ROSE AND DIMITRI

This story takes place during spirit bound. It starts the moment when Rose Hathaway's world turns upside down, when Dimitri tells her that he doesn't love her anymore, but this time the story will continue otherwise. What if Rose couldn't accept that fact and she would make a huge scene outside the church?

Disclaimer; I do not own vampire academy. Richelle Mead is the lucky one.

A small outburst (If we can say it small)

"I have given up on you", he said back, voice also soft. "Love fades, Mine has."

I stared at him in disbelief. All this time, he'd never phrased it like that. His protests had always been about some greater good, about the remorse he felt over being or how it had scarred him from the love.

I've given up on you. Love fades. Mine has. But mine hasn't . Never will.

"But…but Dimitri, how…how can you tell that. I thought that… I can't…" I backed up, the sting of those words hitting me as hard as if he'd slapped me. Something shifted in his features, like he knew how much he'd hurt me. I didn't stick around to see. Instead, I pushed my way out of the aisle and ran out the doors in the back, afraid that if I stayed any longer, everyone in the church would see me cry.

And yet again the awful running lessons with Dim- him, unfortunately had been useful. I couldn't speak his name and neither could I think of him. As fast as I could manage,I left the church so that I wouldn't risk making a scene out of it all. The only thing I would accomplish by doing that would be to make everyone in there believe that he was still a strigoi and I did not want that. I wanted him to be happy because I love him and he… didn't. Great!

I ran into the forest. I wanted to burst my anger, to let out all the tears instead of holding them inside like I always did. And that was exactly what I did. I imagined that one of the trees was the blond strigoi who bited Dimitri and I punched and kicked it with all the strength I had. At the same time I was swearing over the whole damn situation.

After a while I finally stopped, realizing that I was doing more damage to myself then to the tree right now. I couldn't sit still but had to get out the rage and pain inside me so instead of punishing the poor tree I started kicking the ground and throwing rocks instead. If anyone saw me right now, they'd think I was insane. Maybe I was. For a Russian god.

"What the hell'' I said when someone touched my arm.

"Calm down Rose, it's me, Lissa.'' Lissa said gently. I didn't want her here. I didn't want anyone here. Except for, of course, one person. But that person under different circumstances, which right now weren't possibly to be, if you take in mind what he told me before ten minutes ago.

''Rose what's wrong? Why did you leave like that from the church and what are you doing out here?" When she finished her small lecture I turned around to look at her, but obviously she didn't expect to see me like this: full of anger and …tears.

''Rose, why are you crying , what happened?'' She asked, even more gently than before. If that was even possible. Through the bond I felt that she was worried about me and I wanted to comfort her and tell her that everything was fine but I could not hold my anger. Not anymore. Not at that moment. Not when he had just told me that…

"What's wrong? What's wrong! Are you really asking me what's wrong? You of all people, Lissa, my best friend, you're asking me what's wrong?" I yelled out loud barely without a pause. I had to take a deep breath to not do something harsh that I was going to regret later on.

"I trusted you, you know. I thought that maybe at least you cared for me, that you understood me but you… You just…" I couldn't stop screaming at her. I wanted to tell her how hurt I'd been feeling all this time because Dimitri had refused to see me but practically begged for her to come see him. I'd wished that Lissa would've tried a little harder to convince him that he should see be but she hadn't and for that I was heartbroken in more than one way.

''Rose, I really do not know what's wrong.'' She said sadly. She was getting in my nerves.

"Yes, you do know Lissa," I breathed. "That's the worst part of it all: that you knew!" I couldn't calm down by now. I was beyond outraged and Lissa just happened to be in my way when I was trying to tear down the world and now I was taking my rage out over Lissa.

"And you didn't do anything to help me. I told you that I loved him, that he meant everything to me and that I couldn't live without him - that I can't live without him. You did nothing…" The last part came out as a whisper. The darkness was overpowering me, my heart, my body and my mind.

"Rose, calm down!" Lissa screamed back at me and all over again the darkness bubbled up inside of me.

"No I won't calm down because you knew! You even told me to stay away from him, to give him the chance to let everything sink in but what about me? Do you even know yourself why you kept me away from him?" I paused and was met by her overwhelming feelings. Sadness, hurt and confusion were all mixed.

"Then let me tell you." I said and she frowned. "Because you thought that I would hurt him. Because you didn't believe that I could truly love him. You thought that it was just a small crush and that it wasn't true love. It was a crush, a foolish and tiny crush that would soon pass!" I laughed like I was mad and maybe I was. I was starting to lose my mind because of the darkness. I was becoming shadow kissed Anna… All the darkness that my soul was holding was now free.

"Rose." She said gently but I interrupted her.

"Now everything is over, it's all over... He doesn't love me anymore." I whispered and I was surprised that she understood what I said. Νow my whole body was trembling from the truth of my own words.

"No Rose, he loves you, but he needs time to find his old self again." She told me gently, touching my hand and when she saw that I didn't interrupt her she continued, "He loves you, and besides if he didn't, he would have said that he doesn't. He wouldn't have let you all this time to press him to admit his love for you, he would have stopped you." She tried to smile unsuccessfully.

The trembling in my body was getting stronger, so strong that I had started to lose my senses a little. "That's exactly what I meant Liss." I saint gently with a voice full of pain. "He told me that he didn't love me any longer!" I screamed and then I saw a lot of guardians to coming closer to us, very close. Probably they heard our screams and they wanted to see what was going on. Honestly, I didn't care and I continued while avoiding looking at Lissa. I didn't want to see her expression.

Ι picked up a rock and threw it with all my strength in the direction that the guardians were coming and I whispered so quietly that only I could hear it, repeating Dimitri's words again,

"'I've given up on you. Love fades. Mine has.'"

And with that phrase, I fell down on my knees crying and trembling and then the darkness overpowered me completely, drained me on all the sanity that I had left and I passed out, but not before I saw a dark figure running towards me screaming something.

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