This is a remake of an old fanfiction I made and I thought it sucked so now I'm redoing it. I'm also REALLY F*CKING PISSED OFF because I finished typing it 5 minutes ago and then my computer crashed and now it's GONE! So now I have to re type it all, so sorry if there are spelling errors or if it's to fast. Enjoy and be sure to leave plenty of reviews!

Lucy POV~

It's been about three months since Lissanna came back from the "dead". Everyone has been happy, and so have I. Except for one thing; Everyone has been ignoring me. Everyone except for Wendy, Levy, the exceeds, Gajeel, and even Juvia. Mira only occasionally talked to me when she brought me food or drinks, but most of the time she doesn't even know that I'm there. Ten minutes ago, for instance.

~Ten minutes ago~

I walked into the guild, saying "I'm back, Minna!"

But of course, as always, only Wendy and Juvia replied.

"Hey Lucy-San!"

"Hi Lu-Chan!"

"Hey guys!" I said smiling at them, waving at the Exceeds as they waved back. Juvia smiled and waved too, but then went back to observing Gray.

Gajeel looked at me then nodded his head, and I smiled and nodded back.

I went to the bar and sat down in my favorite spot. I glanced over at Natsu, Lissanna, Erza, and Gray. Of course they were too busy talking to notice me. I sighed.

"Mira, may I have some water?" I asked, but to no surprise, she didn't notice me. She just continued to dry a glass off with a wash cloth.

I waited a minute. "Mira?" I asked, but still, no response.

~Current Time~

I decided to give up. It's not like she really ever notices me. I should probably go get a mission to pay for my rent. I was about to get up, but to my surprise, Natsu was approaching me.

Joy filled my heart, Natsu was about to talk to e for the first time in three months!

"Hey Lucy..." Natsu said slowly. Oh how I had missed the sound of Natsu mentioning my voice.

"Yes Natsu?" I asked full of happiness.

"The team is about to go on a difficult mission, a REALLY difficult mission." Natsu said.

"I'm up for any mission! What is the mission?" I asked, pumped full of excitement. On a mission with team Natsu sounded like heaven.

"That's the problem, the thing is you can't come." Natsu said. Now I was confused.

"Oh, then why did you tell me?" I asked, worry spread on my face.

The rest of team Natsu came up to 's going on?

"Did you tell her yet?" Gray asked Natsu.

"I was about to, Ice Princess." Natsu growled.

"Hurry up then, Flame Brain!" Gray retorted.

"JUST TELL HER!" Erza demanded, an evil aura emitting from her.

"FINE! Lucy, we are kicking you off of team Natsu!" Natsu yelled.

I froze. I held in my tears and forced myself to smile.

"Why?" I asked, feeling as if I was about to explode with tears.

"Because you are weak and of no use to our team." Gray said.

"Yes, you are too weak for us and you will only drag us behind." Erza added.

I was shocked, I was hurt- no. I was HEARTBROKEN. These people were supposed to be my Nakama, but they are calling me weak?

I looked at Natsu, his expression was empty and emotionless.

"Okay, if that's what you want." I responded, even though that's not really what I wanted.

"Alright! I knew you would understand Lucy!" Natsu cheered patting my back.

"Let's go Lissanna!" Natsu said grabbing Lissanna's hand and running out of the guild.

I waited till they were gone, then I ran out of the guild.

Tears were flooding out of my eyes. I couldn't make them stop. I felt like i was stabbed in the gut.

Once I made it to my apartment, I quickly unlocked the door. I immediately went to my room and collapsed on my bed. I let my tears pour out.

This was horrible! I felt like I should just crawl up into a corner and die. Wait, die? Why is that such a comforting thought right now?

I looked up and faced the kitchen, my eyes leading directly towards the knife drawer.

Suddenly my mind went blank. All I could think about was that the only important thing in my life was gone. If it was gone, then why am I alive? I have nothing to live for now.

I slowly shuffled to the knife drawer and pulled out the first knife I saw.

My hands were sweaty and shaking as I slowly pulled the knife up to my throat.

Suddenly, a bright light surrounded me and Loki appeared behind me, and he grabbed the knife and threw it on the ground.

"LUCY! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!" Loki yelled, fear written all over his face.

I collapsed into his chest, and I started to cry again.

"L-loki! WHY?! Tell me why it hurts so much!" I sobbed into his chest.

"Lucy, what happened?" Loki asked me calmly.

"They kicked me out of team Natsu and called me weak!" I cried, pain filling my heart.

"WHAT? Lucy, you aren't weak! You can summon three celestial sprits at once! If any of them even attempted to summon PLUE they would collapse from exhaustion! You shouldn't kill yourself over them! They are just being ignorant!" Loki yelled, his voice filled with anger.

I just nodded. "Okay, I understand. You can go now, I'm gonna go to bed."

Loki smiled, I could tell he was forcing it. "Alright. Remember there are people who care about you, and if you died, they would be heartbroken."

"Okay, okay, I get it." I giggled. My spirits always knew how to cheer me up.

Loki left, and as soon as he did, I headed for my bed.

I remembered all the times that Natsu broke into my room and fell asleep in my bed. I used to scold him for doing so, but I secretly loved the warmth he gave off as he slept.

But ever since Lissanna came back three months ago, my room has been colder due to the lack of the presence of a certain fire mage.

Even though I knew he wouldn't come, I left my window open for Natsu to show him he could come in.

And of course, he didn't come.

Even if I had grown accustomed to sleeping alone, tonight I felt incredibly lonely and cold as I cried myself to sleep.

So how was it? It was probably better than the old one. Sorry if there are spelling errors, but i jsut want to upload this quickly before i screw up and accidentally delete it. Please leave a review! PEACE OUT PANDAS!

~Pai Pai Sama