A/N: Howdy everyone. I would just like to thank everyone who is still reading this. I haven't updated in so long because of all of my freaking homework, bluh, and then that last chapter was a little… yea… but it's finally FALL BREAK so I have a whole week off to write fanfictions and all that jazz. This one is angst. I finally learned how to angst. Much happy, very wow. You can all thank my other fanfiction for teaching me how to angst. Suicidal angst is fun. Ahem ahem. Aaaaaanyways, I love all of y'all little readers and reviewers a lot. ^.^ And thank you all u beautiful reviewers, you're great. 9 reviews! Y'all gonna spoil me if ya don't chill. No don't chill I have fun with reviews. One last thing, R&R or Jefftehkillr will eat ur babies. Jefftehkillr is a youtuber who is also my sister and also a cannibalistic sociopath. Okay, she won't actually eat your baby but she will assault your mind with subliminal messages.
Disclaimah: I don't own Pokémon, but I bought this really cool Team Rocket jacket on Redbubble that I never take off ever. I don't own Lazy Town, but the episode mentioned is a real one and it is my favorite. It's called First Day of Summer.
Jessie looked over at James. Sleeping was the only time he wasn't moving. He wasn't the most active person, but he could never sit still. He just looked so peaceful, his chest rising and falling softly. Everyone was asleep, after resolving to solve all of their problems tomorrow since it was late. James had passed out a few minutes before, so they just wrapped him in some blankets and dropped him on the floor somewhere. The children were sleeping on the other side of the fire, which was now dim embers glowing weakly. Jessie felt slightly creepy watching him sleep, but he was just so calm. The Pokémon attributes had disappeared and he was just… sleeping. She remembered what he had said earlier that night. I love you more than Rock, he had said. James was just so loopy he didn't know what he was saying. Ironic how he would say that what she loved him, and she was head over heels for him, but he'd never know. She was positive that he didn't feel the same way, they had been friends for so long and he'd never said anything. He never looked at her the way she looked at him when he wasn't looking. He never thought about her the way she thought about him. They just weren't meant to be together. Jessie wasn't meant to be with anybody. Her heart had been broken enough to know that love wasn't real. It was just manipulators leading the gullible, and Jessie knew she would be the manipulator. She rolled away from James and shut her eyes tight, trying to hold back the tears.
James woke up with a start and looked around. It was still dark, and everyone was still sleeping. He sighed quietly, the nightmare he had had creeping into his mind. He shook his head and looked over at Jessie. She was facing away from him, breathing rapidly. His heart dropped. Was she… crying? James had never seen her cry before. Well, of course, he'd seen her crocodile tears before, but that's not what this was. She was always so strong, or at least she always looked that way. James didn't know what to do. He'd never really had to comfort her before, and she'd never really comforted him. Should he say something? Should he just pretend he didn't see and go back to sleep. Could he really ever sleep ever again? If something was bothering Jessie this much it must be something big. Maybe she was just venting or something? James wasn't sure if he could ever sleep again knowing something that was enough to make JESSIE cry was threatening them. Was it something he had said? What had he said? He remembered watching Lazy Town in the pokeball (his favorite episode where everyone left town and Robbie Rotten was all alone), and then the air in the pokeball made him feel funny, and then a bright light, and that was all he remembered. Had he confessed something? What would Jessie think if she knew how he felt for her? Maybe she would pity him so much that she would cry? No, that couldn't be it… Maybe he had hurt her feelings. He didn't really know any good insults, except that Swedish one about the elephants and the pineapples, but that wouldn't really fit Jessie, or hurt her feelings. It was just too ridiculous. How would Jessie react if James tried to comfort her? She'd probably rebuild the walls around her and hide in her little sanctuary. How would he comfort Jessie? James looked over at Jessie. She was curled up in a ball, crying to herself, and it felt as if someone had taken James's heart and crushed it. Her tears felt like acid on his skin. He couldn't take it anymore. "Jessie?" he asked softly, sitting up and wriggling out of his burrito of blankets. She jumped and raised her head to look at him. At least 7 different expressions passed on her face before it settled on anger.
"What?" she seethed. He should have known she would react this why. What had he been thinking?
"Er… You okay?" he asked sweetly. She cringed at his smile.
"Yes. I'm fine. Leave me alone," she said, rolling back over to face away from him.
"Jessie, I…" What am I trying to say? he asked himself as he continued unsurely. "Um… I just want you to know that I… I know it… Ugh. Life sucks, okay? That's what I'm trying to say. But I'm also trying to say that it's a lot worse if you try to carry everything alone, and you don't have to. I'm here for you, and I don't want you to… to suffer. Do you get what I'm trying to… Jessie?!" Jessie leaned forward into James and began to cry harder. James almost threw up he was so nervous. He reached up and rubbed her back.
What are you doing?! What… WHAT IS THIS. I don't even… WHAT ARE YOU DOING. Stupid! Jessie's brain was screaming for her to stop but James was so warm and sweet and he smelled like… Jessie took a deep breath. He smelled like roses. Figures. She thought about moving away and pretending it was all a trick and she was just acting but she felt James rubbing his hand up and down her spine. She shivered and nearly melted. She leaned closer into James and let her tears fall. She could tell him it was an act tomorrow. This was too nice to pass up.
A/N: OH MAH LAWDEE A SERIOUS CHAPTER. WOW. I'm so proud of myself I love this chapter. The fluff made my little fangirl heart squeee! It's a little OOC but I think you'll all forgive me. Heh heh. Fluff. I'm debating having one of the childrens (probably Misty ;D) see this, but I don't really know. What do y'all think? If she did she'd probably keep quiet until later… heh heh heh. Later. Okay, thanks for reading! Luv y'all!
