Disclaimer: I don't own Ultimate Spider-man, Marvel and Man of Action own all the rights, I only own my characters

A/N: This is an alternate ending (or foreshadowing) to "Family Reunion: Christmas Special, this will be a song fic; it will focus on Antonio. I had the idea about doing a songfic with this song but it wouldn't suit Peter in the way I see him, so I decided to use it for Antonio, letting everyone get a better look at Antonio's state of mind. The song is "Nobody Praying for Me" by Seether, please leave a review for this chapter, I really, really like reviews. Also I am very, very, VERY sorry for not updating for over a year, it was a crazy year for me and now I'm going to college, I just got a new computer so hopefully I will update more, I also had writers block as well, so any ideas for chapters with "Family Reunion" is very appreciated. I'm rambling, l take my leave and let all of you enjoy this much darker tone

Warning: there is some cursing and self-harm in the story, I bleeped out the cursing but you have been warned.

'I'm the whisper lost upon wind, I'm the amber that will burn you down, I'm the water that will drown you, I'm a star that's just a black hole now.'

Antonio sat in the middle of his room, hood up, knees to his chest and arms covering his face. After yesterday, Antonio has been in his room for the past 24 hours, only coming out when no one was around.

'I'm a terrifying danger, I'm a fruit decaying on the ground, I'm a swallower of anger, I'm the tree that falls and makes no sounds… I make no sound.'

All day, Antonio was remembering the time he spent with Angel, how he and she would interact and all the good times that the both of them had, almost making Antonio smile with all the good memories.

'Cause if I stand up, I'll break my bones, and everybody loves to see a fall unfold, ain't nobody giving up, cause nobody gives a f**k.'

But the more Antonio thought about it, the more he realized how much he affected Angel, how she would act completely different around him, how she always kept a considerable distance around him, how she would always not be with him most of the time.

'Stand up, and break my bones, everybody wants what they just can't hold, there's nobody praying for me.'

He could remember one instance when they were walking home together and their fingers touched, Antonio felt a jolt of happiness by the touch of Angel, but he could still remember how she flinched away from him and stiffen up for a split second. How quickly she pulled away and moved away from him.

'I am fungus in the forest, I'm a lizard with a poison tongue, I'm the child in the manger, I'm the one who sacrificed his son.'

He remembers seeing her around school, giving all her friends hugs or returning hugs but when she went over to him, she just gave him a wave and talk to him.

'Rust is showing on my armor, I am wheezing like an old man done, I'm the product of my anger, I'm the bullet in a loaded gun.'

He remembers one time that he actually gave her a hug and she went as stiff as a board and squirmed out of his hold, he stopped trying to give her hugs after that.

'Stand up, I'll break my bones, and everybody loves to see a fall unfold, ain't nobody giving up, cause nobody gives a f**k.'

The more Antonio thought about his old life, the more he realized how uncomfortable he made everyone feel, how no one wanted to be around him, including his only friend that he trusted.

'Stand up, and break my bones, and everybody wants what they just can't hold, there's nobody praying for me.'

Antonio raised his fist up in the air and punched himself so hard in the face, each punch for all the negative things he's done. Being bullied at school *punch*, having your parents hate you *punch*, having your little brother hate you *punch*, having no friends at all *punch*, causing the death of your family *punch*, making the person most important you uncomfortable around you *punch**punch**punch**punch**punch*, and making every bodies life around you miserable *PUNCH*.

Tears were streaming down the eyes of Antonio, letting out a scream that was almost inaudible, but to him was ear-piercing; he was just too drained to make a sound. His body was shaking violently with the tears that were streaming down his eyes. Trying to not be heard by anyone, Antonio but his lip as hard as he could, the taste of iron in his mouth as blood went down his lips.

'Cause if I stand up, I'll break my bones, and everybody wants to see a fall unfold, ain't nobody giving up, cause nobody gives a f**k.'

'Why, why me, how come I can't be happy, why can't I have what Peter and Ava have, why can't I have good friends like they do. Everyone hates me, I feel so separated from everyone else and the only important person I have in my life is dating my bully and feels uncomfortable around me. After that incident in the park, I won't be surprised if she just doesn't want to see me anymore… that's fine, I'm used to people walking out of my life.'

'Stand up, and break my bones, and everybody wants what they just can't hold, there's nobody praying for me… there's nobody praying for me.'

Wiping the tears from his eyes, the only emotion that Antonio showed in his eyes was emptiness.

And he just found out today that she was dating HIM, HIM of all people, the person who made his life a living hell. And to darken his mood, they were dating right when he went missing. Was he that obnoxious that as soon as he was gone, his 'friend' could do whatever she wanted to do; did she even worry about him when he was gone?

The more Antonio thought about this, the more set his mind was.

'There's nobody praying for me…'

'From now one, I'll stay away from everyone; I won't ruin their life anymore, I'll make sure that to keep everyone happy, too keep anyone from feeling uncomfortable, I'll stay away from them.'

"Antonio, I would advise against this." Said Rex, appearing next to Antonio. 'We should reconsi-"

'STAY OUT OF MY BUISNESS REX!" yelled Antonio, standing up and facing Rex, a look of pure rage and hate plastered on his face.

'I'm only trying to-"

'I DON'T NEED ANY HELP, I NEVER NEEDED IT AND I DON'T NEED IT NOW, LET ME DO WHAT I WANT." Interrupted Antonio, his face hardening. 'stay out of my way." Threatened Antonio as Rex was slowly disappearing.

"No, Antonio wait-"said Rex until he completely disappeared.

Returning back to his position, Antonio just sat there silently, the look on his face never leaving him. As he sat there, his shadow grew bigger behind him, forming a lump on the top. As it fully extended, two glowing red orbs slowly formed on the lump. The lump formed a red smile, a menacing look on its face.

'Heh, heh, heh, finally you break…"