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Allen hissed in pain panting not daring to turn around hoping that the akuma had also gotten lost in the forest skidding to a halt sniffing the air carefully relaxing ever so slightly as his silent paws barely stirred the plants under him carefully shifting across the ground keeping his entire body low to the ground hiding within the shrubs his sensitive ears hearing the voices before his eyes could see them as lone tear sliding free in suffering watching the small group whom he never thought he see again the same group he could never rejoin or eve interact with.

"Yuuchan come on I was joking where are we come on tell me don't tell me where lost omg where lost you got us lost I'm sooo telling everyone this when we get out!" Lavi laughed bouncing back skilfully due to years of practice to dodge the katana.

"Lavi that's enough. Kanda are we lost I can always check where we are from the tree tops." Lenalee spoke calming he vague irritation in her voice.

"che, where not lost nor are we taking a detour the thingy said it was this way so where going this way end of fucking story." Kanda hissed sending a shiver down Allen's spine.

With a sigh Lenalee shook her head giving a tiny smile at pandas reaction Lavi resuming his bouncing, Allen keeping low to the ground tensely barely shifting letting his mind drift away from the faint bitter-sweet memories echoing in the back of his mind in order to focus on the akuma and the innocence trying desperately to ignore his Noah uncle.

"Allen go after them you miss them go you don't have to do this."

"no, they have moved on I don't wish to bring back bad memories, besides we'd never be able to be friends now, them being in this place changes nothing." Allen mental returned calmly and coldly waiting to hear the mental sigh and feel Neah backing down before moving trying to lure the akuma after him while leading his once old friends away from the innocence despite how it tuged the emotions he had been fighting daily to remove.

Just a little more, I will walk I will end this. The boy mentally coached himself threw the familiar lines resuming his careful movements threw the thick forest, relying on his senses to avoid everything wincing slightly feeling his innocence respond to another fragment of itself, sitting down to look up the tall tree the shard was in before relaxing, it burns for a second but, but then it numbs you takes you and leaves you just caught in the grey. Allen whimpered as his crystal type innocence swallowed the shard crushing it before the innocence merged with his own the already bulky rosary like collar gaining ye another small chain adding to its Gothic like nature.

"Allen akuma left nine hundred meters and approaching fast levels three to seven be careful." Neah warned quickly.

The small finger nodding giving the tiniest of hisses ash is innocence activated the crown rosary as Allen had mentally remained it splitting a few chains sinking into the ground creating a healing mist another segiments helping strengthening his tiny figurer his claws strengthening being covered with innocence along with his fang, more covering his overly sensitive ears to help buffer against the high pitch sounds made by the akuma and to help blocking him from any sonic attacks. the rest spinning around as small weapons ready for use the whole process only taking second as he crouched low to the ground shifting his weight ready to strike the first one to enter the clearing the projectile chains stabbing the akuma from all directions causing the horde to fire randomly completely missing his hiding space before he lunged onto the level seven his claws and fangs sinking deep before using the explosion to bounce onto the next akuma flipping in the air not giving them the chance to react.

The level six giggled crooning "come out come out where ever you are it time to go home and play~~~ lets play lets play tee~~"

Allen shivered pausing his adult in fear the memories springing to his mind against his will Neah struggling to calm him the Noah's voice lost under the suffering his had faced tears leaking from the sliver eyes one of the chains warping around his tiny sand cat form moving to calm him another covering his eyes giving him the few seconds unfortunately this also gave the remain akuma time to prepare themselves the mass of akuma attacking the group Allen didn't wish to interact them wincing as a mini akuma or Yokai as Allen had begun to call the little bug like devices that haunted a majority of his nightmares activated forcing his tiny kitten shaped body to start its shift to human tears leaking from the corners of his eyes as another Yokai grabgrabbed his arm.

"DON'T TOUCH ME!" Allen screeched hissing the innocence claws shredding the device in a tiny explosion before twisting the destroy remanding 4 akuma hissing eyes narrowed into slits as he dealt with the Yokai's. "IM NOT GOING BACK!"

Kanda was the first to snap out of his shock rounding on the devices carving the open quickly before whipping mugen clean insuring his weapon was in its natural peak position. Lavi and Lenalee moving to focus on Allen watching the chains reverse back into the rosary chocker, the girl making the first few steps towards their friend the boy snarling crouching backwards like a cat eyes unseeing what was in front of him lost in the past due to the akuma's words, before gold seeped into to his eyes within seconds his body changing its posture.

"Allen relax sleep… not to sound rude but I believe its best that I take my leave yeast Allen suffer any more" Neah's refined warm voice echoed firm Allen's vocal cords.

"Noah What the fuck did you do to the moyashi."

"why would I harm Allen? His father was my part of my true family, the family I denied the earl to have. Allen is all I have left, why am I even speaking to you when Allen himself decided earlier not to involve you children." Golden eyes rolled taking a step backwards into the shrubs shivering slightly eyes widening looking down to see blood wincing placing a hand over the wound controlling his Noah genes to heal the gaping hole trying to recall when Allen got hurt.

Within seconds Neah found himself pinned to a tree staring down the long well cared for well loved katana belong to the one being that Allen had endured for, the other two moving to copy pandas quick actions a shiver going threw the currently shared humanoid body sensing more Yokai moving to get closer quickly opening and closing agate under them keeping the small group with them partially so the order didn't learn about Allen's current existence and also to help his nephew knowing that if anyone could help bring the boy back to full sanity it would be he three mentally trying to work out what to do or say.

"talk. Now."

"that is Allen's story to tell. But I suppose if I don't give hints the boy will keep avoiding it… I suggest you don't mention the earl around him nor that inspector, they are the cause of Allen's suffering. Those mini akuma like things are 'Yokai' as Allen's been calling them akuma made out of pets where someone manages to get his attentions over a pet they lost their not a strong as a true akuma but their trouble some and made whole and solely to capture Allen after road and I helped him escaped, there are three main types of Yokai they are tracers, barriers, flash. Tracers act like golom's, barriers can create shields to hide akuma and also trap exorcists mainly Allen inside making it easiers for akuma and forcing innocence to deactivate. Flash is a system that only effect Allen this currently is a side effect Allen will return to 'normal' soon." Neah spoke board sitting down by the piano stretching waiting for the familiar pinching sensation before the transformation back to sand cat.

"what the fuck!" Kanda hissed as Lavi moved closer barely getting within a foot of the small sand cat before sliver eyes opened and hissed violent.

"Allen ?" Lenalee whispered kneeling down tears in her eyes.

"DON'T TOUCH ME!" the familiar voice echoed from the tiny Arabic mammal Lavi pulling his hand back as Allen panted weakly swaying for a second before taking off Kanda garbing him by the scruff of his neck pulling him to his own eye level wincing when the kitten sized cat bit him struggling failing in terror.

"Moyashi. Ow dammit Allen!" Kanda hissed watching the cat go limp eyes locking on pandas own cobalt pair.

"my name…" Allen's voice whispered the sliver eyes watering trembling within the tight grip.

"Allen breath come on its ok see shhh come one Allen there there I know I know." Neah's mental whispering came threw helping the sand cat relaxed.

"Allen? Its me Lena ?where have you been it been five years Allen where have you been all this time what going on?"

The cat trembled "I have to go, let me go, let me go."

Lavi's eye narrowed "Allen, calm down we wont ask any more ok were your friends we trust you I only have one question how the hell are you a sand cat? Their not native here nor are they tame it suits you but at the same time I don't understand please?"

"Allen, calm down now relax and breath your not there your safe now." Neah's voice echoed lightly for a second the crowned rosary shifting its feathery chains stroking its owner despite the death grip Kanda had on its owner.

"shh I wont ask ok I wont ask just tell me one day ok come one lets go home."

Kanda hissed as Allen's fangs peirced his skin a second time the and cat fighting claws out his innocence lashing out in sync as Neah's voice echoed struggling to calm Allen down ordering the innocence to stop Lenalee garbing Allen when Kanda finally dropped him wrapping him in her jacket hugging him close humming soothingly waiting for his struggle to stop wincing ever so often when the jacket couldn't protect her from his claws Allen finally passing out in exhaustion as a finger mover into the group checking the small creatures temp.

"Neah how is he?"

"his bodies struggling but he'll be fine once people stop sending him into flash backs dual mole"

"two dots." Kanda growled as his arm healed.

"I advice against taking him anywhere near the order, I left due to learning how corrupt it was not that Allen has made it any easier crushing innocence like he did today."

"he didn't destroy it dual mole, he'd never destroy it besides its what his innocence dose unlike that abomination, after al the heart gets what the heart wants." Neah spat growling letting Allen's body rest physically manifesting his soul sitting on a log.

"how corupt are we taking." Lavi spoke calmly in book man mode as Lenalee and link tended to Allen

"levier ran a few human experimentation tests on walker before calling the earl to take the boy off his hands the tests resumed after road contacted me where I was trying to break in with the help of Johnny, he's waiting in town the pair of us have been following Allen despite hi constant attempts to run away. The test levier did gave Allen's innocence the chance to become the first crystal parasite Neah's blood regrew Allen's arm in the process, the earl was the one to do the rest… that's all I know."

"Allen's to traumatised to speak of it, nor will I defy his wishes he decided earlier that these three change nothing he hadn't meant to run into them he merged then a Yokai and some level six a and up arrived the Yokai did it normal trick and these three saw it."

"Johnny he's alive?" Lenalee smiled overjoyed that to peopled she had believed dead where alive her eye swimming with tears.

"yes, asides some cat scratches and bites he gained from touching Allen and his refusal to see a damn doctor he's alive, I'm sure by know you seen how he reacts to being touched its seem to be one of the top five things you can do or say near him." link spoke calmly moving over to insure pandas arm had fully harmed without any off Allen's innocence cuts remaining knowing first hand how much those stun.

" yes defiantly, being touched mentioning the earl or that inspector or telling him to return to the order are even worse then him discovering a debt left by cross." Neah added gently his ghost like form smiling petting Allen's small head gently.

"how are we to learn what happened to the moyashi with out anyone of you telling us if we ask him hell panics and Lena you have to call your brother get a local and extended mission were not leaving that like damn martyr" Kanda snarled link and Neah both bursting into laughter of the second exorcist protective streak.

"I suppose theirs no really harm in letting you view the nightmare hews having.." Neah murmured gently the group including link sneaking closer to where Allen was still bundled up in Lenalee's coat like a kitten who's owner was planing babies and or house.

Allen pov-

sliver eyes blinked open feeling something nearby before h could hear them the new ears stung at the smallest of sounds so used to the quiet need for hunting yet another thing that he was struggling to adapt to yet, gold eyes locked down at him with a smile as gloved fingers made their way to the base of his neck gently stroking in a way that mimicked kindness, Allen's heartbeat began to speed up seeing the Noah's face and trying to move his weak body away from the soothing fingers in fear of Tyki, it wouldn't be the first time the Noah of pleasure had entered pretending to be kind and wantting to help before leaving him screaming in pain and begging for death one the very thing both sides of this stupid pitiful war denied him.

"now now shouen relax your going to need that strength of yours to eat, I bet that innocence of yours must be starving after so long. Shhh don't worry where not going to send in any more akuma in stead come to think of it I left 'Lunch-Chan' out side how very rude of me." Tyki smiled warming pulling his fingers away.

Allen's eyes widening in horror as the Noah dragged a child roughly ten inches shorter then he was when he was human and seeing that made him look like he was ten one third of the time, it wasn't until Tyki yanked the terrified child forward that Allen could see why they had caught the child her legs both of them where made of innocence like his arm was in the past to make it even more unnereving they had a high sync rate seeing that both legs where black with the hidden semi flower like pattern that only his current eyes could see trailing up like a flower on the verge of blooming once again the green cross marks beating in time with her heart as the girl struggled crying for her family lashing out at the Noah only going silent once Tyki grabbed her pulling her into his full sight.

"now now Allen don't struggle you know very well how much they hurt~ don't worry I'm sure lunch chan will be very sweet we had to go over seas for find such a delicacy for you."

both Allen and the girl slumped unresisting starring in terror at the Noah as Tyki ran his fingers along her neck place a tease in the centre

"NOW PLEASE LET HER GO PLEASE!" Allen screeched his screams echoing off the wall lashing out despite the small Tasser Yokai zapping him painfully watch as Tyki walked over to him smiling before whispering just loud enough for the two exorcists to here.

"you'll eat eventually Allen walker sand cat or not that innocence of your will make you the only differences will be what meal of the day that child will be and weather her blood will be warm. I'll be back in a week I suggest you've eaten by then or my cute tease will let her bleed out slowly."

in terror the girl looked at the small sand cat. "kitty? talk?"

Allen's eyes watered a child a damn child "yes, yes kitty talk... what's your name?"

"Maria, Maria Kazuya, I'm nine I want momma kitty, I'm scared is kitty scared is that why your crying?"

"yes, I'm scared that I cant help you I cant seem to help anyone ever more I'm sorry.." Allen trained off crying harder in misery, god why wasn't he dead why wouldn't the memories just burn away like they where meant to. He didn't want to remember- The dark night, The hard fight, the long climb up the hill knowing the cost, the brave death, the last breath, the silent whispering all hope was lost, the thunder, the wonder, A power that brings the dead back to life. Why couldn't he just forget why couldn't his innocence just let him die Lenalee would hit him for thinking like this Lavi would probably try to hug him then go silent when he panics over being touched, Kanda...

another chocked sob left the small kitten lips twisting the sound into a tiny mewl the girl dragging her self over bravely despite knowing that the people who brought her here where ever hear was brought her to be fed to this small sobbing creature retching out slowly to touch the tips of his fluffy ears fear sparking threw Allen's sorrow going completely silent watching the small girl, who gave a tiny smile here eyes flashing silver as here legs seemingly melted off into a small pair of innocence crystals the girl instictivly picking the rapidly liquidising sliver stones bringing them to his mouth.

"it might not be like but this will make you better right it will help you kitty I want to help you so please don't cry." the little girl whimpered before humming a few bares of a song Neah's power shivering gently at the music urging Allen to sing with the girl despite nighter of them being able to recall anything but the tune of some forgotten lullaby

The continued to sing and sleep for then next few weeks despite both of them staving maria was all skin and bones and had restored to sucking her thumb trying to mentally trick her self as Allen did everything possible to keep her hopes up waiting for Tyki's return almost glad when the man entered the windowless cell the tease leaving maria's neck to perch of Tyki's shoulder as Allen lunged digging his claws and fangs into the Noah's face despite how weak he felt maria made a fast crawl to the door only to be shot by the pair of twins the small girl flopping backwards into the cell as Tyki's gold eyes turned more of a melichrous sparkle to it as the Noah crushed his small bones inside his hand forcing the pitiful cat like yowls and scratches in pain till the long blonde haired twin put a hand on the Noah of pleasure shoulder shaking his head over doing more then the damage that the earl approved of being done to the small silvery cat before the smile turned in to a frown, the word was spinning despite the oxygen finally filling his lungs but it was cut off very quickly as the man chose to shove Allen hard into the splattered remains of maria's head coughing up the blood that keep slipping into his blood feeling the Noah place a yokai barrier to keep Allen in side the rapidly cooling corpse.

"Bone atpte Shouen." Tyki snarled slamming the door.

Allen whimpered as the small body moved without his will moving on instinct and at the innocence demand licking some of the gooey grey meat as Allen countlessly began to retch feeling ill, mentally begging anything and everything his innocence to god hell even to the earl to make this stop to please not have to eat the child his struggled lasted a month before everything seemed to fade and blur two months later the earl and Tyki came in smiling on finding the gory stained ball crying covered in bite marks from where Allen had tried to bite off his paws after giving up on praying for his innocence to stop he didn't want any of this but his innocence demanded to keep him alive physically just pulling him around like a rag doll just as it did when killing the only person who ever truly cared killing the person the only person whom he had relaxed and let his wishes exist around The cursed gem not even heading Allen's cries of betray the boy as his soul felt like it would fracture in its screams for a Noah to taking him out of the room for a test and experiment death hell even destroying a bit of innocence rather then being made feed to the corpse of a nine year old. A corpse that was nothing mover then sparkling white bones licked clean of blood and a pool of vomit as the kitten for expelled what it couldn't digest.

Kanda was crying a hand over his mouth the only thing stopping his from following Lenalee and Lavi as the ran to puke the whole group in tears despite Allen still being asleep as the torturous memories began to replay over and over in his sleeping mind, Neah watching weakly as link slowly returned being the first of the one who had lost their lunch to be able to return to the group the highly trained soldier raised to be even more emotionless then both the second and third exorcists and book man clan combined had lost it complete true around Allen he often acted more on what his heart and gut stated then his orders but the gruesome nature of what one Noah alone had done to him was too much it broke into a complete different realm of the horrors the earl had done unto exorcist and the rest of the world one such being sending twelve year old road out to rip out the hearts of exorcists and generals several goloms had caught the child crying after her sickeningly sweet song about looking for the heart ended and many times had fingers arrived on scene to find bunches and or crows of what ever flowers where near by.

"poor thing, still traumatised by such a minor incident I'll have to have a word with kokoro about this now wonder he do sent trust eigter of us despite us always being a part of him..." Neah trailed off rubbing away a few tears.

"MINOR INCIDENT YOU CALL THAT MINOR HOW DARE YOU!" Lavi snapped.

His lone eye narrowed into a pool of virrdian snarling in rage for Allen he wasn't mad at his friend his wasn't disgusted he nor did he pity Allen in any way what had a happened was beyond anything he had witnessed before joining and even during his times of merely being a book man apprentices however grandpa had always gotten up set and mad when it was kid involved they always suffered the worse thus he knew that the old panda wouldn't mind Lavi blowing up about the incident his friend had suffered a child whom had innocence both had died in a way true Allen was still living but that was merely a state of life, that was simply existing not truly being the lively little moyashi whom had helped him provoke a smile from their friends hell he was a broken mess that all of his book man urges demanded that he set back up like a broken puzzle or a toy that had a lawn mover go over it he had to make things right AND yet the NOAH the reason HIS FRIEND suffer within the orders wall the reason SO MANY FUCKING morons forgot that Allen was A CHILD whom Care far too much for his own good sometime DARED call it a minor incident!

Kanda was over more the less the same as Lavi only glad that Lavi had yet to truly explode the small hammer warping on Lavi's belt ready to shift and evolve in order to accept and channelled its owners fury Neah turned only paling for a second before giving a bitter smile.

"Of course it minor on a scale of one to ten that barely rats a two on the things my host has suffered threw out his life after all you barely saw any Noah there now did you? The fact the earl showed merely meant that they where ready to swap him up for the next torture, I was the one who had to sit their and watch Allen's suffering because the boy refused to had himself to me I would have locked him deep in his mind and let him rest but some red head moron had to go tell the poor child that when I took over it would be my right to kill whoever that boy cared for the most not that I would or probably even could take on Mr stick up the but samurai as the boy dubbed him hell I don't even know the person how could I kill them with out knowing what they look like !? But Naturally Allen's far too stubborn for his own good refusing one the off chance of me killing off one of the pathetic people in the order whom sold him off and left him for dead! Did you lot look for him on hearing the words Allen walkers dead no you mourned a little like good little humans and then you decided to forget him for the war!" Neah ranted in loathing Kanda flinching at the implications

Allen had cared Allen didn't want him to die true he had known that the little resilient moyashi had done so much for the sake of being friend , Allen knew when to back away from him when he was in a foul mood willing to talk and help him threw the random talkative moods and depression, helped him escape to spend time with someone who was partially his sibling and half of himself true they had attempted a sexual friends with benefits for a while but he didn't think Allen would want more hell their first was due to an innocence in the hands of a old matchmaker who thought they looked like a cute couple the second was all Koumi's fault! True he had wanted more but like hell was he going to ask for it like hell would he let the moyashi as cute ands as deadly as the teen was be the seme oh no if Allen wanted to date openly the kid had to be the one to ask. Yes they had said no string but that left louse ends for all things.

The fact that Neah had just admitted that Allen loved him just made the Japanese man want to slam his head into something hard repetitively while cursing how stubborn both he and Allen where personally blaming both of them, no wonder Allen's reaction to his name while being held by him. Lavi was still focusing on the Noah the pair squabbling violently as Lenalee and link tried to restrain the pair Kanda only just barely snapping out of it yanking Allen by the hind leg pulling him into his arms like a doll holding all four of his paws in way that relaxes cats and makes it hard for them to scratch

"Allen moyashi walker if you even think of trying to run off or bite me again so help you I'll.." Kanda hissed gently.

"you'll what hit me? Break my bones? Go on Kanda try it I'm more resilient then you think."

"I'll fucking kiss you till you pass out you god damn moyashi. Like hell am I just letting you vanish like that did you know I returned to the order to look for you hell I kick that cunt in the nuts cause he dared say your name in the same sentence as dead while giving me that bull shit look he did when he said that about Alma, Ma chan still out their following your trial of debts looking for you for me while I help get all of your moronic friends to safety to different safe house that bastard red head general of yours has around the world in the tiniest and remotest yet still comfortable locations!" Kanda snarled gentle leaning in so he was nose to nose and able to breath in the relaxing scent of there lover.

Lenalee let go of Lavi spinning on the spot to kick Kanda "You Prick you said they died on those missions with you!"

" you had goloms on you both at all times like hell was I going to risk anything the whole fing plan was to wait till the pope died so one of crosses friend could take over but its taking to long and there are complications beside the only reason I'm doing it was so I could find the moyashi."

"why?" the girl spoke looking at how the older man was current holding all the cat boys eyes widening before struggling.

"You said Just Friends no strings dammit Kanda don't you dare pull this one me now I cant take it let me go I have to go LET GO OF ME YU!" Allen hissed struggling Lavi and Neah falling silent instantly eyes on Allen's struggling as Kanda held him tight.

"you two..."

"innocence and then Koumi all before the ark just the two times, moyashi if you don't stop I will make good of my threat you know that as well as I do that where just as fing stubborn as each other your 'uncle' confirmed it." Kanda smirked spitting out the word uncle Neah gulping at Allen's seething glare.

"I KNEW I KNEW IT YAY NOW GRMPS OWES ME YES YES !" Lavi squealed.

Allen hissing in agony of the sound Kanda locking torn between attacking and continue holding Allen tightly so the boy couldn't try leaving, both both glad for Lenalee whom then spun and roundhouse kicked her boyfriend in the face with her innocence activated before continuing the pirouette back to be facing the now comfrimed lovers while link and near tried to see if the red haired rabbit was still fine.

"start talking." Lenalee spoke hand on her hips.

"It might be best to do this in town with Jhonny would be best rather then need to repeat the conversation?" link suggested as Neah faded back out of sight Kanda nodding before yelping as a near by bird exploded into a yokai.

Allen's eyes narrowed lunging at it tearing it to shreds in mid airs as it flashed forcing his body into human state, landing on his hands a feet lightly activating his eyes trying starting a search as his innocence activated to cover his naked flesh and protect him in case of more of the annoying pests that plagued its wielder, Kanda acting quickly to yank Allen back into his arms knowing the other would flee first chance he got.

"Don't touch me let me go!" the feral snarl came from Allen's lips only to be silenced by pandas own the taller older man holding Allen's head still till Allen was next to passing out before scooping his moyashi into his arms one hand warping under the innocence formed clothing so that even the smallest of squirms would cause him to grind into the samurai's hand.

"told you I always make good on my threats now be good and sit still." Kanda taunted carefully enjoying Allen's very weak glare.

Johnny smiled at the group as he scurried around the small hotel room to allocate beds for everyone deciding to split the room ever so slightly that they each have a selected space even if it was only until they could change locations to another hotel. Link carefully tending to everyone rooms while Lenalee chatted to her old scientist friend talking about all of the ones still back at the order while Kanda held Allen still trying to get the stubborn terrified boy to relax enough to talk openly about what was going on needing to know what happened before contacting cross.

"fine, fine if you'll let me go I'll talk one question each no more." Allen hissed despite still being in his human form eyes watering with tears trembling mentally deciding that after spilling they would abandon him.

The group sat down instantly as Kanda carefully placed Allen off his lap but still in garbing distance, Allen doing his best to keep himself calm and blank, while Lenalee handed everyone a cup of tea each of them mentally choosing a question.

"how are you a sand cat?" Lavi spoke tonelessly.

"because its my real form now... I died very early on in the earls 'care... they tried to talk my organs grind them up and surgically place only Neah into this sand cat, but it failed my innocence followed to to being crystal type due to the order my innocence took me with it I don't recall anything but pain at the time I'm not sure if the animal was alive or dead when they did the surgery I woke in a animal racy cage inside the earls room lulubell was the one to tell me that I had been a cat the last ten months before telling the earl that yes Neah's transplant worked but I was still here thus is was a failure not to mention my innocence refused to let them touch me for several weeks." Allen spoke tonelessly unconsciously stroking the mass of innocence acting as a collar on his form not his own innocence but all the ones that had merged with it.

"the innocence" link followed Allen turning to face him.

"the clown crown is only a fragment that was in my hand when Tyki killed me in edo he didn't know that their was an innocence on his gloves his actions let it cling to my true innocence the heart his actions awoke part of his nature of restoring itself by taking in and melding with other shards, as a human it was too much to keep me alive and also fight the akuma, when the clown crown became crystal type it made things easier taking my life out of danger in my current true for it sent the clown crown to act as the main base of the collar the small lace chains and gems are the majority of innocence that the heart has exorcised then melded to itself the process can only be done if the innocence is crystal or powered which is why it appears to destroy it in doing this its stabilising my soul

to this body. Innocence dosen't have that long of a life span only a few years before it does dormant occasional it senses something and it wakes which is how the oldest of myths relives and exorcists are sent out."

"how do you find the innocence was what I was asking Allen." link finished Allen nodding talking the true question.

"I find it because when the innocence becomes dormant the heart beings to burn need to locate the rest of its self, thus it channels my curse which also followed me into this form. Innocence even more so dormant ones never stay by their host even active ones if the sync rate isn't all that high wont stay twenty four seven with its accommodate seeing the ones in the order used to make me smile, the reason it strays is to find its true masters a good majority at the order are accommodate who's fragments haven't met them yet, in the current group out side of battle I have never seen Lavi's stay with him, Lenalee's normally is one step ahead of Lena your self.

normal leaving to the next of your daily activities by the time you arrive it focuses on checking all the other fragments making sure they are comfortable like you insure your brother and ever one else is. Mugen however is one of the odd occasions where the innocence never leaves his side in all manners the one time it did was during Alma rampage during this mugen and Alma's innocence huddled on the floor crying begging for you both to stop at that time they where sitting literally at road and my owns feet. Road is the only Noah who can see innocences true form threw her dreams when we where in pandas memories she continuously lent down to hug them promising that it would be ok that you two would stop fighting. That's two questions, Lena, Kanda, Johnny I suggest you think careful of what you want me to say because I'm not going to bother hiding anything."

the group shivered at the chilling statement Lavi wincing writing down a brief summary for his mentor after catching Allen's eye for approval the currently human sand cat giving a small sad nod knowing that one of them where going to ask something he wouldn't be able to make himself answer in pain glad the so far everything had been fairly basic stuff that he had accepted the facts and was able to move on from rather then reliving nightmares at the merest vibe of the topics.

"earlier with the yokai is that what your calling them why didn't you sense it?" Lenalee asked deciding not to give into her personal want of demanding why Allen didn't give them a sign of being alive.

"they where designed to not be seen by me. As a human before I could see lots of things many I tuned out to focus on the bigger and more dangerous things my eye could see, the scale as it saw had akuma on the top as they where generally the strongest and most pitiful and where why I had the curse in the first place, the next wash human ghosts but I could see those before being cursed had had been taught how to pass on their soul long before meeting the general

The next was innocence and accommodate but most of the time that skill was useless unless it was to find Kanda but even then id end up lost due to it id follow the innocence spirit rather then going to where its actual form was the order was a complex building and with my lack of directional skills made things difficult their where so many sprits and people merged together floating and running around that I had to turn it of to avoid getting a head ache so I tuned it out.

Then are humans which I also tuned out not seeing why I need to see their auras all the time that skill was only good if I to know when was a smart time to shut up least be beheaded or when someone need to be cheered up it also was handy to know when to duck beer bottles and when to run and hide when the general was too drunk to notice I wasn't one of his hookers.

Under that was animals but I never felt any real threat from them so again I tuned them and the next layer under them thinking they would never be needs their where only a few times I dealt with the ghost of an animal and thus it never really matters the ghosts of animals most of the time where merely consider over their owners and were content to pass on or wait for their masters to join them.

The earl created yokai to hide under those to bottom ones knowing that to see them I need to being seeing all states at the same time thus id eigter go mad or collapse due to the dizzying imagery of all colliding into my main vision meaning I would be pretty much blind un-able to tell one thing from another, thus they sit at the very bottom but their smell gives it away if I can get them fast and when other scents arent clouding my judegement." Allen finished the monotone description shoot the odd small glare at Kanda as he continued.

The group winced, not over the dispcriptions and the threat but more over all himself his entire demeanour was nothing like the ones they had seen in the past, this Allen was sharp like a whip but empty nothing reflected in his eyes asides the odd bits of hatred and fear even now Allen was shivering ever so slightly as if he was going to try to flee at the tiniest loud sound making them wonder what happened to the boy they knew and loved what happened to their Allen?

"what happen moyashi" Kanda spoke aloud.

"what do you mean by that Kanda? I said questions not a full summary of every little thing."

"what happened to you moyashi I mean to your heart true you lied like no to more with that god-damn annoy faked happiness but still there nothing of you that's the same and yet there are traces what kept them there when the rest of you is gone. What happened to the real you." Kanda continued Allen's eyes widening a fraction shoulders slumping.

"id rather not say its embarrassing and none of your business Kanda"

"hell no answer moyashi I mean it."

"memories... I think the innocence or Neah kept replaying them on me the first that always replayed first then if I was relay out of it the rest would block out everything making me relive them over and over till I relaxed... its embarrassing the first that would play." Allen's voice returned to what they where used to eyes fogged over the smallest of smiles hinting on his lips.

"go on tell." Johnny smiled warm Allen snaping out of his daze returning to the emotionless state.

"it merely something Kanda said... he found me after an integration refusing to go to the infirmary 'in your deepest pain, in your weakest hour, in your darkest night..."

"you are lovely." Kanda gave a small smirk nodding at the memory.

Lavi awed watching Allen carefully, Lenalee smiling wiping away some tears at how adorable and sweet it was to hear Kanda having said something like that it was just so sappy but natural to hear that it was how Allen held on to life by recalling one of the things his love had said to him on night when he was in need. Allen shivered on hearing Kanda say the line that gotten threw almost everything it was one of the reason he couldn't stay with them, he did fail he did break he was putting them at risk he was already struggling so hard not to hurt them he need to finish then suggest that the go to bed for the night in order to run if he stayed any longer he could never live with himself.

"it still stands moyashi it will always be true." Kanda spoke seeing Allen retreating mental.

"Johnny what is your question." Allen spoke suddenly.

"mines not really a question but a request... please stop clawing me..."

"stop playing with my ears when I'm half asleep, I'm cant sleep due to …. I can only get to half asleep I'm fully aware of everything you running test to see my reactions has me recall some other tests your lucky I haven't plucked out your eyes seeing you don't heal like a Noah" Allen spoke brutally Lenalee's eyes flying open before turning to scold Johnny

"Allen are you ok?" Lavi spoke moving closer as the sliver shifted back to sand cat.

"I'm tired I suggest you go to bed so I can rest."

Kanda's eyes snapped open feeling Allen soft fluffy body moving against him the teen smiling momentarily think that Allen was moving to curl up by his side like the boy used to only to bite back a yelp as sharp fang dug deep into his wrist jerking backwards the fluff ball still on his arm giving a faint hiss s Neah materialised garbing Allen and throwing him across the room a tiny yelp echoing waking Lenalee the only other light sleeper in the group.

"Allen? What's going on?"

"Kororo stop this right now do you want Allen o cry! If you hurt them he will he'll cry and cry and might even stop listening to you." Neah spoke sternly standing in front of the two exorcist.

"No want Len cry me no make Allen cry! They die smell bad like freaky man one kill protect Len!"

"they have innocence, kokoro nor are they like that inspector, no killing them Allen cares for them."

"Lie! They Die where that bad cloth, kill them and keep Allen safe!" the soft voice echoed from the sand cat fur on end in fury.

"if you hurt them Allen will cry. You don't like it when Allen cries are you going to make him cry again! They where that so bad man two will try to hurt them instead of normal people the can get rid of it if it disturbs you so much kokoro but I will not just watch you kill those Allen clung to life to see again!"

"I don't want to make Allen cry kokoro love Allen, no make him cry, but…"

"your not kill them kokoro and with these one's if you touch their innocence they will die and that will make Allen cry, now go to sleep and let Allen get some rest, promise me you wont try something like this again."

"fine, kokoro make deal but if they make kokoro's Allen cry they die." The small thing lowered his hackled curling into a ball on the floor.

"sorry about that, that was the Heart honestly it was easier dealing with road as a child… the heart maybe a living innocence but its relying on instinct and the mind of a small child. That instinct is mainly kill or be killed and your wearing and have the same minor scents that your bastard inspector has, the order uniform the scent of chemicals mixed with akuma oil and ash, don't worry kokoro's speaking with your innocence now this wont happen again unless you throw a heap f others who's face arn't as known to kokoro threw Allen's mind." Neah yawned his ghost like appearance flickering before fading out Kanda carefully picking his moyashi up cradling him, Allen shifting off the boys chest to snuggle against pandas shoulder purring him his sleep.

"aww" Lenalee smiled pulling out her mini camera that she had one her at all times always wanting to be read for cute moments like this, seeing the two asleep yet curled into each other a smile resting on pandas lips at the faint purring against his throat one of pandas hands lifted to pet Allen gently in his sleep.

Lavi was first to wake in the morning quickly preparing a large mass breakfast choosing foods he knew Allen loved along with ones that hi new form could eat, Neah joining him in the process the pair chatting as Neah informed him of the minor incident during the night the pair talking naturally focusing not on personal view but more bookman related topics while checking up on Kanda and Allen both awing at the pair still in the position Lenalee left them, link waking to join them viewing the lovers and work on some extras before preparing lunch and dinner and putting them in a variety of bento boxes along with snacks and sweets.

"wow your really good at this hey is that a character bento omg it is dude that's so bloody cool!" Lavi's booming voice, waking Kanda and Lenalee, but only the female exorcist moved Kanda refusing to wake Allen and felt to relaxed to have the boy… kitten by his side once more.

"hush Lavi let Allen sleep dammit you heard he has problems with getting rest. Link that looks fantastic"

"I decided to so we know who's gets what depends on the image, Lavi your image is a dragon it the foods got that its yours, Allen's food I normally mark with timcampy, Jhonny's has the flowers this is due to his parents having a flower store, Lena I've been meaning to ask koumirin or a butterfly?, Kanda's I'm laving alone, while my own is generally birds and other easy pictures." Link explained calmly.

"you can really make a koumirin meal that I have to see I chance to destroy it with no one getting hurt sounds just what I need right now." Lenalee smiled pouring out coffees. "Neah can you tell me why Allen has sleeping problem?"

"the cat senses are still too high hews yet the full chance to get used to them, shared hearing sharpen smell and taste make along with the mix of fears and his constant attempts to continue moving are driving his instincts flight or freeze, the stress isn't helping this is added to his mas of nightmares and own mind betraying him with the worse what if scenarios due to his constant fear of being touched add with the earls constant attempts to drag him back for more tests… each time I've mentioned returning to the order he and kokoro panic due to what that monster did he hooked the room up with distorted audio taking words out of context and pitching them higher so it sound like you lot where all glad to be rid of him. then there's a rough living innocence dangerous and out to kill the heart annoying monster…"

"defiantly, sorry I forgot to mention is dangerous because its has the the same absorbing thing Allen's got but instead of it merging with the innocence it destroys it, it attacked Allen while pretending to be a cardinal it killed road who broke into Allen cell while I was their to shield Allen from it leviers friends with it." Link hissed annoyed with his former idol.

"geez, moyashi he really is Mr unlucky…" Lavi sighed taking sip of his coffee.

Kanda smacking the boy in the back of the head dressed in a simple black shirt and pant Allen's front two paws and head stick out from the shirts pocket cutely Kanda having returned the large red ribbon to Allen's throat hiding the mass of collar that the boys innocence had formed, the small sliver eyes taking a sleepy glare at Lavi before yawning leaning into pandas petting. Sending the group into a mass aww finally waking Johnny

"what was that for?"

"you insulted My moyashi baka usagi and you guys woke him up by talking about what ever that thingy was called."

"its not exactly innocence link… its been feeding on dark matter as well its no longer innocence its more like dark matter it's a grey form like me…. kokoro showed me once that its host was about to become a fallen one so instead it killed its host and took its form." Allen spoke in between yawns as Kanda gently put him on the table before the tiny exorcist moved to start on his food going right for hi dango lick and nibbling his food timidly s the others sat down to eat.

"so then after here where you trying to get to anywhere Allen?"

" I was focusing on finding innocence, I thought it would help if the innocence was bound to me less town would be in danger, all but Tyki and the earl ignore me. at the same time I've been trying to loss Johnny and link while avoiding you guys…" Allen spoke pain shimmering in his eyes already on his 33rd plate of food.

"why?"

"I'm not stable and in my current state I can fight a level ten akuma and win in under a few seconds I'm forever blanking out and having flash backs and I could kill all of you in that state, what I said to Johnny was true my cell was filled with eye balls I tore out of Tyki and the earls faces, the cat instinct are stronger then my own and my innocence is ripping innocence from other object and people. I'm dead, I died and you had years to move on and you did the first time I saw you three not to long ago in Australia I'm the reason you didn't find an innocence I'll admit I nearly ran to you.

But I didn't want to hurt you the fact the order handed me over to the earl after it rang their own experiments on my hurt I cant forgive, forget or even return to the order nor will my innocence let me that time Neah ordered me to go but then I saw you lot smile and I couldn't not only did I falter by my collar latched onto a root and tied me to it till we couldn't hear you any more. This will be the tenth time we gone different paths each time I trick he akuma so you follow them away from the innocence while I take it and fend off the yokai and the fourth time I've been human and still decided not to relive myself, once or twice I found you napping and so I went over made sure you had supplies and a map and gone over to mugen, each innocence that return to the heart gives its power to me as a proxy accommodation"

"shit Allen" Link spoke harshly.

"one of the abilities is being able to talk to innocence, id ask your innocence how you where doing make sure those back at the order hadn't died yet so I know that Miranda confidence has grown along with the fact she and krory are proud parents and that noise Marie and general kloud nine welcomed a little one, that both of them are accommodation while nighter are parasite types, I actually have their innocence I'm not myself I'm a danger to others there fore I stayed back, the fact that your not giving me any method to leave like I would like means your going to have to put up with me as is."

"calm down moyashi breathe now then what's with the human one minute kitten the next."

"its Allen bakanda, I can turn back and forth of will but it hurts I tend to pass out…"

"the second method hurts but no passing out is due to Yokai's, Allen tends to remain cat its easier to run and hide in, it also means hews forever getting more kind humans dote on him and fed the cute widdle kitty where as human more are prone to attacking needlessly." Neah grinned ignoring Allen's minor glare as Allen finished eating piles upon piles of licked clean dishes filling the small room Johnny and Lenalee starting to clean.

"yet your being more docile then Ives seen you in months."

"I'm not being docile I'm being resentfully Kanda tied his on me, it's a tracer and tasser I'm going to kill cross and Koumi for building this, I cant remove it but it will stretch if I shift forms, the centre of the bow although its blends in the light it appears gold and has a what once expects to see on a cat tag on it, name, owners name, phone number which is timcampy number its finger print sensitive only the builder or the one who put it on can remove it and if he touches it creates a lead, I read crosses blue prints the fact the innoncece has expected it and obeyed uncle Neah's minor commands into bells attacked to the damn thing. Ives never liked my free will being taken or suppressed nor enjoyed feeling like I was someone property I got sick of that long before I met mana and cross knows that." Allen seethed sliver eyes narrowed into slits.

"Allen calm down, thought you left out another two things about the two switching backs one you end up naked and two if you do it then you've never success fully been able to you general have your ears and tail with pupils remain." Came the boys uncle attempt to change topics as Kanda petted him gently waiting for his lover to calm down before popping him back into the padded shirt pocket the silvery kitten melting into the strong steady heart beat.

"sorry, that is one of the reason why I didn't want to involve you until I felt more in control of myself my mood swings are never stable long and I don't like looking weak to other even before the order I was like that I wanted to wait till I could fully go back to how I used to they way mana wanted me to act." Allen muttered as Kanda moved to pet him.

"Allen its ok where not leaving you got it, now then Kanda you have some splanning to do." Lavi smiled dangerously annoyed for being left out of the loop for so long.