Chapter 1

Harsh chills wrack his body as I find my hand resting on his forehead. He leans into the touch in a very non Fitz fashion, "god Simmons, it hurts, I'm cold" he says to me, "I know love, you'll be warm soon" I say trying to wrap the blanket around him tighter. I know there's nothing I can do for him right now but it hurts to see my other half in this much pain, this cold, I honestly didn't even think we would be able to rescue him. One minute he and Ward were walking across the ice to deliver an item from the scene to the car and then the ice ended up breaking. He went under, and then it all went to hell. The ice was to weak around the hole and we had no way of getting to him safely without the situation being made worse than it already was. "ow" I hear him say shaking me out of my reverie for the moment, his breath hitches and then he starts to throw up water.

I try to roll him on his side and he throws it up on the floor board, "Bloody hell, Ward we need to hurry" I say, "I'm trying, we're just a few more minutes away,they know we're coming, everyone else will meet us there"he says. Fitz finally finishes and then leans against me, he barely has enough energy to sit up, and although it doesn't seem possible he's colder and weaker than before. He starts to fade as we pull up in front of the hospital, they know we're coming and as soon as we come to a stop, a nurse opens the back door to the car. The nurse reaches over to feel for a pulse in his neck and then she glances at me for a second, "what's his name" she asks, "Leo" I say shakily, referring to Fitz by his given name for the first time in forever. "k hon we're going to get him taken care of all right" she asks, "yeah" I say moving to get out of the car so they can get him out. "Leo, can you hear me, we're going to get you inside alright" another nurse asks him, "yeah" he barely murmurs.

I watch as they get him out of the car and onto a gurney, blanket and all, and then transport him inside. They go through double doors and I try to follow but instead I'm pushed back and told I'm not authorized to be there, and then I'm sent to the waiting room. Once there a nurse gives me paperwork to fill out for Fitz and I go sit down beside Ward. After a period of time I finish the paperwork and give it to the nurse, then I go to the bathroom. There I finally let myself break down, I slide down the stall wall and I cry. Cry for fear of his safety and his health, cry because I'm scared , and cry because i've never been in a situation were he could've died, frankly he still can. Eventually I stop crying and go to the sink, I splash water on my face and leave to go the waiting room, needing/wanting to stay strong for him.