A/N: This idea came to me earlier, from a very strange place. Stick with it, it's gonna hurt at the start, I can't help that. I might continue it if people want. It's pretty short. Read, review and enjoy!

Chapter One

It had been nearly 3 weeks since Kenzi returned. 3 weeks since the human walked into the Dal as if nothing had happened. 3 weeks since the human whispered in her ear "Tamsin said thank you".

Nothing had been the same, sure Kenzi was back, but the Clubhouse was still too quiet for Bo's liking. The Succubus and the human were both feeling the pain but not in quite the same way. In the months since Tamsin's rebirth things had been a lot different. She went from being a person that Bo liked having around, to a person that Bo loved having around. She was funny, she was warm, caring and considerate, yet she still had that Tamsin bite that Bo adored about her even when they weren't exactly friends.

Bo was sitting on the sofa downstairs when Kenzi walked down stairs. The human stopped and looked at the Succubus. She was sitting with her elbows on her knees, the remote control in one hand and a vodka in the other, every few moments she hit the rewind then play buttons on the control. Kenzi looked to the tv to see what Bo was watching that had her acting all zoned-out Succubus with OCD. There on the screen she saw Tamsin waving, smiling and saying hi. The sound was down but Kenzi remembered that day.

Tamsin had mentioned something about loving the beach one day when she and Kenzi had been having one of their heart-to-heart chats. The Valkyrie had been feeling a little down recently, with her memories coming back and hitting her in small parts. She was starting to feel like she didn't belong. Kenzi had decided to borrow Bo's car one day and drive them to the beach. They had messed around most of the day, being total idiots, then towards the end of the day Kenzi got out her phone and filmed some of the rest of the day. That's what Bo was watching. Again.

"I'm going to meet Dyson at the Dal," Kenzi said softly, looking at Bo, "do you want to join me?"

"Not tonight Kenz…" Bo replied, hitting rewind again.

"Not any night apparently…" Kenzi said quietly to herself as she left the house and went to the Dal to meet Dyson.

x-x

"I thought you said Bo was coming tonight." Dyson said.

"I asked her, but she said not tonight." Kenzi said, "she was busy anyway…"

"Doing what?" Dyson asked.

"Watching that beach video of Tamsin again," Kenzi replied, drinking her drink, "she's not dealing with it at all D, is this what she was like when I wasn't here?"

"When you weren't here, all she focused on was getting you back," Dyson said with a soft smile, "she didn't eat, feed or sleep unless one of us forced her to… Tamsin on the other hand… she was a complete mess."

"And now Bo is the complete mess." Kenzi said, sighing, "what if there's a way to get Tamsin back D…"

"There isn't," Trick said, clearing away some of the glasses, "Tamsin was on her last life, she knew that once she died this time that would be it…"

"Way to make me feel better Trickster," Kenzi said, "I already feel all kinds of shitty about her not being here…"

"Tamsin knew it might cost her life, but she willingly did it anyway," Trick said, "because she loved you. Now the only person who can decide whether Tamsin gets reborn or not is Freya…"

Kenzi didn't say anything she just looked down at her drink.

"She's really gone…" Dyson said.

x-x

"Why did you do it Valkyrie?" Bo asked watching the video again, "I can't do this without you."