounce by his checks. "Left or right. The smallest of things and we'd both start screaming until our voices were hoarse, it must have been terrible from Allen's perspective our voices began to be heard in Edo after the ark soft at first but slowly becoming clearer..."

"The Moyashi kept bitching about headaches and asking me to shut the voices up, I didn't pay much attention at first till I caught the idiot shutting them up by pressing Mugen's blade into his arm just so the innocence would be distracted for a few minutes." Kanda joined in as the sand cat buried himself in Lenalee's hair to prevent her yelling at him trying to act cute to avoid whatever punishment she would give him along with letting story time and the food distract her.

"What ended the feud?" Lenalee begged slightly brighten up her curiosity taking over one of the few traits she and her brothers shared.

"Song. Both innocence and dark matter like to sing, but they are different both in style and in tone dark matter hums low ranging between alto to baritone where innocence is that of an opera or soprano singer. The day after Alma when Allen was chained to a wall and told he had been listed as dead, both sides began to sing. The same song at first it clashed with Allen cutting in begging for us to stop for his pain to end and then allen surprised me... Allen sung back changing song to something that resonated with both my small amount of dark matter and his natural born innocence. Slowly as the songs continued Allen slowly began to sort out the conflict and when he finally fell asleep we finally talked and saw that all we wish is to see him happy and alive."

"Songs?" Kanda asked turning to look at Allen's uncle.

"Yes, it is a habit one I'm certain he didn't fully pick up from just Mana. Sorry what Kanda's questioning is the fact that he and Allen got together because of songs singing their true feelings because they couldn't stop fighting and then I just said Allen took that lesson and applied it to other more ancient arguments." Neah explained to the cook and young lady.

"What songs?"

"Would you like us to sing?" Kokoro twinkled into view the small girl looking like a pigtail blonde version of Road but with Allen's twinkling silver eyes set on green selca.

"A little song always helps when one works." Jerry grinned glancing at the small child who dictated most of Allen's life.

With a almost evil grin Kokoro spun summoning and manifesting multiple innocence within the large kitchen each of which 'singing' their voices sounding more like instruments than actual words before kokoro began to sing bouncy lines back and forth off neah their voices blending smoothly in between each line questioning each other's motives as they sung the first song Allen heard them recreating the memory for their 'darling wards' friends.

Allen, Allen,
Why do we bother to stay?
Why are you running away?
Don't you feel like severing?
Everything's just come together at last.
It's broken, I don't want to play.

We grew up closer than most.
Closer than anything, closer than anything.
Shared our bed and wore the same clothes.
Talked about everything, spoke about so many things.

What shall we wear tonight? What shall we eat today?
Can we go ice skating? But we just did that yesterday.
Should we be firemen? Can we be astronauts?
What if they find us? They're not looking anyway.

Fill my glass, let's drink a toast.
This is your birthday, so why are we weeping?
At your side, I feel like a ghost.
I wake up first, and I stare at you sleeping.

What shall we wear tonight? What shall we eat today?
Do you think I should go with him? But we just met him yesterday.
Should we be movie stars? Will we be millionaires?
I want to be famous. They're watching us anyway.

We grew up so very close.
A parasite needs a host.
I'm only trying to do what is best for us.
Well, I never asked for this, I never wanted this.
All that I want is some time to myself.
Looking in your eyes, I'm coming home.
Just get away from me, please just stop touching me.
You're always trying to be somebody else.
Now I realize I'm not alone.
Well, you're only scared of me.
But you never cared for me.
Why don't you let me free?
'Cause you'd never dare to be.
'Cause you never listen, you're always insisting.
(I'm just/just stop) reminiscing,
I feel something missing.
I just want (you here with me/my privacy),
God (can't we just get along/won't you leave me alone)?

Towards the end Allen half shifted to sing the lines he had breaking into the tormented sounding lyrics recalling feeling on the brink of insanity while locked up. The torture Rouvelier had set out for him was now a lot older than the more physical abuse that the Earl and Tyki had put him through. The days locked barely able to move as he was drugged in between physical tests by central's highest paid surgeon C.R.O.W's. The numbness and constant dreamlike state meant the two bickering forces of power had set him off quite a few times, unable to tell it he was losing his mind or if they were real or worse being erased for the 'noah' to replace him. This was made worse by the few times Link was left to spend what was most likely a week but the heavy drugging made it feel like meer hours of awareness as the man was made to question him. The same questions over and over each time being made to place more emphasis on a different word waiting for Allen's story to change. An easy feat considering he was given a heavy dosage of hallucinogenic mixed with truth serum. It had taken Link 3 years until he realized that the albino boy was being framed, the higher the dosage the more insane child like babbling would spill from Allen's lips and the more the cold hearted Inspector could claim that the child was unstable and within the slow process of becoming a noah, that they had to test him now to see what worked best. Of course the man waited until after he had been left alone without food or water made to listen to distorted recordings, chained face down on a thin mattress resting weakly on a metal frame arms bound in a straight jacket layered with C.R.O.W seals his ankles chained to the bed. The room had one tiny window and was painted so the light bounced making the walls floors and roof shine bright enough that Allen ended up getting a sunburn, the cruel man using glow in the dark paint thus even into the first few weeks of the Earl's 'care' Allen was blind.

The bright lights distorted voices and the fact that all air that came through the ventilation was laced with drugs meant that the addition of hearing his innocence arguing constantly with the noah with in him. drove allen to at one point bite off his tongue, praying to bleed out and end the screaming and torture. Then the isolations stopped, he was dragged out and laid on a cold metal table strapped down and then the tried to test noah's regeneration on a teenager who had no such abilities. They took blood samples, they drilled into every last bone to get a marrow sample, the performed surgery without knocking him out only ever upping the hallucogenic drugs until they were maxed out. It had been one of the few things Allen was glad about... he had been so high off the drugs that most was blurred mass of pain and instability. Yet after the first song led to the innocence which guided him as a child and the noah which was his foster father's brother starting to work as one, they began to work out how to help his mental awareness, using more songs over and over until Allen was awake enough to sing with them, often repeating a song such as the one instinctively the three started to sing second after finishing the first.

Voices are calling
Voices are calling
Voices calling
Voices calling you
There's a voice that is starting to call us
There's a voice that we just can't ignore
There's a bell that is ringing to tell us
We're in a time and a place like never before
There's a time when we're called to be ready

It's a time when a sign will appear
There's a time when we're called to be steady
This is the moment we know, that the moment is here
Why is we are here?
Where is we will go?
Will we just disappear?
Answers we don't know

Where will the future lead?
What will the future show?
How are we to proceed?
Answers we don't know
Why is it we are here?
Where is it we will go?
Will we just disappear?
Answers we don't know

Where will the future lead
What will our future show
How are we to proceed?
Answers we don't know
Voices call from the old days
Voices tell from the past
Ancient laws and ancient old ways to recast
Voices call from the future
How will our future last?
Voices call from the future
Is the future past?

Why is we are here?
Why is we are here?
Where is we will go?
Where is we will go?
Will we just disappear?
Will we just disappear?
Answers we don't know
Where will the future lead?
Where will the future lead?
What will our future show?
What will our future show?
How are we to proceed?

Answers we don't know, we don't know, we don't' know, we don't know
Is there a better way?
Why is it we are here?
Do we go with the flow?
Where is we will go?
What is the price we will pay?
Will we just disappear?
Answers we don't know
Is there a judgment day?

Why is we are here?
Is this the final show?
Where is it we will go?
When will the piper pay?
Answers we don't know
Answers we don't know
Answers we don't' know
The voices calling
The voices calling you

For a few seconds their voices lingered in the kitchen before Allen with a tiny cough stopped forcing a partial transformation and melted back into his sand cat from curling up in front of the oven as it cooked the countless hundreds of small individual lava cakes cooking, Kokoro gently wrapping her arms around Lenalee's waste wanting to stop the other females tears, which the songs had both helped and failed. The helped ease her sorry from the fight with her brother but opened up a torrent of pain at knowing Allen faced these questions and everything else alone, the chinese girl glancing at Kanda who nodded, at the same time Allen was dealing with that he and Alma were as well trapped until Mugen and Tora resonated to sing the pair of songs Neah and Kokoro just performed for them. The dark matter within them was smaller than the innocence but their biggest issues were the memories from the people whose brains the order clone them from. Kanda decided that he was a new person more of a son to the man who he was meant to replace and thus took some memories but willing let the rest be erased by his innocence, Alma chose to think of it like a reincarnation and absorbed all of the past memories but to keep them separate. As for the dark matter it was yet another one of the billions of things they had been tracking since Kanda returned to the order.

"Are you ok?" Lenalee asked softly.

"Did Kokoro up set you two? Kokoro didn't mean to sister C.C said that the two songs that led us to be stable should be the ones we sing..." the child like heart questioned her voice wavering with unshed tears.

"No no, you didn't upset me."

"Kokoro-chan, she just thinking Allen had to listen to our bickering all alone and mad that she couldn't help him. We've made her feel helpless by mistake, Lenalee as one younger sibling to an Idiot to another. It's ok, yes you were harsh but when emotions are high brains stop working. He scared you and in your fear and rage you turned to your native language forgetting that when one translates a full sentence often words go missing. If anything I wished I had the ability to say such things to my own older brother... it I yelled at him more instead of ignoring the Earl's first work with robotics, maybe he would have never begun this..." Neah admitted soft.

"It would have happened anyway, at least the order would have." Kanda sighed.

"True but that doesn't mean I haven't royally screwed up family matters." Neah sighed watching as the group finished up before turning once more to Lenalee, to be honest he really enjoyed the chinese girl not many could have the patience to deal with her overly eccentric brother for so many years without yelling at him. Heavens knew he and his brothers were only 4 when he blew up enraged by Adam's lack of care of others and his need to build potential weapons of war (none had began that way however all of them would malfunction and injure someone before Neah could end it).

"Thanks... oh god how do I apologise he gave up everything to care for me and I've just been so heartless."

"Miss Lee there are few words that can describe you but 'heartless' has never been one. Lenalee I assure you my father will deal with Koumi and calm him however after this perhaps you and your brothers take a break from the war, I assure you it's well deserved and none would complain." Neah stated tempting the workaholic glad to have Jerry back him up.

"Exactly my dove, you need a vacation. However if you still feel the need to work and play why not go to the first order building?" Jerry cooed.

"First?" Lenalee asked.

"Mmmhm, My family's worked for the Black order many years and we've gone thru many buildings, but that's a story for another time. Anywho's you could go to the church built after finding the Cube, it couldn't hurt after all and it had its own science wing where the church allowed a group to test and experiment on the Cube." Jerry coaxed.

"Lavi would love that..." Lenalee smiled softly before seeing her brother enter, the chinese girl throwing herself into him." I'M SORRY GEGE, I'm soo sorry iii didn't mean too."

"No no sweetie it's all my fault, I went too far this time god you must have been so scared..." Koumi murmured back hugging to his sister as their estranged younger brother entered.

"Why not agree that both of you were at minor fault or I will call mom." Ming-Yue half threatened causing both of his older siblings to laugh.

"Oh my what on earth happened here?" Miranda asked her sleeping daughter curled up in her arms as she and Krory entered the grand hall.

"We had a fight but it's all well now." Lenalee explained as she got up to lead the wayward pair to their seat while Allen redressed after shifting.

"Is that chocolate I smell?" Lavi asked hugging his girlfriend around the waist gently kissing her neck earn a glare off both her brothers.

"Yes, Kanda and Jerry Helped me make some, but we might have gone just a teensy bit overboard. God thing everyone's here to have some." Lenalee laughed her voice chiming like a bell as more people all of which wearing some form of the silver jewelry that marked them as a supporter of Allen, those who rejected what what the higher up said and chose to believe in the light Allen had constantly given them.

"A teensy? Lena there enough here that it would take me a few DAYS to go threw on my own." Allen chuckled from the kitchen doorway one of the bowls in his hand as he licked the dark chocolate combination, Kanda shaking his head before licking a small smudge on Allen's cheek.

"Baka Moyashi, it goes in your mouth or in the skin. Not on your face." came the sinfully playful response causing many of those in earshot to shudder at the lazy baritone voice Kanda possessed when half scolding his lover.

"BAKANDA!" Allen squeaked flushing red as he realized how many had been affected by the obvious bedroom voice.

"Boys stop playing with your food and start helping me dish these out~ Kanda honey you can eat out Allen after I fill him up or else he just won't be able to keep up. Now start serving or lose your fun bits." Jerry continued to fan the flames earning a sharp nod off Kanda before the man moved around the dining hall placing a large serving of food at each one.

As he moved to place one on the General's table Tiedol bit back a gasp seeing the faint outline of a ring beneath black gloves before looking at the silver platter that held a tower of small mostly black cakes, small ripples of red and yellow peaked between the black giving the appearance of lava, Lenalee calmly moving about placing out individual bowls and cutlery to eat the small cakes. The artist glancing at Cross who was wincing the foolish man merely stuffing on in his mouth burning his tongue on the hot liquefied chocolate hidden within. After a few minutes of near silence as people ate and praised the delouse food a small cry came from Timothy, the young adult having finished his cake and then learning a hidden secret about the bowls. Jerry under Kanda's orders had made small silver writing that informed the order of their engagement then hidden it under cling wrap and white chocolate that matched the bowls colouring, when the hot dark chocolate rushed out it melted the white mixing into a soft grey and revealed the cling wrap, only in removing the thick layers of plastic did the wedding invitation become clear. Slowly more and more found the message hidden in the bottom as eyes turned to the pair Kanda made a small coughing sound to draw the rooms full undivided attention.

"The last Mission that the moyashi and I undertook with our future bridesmaid and best man led us to a town trapped on a lone day. That day held Allen's father and thus when the chance arose I asked if I may take his sons hand in marriage. The moment I got a yes, I proposed." Kanda stated pausing as several female order staff broke into high pitched squeals.

" It would do us both a great pleasure to invite you all, our family, friends, co workers. To our wedding this upcoming Halloween, I know that's not a lot of time to prepare but i'll try to keep the thought of Eloping out of Kandas mind until then." Allen continued after the ladies were silenced by Lenalee and Lavi.

The room erupting into cheers and congratulations before the couple got yanked apart by people eager to question them both, as they moved between the crowd answering questions as they did so.

"Will Allen be wearing a Dress?" Link teased.

" Yes." Kanda smirked glancing at his lover as Jhonny began to start taking measurements for a dress in Allens size, the japanese man knowing Allen wouldn't be able to say no to the overly eager scientist.

"Have you picked out a ring bearer and flower child?" Timothy asked.

"Yeah, Lena and I discussed it on the train back. Tim do you mind being our ring Bearer and helping our flower girls Ellen and Allena?" Allen smiled hugging the boy who was so much like himself.

"YEAH!" Timothy screamed in joy.

After several minutes both boys arrived together in front of their legal guardians the two having shed their gloves in the crowd as more and more people wished to see the rings.

"Brat." Cross growled half rising from his seat, Kanda threading their hands together sensing allens fear of the drunken man only for them both be surprised. "You did good. I assume Neahs walking ya down the to the altar?"

"Partially..." Allen muttered. "Neah and Anita will be giving me away."

"Oh Yuu..." Tiedol sniffled on the verge of tears, "Its ruddy time you two got hitched."

Tiedol's mild curse causing the couple and those in earshot to snort in laughter before Cross attempted to turn around only to fall off his chair the red hair man laying on the ground for a few seconds before stating loudly.

"I didn't think you could swear Froi."

"Honestly Marion I've been swear at least once daily since you joined the order, normally after I lose a paint brush." Teidol joked a friendly smile resting on his lips before locking eyes with Allen. "I am proud to call you my son in law. Welcome to the my family within a family once you're in ThErE Is nO EsCaPe." the painter smiled widely as his voice dropped and became downright terrifying.

"Oi only I'm allowed to purposely scare My Fiancee." Kanda snarled wrapping his arms around Allen positively refusing to let his 'father' hug the small albino.

"Oh please Yuu, Uncle Neah has more ability to frighten me than the terror of having my spine snapped in one of Tiedol's hugs. Yeah I know about that~" Allen grinned taking the teasing in strided and turning it back on to a now sheepish Frio.

The incident in question happened when Kanda was still in a more childlike form, Tiedol had noticed a few of his art supplies missing and found Kanda painting with them, the image was based on a story Lenalee had just told the sheltered teen, the fable of Thumbelina and had the 'girl' in his visions being born from a lotus flower. Tiedol in a fit of cuteness overload picked the frail boy up into a bear hug refusing the boy's pleas to be put down as Kanda wasn't used to physical expressions of love or anything resembling care. A mix of the crushing hug and Kanda's thrashing in irritation caused one of the hollowed vertebra to be crushed to dust, true it healed after a few hours thanks to the lotus curse that chained the small boy to the order but at the same time the experience had put Kanda off all hugs and contact for many many years.

"Surely you still cant be mad, at me ?" Tiedol faked a whimper that was ruined by the large grin on the painter's face before Kanda sighed pulling Allen over to the final table.

"Sorry to spring this on you so soon after truly meeting you..." Allen murmured to his biological mother.

"Sweetie I've been waiting and praying for the day you two dropped the play fight act and came out of the closet for good. Jhonny shouldn't need to make a new dress from scratch I'm fairly sure my mothers is still in my trunk, Komui found my old things from before my FALL. My mother was a very short lady much to her annoyance, you take a lot after her." Hevlaska grinned before addressing the groom to be "Yuuto I am placing Allen in your care, try not to break him in public."

The mild tease echoing around the room causing Lavi to double over laughing at the half horrified look on Allen's face let alone the more devious expression Kanda was wearing only to gulp as mugen flashed the blade millimeters from his cheek.

"Run Rabbit." Kanda warned earning a terrified squeak before the bunny hopped backwards and took off.

"Yuu." Allen began his tone sounding as if he was about to scold his lover before a dangerous smile came across his face "Make sure there's enough of him left to cook."

"Deal." Kanda grinned like a five year old before taking off after the one eyed male.

"Allen." Lenalee and Hevlaska scolded.

"I blame it on being a sand cat, they are carnivores and Hares truly are tasty in that form." Allen continued to grin.

"I'm not telling you off for that! You should have told Kanda, Gege or I get to make the final blow after all he is My Bun Bun." Lenalee laughed hearing a high pitched squeak in the background as Lavi continued to run for his life.

"My own mild scold was how much like my older sisters you are, Evelyn and Anita would definitely approve."

"Considering I dumped the Brat on Anita several times, it's no bloody wonder he acts like her." Cross smirked with bold laugh.

"That is Not something to be proud of Marion. However Lady Anita kept Allen by her side the only ladies allowed to interact with him where Mahoja and any of the girls Anita was trying to Save." Neah stated proudly.

"Save?" Lenalee tilted her head in confusion as several other people began to back up.

"Some of the ladies working at Anita's were in the slave trade. Anita would buy them get them therapy and somewhere safe to live. She controls the entire district and the port so any ship that has any kidnaped people are removed and taken to Mahoja, many of the freedmen come back in later life to work for her out of a sense of gratitude. Its highly honorable work to be a man in her shipyard even more so if you are able to save a few kids." Allen smiled brightly only to hear a grumbling in the back of the hall.

"When she wasn't wasting her life for the likes of you, she'd bring food down and give us all an education." Chaoji muttered the man heavily drunk his words echoing through the marble room causing the room to turn to look at the man.

Chaoji was often boast full and drunk and despite having not a single successful mission since the limited work he did to help secure the ark, he constantly created fight and went out of his way to belittle anyone who believed in Allen. While Rouvier was still in power Chaoji bent over backwards to become the man's protege eagerly participating or 'coaxing' weaker exorcist in to forcefully upping their syncs. To the point Teidol had him removed from the list of exorcist that he was General for, it was meant to be a warning however the man simple never learnt become more and more spiteful and isolated. Chaoji's words silenced the room and caused allen to tilt his head before the snowy haired male glared as his teacher.

"What brat." Cross started putting down his glass before sparing half a glance at the rude man before at Teidol.

"Chaoji never got over Anita's death and blames Allen for it." Teidol muttered to the fellow general causing Allen to hiss.

"That's what I thought." the sand cat growled as his glare hardened further.

"Anita ain't dead what on earth gave ya'll that idea?" Cross loudly stated.

"But the ship..." Lenalee started as Kanda returned.

"Lady Anita is a parasyte type based on water, her innocence ability is why she's not allowed anywhere NEAR the order." Kanda started rolling his eyes. "The order would burn her out or worse."

The room turned all ears listening in on the conversation as Chaoji stormed over glaring up at Kanda.

"WHAT DOES THAT MEAN!" the rude man snarled at the Japanese man Kanda not even sparing him a glance before the situation clicked in Alma's mind.

"They all thought she was dead? Why? Someone should probably tell Mahoja She's dead." Alma started innocently blinking.

"Cross I believe an explanation is in order?" Koumi stated gently.

"When I first notice Anita had innocence I nearly brought her here. Then she used it and I made her swear she'd never come to the order that she'd hide that thing and never ever follow me into battle. Her and Mahoja are parasites, Mahoja has ice, Anita water it's in their blood." Cross sighed glancing at his glass and mentally wishing it was filled with alcohol.

"And that saved her?" Tiedol asked softly.

"Not exactly... Anita's innocence can purify akuma poisoning. A common factor with parras however when submerged in water she can also heal the poison from those with her. When her boat sank she had mere seconds to activate and save everyone's life before the innocence knocks her out cold." Cross winced noticing the harsh glare from Teidol.

"Shes alive..." Chaoji muttered his eyes widening in shock.

"Course she is where do you think I healed up? Allen dumped My brother and I in a dusty abandoned underground with a ticket to anywhere we wanted so Kanda took us to her place to heal up."

"Kanda you knew this?"

"When we first arrived at her place, Mahoja noticed I kept questioning them on the Moyashi's childhood, pictures, etc. I was dragged out of bed to speak with Anita over my handling of her 'baby boy' this include being made to listen to them gush not only about how proud they were of the sprout but also useful tips." Kanda half growled from the memories.

It would have been bad enough if it was just Mahoja and Anita but Anita's enthusiasm for Allen being gay ended up waking the call girls who instant flooded the room at a speed that proved they had been outside listening in. An entire night of cooing on how sweet a child Allen had been, how many tricks (non perverted) the taught their baby boy (because every last woman in the establishment claimed to be the brat's mother by self employment.) That they were impressed he snagged such a good looking and talented man (with many questions on Kanda's progress and talents in bed some even wanting to 'inspect the merchandise'). Before the ladies turned to things that were semi useful, such as Allen's weak spots and ticklish places. Some of the Moyashi unconscious habits with an explanation where they could, what types of clothing suited Allen and things Allen had walked in as as a preteen and merely blushed rather than running for the hills or bursting into tears. When Kanda finally had the chance to gloat the information to Allen the teen fainted in terror before Kanda could ask why he would cry if he caught any of the women in bed, with a overly sappy reply when the boy finally woke up.

"Tips?" Lavi couldn't help but ask.

"They told him where I'm ticklish... and gave him blackmail." Allen sighed pouting as his lover snuggled him.

"The brat used to cry if he walked in on 'em when they were 'working' anything more than dishes and waitressing." Cross snorted knowing the story as well.

"Really?" Lavi pestered.

"I was barely 7 when I walked in on a bondage scene and thought auntie Maileen was being hurt..." Allen hissed the cat ears going flat as allen took care of the information before either of the assholes in his life could use it on him.

"Anita said it was a case of ptsd, made worse by Cross. Didn't help that what my sprout witnessed was a rougher S&M involving whips and a lot of blood. The guy was kicked out and 'taken care of' but just the look of leather on any of them sent Allen into tears until he was 13. I called her on the train when I fetch Allen more snacks she asked to be one of the people to give Allen away with Hevlaska and Neah." Kanda explained bluntly as Lenalee's eyes softened.

"Like hell she is!" Cross growled.

"You can't stop her unless you attend the alcohol free wedding. She intend to arrive in september to help with the final arrangements and spend time with her older sister, side technically she's not following you but visiting family plus if any attacks occur she has promised to flee." Kanda smirked glaring and the angry drunk.

"YOU didn't tell me that!" Allen hissed his eyes widening in shock as his mother grinned brightly.

"Ah loopholes such delightful things aren't they~" Hevlaska chuckled causing Neah to laugh.

"Hush Moyashi, we've told the order now we are going to bed." Kanda smiled hoisting Allen easily over his shoulder like a damsel in distress carrying the struggling teen out of the grand hall and threw corridor until reaching their current shared room.

"MUPH!" Allen wheezed as his was half thrown onto the soft bed.

Before Allen even had a chance to really react the tall lean male hand calmly pinned him against the silken sheets. Long black hair deliberately draping down, causing Allen's eyes to narrow the snowy haired male biting his lip in an attempt to hold back the feline urge to 'play' the dangling 'toy'. Kanda's smile growing as he teased, gently reaching behind the silver haired 'brat' to open the bedside table making sure Allen's attention was fully on his hair as the Japanese man grabbed some 'real toys' for them to play with. Every millimeter of movement sent more strands of inky darkness to fall in front of Allen's eyes causing him to trying and pull back moving his hands behind himself to further resist batting the silken hair, gasping loudly when Kanda bound his wrists locking them behind him. Allen's gasp sending more of the long hair to dance in front of his eyes quickly distracting him from the fear of being bound, carefully Kanda shifted his weight to the left moving to sit on Allen's leg briefly pressing a knee into the smaller's crouch, craning his neck with the movement so his hair fell over his neck causing one of Allen's small bite marks to peak out.

Allens reaction was exactly how Kanda predicted, the feline eyes following the hairs movement and seeing the mark causing the part cat to growl lowly. With it partially hidden the mark didn't register to the sand cat's instincts as its own mating mark, thus Allens' body surged forward only being stopped by Kanda's weight on his leg. The small pink tongue licking away the hair before sinking fangs into his beloved's neck, with his arms bound behind him Allen's too shifted his weight using Kanda's own to balance himself on top of kandas kneels, the swaying motion on the beds silk sheets forcing the shorter to make a few rapid bucking movement with his hips to nestle himself against Kanda's chest shrouded under hip long tresses. The friction from the required movement added with the scent and taste of his beloved earning Kanda a small half purr as arosal shot threw Allen's entire body. Gently so not to spook his fiancee Kanda wrapped an arm around Allen gently cupping his face, before slamming their lips together and shifting his weight forcing Allen to repeat the small bucking movements until the teen had pretty much climbed up his hips entirely, linking one dainty leg around Kanda's hips pressing their firm need against each other.

"Yuu..." Allen whimpered licking the bloodied marks.

"I'm here, keep going." Kanda urged softly gently biting one of Allen's ears, enjoying himself as Allen obeyed.

Allen's tailed twitched, eyes rolling back as his hips rolled up against his fiance's leg. Barely feeling Kanda yanking a handful of his hair nor notice the naturally dominate and slightly sadistic male sneaking a hand around to a small tub of herbs. Although Allen's current obedience was its own kind of fun Kanda just couldn't help trying to make the normally polite gentle man go wild which was why he had carefully collected the mixture of catnip, catmint, lemongrass, honeysuckle and valerian from his private gardens. Carefully Kanda dipped his fingers into the tub trying not to spill any of the ground herbs on to the bed while insuring his fingers were completely covered before pulling Allen into a kiss, when Allen broke it for air was when Kanda stuck quickly forcing his plant covered fingers into the boys mouth watching the reaction. At first Allen only showed shock at the sudden appendages rammed into his mouth and automatically started licking them only for his entire body to tremble at the taste the combination registering threw allen like a lightning bolt, fangs chomping down as he glared at the asshole he was marrying. Kanda couldn't help a chuckle at the weak resistance, as allen continued to lick and suckle his hand. Allen panted as he continued to lick pulling his head back as he began to slid off his lover's laps, thrusting his way back as he moved to deep throat the offered fingers, drool leaking from his lips as small purrs rumbled through him.

"That's it, take what you want today." Kanda smirked removing the silked fingers and tugging off his shirt.

Silver eyes darkened as the cat pupils dilated in need, before pouncing. Pushing Kanda backwards into the pillows before straddling his chest, with his arms still bound the neko began rocking his hips grinding his hard on against the chiseled chest. Purring heavily as Kanda's teeth found his nipples, before the delicate hands threaded into inky hair pushing Kanda's head back into the pillows. Allen froze, pale eyes half lidded and misty, half sitting on his fiance's chest the slim tail flopped against Kanda's legs. 'Take what you want today.' Kanda's soothing words ran through the heady haze of Allen's mind, his body partially frozen as he desperately tried to think of what he wanted. The more feline section of his mind coming to the simplest of conclusions. He wanted Kanda. He wanted his lover to tell him, guide him the way Kanda always did, he wanted to be dominated and loved. He wanted so much and yet at the same time nothing, words and actions failed him, causing his ears to droop as he sagged down cuddling his beloved, his arms curling around Kanda's chest as he pressed his face into Kanda's neck slow breathing in. The fact Kanda asked what he wanted meant so much more than the Japanese male probably realized. After all the last person to ask 'him' what he wanted was Mana. Everyone else simply told him, ordered him. Most were negative, but Kanda's orders were different, they were made from love, he trusted Kanda. He loved the dominant take charge attitude his mate held, just as he knew Kanda didn't like being in a submissive role he didn't like to be used.

"Moyashi..." Kanda sighed hugging his beloved back wondering what was running threw Allen's mind.

"Thank you. Thank you for asking however I want you, I can't think straight but I want you."

Kanda sighed before giving one of the few rare smiles, yes he had wanted to see his beloved go wild however hearing the soft sweet truth falling from the albinos lips was better in some ways. The fact that all Allen wanted was him was beyond special. Gently Kanda shifted his hips earning a soft hiss of pleasure, the mixture of herbs burned the feline making his already hard member throb. Allen shifting back looping his hands around his ankles to further present himself to his master the natural submissive waiting for Kanda's guidance. Kanda's hand began to move even before the shorter male had even finished arching his hips off the bed, gently massaging Allen's legs dark eyes watching as Allen fully relaxed before lightly smacking the boy's ass enjoy with squeaky sound that Allen let out making sure Allen was still mentally with him before repeating the movement a second time. A soft meow echoing out of the albino that melted into a purr as Kanda continued playing with his fiance, one hand grabbing a bottle of massage oil, massaging the lightly red sections before dipping down and teasing the normally tight ring of muscle lightly pressing just enough to get the tip of his finger in before moving it out to massage Allen's legs, Blue eyes twinkling in amusement as His Catboy did the work for him the small hole widening ever so slightly as soft sounds of need echoed in the air. This was what Kanda had been waiting for spearing into Allen causing him to jolt muscles tightening at the intrusion before twitching wildly as Allen moaned. Silver eyes fluttering as Kanda flipped them so Allen was sitting on top of his lover Kanda smirking as he laid back against the pillows.

"More~" Allen whimpered as his body calmed.

"I told you Moyashi, this time you have to take what you want. I know you want me and im not asking you to prove it however you spend too much time simply having things taken, so let me give this to you." Kanda stated having to resist the urge to giggle like Lenalee after she found a store that sold yaoi and yuri mangas during one of their mission while Allen was missing, at the expression on Allen's face. Allen's eyes had dilated giving a puss in boots effected as his head tilted to the left causing his just over shoulder length hair to hide his cursed mark, his ears had twisted as well one almost flat to his head as the other pointed off sideways.

"Mew?" came to softer response before Kanda sighed gently cupping the others ass and lifting it before letting go.

The movement triggering instinct as the boy began to instantly half buck his him forward and half rock upwards on his knees, the jumbled movement making kandas cock feel kinda like a corkscrew, the pun fully intensional, the raven haired male quickly putting a mild halt to the movement pulling out a long thin chain connected to a choker and a few other small items that he had hidden in the small space between the bed and the wall. The glint of gold pausing the frantic movements, owlish orbs waiting for his mates motives to become clear, mildly surprised when the choker went around his neck the chains dusting his chest before clamping on to Kanda's niples the cold metal sending a thrill through his catnip riddled senses. While distracted Kanda took the chance to slide a tube into his lovers ass alongside his member, the tube connected to a simple pump that Kanda moved under allen thus when the allen resumed moving the chains put a mild restriction to the gentle feline so not to harm his beloved and the rush of air in his ass caused Allen's hips to buck wildly tricking his body into feeling empty despite being so full. The more rational side of Allen's mind recognizing what the stoic male was doing, trying to put their relationship more on equal terms and it was definitely interesting to hear his Yuu actually making sounds as well. However neither of them were surprised with how quickly they both came, slumping together on the bed exhausted as allen kicked the pump across the room before grabbing the crushed herbs.

"Arren." Kanda murmured one hand threading into his hair.

"Promise me you won't use this on me again. Promise me..." Allen mewled causing Kanda to nod throwing the small container and throwing it directly into the trash bin.

"I swear on our wedding rings I won't use any substances that put you in a weakened state, be they aphrodisiacs or otherwise." Kanda stated soothingly staring into the hazy eyes of his soul mate.

The next morning Kanda groaned surveying the damage done to the poor formerly innocent bedroom, the herbs had scattered all through the carpet the pump had broken part of the plaster in the wall, Allen's claws had left marks on almost every item of furniture. The shower was running and a quick check showed that Allen was washing calmly that is until the knocking on their mahogany door began.

"What!" Kanda snarled only to blink seeing Hevlaska standing there, it was still hard to get used to her in her true human form.

"I wanted to warn you both that Lavi is up to something in the Dining hall because you both missed conventional breakfast time slots. Allen, Neahs currently working on plans with Koumi this time with Ming and Lena's supervision, and Cross has Timcanpy." the woman breezed into the room stepping around the broken furniture and picking the shredded fabric of what she assumed to formerly be a pair of pants.

"He doses?" Allen asked dressing existing the bathroom fully dressed and in the process of drying his hair.

"Probably trying to talk Anita out of coming." Kanda mused causing Hevlaska to nod.

"Bookman had to go to the vatican some of the other order branches made attempts to reinstate Rouvier and his cronies. Bookmans being called in to judge the trail as Bak Chan has made a formal declaration and admitted to the atrocities the rouliever family ordered his family to do along with the evidence that hideous monster still had active birthing pools..." the woman continued her voice sad and darkened.

"You ok?" Allen quickly asked.

"While you were all on you mission, I visited the Asian branch... Alma took Bookman, Bak and I too where he learnt the truth. Amongst the people who had been butchered for cloning was Anita and My owns older sister, however the stuff their was highly detailed thus Fou and I have been using the Arc to go threw all of the records. If you want to see any of the stuff its in the library section, however I recommend reading on an empty stomach, the records go back further than just that they also have records on akuma."

"Does it mention anything on why some akuma are centuries old despite the Earl only actively creating them within the last 30 years?"

"Yes. It also brought up something that sent the science department into a whirl. The first akuma's were made with innocence." Hevlaska stated only to tilt her head when both boys scoffed.

"No one else knew that but that's basic?!"

"Wait you knew?" Kanda started.

"Cursed remember and you too?"

"Woke up knowing it."

"BOYS. Do you mean to tell me that you Both knew information that Central itself did not." Hevlaska cut in between them.

"Yes. Its why level 4s and onwards start taking on the appearance of Angels. The metal is synthesised from a mixture of innocence and the Earls blood, furthermore the dusty residue of crushed innocence is used as a medium to help attach souls to the akuma body." Kanda scoffed.

"The dust is stored in the Egg that's its purpose. The Egg acts a forge for the iron and innocence to bond Maitora is the one in charge of it, cracked but not broken innocence is used to help draw out the soul required to awaken the akuma. Its in Leros tip and that's why the Earl always Lero into whoever he's using. Innocence naturally calls to all living creatures by using the corrupted and broken innocence along with Fiedlas parasites and Mrs Lee's tears creates a red liquid that the Earl drips both on the human and the metal this creates a link between the two, manipulation of souls is the earls power but he once gloated that it was like the red string of fate concept. That he binds the souls together along with his own and then the innocence does the rest as its so desperate to be healed and have a user, but there's too much dark matter for it to know anything but his command. However it's because of that that the Earl constantly has to crush innocence. It's a semi finite source as simple shattering it means it will auto reset in a new location. It's why no matter how many mission we go on we never get far, there is exactly 190 innocence but there's not that much true dark matter exactly 19 shards of dark matter exist. But but turing both to dust it can be spread out further used longer even if it's in a way weaker than its true form." Allen continued mixing what his innocence had taught him along with what he learnt in captivity. "Wait did you say we missed breakfast?"

"It took you that long!" Kanda growled playfully.

Allen glared at his fiance causing Hevlaska to laugh. "It's not funny mother!"

"Allen you dont have to call me that, although I am a little confused why you'd use mother rather any of the shorter terms." Hevlaska smiled gently.

"Baka can't. Already used the shorter ones elsewhere." Kanda answered as they started to walk down the empty hallway.

"Already used?"

"When I was in the circus... I was, I was kept more of a punching bag and as a slave along with being made to do chores. They didn't feed me or teach me anything. However despite not fully activating parasite type innocence can speak to its host and control their bodies in desperate times, Clown Crown taught me how to talk, in the broken mess of languages innocence use. She also taught me how to get food, treat my injuries, personal hygiene, self defense. Once I started talking like any child I kept asking questions seeing that I was in a circus Normal Families with normal children, I asked one of the acrobats why the tall blonde lady was hugging a boy my age before getting him an ice cream. He said that's what mothers do, and my follow up question cause me to be beaten then thrown into the lion cage covered in my own blood. My innocence protected me and gave me the knowledge that filthy freaks of nature are born of satan and dont deserve nice things like mothers. The next time my innocence acted on my behalf I called I Mamma and it glowed and light up, that's why my innocence and I are so in tune with each other, Clown Crown is my mamma and mana is my father. Anita and Mahoja insisted that I give them honorary mother hood titles preferably in my native tongue as they liked my accent. I was taught that mothers where angels set with the task of protecting and pampering their child, and that's how I see you... something I dont deserve."

Hevlaska's eyes widened in misery before half throwing herself on her son snuggling him close as Kanda stood watch, Kanda knew the story from their first mission after making the ultimatum not to report the verbal outburst the innocence in exchange for Allen never calling his innocence (something that had caused so many year of pain for other exorcists) 'mother' in their presence. Allen gently hugging back seeing how much she needed reassurance, it wasn't her fault but it was human nature to to blame oneself or others for misfortune and failure. Those were lessons Clown Crown taught him but Mana explained.

"Hey, it's ok. Yeah Kanda, Alma and and I are in a race for the crappiest childhood but I have plenty who care for me, I have you and Anita as my mothers, thousands of self proclaimed aunties, Lenalee claimed me as her brother, Lavis my uncle threw Mana and threw Mana I have even more family. I have a handsome lover and enough friends who are actively trying to help me and understand me as I deal with both medical and other issues, recent and old. If my last mission taught me anything I am loved, the words beaten into me from the circus, from Cross and his hookers, from Central and its corrupted and by the Earl and Joido. Those words were lies, I am loved, I might not ever learn to like myself or anything like that however that doesn't matter in comparison the Family you all have given me. When I first came to the order, I mentally dubbed it home, my home. A place filled with people who care and are kind well asides Bakanda but beggars normally can't be choosers. The order is still the place I call home, Mother. It always will be." Allen coaxed smoothing his mother hair as Hevlaska continued to cling to him.

"Sides I'm here to whack him before he try retreating behind that stupid fucking clown facade."

"I know, I know. This is new for all of us." Hevlaska whispered pulling back after kissing her biological sons temple.

"Ok ok, I know I swore no Bachelor party but you guys said absolutely nothing on 'engagement parties' or 'about fucking time parties', loop... EEEEKKKKKK!" Lavi stated when they entered the great hall, the rabbit knowing that Allen was fond of loopholes and having hoped his friend would appreciate the gesture.

No such luck, Kanda tore after the redhead like a demon free from hell, while Allen stood stock still as his eyes glanced around the room, his mother by his side. Lavi had gone all out the tables still remained in the large box shape from last night however they were now covered in black and crimson trimmed table cloths, silver candelabras shaped almost like lotus flowers rested on them while bowls containing red Syrian Mallow Hibiscus floated mixed with Edelweiss and Lotus flowers the flower which means was consumed by love mingling with his and Kanda's favourite blossoms. Silver cutlery and plates had been set up, thick curtains drawn creating a highly romantic gloom illuminated by thousands of paper lanterns each bearing handwritten messages most likely collected off the entire European and Asian branches of the black order, the barrier into the kitchen had been decked out using a mix of plastic baubles filled with led candles hanging off fairy lights, the soft glow showing off how fake Ivy had been threaded against the dark polished wood. The center of the room had been cleared out to allow for a large crest on a carpet to be sprawled out the Kamon in the center being the family symbol for Kanda's own, near it a group of finders who had musical training were playing a classical of songs under Noise Maries guidance as Neah insured what played where one's Allen truly adored. The sound system down low so not to hurt the either of Kanda or his overly sensitive hearing, Alma gently closing the door behind Allen knowing the boy had a chance of fleeing. Kanda freezing as well as he spotted the thick scrapbook filled with pictures and commentary that the room full of silent guest had etched out. The Japanese man pausing in his hunt sauntering past the band and muttering to the noah before offering a hand to his fiance. Lost in the moment Allen simple accepted still unaware of the countless guests that Lavi had wrangled, all sitting at their respective tables. The lovers gliding into the center of the room as a familiar tune began a violin and cello replacing the original tune of the what normally was a three guitars, the drums easing into the song as Kanda began to sing. Kanda's singing voice was something only Allen had heard before and the sharp intake of breath nearly distracting allen from the deep rich alto his lover possessed as he sung the first verse to the one 'Sappy' song they favoured.

"I wasn't jealous before we met Now every man I see is a potential threat And I'm possessive, it isn't nice. You've heard me saying that hatred was my only vice. But now it isn't true, Now everything is new And all I've learned has overturned, I beg of you... Don't go wasting your emotion. Lay all your love on me. It was like shooting a sitting duck, A little small talk, a smile and, baby, I was stuck. I still don't know what you've done with me, A grown-up person should never fall so easily. I feel a kind of fear, When I don't have you near... Unsatisfied, I skip my pride, I beg you, dear..." the barely changed lyrics poured from Kanda as he lead fiancee into a slow dance in the rooms center.

"Don't go wasting your emotion, Lay all your love on me. Don't go sharing your devotion, Lay all your love on me. I've had a few little love affairs, They didn't last very long and they've been pretty scarce. I used to think that was sensible, It makes the truth even more incomprehensible. 'Cause everything is new And everything is you And all I've learned has overturned. What can I do?" Allen soft pure voice echoed his eyes closed a faint smile on his lips as the waltzed, not even noticing as a few of the braver order members or the married ones moved onto the dance floor with them.

"Don't go wasting your emotion,Lay all your love on 't go sharing your devotion, Lay all your love on me~" the pair sung in union before ending their dance with Kanda dipping Allen backwards into a kiss.

The music returning back into the soothing classical tunes directed More by Neah as the rest of the room applauded causing the couple to finally see their was more people in the room asides themselves, no longer in their own little world Allen's entire face flushed brighter than the scarlet blossoms and ribbons that decorated the room. Oh god lord the entire freaking order had seen that! Not to mention the mass of gollum's floating amongst the paper lanterns, no doubt recording and broadcasting to those who were missing out.

"There there sugar, no one here's gonna pick on you" Jerry called with a wink "But if you two are done skipping to dessert I have a luncheon to die for ready to serve as a taste testing of ideas for your wedding."

Kanda shook his head lightly kissing Allen again before deciding to snap allen from his daze "This is a light healthy snack, you'd all be seen far too much marzipan and cream if I was enjoy my Dessert." the deep voice purred out earning a squeaky toy sound to escape from Allen before the words registered.

"BBBAKANDA!"

"Yes Mo~ya~shi?" Kanda continued calmly kissing down Allen's neck as the others in the dance floor started to return to their seats in between muffled giggling.

"Now Now, little brother, I've been helping Jerry all night cooking for you picky taste buds you can devour the veggie later." Alma calmly intercepted causing Lenalee to lose her composure completely being one of the few to understand the food based metaphors Kanda had been using.

Lavi as well chuckling heavily at the amount and extent of Kanda's vocabulary before the one eyed male rang a sharp bell causing both Kanda and Allen to wince and look at him, murder written on their faces, disappointed lust in their eyes even if Allen's was ombre with his embarrassment.

"As I said when you both arrived, I know there's a no bachelor and no bridesmaid parties but we all wanted to throw something to congratulate you both that you didn't have to organize sides this gives you poor trio of 'wedding planners' a chance to run a trail of ideas and see what sticks. So if you'll go up to the stupid big sliver thrones we found locked up somewhere in this maze, then everyone will start showering you with gifts food and well wishes." Lavi started semi seriously waiting until the couple began moving before adding " Oh and the bell is for toasting each table has one a slightly different pitch, and let me be the first to say Allen might be a cute little kitten but I had no idea the second exorcist program used dna from dogs when it came to that marzipan and cream dish."

Allen sunk into his chair recalling the few short months ago when he wished the earth would swallow him whole and wondering if this time mother nature or god would do such right Now. Kanda on the other hand had arrived at the table when his self proclaimed best friend opened his stupid mouth, it was Lavi's reflexes that saved him from the sharp silver knife thrown at his jugular. Lenalee smacking her boyfriend as she went past moving over to the table with Jerry carrying food, allen quickly hiding himself amongst his food as kanda glanced around. As much as he disliked Lavi the room did look amazing, even if he personally knew that Allen wasn't a fan or the colour red. However it was the colour of romance and passion. Nor could he fault the order for going head over heals in an attempt to show their support and care for His moyashi, which would definitely be good helping Allen's mental health. Food, friends, family.

"So have either of you sugar cubes thought of what you're using as vows yet?" Jerry commented the third time he came to their table with food.

"Not really..." Allen started his voice soft.

"Baka." Kanda rolled his eyes before lightly tapping the rose cross that was sewn on to all of the orders uniforms.

"We can do that?" Allen stated his eyes owlish as the slowly blinked.

"Yes Allen." Neah sighed "Yes they have their vows organized, or rather their just going to use a song in their place."

"A song with vows in it?" Lenalee blinked from her seat on the other side of the table.

"You'll never take us alive. We swore that death will do us part, They'll call our crimes a work of art. You'll never take us alive, We'll live like spoiled royalty, lovers and partners Partners in crime." Kanda stated.

" Run with me, Come with me. Take me away, Take my heart, take my hand. Our love will never end. Fly away with me my angel, From heaven sent, Take my heart Mi Amore." Allen murmured back.

"Aw that's so cute." Alma cheered trying (re- FAILING) to keep his voice down at Allen's level."

Kanda getting up and entering the kitchen and ignoring those working, before returning to the table with a small drink placing it in front of Allen who gave a grateful smile before drinking, Kanda's tea making as to die for, even more so his herbals ones like this one, Apple and Cinnamon the tea leaves having been soaked in honey before being strained into the cup with a small amount of milk.

"Is there any other urgent missions?" Allen couldn't help ask his voice a little louder than before as the tea help his throat still sore from last night's activities.

"There's always missions but nothing major, you work a holic." Cross barked, as Timcanpy darted to his preferred human.

"I'd rather be a workaholic than an alcoholic." Allen replied taking a sip of his drink causing Cross to snarl as he reached over to grab some food.

Three hours connecting phones only for a 10 minute conversation where Anita refused to listen to logic and reason even more so on learning that her older sister was alive not to mention Allen's biological child. Anita wasn't cut out for war, she was clever, delicate, cunny and she could hold her own in any mental battle, even if she had the fire power simply by virtue of salvaging akuma part and making their gun non toxic and portable... Antia just didn't have the strength or brute force to handle the monster when they were alive. He just wanted to protect her. God darn her nurturing nature and god damn him for ditching a child on her to trigger them.

" I take it my sisters still coming?" Hevlaska couldn't help but tease.

"The second she arrives I am locking her in the fucking Arc. Hold the blasted wedding there or else stupid apprentice." Cross snarled downing a full bottle of wine in two mouthfuls.

"Stop calling him that." Kanda growled threateningly.

"Agreed." Alma hissed, having been one of the few to have 'seen' Allen's childhood memories both of the japanese males knew how much abuse he had suffered.

"It's ok Alma..." Allen began to soothe instinctively, like anyone who had suffered domestic abuse of any form the pure hearted child was prone to making excuses and defending the one who caused so many of his self hatred.

"Listen to the wimp." Cross snorted pulling out another bottle out of seemingly nowhere.

"Master it's still early you should go lighter on tho-" Allen was cut off by the red haired man slamming his hands onto the table, standing up his one visible eye filled with drunken rage as the empty bottle shattered next to his face the glass shards digging into his flesh, the half a step forward off the older general causing Allen to try moving backward.

His chair toppling causing him to land on the broken glass, the hunk of shards that once was the bottom of the bottle spearing into his shoulder, Allen's cry of agony snapping the necromancer out of his stupor instantly darting around and trying to help allen up only for the kitten to cringe backwards, hyperventilate from trauma. Cross had been physically abusive but he had Never drawn blood but the recent jumble of hell and talking of the circus that morning had startled a different childhood fear, as Cross's bulk form shifted into Cosimo's. The glass into one of the throwing knives that had pierced his flesh decades ago. Cringing away from everyone recalling the first time he had been used, Cosimo had been drunk and with his group of friends decided to punish him for existing. The circle of people insulting and beating him in high pitched baby voices, blood blades and burns.

"Keep Walking." Neah stated putting a hand over Allen's eyes, their link clueing him into the nightmare Allen was reliving the boy hyperventilating trying to crawl away from everyone even his beloved as blood leaked from his back and splattered out with his screams. "Remember Allen What C.C taught you! Lost in your mind. I wanna know Am I losing my mind? Never let me go. If this night is not forever, At least we are together. I know I'm not alone, Anywhere, whenever. Apart, but still together. I know I'm not alone. Allen Focus You Are Not Alone. Shh it's ok now, shh there there.."

The noah kept chanting until Allen's hyperventilation caused him to faint Kanda lifting his love up and flooring it towards the medical wing with this trio of close friend hot on his heels. Neah's ghostly form dark with smoky residue of dark matter pour out of the man from his hate, tapping into the primal hate all noah's suffered in regards to humanity. Yes he knew his childhood friend had snapped out of his tantrum and truly regretted causing Allen harm however it was unforgivable that cross would dare treat the boy in such a manner to begin with.

"Iii did not..." Cross started.

"Dont. Do speak in my presence right now... I dont think i'd be able to hold back my Noah memory residing in my soul if you do." Neah stated firmly taking a deep breath starting with one hand touching his lips before pushing in a downwards motion his hand even with the floor before tilting to touch his heart then finally breathing out as his hand moved away from his chest.

The techniques was one handed down their the noah memory as a coping method for the seven deadly sins that were tied to their powers, two noahs for each sin linking the pair and giving them a power boost should they work together. Thus it was a damn shame both he and the earl shared the trait of Wrath, the violent and destructive entities within him wanted blood for blood. Wanted to put Cross threw everything his sweet nephew had suffered from his godfather. The fact such a once dear friend could have done some much to harm Mana's pride and joy. However the noah wasn't the only one out for blood Tiedol swiftly punching the fellow general hard enough to break the poracling half mask cross wore before hoisting the taller up with one arm tears in the bespectacled man's eyes as he punched cross a second time.

"HOW DO YOU manage to hurt anyone that cruelly right when they're experiencing joy, are you jealous of a 22 year old! Twice now cross twice right after Allen's starting to open up and show us his real smile you mistreat him and force into the to retreat like a omega loner to a pack of wolves!" Tiedol boomed as he shook the the womanizer by the collar of his coat, demanding and answer and not getting one. "MARIA WOULD HATE YOU WOULD HATE BECOME!"

"Maria?" Hevlaska asked one hand grasping Tiedol's wrist forcing him to let go of Cross who once release slumped onto the floor knocked out cold.

"This will all be sorted later for now I want someone to lock Cross up and forcibly sober him, strip search him for all I care." Koumi ordered, before his voice softened "Those who have finished eating get back to work. Hevlaska do you mind coming with me to check on allen before starting on the mission assement lists? Tiedol you and Neah should go for a walk, please."

It was too much, to know that her long lost baby was alive. That he had suffered so much and just kept on suffering . How had Allen kept even the facade of a smile? How did he keep walking? How could she help her son? It wasn't like she could step in and baby him, Allen was a grown adult even if he and Lavi kept their hearts in neverland. It was a similar issue her sweet Koumi was also dealing with, sudden a older brother and a mother kept from him. He was too used to being the parent figure, even if he was bad at it most of the time. Her thoughts plaguing her even as the entered the hospital wing.

"He'll be fine this time mostly a scarth." Alice soothed when they entered.

"Kanda?" Lenalee questioned.

"He had a flashback, an old one." Alma answered instinctively.

"That fucking circus." Kanda snarled as Allen groaned.

"Owie..."

"Don't scare us like that Allen." Lavi scolded lightly tapping his hand on the top of Allen's head.

"It's not like I ask for nightmarish flashbacks..." the younger whined.

"Kanda suggested that was from when you were in the circus?"

"Yes Lena, it's in the past." Allen attempted to gloss over causing Kanda's storm coloured eyes to flash.

"Bullshit, if it's causing flashbacks just because you spoke about the circus. You need to tell people, I know Alma and I already know however it's not the same as speaking out it."

"Kandas right Al." Lavi added seriously causing the younger to flinch and look at him.

"Can I start by only explaining the flash back nothing else?" came the soft reply after Allen took a deep breath.

" We can start slow."

"Can I go on a mission after?" Allen asked hopefully.

"Koumi!" Rever called darting into the room.

"What is...' Koumi started taking a piece of paper before glaring at the paper. "Allen do you recall the name of the circus."

"Its name was 'Diablo Emporium.' Why?" Allen blinked.

"There's rumours of a innocence in a circus using the name 'Cosmic Cosimo.'" Koumi said watching the young boys face.

"I want to go." Allen stated firmly.

"How about we make a Bet than.' Koumi started noticing his sister glare on him while kanda looked slightly puzzled "You, Alma and Lavi can go provided you explain the vision and go a two hour therapy session with Bookman. Also if this is the circus that harmed you then you will return to the hotel with Alma to call in backup. No splitting up, and every night you are to tell Lavi One memory of the circus of you childhood BEFORE Mana."

"And the prizes." Allen asked his eyes narrowed dangerously.

"We can discuss that after the mission, the regulator of will be your companions. Kanda I know you dont want to be away from Allen, however if we are to hide Allen from the noah we need to change things up. That and you'd be more likely to commit manslaughter if any of the ones who did mistreat Allen in his youth are present. You and Lenalee can take a mission nearby that way if the call for backup occurs you two can get their quickly." Koumi soothed, knowing Lenalee would kill him if he didn't make amends quickly.

"When I was what Mana later decided was three, I broke out of my cage and wasn't there when they let in the first 'customer'. Cosimo found me and he smashed his alcohol over my head and force me to run around the tent if I was too slow a throwing dagger was thrown at me. He waited for me to tire from dodging before he started actually trying to hit me... He always aimed for the exact same spot and nailed it each time, all four throwing daggers. The long narrow with wavy blades hit my shoulder above my innocence, after I couldn't continue he got a fire breather to burn the wound shut before taking me to his father the ringleader. For my insolence and disobedience I was whipped in front of the main crew of the ringleaders family and Cosimo's cronies. I refused to pass out, I knew they do more if I didn't 'show a backbone' however at the same time not fainting 'was proof I was a demon', so while covered in my own blood they threw me in with the malnourished lions."

"LIONS!" Lenalee nearly fainted only to earn one of Allen's gentle smiles.

"It's ok Lena, the lion's never harmed me... When I was first taken in I was thrown in with the lion's, the Alpha female saw me as hers. The killed her for going soft because they wanted man eating lions. Afterwards the other lion's would fake growls and play bites but otherwise didn't harm me, even the alpha male would only roar and raise a paw with claws only to lightly touch my skin, Clown Crown would insure I kept the act by faking screams and trying to escape the 'savage beasts'. I've never had anything to fear of animals well except the few that Cross tried to feed me too. The lion in Africa, the crocodile in Australia, the wild boar in germany." Allen sighed "It was Cosimo finding me then throwing daggers that sent me into a panic most due to the glass hitting the same second of skin."

"See Moyashi."

"I know I know but it's not like everyone hears you bitching about minor infractions of cruelty you endured as a brat. OW." Allen rubbed his head pouting at Alma after the other vertically challenged male whacking him.

"Allen, yes my brother needs therapy just as much as you do how what you dealt with isn't minor. We can leave tomorrow, as I need to find where I tossed my suitcase." Alma stated firmly before exiting the room.

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AN- Once Again please enjoy All of the great holidays that take place this time of year, also enjoy the upcoming year of the Dog. Thank you so much to my dear friend who helped me out of an author's block with the section from my dearest Friend IshInABox, who helped me out of author's block which lasted from Feb till Dec of this year. All because I kept getting ideas for stories both this one and others and getting Nowhere when I tried to put the thoughts into words.

The song List for this chapter are as followed:

-Evelyn Evelyn by Evelyn Evelyn.

-Voices By Celtic Thunder

-Lay All Your Love On Me by ABBA

-Partners in Crimes By Set If Off

-Mi Amore By Velvet

-Alone By Alan Walker (every last one of this guys songs are perfect for D. Gray Man fanfiction)