Disclaimer: I do not own Bloodlines/Vampire Academy.

This is your first warning! Graphic contents inside! If you can't handle it, DON'T READ!

Author's Note: For people who'll follow(ed) From Damaged to Refine, they have a familiar theme, I guess I should say. Because so far out of all the Sydrian FFs I've read there all Boy meets girl (at school, or park, even using as a fake BF), boy falls in love, girl denies boy, girls finally comes to terms, the end. Or even they're already together and their fighting all the rules against them being together. I wanted to do something different. Most of the FF I've read Sydney okay and just being emotionally abused by her father. But that got me thinking about this one FF I've read from the Mortal Instruments (Can not remember the name right now) then throw in my FDTR FF and this is what you get.

I hope you like it.

Chapter 1- Prolog

This wasn't what I expected from life. To be with a man that did not appreciate you. To be with a man that did everything he could to make your life a living hell. I blame my father for this. He said I would learn to love this said man. I do not even know if my father knew what love was. My father did not want girls, yet he got three. My sisters were married to men my father approved of.

Marcus Finch was my older sister's husband. Marcus was, what some girls might say 'a total hottie,' he had blond hair, blue eyes, and I have seen him shirtless once. Let's just say he was better looking than my boyfriend could ever be. He was nice and probably the closes thing you could get to being a gentleman. He holds the doors open, pushes in Carly's chair, and absolutely adores her. Marcus was one year older than Carly, at the age of 27 he is the Co-owner with Ian Jansen-my younger sister's husband- at the local law firm. It was a booming business, especially since they win most of their cases.

As I said, Ian Jansen is my younger sister's husband. Ian was pretty fit, maybe not like Marcus but getting there, with brown hair and eyes; I would say Zoe picked a pretty good one. He was only 22 years old, but his father was a lawyer and had been training Ian to be one since he had showed interest in becoming one himself. It was not enough that Ian was a really young lawyer, he was smart which is how he was able to finish school early. To me Zoe was a little young to get married, when she did. At the age of 18, but she too, looked totally in love.

Then there was me, Sydney Sage. Not married. Not in love. Not anything. It was painful to see my sisters in love and very happy with their lives. And I… I do not even know if I'll live to see another day sometimes. My boyfriend is Keith Darnell, Tom Darnell's' son. That would not mean much to anyone, except that Tom Darnell and my father were co-workers. Almost friends, I think. Keith was around a lot when we were younger. He was four years older than I was, but that did not stop my father from thinking that one of his daughters should belonged to him.

Since Keith was more my sister, Carly's, age he had gone for her first. However, when she made it known that she wanted nothing to do with Keith. Keith turned to the next best option, me. My father was extremely mad that Carly would not go for Keith, 'He had a promising future,' my father would say. To please him, I went out with him.

I shouldn't have.

I haven't been able to escape since then. I was only 16, being homeschooled, and hardly knew the way people were supposed to act around each other. I did not see the signs that this was going to turn into my life. The constant state of being in fear was one of many feelings I became use to over the years. However, most people think we belonged together. With his blue eyes and blond hair that apparently complimented my looks so well. He wasn't that built, but he did have a six pack and muscle he made sure he used against me.

I was a tiny thing with blond hair and brown eyes. I did not think much about what I looked like, Keith made sure I always thought horrible about myself. I do not know how someone could have so much anger, but he does and he takes it out on me. Only two people know what Keith does to me, and that is my older sister and her husband. They have covered for me many times, when I did not come home. Or just to give me a night where I didn't have to be afraid of Keith getting to me. Marcus told me just say the word and I have a lawyer, but they do not understand. They do not understand how scary it is to even think about trying to put Keith behind bars. They do not understand with the wrong word, wrong action, he will kill me.

I'm completely alone and there is nothing I can do about it.