Caitlyn's POV

I took my car keys and got into the car, starting it as I tried to think of a place to go. I slowly drove out of the driveway and turned left, having a special place in mind.

When I got there, I stopped the car and got out, slamming the door behind me.

I walked up to the edge and sat down, bringing my knees to my chest.

"Hi," I whispered.

I got no reply as the wind howled around me.

"A lot..., a lot of things have happened since I last spoke to you," I mumbled, placing my hand on the cold slab of granite. "I'm pregnant. Yeah, you... you would have been an uncle."

Tears leaked out my eyes as I stared at my brother's name written in gold.

"I don't want to be with Nate anymore..., he... he has issues and I'm scared of what he could do. Shane's already hurt Mitchie. I know Jason wouldn't hurt a fly but there's something different about Nate..." I swallowed. "He's unpredictable. And no, I can't control his very being because he sussed me out. I don't mean to be manipulative. I was when we were kids but Nate..., he needs stability and I can give it to him. Me and our baby but, I'm scared, Jesse!"

I sobbed and winced as I felt drops land on my face and body. God, why did you cause the rain now?

"Jesse? If this is you sending a message, I am sorry. I'm sorry! I just... I don't want to be hurt. I hurt people before they hurt me because they always leave! You left me! You left me... I'm normal, I know that I am. I'm not sick, I promise. I take my meds. I should probably confess all, should I? To Nate. To everyone. That I'm bipolar and you were schizophrenic. It's scary being sick."

I sighed and closed my eyes, leaning my head against the tombstone.

"Just keep me safe? Or take me up there with you? I don't want to be here anymore. Life sucks and this baby and Nate are better without me. Take me, god damn it!" I screamed.

I felt the rain pour heavily on me and tried getting up but I slipped, hitting my head against the stone. The last thing I heard and saw was lightening and thunder.

...

"She's waking up."

I struggled to open my eyes and when I did, I saw a blurred outline of Mara.

"Hey, you... Jason and I were going to eat out but then we saw you drive passed, upset and we followed."

I moaned, reaching a hand to my head to feel a plaster.

"Oh yeah," Jason said as he came in with pills and a glass of water. "You hit your head. Not that badly but bad enough, honey."

I took the pills and the water before giving them a small smile. "Thanks... I was just thinking of Jesse."

"We understand. He's not going to be around to be an uncle." Jason said.

I shook my head. "No, he isn't. But he'll always watch over my baby." I whispered.

"Shall we call Nate?"

"No. Not yet. I just need time." I replied, rubbing my face from fresh tears.

Jason nodded. "Well, I'll leave you two beautiful ladies alone. I gotta clean out Rondo's doghouse."

I chuckled when the dog in mention ran in and jumped on the bed, into my arms.

"Rondo...! Not the bed!" Mara moaned before grinning and petting him as well.

Jason smiled and left the room just as Mara flung an arm over my shoulders.

"You're going to be okay."