A/N: Oh, uh, hi.
So I'm explaining my disappearance in this, so you can start reading the fanfic or you can read my beautiful life-story first. B-)
So some of you probably hate me for taking the LONGEST time to upload the second- and last chapter of this fanfiction. And some of you probably have forgotten about this story so.. I'm so sorry :c I stopped watching Fairy Tail at Episode 190 since I wasn't emotionally stable to watch the rest after what happened. I was also thinking about changing the ending many times, so I created a lot and chose this one because.. I guess it's different? LOL
Soon enough, I basically lost my inspiration of writing. I'm a sad child, I know. And plus, Grade 10 at my school is such a hassle, blaah.
So then I figured I should watch a different anime before I start watching FT again, so I watched K-ON. And I freaking love K-ON.
And I started shipping my OTP from there - aka Mitsu or Mio/Ritsu. I couldn't get enough of those two, so I started reading fanfictions about them. And then I remembered I wrote a fanfiction that wasn't even finished. Reading all the Mitsu fanfics gave me ideas for this chapter and made me go back onto my feet with this story. So.. Tada! I'm back! And I should be doing my French project right now, but after this posting this, I'm gonna play some osu!. B-)
And I want to thank you guys so much for the reviews. They've been a big help and they mean a lot. They're definitely going to give me the courage and motivation to make new stories, no matter how wack they are. Thank you guys for helping me improve with your reviews, I love you so much! :o
Fun Fact (For people who play League of Legends): I only started watching Fairy Tail because Lucy looked like Lux and Erza looked like Katarina, the champion I main. Sounds ridiculous, I know T_T
And there's maybe some OOC here and there, but everyone turns different when they're around their crushes.. right? No? Okay.
Alright, I'm going to shut up and start the second chapter! Enjoy~
Disclaimer: I don't own Fairy Tail.
Seven years had passed and the victims of the S-Class Trials were still missing until Macao and the gang decided to find their teammates and the island.
Fortunately, Mavis, the first master, used her ultimate defense spell "Fairy Sphere," to save them from when Acnologia attacked. Thankfully, no one was harmed and no one aged a year.
Lucy woke up, still on the island and which felt like a week of sleep. She felt something warm pressing on her back and she glanced behind her to see Erza still asleep and cuddling next to her. The sleepyhead had her arms wrapped around the blonde, who was blushing furiously and too afraid to wiggle out of the embrace. Everything was such a blur to the her. She could only remember that she was in the S-Class Trials with Cana then Acnologia attacked and.. oh yeah.
Floods of memories sank into her mind. Lucy recalled exactly what happened right before Acnologia attacked.. and found out why Erza was too close in contact. It wasn't like she didn't like it, in fact she could stay in that forever. Lucy was worried what Erza would think if she woke up next to Lucy and not remembering what happened. Lucy shrugged it off afterwards and turned around carefully to face the redhead. She stared at the beauty right in front of her, feeling more relaxed in her arms and drifting off to another peaceful sleep.
The sleep didn't even last that long until Natsu, Macao, Gray and the rest of the guild found them and yelled their names. In such horror, Lucy accidentally shrieked loudly, waking up the woman in front of her. Erza thought she was getting attacked and roughly slid her arms out of Lucy's body (Erza had no time to understand why they were together) and quickly requipped to her armor, preparing to fight. The redhead sighed when she found out it was just her guild members and unequipped her armor. She looked down at the blonde, who was still laying down with her arms up to her chest in defense and giving her a sheepish smile. Lucy didn't know what to do since she literally blew up her crush's eardrums while asleep. She was still in place before Erza offered a hand with no expression on her face. Lucy immediately missed the warmth the two shared while together.
Even after their seven-year disappearance, Lucy blindly assumed that Jellal wasn't around.. or more like she hoped he was dead. He was in jail and all, so he wouldn't come back, would he? It was Lucy's chance to be with Erza again.
Surprisingly, they acted as if nothing happened. Erza and Lucy got along again in a flash, forgetting about their ignorance against each other. They went back to Fiore and saw how everything changed in seven years. What caught Lucy's attention was Bisca and Alzack's marriage and they had a daughter named Asuka (Lucy noted that Erza and her daughter will be as cute as her). Romeo noted the Grand Magic Games, stating that Fairy Tail lost all of them the past seven years. Lucy thought it would be an amazing experience in the games, certainly with Erza by her side. She was excited to see Erza fight against other guilds and win. Everyone needed practice their magic so they could become stronger for the games.
At some point during practice, Lucy would take a break and watch Erza train. Lucy noted that without a doubt Erza did improve. Her attacks gotten stronger and she's more focused. What snatched the Celestial Wizard's awareness was Erza's body. She closely looked at how Erza's muscles flexed while carrying her weapons, how flexible and quick she was, the perfect tone of her stomach, how hot Erza looked when- we're going to stop here.
What made Lucy wanting to go on a killing spree was when she found out that Jellal regains his memory in jail and is saved from his impending execution by Meredy and Ultear. Lucy just wanted to take all her keys, shove it Jellal's hole and- nevermind. Apparently Jellal, Ultear and Meredy are in a guild that defeats all dark guilds. His team felt some "strong-evil power" thing- or whatever and counted on us to find what it was. Lucy still just never understood why Jellal was there, she never listens to what he says anyway.
Before the games started, everyone was at the bar, celebrating before the games. Surprisingly, Erza wasn't there.
There was a rumor going around saying that Erza and Jellal kissed and she's currently with him right now.
Lucy was not pleased.
Before anyone knew it, Lucy ran out of the bar, crying her heart out and hoping Erza wouldn't see her. She went to the motel her team was staying at. The blonde slammed the door and jumped into her bed, crying into her pillow. About ten minutes later, she felt a weight and movement on the other side of the bed. Lucy, anguished and who was still crying, turned over to look at the one person she regret falling in love with.
Erza.
She was sitting next to Lucy, concerned and a bit heartbroken from seeing her best friend cry. She reached out a hand to wipe away her tears, but the crying mage briskly faced the opposite direction so her back was facing the Requip mage and continued sobbing. Erza sighed, leaned up to Lucy's head and kissed her temple gently. Lucy froze up, her face heating up and her heart about to explode. Erza giggled and whispered into her ear.
"If you're wondering, we didn't kiss."
Erza stood up and left the room. The wide-eyed, mouth agape, furiously blushing, almost-having-a-hard-time-breathing Lucy was still shocked after five minutes.
"Does she know?!" She wondered to herself. She couldn't sleep at all that night.
And so, the games began. It was going smoothly for all guilds except for Fairy Tail. Gray lost his match and so did Lucy. Everyone just shrugged it off, but Lucy couldn't. She embarrassed herself in front of millions of people and she wanted to go back in time and change everything. The worst part was that Erza was watching. Lucy thought she humiliated Fairy Tail and she did not feel so great about it. She was tortured and beaten so much that she couldn't help herself. She could have won if that stupid Flare girl hadn't threatened to kill Asuka. After the match, Lucy just laid there crying and the only thing she could hear was laughter from the crowd. She refused to get up and talk to anyone, mainly Erza. Lucy was thankful for Natsu to help her up as Erza just stood there, watching as the blonde's heart was torn to a billion of pieces.
Soon at night, Lucy decided to skip the celebration at the pub and stay at the motel instead. She didn't want to see or talk to anyone, especially what happened during the match, and hoped that Erza doesn't see her current state; crying oceans and oceans of tears. She stood outside on the balcony, elbows propped on the ledge and both hands covering her face. The moon shone brightly above her, giving light to the beautiful city below her. She couldn't see it at all because one certain person was clouding her mind.
At this point, Lucy knew that she wasn't good enough for Erza. She was weak, a crybaby, boring, you could name every flaw and she'd have it. Erza was clearly the opposite; strong, brave, independent, everything that Lucy loved about her. The realization of low chances she would get of being with the red-head finally hit her, soon having the urge to let Erza go.
But Lucy knew she couldn't. Loving a person for two whole years (Including the time-jump, it would be nine years) and then forgetting about them isn't a simple task. She can't just suddenly go back to the guild, trying to find a guy or a girl to hook up with. Lucy knew she would think about Erza anyway. She'd think that kissing, hugging, or holding hands with some other person was nothing better than being with Erza. Lucy falls in love whenever she glances at the requip wizard, so she'd just fall back to square one if she did try to get over Erza, especially since she sees her everyday. She couldn't imagine what she would be like if she saw Erza in love with a guy, most likely Jellal. She knew that Erza said that she didn't kiss him before, but what if she was lying just to keep her happy? What if Erza already found out that her best friend fell in love with her, but didn't want to hurt her in any way? Her mind sank deeply into her thoughts until she heard the door behind her open.
"Lucy?" A concerned yet firm, feminine voice spoke behind her.
The blonde recognized the person the moment the door opened behind her, trying to hold back any more tears.
"Stay strong," she said to herself, continuing to stare at the scenery in front of her, refusing to meet eyes with the woman behind her. "Don't let her know.."
She heard her say her name again, but still stood in place. Lucy didn't want to talk but she needed to get everything off her chest before she breaks down again.
"Don't tell her. You know her answer once you do, and you're not prepared for it."
She sighed shakily, her palms pressed on top of the balcony ledge as her attempt to calm herself. She closed her eyes, hoping that Erza would just disappear while at her current state, but only resulting in tears crawling down her cheek. She heard the door behind her close.
"Be strong."
She heard footsteps walk towards her. "Oh god.." She bit her lip, her hands trying to grip the balcony.
"Remember, you're not good enough so there isn't a point of telling her."
Out of every thought, that one shouted in her mind the loudest. She knew it was true. She was on the verge of breaking down before she felt something tap her shoulder.
Lucy whipped around to face the girl, more tears leaking down her angry and sad expression. "Wh-!"
Before Lucy could yell anything, Erza swiftly pulled her into an embrace.
The Celestial Wizard froze, surprised by the Titania's sudden action. She didn't complain, matter of fact she calmed down. Tears fell as she continued to sniffle and finally returned the hug. But it felt different.
The hug Lucy received felt really warm, despite the fact that Erza wasn't wearing armor but just her usual blouse and skirt. There was a soothing warmth around her body Erza's soft arms gave. It was a strong grip, but still comfortable. She soaked Erza's blouse as her head leaned on the crook of her neck. Erza's chin sat gently on top of the shorter girl's head, rubbing her back. Lucy felt protected, just like any other hug she got, but this time.. she felt extremely safe.
It was as if it was their final goodbye hug and parting their separate ways forever. Exactly when somebody was leaving their best friend, family or lover. It was like Erza verbally spoke, "I'm never going to let you go," but Lucy doubted that. "Just a friendly hug, a friendly hug.. don't over think it," she tried to convince herself. But how could it just be some 'friendly' gesture if it seemed way more than that?
They were in the same position for about a few minutes under the night's sky. There was a comfortable silence, except for Lucy quietly sobbing and the red-head soothingly told her that everything's fine repetitively. The Titania leaned down and spoke softly after the shorter girl was finally calm.
"I-It's nothing.." Lucy croaked, trying to sound convincing but failed. She released the grip around her crush's waist to pull back and wipe away her tears, but Erza still had her arms around her
lower back.
"It's obviously not nothing," Erza replied quietly. "You know, I can't stand seeing my.. my close friends like this.."
The taller girl trailed off, sounding a bit hurt during her last statement.
Lucy let the two words sink into her head. "Close friends.. we're only close friends in her perspective."
Lucy roughly pulled away from her grasp, her back facing the redhead. Erza was surprised, that was the first time Lucy pushed her away harshly.
"If y-you can't stand seeing m-me like this, t-then why won't you just l-leave? You wouldn't understand a-anyways.." The heartbroken girl mumbled the last part, hoping that the woman behind her
didn't hear. But she heard it clearly.
"I wouldn't understand? If we don't talk about this then we cannot solve it. What is it, Lucy?"
"I told you, it's nothing." The blonde replied rather coldly.
"Is it from the match earlier today?"
"No.."
"Is Happy bothering you?"
"No!" Lucy responded with an annoyed tone. 'God, how clueless can she be?'
"Is someone hurting you?"
Silence.
"You're the one that's hurting me, Erza."
Was what she wanted to say.
"Someone hurting me? Why the hell do you have to know?"
"Seriously, Lucy. What's with this attitude? It's like the problem you have has something to do with me." Erza, still clueless.
Lucy had enough.
"Because-!" Lucy whipped around angrily to face the taller girl, ready to yell at her. Instead, the confused expression on her face stopped her from going on a rampage. She sighed, looking at the
floor below her.
"..You really are dense, aren't you?" Erza cocked her head, surprised by her sayings.
"What are you-"
"After all these years.. these hints, my cries, my laughter, my lack of confidence, my happiness whenever I was around you, everything.."
There's no going back.
"..and my love for you, have you been this dense about it?"
Erza was taken aback, eyes wide and mouth open and her mind trying to process what the blonde said to her. The look on her face gave Lucy an obvious thought that she was speechless, so she continued speaking. Her voice was getting more hoarse and hoarse by the second.
"Shocked, huh? I know. A best friend shouldn't be saying that she loves her own, I know. I couldn't help myself. It.. just happened. The moment I looked at you for the first time, I knew you were the one. You were strong, kind, caring, beautiful.. and you still are. I thought by being good friends with you would make me want a forever-lasting friendship.. but instead, I wanted more than that. I still do."
Lucy looked up, smiling and once again, crying. Wiping away her tears caused more to fall, continuously bringing her hands to her face. Erza softened her expression, feeling terrible for being so ignorant about her best friend's feelings.
"I even thought you liked me back, but that would be crazy.. and I understood why you didn't. Everything about me is off. I'm weak, a crybaby, shy, useless.. those are it, right? I wouldn't even like myself if I were someone else." The blonde quietly laughed, trying to brighten up the mood. She sighed, debating whether or not to say what was on her mind next, but forced herself to. Lucy looked straight into Erza's eyes.
"I love you, Erza. More than anything. Nothing is ever going to change that." Lucy soon then turned to the view of the city, losing the courage to look at Erza. She squeezed her eyes and bit her lip, hoping she could wake up from this nightmare.
"I understand that you cannot return the feelings, I gladly accept your decision." "No matter how hard it hurts.." Lucy mentally said, too afraid that she'll sound desperate if told.
"I-I hope nothing changes anything between us.."
There was another silence but this time, unsettling. The shorter girl waited for her friend's response which never occurred. She rubbed her upper arm in a disappointing manner, looking anywhere but at Erza. "I went too far.. didn't I?"
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I'm just a burden on you, making your life difficult. You can lea-"
Before Lucy continued, she felt an arm wrap around her waist and a hand holding up her chin. She didn't notice while during her impulsive talking, the taller girl walked up to her and closed the gap between them. As she held up her chin, Lucy looked directly at Erza's orbs and vice versa.
The two stared at each other in utter silence. The moonlight gave Erza a perfect view of Lucy's flushed face.
"..Perfect."
Erza leaned down and pressed her lips softly against Lucy's.
Something that the blonde thought would never happen in her life.
Lucy couldn't react at first; it was such a surprise that her mind went total blank with wide eyes. She soon receipted the kiss, closing her eyes and melting into the other girl's soft lips. Lucy unconsciously wrapped her arms around Erza's neck when Erza wrapped her arms tighter around her waist, pulling her closer into the kiss. Erza could taste the saltiness of Lucy's tears, but not from sadness. They were from happiness.
The kiss didn't last that long, though it felt like hours. They pulled apart, panting for breath as their foreheads leaned against each other. Erza smiled.
"And here I was.. too afraid to tell you my feelings when you had more bravery and said yours first."
Lucy mirrored Erza's lips when she gently caressed the smaller girl's cheek, which was blushing crazily.
"I mean, I had to. It was a bother keeping it as a secret the entire time and I had to let it out.. but I never thought.."
Lucy trailed off, shyly looking at the floor, hoping Erza understood what she was going to say.
"That I wasn't going to return your feelings? Yeah, I thought the same.." Erza said quietly, now playing with the shorter girl's hair.
Lucy never saw Erza this shy before. She was quiet and probably blushing the same amount as she did. This was very unlikely from the brave Titania, but it made sense because Erza didn't really show any romantic affection or anything. But it was cute, overall.
Lucy laid her head on top of Erza's chest, feeling her heart pounding as fast as hers. She released a relieved sigh, sinking into the red-head's warmth. She's finally with Erza. She's finally happy.
Erza stroked her hair in silence before she said something that made Lucy's heart skip a beat.
"I love you."
...
But that was when she snapped out of it.
Lucy heard her name being called behind her, causing the blonde to wake up from daydreaming.
Yes, that was all in her mind.
She finally got back to her senses and realized how cold she was, standing outside on the balcony.. just like in her dream. She literally forgot why she was out there.
And also like her dream, she heard her name being repetitively called behind her.
Lucy turned around and faced the girl.
"Hey Erza," Lucy smiled.
"Are you alright? You're out here all alone.." Erza said, walking towards the blonde.
"Yeah, I just.. I just need fresh air after that match," she guessed, but she looked away once the memories of the match began to flood her mind.
"Aw, Lucy," Erza wrapped her arms around the smaller girl after she saw a tear fall. "It's okay, you tried your best today and you did well. Don't push yourself, okay?"
"I.. yeah. Thanks," Lucy was about to argue, but she gave in and hugged the woman back. She felt her hand rubbing her back soothingly, unconsciously releasing a sigh as warmth began to spread all
over her body.
"Hey.. are you alright?" Erza asked.
"Y-Yeah I am, thank you," The blonde replied, sinking deeper into her embrace.
"No, I mean in general. If you have any problem or if something is on your mind, you can always talk to me.. okay? You know.. I'm always here for you.."
Lucy looked up to see Erza looking away and a bit red after what she said. Lucy noticed the slight pain and quietness in her voice. She has never seen Erza act this way before. She's usually bold, confident and just a straight-up talker. But she acted the complete opposite the moment she entered the balcony.
"Oh, y-yeah, I know. You're an amazing friend, Erza. Thank you for everything. I love you," Lucy said in complete nervousness, hoping that Erza would get the obvious hint, but at the same time she hoped that she thought it was just a friendly saying.
Erza looked down.
Two brown-orbs met one another.
Still locked in each other's embraces.
Lucy could feel the heat rising into her cheeks. "This is so bad, if we keep on doing this then I won't be able to help myself.."
Erza couldn't break the eye contact, because she felt something click and everything felt right, right after what she said about loving her.
It was now or never.
And that was when after Lucy looked away.
"B-But.. I don't have anything on my mind at the moment. I'm sorry."
A silence.
Lucy mentally punched and cursed at herself for lying and saying something completely stupid to cover it up. She couldn't look at Erza, whose arms were still wrapped around the Celestial Wizard.
"Oh. I understand," Was the only thing Erza could say. She immediately unwrapped her arms and Lucy followed suit. Both women faced each other, but tried to look anywhere else but at the other. Lucy wanted to rewind everything so she could fix this dumb mistake. She wanted Erza to say that she knew all this time and she loved her. She wanted Erza to hug her again, to keep her warm against the cold breeze. Lucy only wanted Erza to make her happy.
"Ah, I forgot I had to meet up with Jellal at the bridge today," the Requip Wizard broke the silence. Lucy felt her heart drop.
"O-Okay. Have fun.." Lucy tried to give her a smile, finally looking back at the red-head.
"..Do you want me to stay with you? I can go see him another time," Erza said, almost sounded like she was pleading. She stared at Lucy's orbs.
Lucy saw the look in her eyes, as if her eyes were telling her to make her stay. If she did though, she'd sound greedy. She didn't want Erza to stay with her best friend than with her lover.
"No, it's fine. You.. can go," the smaller girl grinned, wishing that Erza would change her mind. Tears started to form before the taller girl replied with a quiet sigh.
"Alright. I'll see you tomorrow, then?" Erza sounded completely normal.
"Yeah.. see you."
"I let her go.. I'm such an idiot."
Erza turned around and opened the door until she stopped halfway. Lucy perked up, assuming that she was going to stay.
But she wasn't.
"Hey.. Lucy?" the Titania said quietly but loud enough for Lucy to hear. Lucy cleared her throat.
"Yes?"
"About what you said earlier.. you know, how you said I was an amazing friend and such.."
"Y..Yeah..?" Lucy didn't know what was going to happen. There was a long pause. It was as if Erza was trying to figure out what she was going to say.
"I.. I lo.." Erza stuttered. Lucy widened her eyes. Was she about to..?
"Thank you. You're an amazing best friend too."
Then Erza left as quickly as she could, shutting the door behind her.
Lucy was stunned, her heart breaking into a million pieces. A best friend was the closest she could be.
And this killed her inside.
Lucy cried her heart out, not caring who hears her. She sat down, hugging her knees while sobbing. She has never felt this heart-broken before. She let Erza go. This was her mistake, but she needed to do this.
Erza, on the other hand, was walking slowly towards the elevator, wiping a few tears away.
"Lucy.. if you were honest towards me and yourself, I would have been happy."
Oooh, that twist! I hope none of you expected that! If you did then, oops D: I hope this was worth the wait!
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