I don't understand my feelings

South Park- Creek & Kyman

Hey there, this is my first Fanfic about Creek and Kyman (south park, for everyone who doesn't know, lol), but I hope that you'll like it anyway, hehe! :3

I don't know if this'll be more Creek or more Kyman (i think this time more creek...), cause I really like them both and am a crazy fangirl, but we'll see! ;)

And my english isn't really the best, but I hope you understand what I mean in the story, haha :D

So, this is the Introduction to the story, and it would be nice if you could review this, so that I know if I should continue or not! And the next chapters will be longer so don't worry ;)

Okay, that's it I think...well bye then and have fun while reading! ^^

I DON'T OWN SOUTH PARK OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT IS MENTIONED IN THIS FANFIC! AND THIS IS BOYXBOY, IF YOU DON'T LIKE YAOI THEN YOU SHOULDN'T KEEP ON READING! IF YOU LIKE IT, THEN I HOPE YOU'LL HAVE FUN READING IT! :3

Craig

"Screw you Craig!"

He sipped his third beer and looked at the big-boned teen, who stood before him with his arms in the sides.

"Come on Cartman, just sit down already. It was just a joke." his monotone voice was darker than when he was a kid. They were in highschool now and crazier than ever.

"GAH! Y-yeah Craig is right, GAH!" his twisting friend was sitting beside him with a cup of coffee in his shaking hands. He was a nervous kid. A fucked up kid.

"God damn, argh! Respect mah authoritah!" the tall teen yelled and sat down on a big sofa beside Kenny.

The boy with the orange parker was tasting the new drug that his weird friends sold him. He was so high that he didn't even realize Cartman taking his beer and drinking it in one draft.

"I would so totally kill that stupid Jew in a battle! He is a goddamn fag!"

Clyde giggled at the comment "That's right man, he's a fag! But you're a little crybaby, Cartman!"

"Fuck you, Clyde!"

A blond boy raised his hand, but didn't wait to be named "Maybe you shouldn't be so mean, fellas. Kyle is a very nice guy and very friendly to-"

"There goes the other fag!" laught Cyle.

Butter looked shyly at the ground.

"Whatever." Craig wasn't really interessted in such stupid jokes. He just wanted to have a good time with Tweek at his home, but then Clyde heard about their plans and invited himself and the other annoying teens of his math class.

"Where is the fucking jew anyway? Tweek told us he would be here too."

Cartman took another long sip of his beer.

"Are ya mssing him or what?"

Craig watched his drunken friend getting involved with Cartman again.

"Fuck no! Dammit, fuck you Clyde!"

"You would like to, don't you fag?"

Clyde was such an annoying asshole when he was drunk. And he sure was often.

"Shut uuup!" Eric cried.

"Maybe he's fucking Stan again, haha!"

Craig rolled his eyes.

"Dude, that's an disgusting thing to imagine!" Token spoke now, while chatting with his girlfriend Nichole for the whole time.

"Oh come on, he's so into Stan! You can see it with your eyes closed,man!"

"Clyde shut the fuck up, dammit!"

Cartman tossed his beer away.

"You're just jealous!"

"No I'm not!"

Clyde stood up and wanked a little.

"Yeah you are!"

Eric stood up too and was now VERY close to his drunken friend.

"Nah-ah!"

"Yah-ah!"

"Nah-ah!"

"Yah-ah!"

"Nah-"

"Would you two assholes just shut up?!"

Everyone looked at the raven-haired boy. Even Kenny looked up to see what was about to happen.

"You're both stupid asshole-fags and fucking annoying! Clyde you're again too drunk for even thinking and Cartman, you wouldn't even stand a chance against Stan, god damit! So now shut the fuck up!"

Wow, that was more than he has ever said in one whole schoolyear.

Butters stared and began to rub his knees "Oh boy!"

"C-Craig, that wasn't-GAH- such a good idea!"

He looked into the grey eyes of his best friend, who tried to look the other way after he noticed Craig staring imto his eyes. Somehow he looked sad... But he sure had fucking gorgeous eyes...well, whatever.

Clyde just turned around and locked himself in the toilet and after a while you could hear him barfing the shit out of him. Stupid Asshole.

But Cartman glared and had a surprising evil grin on his lips. What had he done...?

"So you think I, the amazing Eric Cartman, wouldn't get that little fucked up fag-jew to suck mah balls?"

What the-

"That's not what I-"

"Fine" he went to the front door and looked back with an creepy smile on his face "I'm so gonna accept this Challenge, and let the Jew. Suck. Mah. Balls. I'm seriousely!"

Then the door slammed and everyone wasn't quite sure what the fuck just happend.

A giggle let Craig escape his confusion.

"This will be sooo awesome, dude!" Kenny took another drag of his joint and smirked "Good job, Craig!"

"Well...do you really think he is going to do these... nasty things with Kyle? I-I mean, he wouldn't...would he?"

Butters tipped his fingers together like he always does when he's nervous.

"Oh man, Cartman is really a dick. He'll do it Butters...remember Imaginationland? You were the one who told me all the stuff that happend back then!" Token stared at his phone.

"W-Why does he -GAH -want to prove it again, i-if he already did it?! FUCK THAT'S SO CONFUSING!"

Craig took Tweeks hand without looking at him. The twitching boy stared at his hands with wide eyes. Craig could feel his cheeks began to burn and took them away again, before anybody could notice.

What the fuck was wrong with him?!

"Whatever, that jerk will never understand that his little "jew"-like he calls him- is never going to love him back!"

Tweek looked carefully at Craigs face, which let the dark-haired boy blush again.

"Love him back? What the hell Craig, are you a love guru or what?" Clyde was now standing in the livingroom door and had another beer in his hand. He never learns.

"Haha, Craig knows about homo-love! Hahaha!" Kenny sat on his laps and was rolling another joint. He was a drug addicted, a drunken bastard and a whore, but dammit he could read his surroundings better than anyone else. Craig snorted at his comment and tried to hide his blushing face from his friends, he didn't even know why he was blushing. Token giggled-not stoping writing with Nichole though-, Clyde laught and sat down next to Kenny, Butters just laught awkwardly and Tweek just stared at his friend with his twisting eyes. "Why should h-he know about that? He's together w-with-GAH- Red?!" .

Yeah right, they thought his one night stand with Red would be something serious. It was not. They were both drunk, angry and lonely. He was angry at Tweek who had canceled three appointments in the last minute.

He peered at the blond who was watching his feet with strain...and an awkwardly hurt expression. Since the one night stand he was like that. He knew Tweek didn't like Red, but this wasn't about her he thought. Craig explained that it wasn't serious, so why was he telling that he was together with her now? Was he...jealous of him? Or...of her?

Luckily he was interrupted by Kenny who stood up, before he could think more about this disturing thougt in his damn head. "Well then I'm going guys, I need to go to a certain lady, you understand?" he smirked and walked to the front door. Everyone knew he was kind of dating Bebe. More like sex-friends though.

Butters stood up too and Token took Clyde under his wing. "T-then, I'm going too. Thank you for your invitation Craig, it was very nice!" the childish teen smiled shyly and ran to the orange-parker-boy. They winked and stepped out of the Tucker household. Token grabbed Clyde under his arms and smiley at the two best friends who were sitting on the couch. "I'm taking him home. Thanks for the nice evening guys! See you tomorrow!"

Craig and Tweek nodded and the black teen tried to hold his drunken friend, so that he wouldn't die on the ground. After a while, they heard the front door shut again and the silence that was in the air now, was totally fucked up. Craig could see Tweek twitching nervously beside him and the air now was awkward. He didn't know why though.

"GAH! Should we-we do something now? But if you don't like t-too then it's okay! EVEN IF IT'S REALLY STRANGE RIGHT NOW, OH GOD SO WEIRD, SO-" Craig watched his friend and poured him coffee in his favourite cup. "Here drink it, you fuck me up when you're twitching like that."

He said it was strange...strange being around him.

He drunk it all out and sighted. "T-thanks Craig."

"Yeah..." he looked at the ceiling. It was blue like the rest of the room and the flickering lamp gave him headache. He lived alone now and had his three room basement, where nobody-exept for Tweek- could enter without his agreement. It was always like that. Craig and Tweek. Tweek and Craig. He didn't even remember when they get so close, maybe in third grade or forth? He wasn't ever interessted in friendships. People always told him that he was awkward, dull...boring, so he didn't even try to get close to someone, but Token and Clyde somehow happend to be where he was and so they talked and became kind of a group. Like the idiotic Marsh-group: Eric Cartman, the egoistic fatass; Stan Marsh, the Quarterback star; Kenny McCormick , the whore of the school and Kyle Broflovski, the intelligent Jew-kid. Sometimes he happend to have one of those fucked up adventures with them, and he hated it. The people of South Park are ALL total idiots and too crazy for Craigs liking.

But Tweek...he was totally crazy himself, but somehow he liked being around him. It was like the twitching was relaxing him in one way or another...like he was comfortable being around him, he liked it...maybe he even lo-

"I gotta go now, Craig! My mum told me n-not to come home too ! WAY TO MUCH PRESSURE!"

The sudden movement of his blonde friend let him realized what he was about to think and he stood up too. "Okay." He put his hands in the pockets of his jeans and walked him to the front door. Tweek turned around when he was standing on the steps "W-well then...see you a-at school Craig! GAH GOD DAMMIT!".

"Yeah, see you."

He waved and disappeared in the darkness of the cold night. Craig watched him leave and after a while he went inside again. He leaned against the door. Damn, why was he feeling so confused right now?! This was going on since last week when he realized that Tweek was somehow different around him, even now he wasn't really talking with him. What the heck was his problem anyway?!

And now there was the problem with Cartman too, what does he want to do to Kyle? Can't he leave him alone?

The next few weeks will be totally annoying and he wasn't really looking forward to it...but, maybe he could talk a bit to Tweek why it was so weird to be with him...

Whatever, he turned the lights off, slipped into his bed and pulled the blanket over his long body.

Tomorrow will be an awful day.

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