Recently I have been watching the old Waterloo Road series before the last series of Waterloo Road starts in September. Currently I am up to the start of series 5. After finishing series 4 I had an idea for a story but I wasn't sure but here it is so please enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own Waterloo Road. but I do own my characters.

Also Rachel is 40 in this and Eddie is 43.

WHAT IF? Chapter 1

What if? What a pathetic saying. People always think back on their lives and at some point say 'what if', what if this happened or what if that happened? Well I'll say in my life lifetime I have made many choices that leave me thinking what if; some choices I wish I could go back and change but know I never can.

A question that has gone through my head for many, many years. A question that although I may already know the answer to and have known for a long time I still wonder about it. A 'what if' that almost kills me every night and day, every second that goes by that I think about it.

What if he didn't leave me? What if I had asked him stay? What if he was still with me? What if?

I know saying all this makes me sound so pathetic and lonely and it's true. Over fifteen years ago I said goodbye to the man I loved and have loved since. I closed the door on any chance of love but I don't care, not anymore, I know he's happy which makes me happy. The only things I have left of him though now are my beautiful girls Em and Jaz. Without them I don't think I know what would've happened to me.

Nowadays I am the head teacher of Waterloo Road School and have been for nearly seventeen years. In those years I have met so many incredible people and have truly been touched by so many lives. I've seen kids grow into adults and I have to say that is an amazing gift, no what ifs or maybes about it.

My daughters, now nearly fifteen, have grown up in the school. Even with all the memories I just couldn't bring myself to leave. I'm scared that if I leave I will forget the place and worse, their father along with it.

So far the girls have been happy not knowing their father, a few years ago the girls did ask and because I didn't have any answers for them I made them up. I guess that makes me a horrible person but I just want to protect them.

I remember everything I told them. I said he was a very important man with an important job. I told them how much he wanted to be their but couldn't. I told them that if they need him he would be there for them and he missed them so much and loved them with all his heart. And they believed me. We even spent hours talking about him and his incredible stories.

I know that even if they have never met him they do love him with all their hearts.

And things were fine until one ordinary random day. The day I had a chance to find out some of the 'what ifs'.

When I talk about the 'what ifs' that float around in my mind I never imagine being able to find out the answers.

It was an ordinary day, normal, well as normal as a day gets at Waterloo Road can get.

I was in my office waiting for my new deputy head to arrive and whoever it was, was late. Not a good start.

Well that was chapter 1. Please Review, Follow and Favorite this story. Hope you enjoyed it.