Danny looked old, he looked like had aged about fifty years. Jamie did not like this image of his brother, he looked so drained of any energy and or life that he once held so nicely. On his desk Jamie saw the picture of Linda and the boys and his heart beat again, at least he still had Linda and the boys. He looked to Baez across the desk who looked just as tired and lost in her work, he worried for his brother and his partner.

"Why is he so…" Jamie was lost of a description but Joe understood.

"Malevsky has had him on a wild goose chase but he has given him all dead ends on purpose, he hasn't slept in about 25 hours and he hasn't been home in two days."

"How pissed is Linda?"

"She is mad but not only for his late work ethics, she doesn't trust Sonny, she knows I guess you don't have to be a detective to figure that out." A loud voice calling for him made his jump and whip around only to discover that it was for Danny, not him.

"Reagan," it boomed again, it belonged to none other than Sonny Malevsky, he was wearing a angered expression but Jamie could see the hint of a wicked smile. Danny looked to Baez, a look of annoyance but as he got up he lost it and walked into Sonny's office, Jamie and Joe followed closely behind.

"Reagan, you are lacking in your collars, maybe I should just demote you and Baez."

"I'm sorry Sarge, we have hit a lot of dead ends, and we are trying."

"I don't see it, listen just because you are the Commissioner's son doesn't give you special privileges!"

"I have never asked for them," Danny responded sternly.

"Well you may be basic royalty here in the NYPD but I see past you, not get out and go home, you and Baez look like hell." Danny rolled his eyes and turned to leave.

"Oh and Reagan, just know that I can make what happen to Gormley happen to you if you don't shape up." Danny slammed the door behind him with hatred on his face leaving Joe and Jamie with Sonny.

The man let out a sinister laugh and smiled the wicked smile that had hinted on his lips earlier as he leaned back into his chair, proud of himself. All Jamie wanted to do was punch him in his face, wipe that sick smile off his face, and more so, he wanted to expose him for who he truly was, a crooked cop. However, he was not born; instead, he was stuck here watching as this man tormented his brother and lead a corrupt way of life, roping in any fresh blood he could to help the gangs rise and the peace flourish.

"What happened to Gormley?"

"Malevsky had him booted, he is in Staten Island now, and guess Sonny planted evidence that he wasn't it for the job."

"How is dad doing in all this, I mean as commissioner he has to be getting a lot of bad publicity," Joe remained silent, which scared Jamie slightly. "He is still commissioner right?"

"Yes but as you said he is getting killed by all these reporters who call him incompetent and saying he should be run out of officer of commissioner."

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In a flash, they had seemed to transport to one PP and here they stood in front of the desk of their father who was fighting with Garrett over how to address the press on gang matters.

"He has changed," Jamie said in concern, he could see his father seemed a little meaner and more snappy at his poor Deputy Police Commissioner.

"Oh course, this is a stress filled job and now with the gang war increasing and the blue templar on the rise all hell is breaking loose."

"Is the family helping him in this?"

"The family is broken Jamie," Joe said sadly.

"What, no that's a lie how does that fall on me?"

"It falls on us actually kiddo, I died which drove the nail into the coffin, excuse the expression and you weren't there to settle fights."

"Danny and I fought constantly, there is no way that me not being there was what drove them apart."

"Partially, Danny and Erin fight too you know and you are the middle man, I know that you hate that but it is what got them to stop fighting most times."

"All they do was ask me my opinion and usually that lead to me getting yelled at too."

"You aren't bias because you know both sides which always think about how they needed to work together to solve the problem."

"So now what they just fight constantly," Jamie asked.

"No, Danny and Erin avoid each other unless work related, they had a nasty falling out and now there is no Sunday dinner and no bonding time, hell I don't think Nicki has seen the boys in years." Jamie's stomach hurt he was physically ill of all of this; he did not know that he meant that much.

"How is Erin?" Again, a quick flash and they stood by Erin who was buried under a pile of paper work.

"Well she isn't doing great but also not horrible, she is just trying to make cases stick which is impossible these days. She isn't on the fast track to be the first woman DA."

"But she worked so hard."

"I know that but with the evidence disappearing and no witnesses because they all too terrified there is no cases and Erin is losing left and right." Jamie looked at his sister sadly; she looked exhausted.

"Is Nicki taking this okay?"

"She is okay I mean her family is unstable so she is acting a little rebellious but nothing to crazy because she understands how rough it is on her mother."

"Someone needs to do something cant Pop and Dad get them together and force them to get along." Joe let out a horribly sad sigh.

"There is no Pop anymore."

"What?"

"The family doesn't get along so there was no Thanksgiving the year he had his heart attack, Dad found him when he got home from work, that was really the last time everyone was in the same room together, no fights." Jamie was feeling physically ill; his whole world was turned upside down.

"I have to leave here please I can't be by her," Joe nodded.

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They appeared on the street and walked while Jamie caught his barring, he let in calming breaths as Joe just watched waiting for a good opportunity to speak again.

"You know you change a lot of lives, like that Baby you saved from the fire, the family of that little boy who had run away, or the kid who was part of your basketball program, he would still be in the gangs." Jamie nodded but still was not invested in the conversation. "Even the precinct is better with you; you helped a lot of people there."

"Like who," Joe stopped and motioned Jamie to walk up to the doors of the precinct. Jamie had not even realized they were there; Joe must have been a psychic to know that is where they were going next. Jamie walked in and looked around; all around it was normal.

"How has this place changed?" He asked, Joe did not say a word, instead he walked Jamie to Renzulli's office but when he walked into the room Renzulli was not there, it was an older man whom Jamie did not recognize.

"Where is Sarge?"

"He isn't here anymore, after his gambling debt he was kicked out, you helped him remember; now he is just out on the streets, his wife kicked him out and he had no money to go anywhere."

"Damn it Sarge," Jamie mumbled. He turned and walked out and a familiar woman walked by him, "Walsh!" She looked miserable and he could see that other officer's gave her death glares.

"She is on the verge of quitting, you weren't there to volunteer to help her and she never proved to them she was one of them."

"She is always one of them, everyone was just stubborn."

"Yeah but you stood up for her don't you remember that little outburst?"

"Yeah I do," He said remembering how his yelled at the whole precinct, he could remember also Eddie holding him back."Eddie," He asked Joe who just shook his head.

"You didn't talk to dad when she was accused of lying, you stand up for everyone Jamie, you know what's right and that is what saved Eddie, now she is on desk duty with Gormley."

"This is a mess, I can't do this, I don't believe this all because of me, I couldn't have made this much difference."

"But you have Jamie, you have changed so many lives and this life without you, this is what would have happened if you weren't born, it is a mess."

"Then I change my mind I want to go back, I want to be born, I'm sorry."

"It's okay Jamie, you are going back but let it be a lesson, you are worth so much and you do so much, the family may give you a hard time and you may fight with them a lot but you mean the world to them." Jamie nodded and hugged his brother as they walked back out of the precinct and down the street.

"Thanks Joe…" Jamie began but when he turned around Joe was gone and he was alone in this alternate universe.

"Great how am I going to get home," He called out as if Joe was listening, he was too busy trying to ask how to get home and didn't see the patch of ice.

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His head hurt so badly but he felt warmth instead of the cold nipping at him through his coat, then again, he did not feel like he was wearing his coat at all. He slowly opened his eyes and realized he was inside but in a dark room, from the smell he guessed that he was in the hospital but how did he get here?" he stretched but his whole body ached and he shivered with the pain instead. He pushed himself, looked around, and looked around the room as his eyes finally adjusted to the dark. He could see a window that faced the beautiful and clean streets of New York City, he sighed with relief. He looked up at the source of beeping; his monitor showed that he was stable. A faint green light cast on a chair that was in the corner of the hospital room, a chair that was occupied.

She was curled up and her jacket was covering her as her torso slowly rose and fell with her heavy breathing as she slept so peacefully. Her blonde hair fell gentle on her face, Jamie thought she looked so beautiful when she slept.

"Eddie," he called but his voice was so hoarse and weak that he was not sure he would wake her up but she shifted and sat up slowly stretching her aching limbs, sleeping in a hospital chair was so uncomfortable, Jamie knew that feeling. It took her a minute or her to register that he was awake and then she would jump up and run to him.

"Reagan, thank god, you scared the hell out of me!" She said sitting on his bed careful not the hit anything important.

"What happened?" He asked as she poured a glass of water for him, holding it to his lips and letting him drink.

"Well I was walking to my car and I saw someone lying there and when I got there I saw you, you were almost blue. I think they said you were lying there for at least twenty minutes, they say you have a mild case of Hypothermia, lucky I found you when I did because I don't think anyone was going that way to get home."

"Thanks for finding me," He tried to joke and it worked it got a small laugh out of her but she looked so worried.

"When I found you it was so scary, you were so pale and your lips were kind of blue, when I touched you, you were freezing, I had you run all the way back to run back to the precinct to get help. Whe you got here they said you had hypothermia and a concussion, you also had to get stitches." That explained a lot, he dreamt the whole thing.

"Where is my family?" he asked.

"We haven't been able to get a hold of them quite yet, you have only been out for like two hours but Renzulli is trying to get to your dad." She squeezed his hand and gave him a small smile.

"Eddie, I'm sorry…"

"No, don't it was me being pig headed and stupid, I shouldn't have gotten so mad."

"Eddie, I did it because I was worried, same when I went after that man who was fighting with his girlfriend, its because I am letting my emotions in the way."

"Jamie…"

"I have liked you since like week two, you drive me nuts but you get me and I know almost everything about me, I haven't even told my family and I am sorry I don't want to spring it on you because I don't think you feel the same way anymore and I can't keep…" He was abruptly stopped when Eddie pulled him in and kissed him on the lips, her soft lips let out a feeling of admiration letting Jamie know she felt the same.

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"Jamie thank god!" Erin burst in about twenty minutes later, she looked like she had been crying and now it was a face of worry, behind her Nicki followed with the same frightened expression. Eddie had gone down to the cafeteria which was good because they had said this was secret.

"Erin I'm fine, and you are crushing me," He said as she held him in a death grip.

"I am so sorry Jamie, I feel so stupid about the fight and I love you…"

"Erin, I know you worry, that's just how it is, its fine, I love you too." He hugged Nicki who was silent but he could tell she was relieved. The rest of the family burst in next all the same as Erin.

"God kid you scared the hell out of us."

"I'm okay Danny, a slight concussion and I have hypothermia which they have kept under control." Linda rushed over and checked his vitals and making sure everything was working, he knew that she was mother Henning him even on her day off she was in nurse mode.

"Listen kid, I'm sorry I know you are a good cop and I need to back off."

"Danny, I know you worry, its tough on me too but I am a good cop, I am glad I have you in my corner." Danny smiled and nodded, Jamie told no one of his crazy dream and soon he forgotten it, he had made up with the family and when Eddie returned the all just talked about anything and everything, glad they Jamie was okay. Jamie almost forgot that the dream happened up until a balloon with "get Well soon" on it came up with a note attached.

"Get well soon Kiddo, don't be afraid to be the middle man, you are worth more than words can say, love Joe." Jamie was shocked at first but then gripped the card close, he looked up and smiled.

"Who is it from?" Erin asked.

"A friend," Jamie asked, a really great friend, his best.