Hope

Dear Mello,

From that day, I ´ve started my own investigation. I went to the president od USA and he made me the leader of SPK. My goal was to catch Kira, the killer of L. I knew that if we´re going to win against him, one of us has to die. And I chose to pay that price. I used Lindner to find out your plans. She told you everything she knew about my plans, but she didn´t know my ultimate goal and I didn´t tell it to anyone. I was going to die for you. It sounds stupid when I am writing it down, but I want you to live. By the time you read this last letter, I am already dead. At least I know that Lindner delivered them. But back to my plans. Not everything went so smoothly. You almost disrupted my plans when you came into my HQ, demanding your old photo taken at Wammy´s. You wanted it back, but I am sure you wanted to see me. Truth is, I wanted to see you too before I went ahead with my plan. You´ve matured so much since I last saw you. You shook up my resolve when I told everyone to leave us alone and we went to my room and you kissed me. It felt so good to be in your arms. I burned your image, scent, kisses, smile into my memory. You had to leave. I let you go. I wanted to save you. For me, there was no hope. But, hope dies as last and I bet my life against Kira for that hope. Next day, I am going to sneak out from HQ and kidnap Takada on my own. Do not worry. I am not so fragile as I look. I can do it. No, I will do it. I am smiling now. Because I know I am causing problems for that bastard Kira and I am helping you at the same time. I know that you´re going to finish what I started. I love you. Forever.

N

This was the final blow to Mello´s rage. Hope dies as last? There is no hope left. Near, the one who he wanted to protect, was dead. He was his ray of hope. Mello threw away the third letter. How could he do that?! How could he throw away his life so easily? For someone like him? In that moment, Mello realized that they were each other´s hope. Near hoped that Mello would return back, the "him" he loved. And Mello realized too late, that he wished for it, too. If only he and Near weren´t so stubborn. If only they talked it out. Then neither would have to die. They would take down Kira together. Mello let the hot tears flow down his cheeks. He finally understood Near´s message.

He went over to the window and gazed out to the sky. It was azure blue. "Near, I love you too. Forever." He murmured.