I'm not sure why I am writing this. It just sort of happened. I always thought the Red X and Terra ship was interesting, but there were never any fanfictions about it. So one must change that, yes?

I actually started crying in the middle of writing this. My fault for using first person. The romance will come slow, but steady. So please be patient. Other than that please read and reveiw. This is my first Titan fanfiction and I am hoping to make this good. I don't own any of these characters. I just hold their controls.

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You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.

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"You want me to capture that? She's just a girl. For heaven's sakes she in a uniform."

"Will this be a problem Mister X? I thought stealing things were your specialty."

"It is. But when you contacted me I thought I would be ransacking a bank. Not kidnapping."

"I am getting impatient X. I can always take my offer elsewhere."

"Humph. I'll get you the girl. It will be a piece of cake. I won't even need to use my belt."

"Don't underestimate her boy; you have no clue what you are dealing with here."

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I always wondered what it would be like to be normal. Well what is normal, really? I always thought that being normal meant waking up every day in a simple apartment. It would my mom waking me up of course. Alarm clocks always seemed too loud and obnoxious to me. I would eat a bowl of cereal for breakfast and run down to the bus stop. I would go to school, and have a locker. A locker with stickers in it, and maybe a few pictures of some boy band or something. Soccer practice would follow the three thirty bell, and I would be end up sweating through my gym clothes. Then I would head back home,and spend way to much time on homework. My family would gather around a small dinner table at night. Maybe say a prayer. This would my favorite part of the day I think. All of us together, just my family and me. It seems like not much. But it was one of my dreams.

I actually wanted this.

Being a princess may seem fun for most girls. I was the daughter of the king of Markovia. I got anything I wanted, when I wanted it. I guess it was cool, but I never got to do anything for myself. My mother and father thought I was helpless. People were always telling me what to do. Me- and my brother.

I had a brother named Brion. He goes by Geo-Force now. I got to see him about a month ago, him and Beast Boy. They didn't notice that I was aware of their presence. …Sorry getting off topic.

People were always telling my brother and me what to do. We went along with it. We went along with it so much that we let some freaks experiment on us. They attempted to exploit us, but my brother knew better. He used the powers they gave him to fight the scientists. I decide to fight as well.

Every time I use my powers it feels like I have just drunk a large cup of hot chocolate. –No make that tea, defiantly tea for the taste in my mouth when I moved large rocks. It was this warmness that filled me up whenever the earth bended at my will. It always felt great.

It always felt great, except for the first time. The first time is always the hardest.

I remember the blood. Crimson dribbled out of the rocks impaled in the man's chest. I killed him. I only meant to knock him unconscious, but it didn't happen. My attack was stronger than I planned it to be. So strong I couldn't control it. I was a murderer.

So I ran.

For once, nobody was in command of my life. I traveled all over the world. Paris, Budapest, Sydney, Giza, and Gotham were my favorite places to go. I was alone, but I was happy more or less. My life was my own. I could do whatever I wanted. So why did I continue to try and be a hero?

There is trouble everywhere you go. And I am a magnet for trouble. I would try to help, but it would always back fire. I would end up causing more harm than good, but I kept on trying. My failures were a weight on my shoulders that I could not shake. They kept me awake at night. But I still kept on trying to be a hero.

Was it because of the death of that scientist all those years ago? Or was it some sort sense of justice I could not shake?

I'm pretty sure all those worries were what caused my powers to never work the way I wanted. If I couldn't control myself, how could I control some measly rock?

All I knew for certain was that I was a magnet for trouble. And trouble eventually led me to Jump City.

Who knew green ears could be so cute?

I had actual friends for once. It was great. Friends like me, with powers. I didn't want them to know about not being in control. Not being able to handle my power. Not being able to stop all the destruction I caused.

But in the end they learned. I just wanted to please them. I didn't want to hurt anyone again. I wanted to be in control of my life again.

But I just ended up making another mistake.

Slade.

Someone was controlling me again, but I was too blind to see it. I ended up betraying the Titans, losing my best friend in the world, bringing Jump City to its knees, realizing my mistakes, saving my friends, and turning to stone.

Have you ever slept so soundly and deeply that when you woke up you felt like you never had slept at all? That's what it was like for me when I finally was free from the stone. I broke out of my prison like a butterfly in a cocoon. It should have been the best feeling in the world, but it wasn't.

I managed to get to a homeless shelter. I didn't feel like running right then. I just couldn't pull together the energy, and the buses weren't running. I heard that the city had just experienced some great trauma. This bad dude named Trigon turned earth into hell, and everyone on it into stone. Raven had apparently reversed the effect. She reversed it so well that she managed to free me too.

The Titans must have not known, or at least didn't care. I know I didn't really want to see them at the moment either. I did try to kill them after all. To them I had been gone for months. But for me it was only a second ago.

I ended up staying in the shelter too long, and got tossed into an orphanage. I was too tired to run and got adopted by a man named Richard and a man named Christopher. The two of them were married and had a lot of money. They always wanted a kid and picked me out of the lot. They named me Miranda and I was enrolled in Murikami School.

I was only planning on staying for a bit, but something kept me there.

At first I thought it was guilt. The two of them picked me. Me. There were so many kids there, but they choose me. And actually liked me for no reason at all. They loved me.

Then I thought it was exhaustion. I didn't have the will to go on with my life. I was just trying to avoid my mistakes and forget them.

And then I realized, I actually liked my new life. I never went hungry or got to take a shower whenever I wanted. I got to see every Disney movie out there. I got to go camping and try s'mores for the first time. I got to have friends and nobody was afraid of me or thought I was weak.

I actually was normal for once. I had a family. It wasn't what I imagined it to be, but I guess that's how families work. I had people who loved me. And I loved them back.

It would be Chris waking me. Alarm clocks were too loud and obnoxious for me. I would eat a bowl of cereal for breakfast and Chris would drive me to school. I would go to school, and have a locker. A locker with stickers in it, and a few pictures of ACDC and Queen. Soccer practice would follow the three thirty bell, and I would always sweat through my gym clothes. Then I would head back home,and spend way to much time on homework. My family would gather around a small dinner table at night, and say a prayer. Chris and Richard were both Jewish, so I guess I was now too. It was my favorite part of the day. All of us together, just my family and me. It seems like not much. But one of my dreams became a reality.

I had trouble forgetting Terra though. Richard would offer to take me to the amusement park, but I would always say no. Too many bad memories. Too many failures.

It wasn't until Beast Boy showed up again. He wanted me to come back. He had seen me in the crowd of one of his battles, and learned my statue was gone. The Titans wanted me to come home. Home was such a funny word.

But I had a new home.

I had hurt him, I had hurt them so much. Why would they want me back? Why won't they just leave me alone! I wanted to forget them! I didn't want to hurt them anymore.

So finally I let Terra go.

I was Miranda now. I still had Terra's powers, but that did not make me Terra. This was my second chance.

Things change after all. Terra was just a memory. I told Beast Boy that. I'm not sure if he believed me, but he still left. It hurt so bad to do that to him, but the bandage had to come off. For me, and for him. I let Beast Boy go with all of my failures and bad expectations. I was really free. For once I was in control. I finally had my dream.

But like all dreams, you eventually have to wake up.

I was at the amusement park. Of course it was the amusement park. That place is always bad for me.

Richard and Chris were off buying cotton candy for Amber, Dionne, and me. My two best friends and I were throwing baseballs at a bunch of glass jars trying to get a prize. I was always bad at that game. It was a slow night and not many people were around.

That's when something bit me in the neck.

"Ow!" cried Amber. Something bit her too. No this wasn't a bug, it was a dart.

Colors started to blur and my head began to hurt. I braced myself on the edge of the booth. Dionne fell to the ground with a crash.

A sudden figure zipped out of nowhere. It was hard to make things out then, but the figure was wearing a mask that looked very much like a skull. He had a long cape that danced in the wind as he came towards me. An x on his chest.

I was getting sleepy. Amber slipped to the ground at the figures feet.

"What did you do?" I managed to say. My knees buckled beneath me and my eyes were getting heavy. If only I could just sleep…

"Hush now, princess," the figure whispered. The darkness engulfed me as I blacked out.

Now I was dreaming again. Dreaming of a way to escape.