Okay so short summery I really think that the team doesn't realize how important Tony is, and I'm kind of making dead air his last straw. Don't worry he is gonna stay in the team but ohh they are so gonna realize that why it is said careful what you wish for.

Also in the 4th or 5th chapters I'm gonna play the crappy childhood card in a way that Tonys extreme reaction in this chapter and next chapter will be clear.

Now for quick summary what does this story will have is-

Tony has a son

Tony seriously thinking about leaving ncis

McGee realizing that tony is much more intelligent

And a extra father figure which will make Gibbs realize that tony is not a st. Bernard.

Chap 1- at the breaking point

The case was solved. He was in his car returning home. But he could still see Ziva and Gibbs playing catch. May be he is jealous that Gibbs actually played with her or irritated that even Zivas father and time enough to teach her baseball. And he had to learn by watching. He can't fix on what he is feeling exactly. This whole day had been a eye opener. He knew things were bad after Gibbs supposed retirement but he had decided that all the crap they had put him through was just a reaction to Gibbs departure. But now he was not so sure. May be the time has come may be his stay at ncis was supposed to end now. They actually couldn't stand to here his voice.

If he was being truthful he should have left when Rota was offered. But that time he wasn't sure but now there was nothing here to hold him back. For goodness sake this people were tired of hearing his voice. If that didn't say get lost then what does?

Without realizing he had reached his apartment. He suddenly remembered the same situation 4 years ago. 'The Ziva dinner episode' as he had named it. That day also his team had left him to wonder to leave or not to leave. That day also he had reached home without realizing when he got in the car. but that day he had turned the car around and visited a bar.

That day first time he hadn't payed any attention to the fairer sex and just drank his alcohol. He drank till he could not fill the pain in his hand was no more but the betrayal still stung. He had placed the glass down with a curse. This attracted the attention of the brunette sitting next to him. She too was travelling his road glass after glass. She had seen the abused glass sitting on the counter and said "you can't forget can you?"

He had just raised his questioning eye brow. And said "just like you"

She smirked and raised her glass and said "my family left me to die so I have a reason. What's yours?"

He also repeated her action and said "my family don't think I'm family"

Then one thing led to another and the next morning they woke up in her bed. She was looking like she had just killed someone. Her face was so child like that he had laughed his first laugh in 48 hours.

She became more frustrated with him and said "I normally don't do such things" he was going to say something funny but her eyes were so sad. So he did the decent thing and give his introduction. Which was followed by hers. Then he had mumbled something and left the place. They had exchanged numbers which he didn't save.

That one night stand somehow kept him in d.c.

He remembered all this thinking about going to some other bar but decided against it. He did like his voice after all. May be others were tired of hearing his voice but that was the only thing which kept him alive after he turned 12. So yes he did like his voice.

He shook his head trying to stop these thoughts when he reached his door opening the door he just made a straight line to the bed and without changing clothes he slept.

His whole night was plunged with nightmares where the door was opened By men having rifles, guns, and bombs. In each dream he died calling for help, begging that someone will help. But help never arrived and 2 times he saw his body dumped in gutter. He saw roaches eating his body and his father's voice telling him that he will end in gutter was present in each dream.

After seeing half of his body eaten in last dream he woke up. He searched for his clock and found it was just 5 in morning. But he knew that there was no sense in sleeping again. So with heavy lids he made his way in the kitchen. With a cup of steaming coffee in hand he recalled all his nightmares and he knew that time has come for the decision. The decision he had thought he will never have to make in ncis. But now every cell in his brain was screaming that the decision should have been made years ago. When he completed his 2 years. He never postponed that decision; not in Philly not in Baltimore. But in d.c. he had kept on postponing. He was not sure why...actually he was sure why. The reason was simple. He really though that his team was his family and more than that he had placed one Leroy Jethro Gibbs on the place of his father figure, his mentor. For years he had told himself that the man also saw him as his son at least as his protégé.

But now he wasn't sure that his father figure wanted him to be there. One by one years travelled in front of his eyes words said without thinking

"You are irreplaceable"

"Forget it McGee he is alive''

"You'll do"

"I know one more narcissist"

"If you are going to die do it quietly"

And leaving the first he could not remember any good thing. He could remember countless head slaps some good and majority without reason. The 4 months on that ship. The frog operation. Gibbs's betrayal after that. The time he was left with Eli David. He was left to torture for goodness sake and no one even said a simple sorry for that.

The choice was simple there was nothing to choose he had to leave. And it wasn't like he didn't have job offers. His inbox was full from offers by various agencies in the alphabet soup.

But with all that still he wanted to stay. He sunk on the floor resting his head on the wall behind him. He could see the hugs from Abby, the few times Gibbs have given him smiles real smiles. But that was the problem these times were not worth all the crap he has to go through day by day. His decision was made he will leave. He will hand his resignation today to Vance.

While standing again he saw a pizza box and he remembered a different time.

The time when Gibbs stood behind him even when he had murder charges on his head. He could see the whole thing like it had happened 5 minutes ago. And that one event took the decision for him he will stay one more day. One more day, as last chance because he owed Gibbs that.

He promised himself on the way to the shower that just one day, one day for Gibbs and he could feel the tension leaving his body. Because whatever will be the problem Gibbs will make it alright. And if he doesn't then tomorrow there will be no problem at all.