I noticed a trend with the death of Hiccup, followed by an incredibly somber/angry/terrifying - fill in the blanks - Toothless. Let me get something straight in saying I don't think anything is wrong with these Fics at all. Actually a lot of them inspired me to write this, mostly because it is a big question I've wanted answered. This was originally supposed to be 2 chapters, but I went into more detail. I have no idea how many it will be now, if I can keep think of cool ideas I like then maybe it'll be longer, if not then oh well.

Rated T just in case - and I think it will reach the biggest audience

Anyway, this is my first Fan Fic so I would appreciate any reviews I could get - I did this all in one night - 5 hours I believe - and the sun just came up and the birds outside my window will seriously not shut the fuck up. I have a big tree outside and its like the halftime show at the Superbowl every. single. sunrise. But I digress. I'm pretty satisfied with it the story overall, I think I captured the essence of each character as they developed and how they would tackle a problem such as this.

I don't own HTTYD blah blah blah

Enjoy!

Chapter 1:

From the first day Toothless accepted Hiccup as his rider he understood the inevitable conclusion of their friendship. Dragons could live many hundreds of years, vastly outliving humans. Toothless understood this concept with crystal clarity, but meeting Hiccup at such a young age, he never fully grasped the weight behind it. Now, sitting beside Hiccups bed, as his raspy breath rose and fell in rhythmic increments, that weight bore down heavy on his heart.

Toothless had never been afraid of his own mortality. To him life and death were too sides of the same stone. And besides, nobody was entirely sure what happened after death anyway: the brightest of dragons and humans alike couldn't even begin to scratch the surface. He was sure that whatever came his way, he could handle it. His rider on the other hand was a completely different story.

How will I protect him! Even after all these years Hiccup was still incredibly clumsy. What happened if he stepped on a Gronckle's tail, or fell on top of a Monstrous Nightmares flank?! What if he met cannibals?

The thought of Toothless meeting cannibals in the after life terrified him more then meeting any dragon.

The last time Hiccup and I encountered the people who grew a taste for human flesh; it was a pretty terrifying situation. Hiccup could communicate with dragons better then he could people. And at least a dragon has pride. You would never catch a dragon eating another dragon. And the Red Death does not count as a dragon, more a monster.

This was not a new fear for me When Hiccup began to grow his first few white hairs I realized this chapter of Hiccup life was slowly coming to a close. Hiccup understood this also, although he never showed it. Even though his human was very capable with a weapon, and had all the survival skills to brave the wildness, whatever happened in the after life he feared his human would be ill prepared for. Because of this Toothless decided to force Hiccup into combat training – something Hiccup was never found of him for doing.

Days were spent were I refused to take Hiccup into the air until he had practiced with a sword, mace, ax, shield, spear, bow and arrow, hand to hand, rocks. Yes, I forced Hiccup to train with rocks one day. I'm just trying to make sure all his bases were covered; it was life after death, nothing could be ruled out.

Other days, when the more stubborn aspects of Hiccup showed and he refused to practice combat of any sort, and I understood he wasn't going to give in, I'd kidnap Hiccup and take him out into the middle of nowhere, refusing to take him back until he practiced.

At one incredibly stubborn point we both spent a week out in the wilderness, during the coldest part of winter. Hiccup was so cold and pitted with rage at me that eventually when he broke and picked up his ax, he fought like I had never seen before. Each swing, step, and movement was perfectly balanced, strong and accurate; a glint was in Hiccup's eye like I had never seen before.

Somewhere between, "I hate this stupid dragon", and "I'm going to kill this stupid dragon".

All in all it was reassuring.

At least I know that with enough rage Hiccup could defend himself, as long as his enemy took him out into the middle of the woods during the coldest part of winter and patiently waited for his inner Viking to break loose.

"Okay bud are we good", Hiccup said abruptly, panting heavily and staring at Toothless with that same glint in his eyes, "We've been out in this cold, desolate, isolated, and – and smelly woods for so long I can't eve remember what clean air smelt like. In fact," Hiccup laughed a somewhat maniacal laugh to himself, maybe I pushed him a little too far this time, I thought with dread," I'm not even sure this is a forest! From the smell of it I'd say you took me to a giant dragon dung pile! And if you force me to do any more training, I'll come after you myself! YOU HEAR ME YOU STUPID REPTILE!"

I was satisfied.

We then began collecting our belongings, which since this was a kidnapping were only a saddle which was already on Toothless back, blanket which Toothless brought just in case , small dagger that Hiccup almost always carried with him, and the ax Toothless grabbed while flying by the forge shortly after kidnapping Hiccup. Hey, Toothless had no idea they would be spending this much time in the woods. Hiccup usually broke in a day, at the most two, not a whole week!

I knelt down, allowing Hiccup to climb up on his back, which he did rather roughly. Shortly before taking to the skies, Hiccup muttered under his breath, "I'm going to get back at you for this, dragon".

On the ride back Hiccup remained quite – obviously – crossing his arms, and letting out the occasional huff here and there.

A twinge of fear began to creep up my spine, I hope he cools down before we reach home, or he might actually take revenge. But there was nothing he could do that would bruise my pride, right? I paused, right? I began to back track like a mad man, through every single conversation around Hiccup, every individual action around Hiccup, every laugh, joke, prank, meal, flight, journey, and interaction. Thinking back through every morning, evening and night since they we had met, leaving no stone unturned. Even recalling times Hiccup wasn't around out of paranoia.

my confidence built, He's got nothing on me.

Hiccup suddenly breathed a heavy sigh, distracting me from his thoughts.

"You know Toothless, I'm going to be okay?"

I looked back towards Hiccup.

"I understand your worry", Hiccup said quietly, looking off into the distance as the clouds above dropped a shower of white flakes past us to the ground below, covering the earth in a blanket snow. A cool wind brushed past from the north, although Hiccup didn't seem to notice, and the world around them became still, "Truth be told, I'm rather scared myself". Hiccup laid the side of his head on the back of my neck.

"What am I going to do" Hiccup said, more to himself then Toothless, "What am I going to do with you after I pass away?"

I was taken back by the question. All this time I had been terrified for Hiccup, loathing over his safety and happiness, stricken with fear for my friend, hoping, no, begging that wherever he went, he would be alright. And all this time, Hiccup was thinking the exact same thing for me. Every attempt for Hiccup to find a successor, somebody, anybody that would take his place was met with failure. I refused a replacement for Hiccup, no matter who it was, even Hiccups own kin; nothing felt right to me. Hiccup was- no is my rider, my companion and best friend, nobody can replace him not matter what ran through their blood.

At the time I didn't understand the reasoning behind Hiccups actions. He understood Hiccup didn't want me to be alone for however many years I would live after his death. But I never knew it was out of fear and love for me. I had spent so much time trying to care for him so after he left he would be okay, that I completely overlook his attempts to do the same for me.

A massive weight descended on my heart; all the stress and fear I had felt over the past year for Hiccups safety finally boiled over, and against my best efforts, I began to breathe irregularly, creating a wheezing discord of high pitch purrs to low growls.

"Toothless?" Hiccup said, bending forward to better look me in the face. I had locked eyes straight ahead, refusing to look up towards him. Hiccup sat back,

I'm fine Hiccup just - just don't mind me.

I rarely ever made this sound, never, ever around other people, especially other dragons, only when Hiccup and I were utterly and completely alone.

I was, in dragon form, what humans call crying.

Hiccup sat in silence for a few moments before reaching forward and calmly petting Toothless behind the ears.

The rest of the trip home both dragon and rider sat in silence. That was until landing in front of Hiccup's house. Hiccup jumped off of me just as Astrid came out screaming at the top of her lungs; her face was flushed bright red and heavy bags laid under her eyes.

"HICCUP!"

At the sound of his name Hiccup jumped, turning around quickly and growing pale at what was coming his way.

"Y-Yes my dearest?" Hiccup said, trying his very best to calm his wife. Hiccup wasn't exactly the best at flattery.

A strong fist made direct contact with Hiccups gut. He saw it coming, but made no attempt to dodge it.

"Where on Earth have you been?!"

"Toothlsskidnpdmnwudnltmecombckuntliprctcdwihawepn".

"What? What did you say?"

Hiccup let out a rasp, holding his stomach for several seconds before attempting to stand up straight and look at Astrid.

"Is everything okay Mom? Why does Dad look like he's about to throw-"

"Haldor get back inside right now, your father and I are going to have a little talk!"

Haldor, the youngest of Hiccups five children, standing in the doorway to the house quickly got the hint before shutting the door.

Astrid stared at Hiccup, demanding he continue.

"T-thless kidnapped-

Hiccup coughed violently, laying a hand on me for balance, sounding as though he was about to throw up. With a punch dealt by Astrid to the gut, nobody would have blamed him. If Hiccup wasn't going to take his revenge before, he certainly was now.

"Me. He t-k me into the-middle of nowhere. H-e wouldtake me home until I prac-ed with a w-epon.

Astrid quickly shifted her gaze to me, locking on with the intensity of a thousand burning suns. I knew she still had no idea what Hiccup had said, but she had caught 'Toothless' and 'kidnapped'.

Know let me get something straight, as a night furry there is little in this world that can frighten me: a swarm of bloodthirsty Nadders, no biggie, being surrounded by a group of violent weapon wielding Vikings wanting nothing more then my head on a stick, not a problem, taking down a dragon the size of an entire island, I thought back, okay maybe that just was a tad scary. But nothing and I mean NO-AH-THING, compared to Astrid when she locked you with her fiery stare.

I began creeping backwards, shrinking myself as much as possible, hoping I would disappear.

Astrid suddenly let out a sigh.

"Don't scare me like that okay?" She said looking into Hiccups eyes. "I was worried about you two" Astrid said, holding Hiccup's hands in front of him, her eyes glazing over ever-so-slightly although she would never admit it. "I know you two together are some of the most well regarded fighters, but what if you ran into another dragon like the Red Death, what if you died?" Astrid whispered, the idea itself was painful.

The thought had occurred to Toothless but he had never taken it with complete seriousness. He had always shrugged off the idea that something could possibly be bigger then the Red Death out there, but who knows? Maybe a dragon a hundred times larger then the Red Death existed. Hiccup and I must have been thinking the same thing because he was looking somewhat towards the horizon. He quickly snapped out of it a moment later, putting his full attention on Astrid.

"I'm sorry Astrid. I promise you I'll go easier from now on. It's just", Hiccup let out a long sigh shrugging, "I've had a lot on my mind".

Astrid raised her eyebrow in concern and I wondered if Hiccup would share it with her. Hiccup was never one to really share anything that was going on in his life - a habit most likely caused by his childhood - but Astrid seemed to be able to draw a conclusion looking back a forth at us both. Astrid looked up, noticing the sky was getting dark.

"I'm going back in the house Hiccup; don't stay out here too long okay?" Astrid said before hugging him, planting a kiss on his lips, and turning to head back inside.

Right before opening the door Astrid turned and shouted down towards Hiccup, "And if you ever leave me alone with 3 children again you'll be sorry! You get to take care of them for the next week, I need a break", she said before slamming the door.

Now let me get something straight, as a night furry I have been to a lot of places, seen a lot of sights, and met a lot of people and dragons, and never had I seen two people, human, dragon, or any other creature you can think of, more in love then Hiccup and Astrid. Yeah, on the outside you could put forth the argument of an abusive relationship that rendered Hiccup incapable of escaping. But being Hiccups best friend I understood the deep care both felt for each other. I knew Hiccup would fight the Red Death by himself a thousand times over to save her life. And he would do the same for me, and I for him and Astrid.

Maybe Hiccup wouldn't be so bad after all? I thought, If he has Astrid with him in the after life, she would be there from him, care form him and love him. Even if I never found him again after his death, the thought of Hiccup with Astrid was comforting.

Hiccup looked over to me, "You know, before we got home I wasn't going to take any revenge on you, but after Astrid punched my stomach into my mouth, I might just have too."

I let out a huff, raising my neck in confidence, looking down towards the tiny human.

You got nothing on me; I spent the entire flight back going over every last second of our time together. In the entire time we've spent with each other, I haven't done one single thing worthy of revenge.

Noticing his dragon's confidence, Hiccup began walking away slowly, hands clamped behind him, before stopping suddenly and turning around.

"You know I wonder? Does anybody know what happened when we took that extra long journey across the ocean, you know, the one fifteen years ago?

My entire body froze, eyes flinging open and reducing to slits, ears and neck dropping in utter terror. I had forgotten.

You wouldn't

"I would"

Hiccup turned and ran faster then I had ever seen him run before, directly towards the dragons den.

It took me a second to get over my shock before chasing after him.

Hiccup, wait HICCUP! Slow down there buddy! we can talk this out right? I mean come on it wasn't that big of a – well I mean it was sorta – okay maybe, wait HICCUUUP!

If you're reading this I'm guessing you read it all. If you enjoyed it let me know. If you hated it let me know. If I made any mistakes let me know. I'll try and see when I can get the next one out. I have a basic Idea of how I want to finish it. This was a very spur of the moment awesome writing spree so I don't know when ideas will flow as easily as this again.