It's 2am, and
the night is dark and
the silence is as
deep as the thoughts we
breathe.
While I am the messy hair
and the tear streaked face,
he is the kiss on my bare shoulder
and the whispered
it will be alright.
I think I love you, he tells me.
You don't know me, I tell him. You shouldn't.
But I want to, he says. I want to love you.
And he kisses me,
his lips oh so very
tender
against mine;
like a question, like a promise.
And I
love
his
promises.
May I? He asks, like
a gentleman asking for one last dance and
his fingertips are playing against my spine,
gently,
like I am fragile;
like I am
a masterpiece.
You may, I reply.
Because if I said anything but,
It wouldn't
feel
right.
He replies by
pressing his lips
to mine
again,
this time
rougher
harder
hungrier;
and I know that he is
trying,
trying so hard
to be gentle,
to take it slow.
He breathes my name
between kisses,
and it is the most
beautiful thing
I have
ever
heard.
You are so beautiful, he says,
like he can read
my thoughts.
and I tell him
to go take a long, hard look
in the mirror.
His kisses trail
down my neck and
across my collarbone,
soft and
warm and
leaving us
out of breath.
I want to see you, he whispers against my neck. I want to see all of you.
We can't, I say. What about Hiro and Aunt Cass?
I'll tell them I spent the night at Wasabi's, he says, and when his teeth graze skin, I gasp. Tell them I had something I needed his help with.
You never need Wasabi's help, I tease.
I know, he says, lifting his head, hovering his lips over mine. But they don't have to know that.
I taste his tongue on mine,
and I run my fingers through his hair;
aching
wanting
needing.
His hands are slipping under my sweater now,
burning and
branding
his touch into my skin;
and I am pulling at the hem of his
goddamned t-shirt because
all I need is
to feel his skin
against my own.
Take it off, I say into his ear, voice rough.
Gladly, he replies.
He breaks away from me,
and I
fumble
as I pull his shirt off and
oh my god,
he is
so
very
beautiful.
And with my hands I
trail across every inch,
like his skin is the map that
shows me the way
home.
He is blushing now,
cheeks red
like strawberries,
and he tells me, it's your turn now.
I don't argue;
and once I am
exposed
and trembling
with want
for him;
he looks at me
like I am a
lost word
that's been waiting to be spoken,
like I am the dream that
he has been
recklessly
chasing;
and his eyes
set me
ablaze.
Stop staring, I tell him.
Don't count on it, he says.
And this time,
I am the treasure map,
I am the
constellation of kisses
and the wildfire inside
his chest.
And
everything
he
does
amazes me,
rids me of air,
and makes me crave
him,
and only him.
I still want more, I tell him, breathing hard.
I know, he whispers. I'll try.
And it's only with my back
settling on the bed
and his body
braced over mine
that I realize
that this moment is
real,
as real and
alive
as the heartbeat I feel
pounding against my palm
and the inside of my chest.
What do you want? He asks me, out of breath.
I pull his face to mine. You, I say.
And he gives it to me,
gives it his all when
he leaves those possessive,
little marks
across my skin,
and his hands are everywhere and his mouth feels like heaven and
dear God, please just let him fuck me already-
and when every layer that separates us has
disappeared like
a magician's finale,
when shivers dance
across our skin as our
flesh
goes unadorned,
he does
exactly
that,
the two of us
entwined in
a sinful embrace
as his hands
bruise
my waist
and
my thighs
wrap around
his.
I would tell him
not to stop,
but he is painting my mind
white
with divine bliss,
and my mouth is too
busy
painting the
crook of his neck
into a vibrant canvas
of violet.
I love you, he tells me, saying it
again and again with
every move of his hips
like a prayer,
like a last
lifeline;
and his name spills from my mouth
more than once,
his back raw and
red like
a testament,
a tribute to
this cardinal hunger
that's eating away at us,
burning us
alive.
And when I'm so close to
screaming his name and
his lungs are heaving with
heavy,
ragged breaths and
all I can think is
faster, faster, oh God, yes-
the both of us
come
undone,
shudders and tremors
shaking us,
releasing us,
renewing us.
Heavy breaths fill
the quiet room we're in,
and I am speechless,
because what we have just done
there are no words-
not even one,
to describe.
Can I stay the night? He asks, tucking a lock of hair behind my ear and pulling me close.
Yes, I answer. Yes please.
And when the sheets are wrapped tightly around
our bare frames
and I am
safe in his arms, his heart
beat beat beating against my own-
I shut my eyes,
wanting nothing but
to see his face
and only his
for as long as
until the
darkness
comes.