"Excuse me sir. You cant go out from your room yet."

A woman voice broke Ryoma and Fuji staring contest. Ryoma whipped his head to look at the direction of the voice, noticing it is a nurse who is doing her night round.

"I want to go home. Can you prepare any document so i can discharge out of this place?"

The nurse looked surprised at the sudden request. She looked at Fuji, already knew that he is one of their boss' lovers. Fuji stare at the nurse, conveying to the nurse not to let Ryoma go out from the hospital.

"Im so sorry. But with your condition right now, you are not fit to be discharged." She seem understand. Already knowing the story of Ryoma from other collageous. Who dares to discharge Atobe Keigo's lover without his consent. Only someone who does not love their life dare to go against Atobe's order.

"I dont care! Let me speak to the doctor incharge!" Ryoma slightly shout, impatient. His head suddenly hurt by the sudden outburst. For a while, he staggered but manage to hold himself with the drip stand.

Fuji looked at Ryoma and was ready to caught him in case the boy collapsed. Eyes burning into Ryoma.

The nurse also looked very confused about the situation. But she is quick to handle about the situation and promised to call the doctor incharge to Ryoma.

Ryoma's head is spinning and he quickly slide and lend on the wall.

Seeing that Fuji hurriedly tried to pick the boy up but once again have to stop his action when Ryoma shouted 'Go away!'

For once Fuji feel so helpless. He always can do everything he wants and whatever he want he will definitely get it. But now, after the outburst from Ryoma a few days ago and the boy threw his phone to his face, Fuji really have to think twice before he can touch Ryoma.

After Sanada called them about Ryoma's condition, they all agreed that they will have to calm down about this situation and not pushing the boy into another bad and desperate situation anymore. Because of their action, Ryoma closed his heart to them and refused any other contact.

So Fuji have to beg trying to keep Ryoma from pushing him hard.

"Please go back to your room to rest. You can wait for your doctor there." He started.

"I will go from your sight if you agreed to go back to your room. Please, Ryoma. Dont push yourself like this. You can wait for the doctor in the room instead of squating here being uncomfortable.If you collapsed again, i wont hesitated telling the nurse to tie you up." Fuji added after he see the boy was about to open his mouth to retort back at Fuji.

So, Ryoma reluctantly agreed and went back to his room and immediately glare for Fuji to scram from his sight when he reach his bed.

Fuji closed the door and went to the waiting lounge since he can monitor Ryoma's room from there. Right now Fuji is the only who can keep an eyes on Ryoma since his other lovers have to settle their works before they can take their leave.

Ryoma is feeling agitated and fuming. Atobe is really the most selfish and asshole person he have met so far. He even silently threathening Ryoma that if he is still in his decision to discharge without doctor (HIS) approval, the doctor will lose his job.

Does he care about the doctor? No he didnt care but destroying other's life is not in his list right now. So he have to keep playing in this 'game' of those 'stranger'.

Ryoma let it all out. All his frustation, hate, anger and sadness. All these nagging feeling that has been haunting him.

After Ryoma uttered those word to Fuji that night, none of his ex-lovers came to see him but Ryoma knew Atobe must have been keeping a close watch on him. After all this hospital is owned by his family. Its easy to just install the camera around the room he is currently in. Or make the doctor and nurse spy on his activity of the day.

Anyway he decided to be indifferent to all of these. He want to quickly recuperate and go abroad to mend his heart. To forget what happened here. To start a new chapter in his life. Seeking help for his brokeness.

But to heal himself is really difficult after all he had faced. He has no one to rely on.

That afternoon, he went out to the hospital garden all by himself despite the protest of the nurse and doctor saying he is still not fit to walk around. Ryoma ignore them knowing that is all lie. All of them are afraid that they will face atobe wrath if he manage to run away from the hospital.

Ryoma is not stupid. Currently he has no money on him. Not even his own mobile phone. How can he escape?

They must have thought it through to keep him here until atobe deem him fit enough to be discharged from hospital.

One month later, his condition is already better and he can be discharged in 3 days if no more contraindications. Ryoma's day has been peaceful in these 3 months because none of his ex lovers come to visit him. He also didnt hear any new about them, not that he care.

Anyway Ryoma has try to contact his manager in these one month but has been unsuccessful since then. This must be the despicable doing of atobe.

He wants to see what they will do once he is discharged from hospital in three day.

Ryoma doesnt mean to eavesdrop but he accidently heard some of the nurses talking about Kevin labour. This shock him because its not his due date. But later what more shocking is the baby is stillborn. That pierce his heart hurtfully. No wonder they dont come see him (he doesnt care anyway). They are busy consoling Kevin. Ryoma refuse to hear the rest and decided to go back to his room to rest.

The baby didnt survive. A baby that they care so much that they vow to protect died. That must have been hard on Kevin. He must be one of the factor that causes this because of their squabbling.

Ryoma sadly looked at himself. If only none of these nightmare is real, so he can be at ease with his life. At least there wont be this heavy feeling in his heart.

Yeah, a heavy feeling where he caused a baby they have been waiting to arrive died before it can take a breath in this world.

3 days later..

Surprisingly Tezuka came to get him from hospital. Only Tezuka.

Ryoma ignore him. The awkward silence is really suffocating but Ryoma wont be the one to end it. Right now Tezuka is being lectured or adviced by a doctor to take great care of Ryoma.

After given his medical card, Tezuka led him away to one of Atobe limosin outside the hospital. His face grimace when he saw the car. He stood at the entrance refuse to go inside. Tezuka also didnt coax him to go inside. Just waiting for Ryoma to make a move.

Ryoma knew he could make a run for it but he dont want because it will make a ruckus. He just recovered and doesnt want to go back to hospital again in case something happens.

"Send me to my home." He broke the silence after two hours of standing outside.

"I knew what happened to Kevin."

There is no shock from Atobe. So they knew that he knew.

"I know this is partly of my fault causing Kevin to lose his baby. Im so sorry. So its better for us to let go of thing that cause this tragedy... "

"Are you running away from this responsibility?" Tezuka cut him, emotion devoid in the statment.

"Yes i am. After all, this is all of your fault that causes me and Kevin to meet our own bitter ending. Arent you?"

"Shut it!" He suddenly roared and dragged Ryoma into the limousin but very carefully not to hurt Ryoma.

"I admit that we are at fault for neglecting you for these past month but that doesnt mean you can run away from this responsibility. All of us are the cause and we are going to fix these together. Kevin need all of us! You need all of us!"

Tezuka angrily said.

Ryoma want to laugh so hard. Who need them? The one who cause him misery.

"You want me to believe you?! Who the f* need you?!! You dare to act like you own my life!"

"Stop this right now! Stop throwing tantrum like a child and lets talk like an adult we are!"

"So are we not having a conversation like an adult then?! What do you take me for, Tezuka?!!"

Ryoma is fumming. This is his first time like this with his ex captain. Tezuka must be so sad due to the death of the baby butbut doesnt mean he can let it out on him. Again he will become their place where they can vent the frustation. And even if he lose his life he will fight it till the end.

author ' s note : im so sorry for my long absence. so sorry if this chapter seem organised. i used to write using my laptop but i cant open fanfiction using web. yeah. my country banned fanfiction. so i dont have any mean to post aside from this app. i will revised this chapter again after i complete the work. i mean the grammar. for those of you have message me, im sorry but i cant reply. app cant open the pm. i dont know why.

lastly im having a difficulty in life. its hard to find time to write but i will try my best.