Hello! so here I am again with another story ^^ hope you'll like it :)

Author's note: I had a scenario in mind and tried to build a story around it, I tried to write it like I wanted to but whatever I wrote wasn't enough and no matter what I thought I wasn't satisfied. Then I stopped thinking and I let this story write itself. Now I realize that this kind of writing tried to come out from me but I didn't let it. Now that I finally did I'm very satisfied with it.

I wrote this keeping in mind two main traits of Gii and Takumi. Those are Gii's tendencies of keeping things to himself and Takumi's character that tends to close off if hurt or betrayed.

It's from Takumi's POV
You'll find Regular POV here and there written in italic.

Read it slowly, and.. let me hear your thoughts!

Please enjoy :)

We felt the excitement of what was going to come, what we had promised, of the future lying before us, just there before our eyes, for our hands to catch without effort. We saw it, and dreamt about it, feeling the happiness that even only thinking about it brought. We sat one in the arms of the other, rejoicing in that promise, that little word that made it real.

I do.

Our life together, as accomplices to face our life, not just mine or his, but for us, as a unique creature.

We dreamt happily together, with silly smiles and playful teasing, all was calm and time seemed to be awaiting us, awaiting our coming life together, not just awaiting it, but giving us a taste of it. It was like it had already begun.

Now, as I still feel that excitement through me, I can't feel at ease. My beloved seems thoughtful, and although he doesn't show it, I know he must be growing worried about something.
So here I am now, in our living room, pretending to read a book on the sofa, while instead my full attention, and my gaze, is fully directed at my special someone across the room, who today seems to have lost his beautiful smile, and who, when his phone rang I realized, must have been waiting for a phone call.

Honey, what's going on? I wish you'd tell me...

-:-

Fleeting moments together.

Pretending everything's aright.

Time apart.

Nothingness.

That's what we have, what's insinuating between us.

Our talks, when did they disappear? When did I start to feel this longing for you? Are you really here, this close to me? How is it possible for me to start feeling this loneliness, this fear of losing you when you're just in front of my eyes?

It hurts. Why won't you confide in me? Do you really prefer to let this distance increase?

I miss you.

I miss my lover, my confident, my friend, the only one person who showed me what happiness really is.

Please come back to me.

I need you.

I didn't know it could be possible for my eyes to have never ending tears forming in them. That just thinking about what I'm losing created this heavy and empty aching in me. That I would fear being without you. That this fear would choke me and tie me down.
I'm unable to fight.

Help me.

-:-

It's been a long time since we were alone in the same room, no one disturbing us, not even phones ringing.

You're still not talking to me.

And I can't help but watching you. No more pretending. I won't pretend that I didn't notice, that you're not hurting me, that I didn't see you're hurting too. I'm tired of pretenses coming from either of us.

But you seem to have forgotten an important thing. I know you. Inside out. Just as you know me. And I know you pretty damn well. There's absolute no use in pretending. And I know what's distressing you my dear.

We are alone, in the same room, in our home, but we're far from together. You're keeping your head held down, your light brown hair does little to cover your sadness. I see you're not going to share your troubles with me, how much longer will you keep fighting this by yourself? How far do you intend to go by yourself? Love, I'm right here, won't you rely on me? We promised, don't leave me out now.

I'm watching you, and I'm tired of waiting. Honey did you forget? You thought me how not to give up. You thought me how to fight.

Yes, it hurts. I feel my tears fighting their way out even more now, but my love, you have always been my source of strength.

"Gii" I'm confident while walking up to you, I know you didn't notice me coming closer. From the chair you slowly raise your head after hearing your name. My voice is firm. I'm determined. There's no escaping now.

When our eyes met you looked surprised. Is it for the look in my eyes? That sadness, you put that there. You realize the impact of our situation just now because it's been too long since you last really looked at me, as you've always done.

"Just talk to me already" I can hear my voice, it's so strange. With some resignation in it, emptiness threatens to surface again, but you just look at me silently.

So I go on.

"Do your family not accept me?" It's what you didn't want to say. Hearing it pains you. Is that pain for me, for yourself? Or for us?

Silence.

Deafening silence. I was right.

I long to know what you're thinking.

A tear. A solitary tear escaped my eye unwillingly prompted by the feeling of rejection.

I wasn't wanted.

"It doesn't change anything between us" Oh Gii..

A mocking sigh. Don't you see it?

"It already did"

That pained look in your eyes, I've always wished I never had to see such a look. But my love, please forgive me if this is too much, I need to leave right now.

You didn't stop me. And we couldn't say anymore.