The Rest of Our Lives

Chapter 4

Tris POV

"Tobias? What are you doing?" He came closer, with each step I was more and more terrified for my life. He had this horrible look on his face: the look of pure hatred. "Tobias!" I screamed. "Tobias, please look at me, hear me!" It was like he was under a simulation again. Oh god, I thought, not another one of these! Last time he almost killed me and I don't want him to have that option again. His knife was touching my stomach. I had tears coming into my eyes. "Tobias, please..." As soon as I said his name, he changed again. His eyes became their regular deep blue color and he looked down at his knife terror stricken. "Tris... "

Tobias POV

I saw so much fear and desperation in her eyes. "Tris" I said, "I-I don't know- I'm sorry. I jus-" She just looked at me, screamed and ran towards our bedroom. I wanted to run after her but I was so distraught by what I almost did. I almost killed my wife of one day. I was still holding the knife and it fell from my hands, landing with a deep, low thunk. I sunk down to the ground of our living room. How could this be happening to me? I thought. I never realize that it is happening, it's like my brain gets shut down. I got up and started pacing. I need facts. I need to know what is wrong. I need to know why I almost killed my wife.

I walked down to the train tracks and jumped onto the next train. I sunk against the wall of it and lost myself in horrible day dreams and terrifying thoughts. One day dream, or nightmare I should say, was one that will haunt me for forever.

I was walking through the chasm with Tris, suddenly I snapped and pushed her over the railing, causing her to hold on for dear life. She hung there like Christina did during their initiation, with her small body hanging by her even smaller fingers. With each spray of the cold water, she shrieked. "Tobias, why-" she was cut off by a huge wave of water. She lost her grip and fell to her death. I stood there watching her scream and fall down, down, down until the only sound was her screams echoing off of the rocky walls. I look down at her, slip my wedding ring off of my finger and drop it into the raging water down below. The waves take her and my ring away, never to be seen again.

I awoke with a start, that had been the worst one yet. Her screams were ringing in my ears. I had to calm myself down, so I got up and waited to jump off of the train. I was heading to Erudite headquarters to talk to Caleb. As I walked through, I noticed that many things had changed since the fall of Jeanine. For example, the huge portrait of her was gone and a blank wall stared back at me where those cold, blood-lusting eyes once sat. I walked through the library and up to the front desk. "Caleb Prior. Where?" I said with intimidation. The lady just pointed a finger towards the back. I followed her directions and found him sitting in his office. I knocked on the door before coming in.

"Caleb? Are you in here?" I asked. "Tobias, is that you?" Said a voice coming from behind the huge door. "Yeah, it's me. I really need to talk to you about something very important." I said while sitting down in a plush, red leather chair in front of his desk. "We'll you already married my sister so I know it's not that." He said with a chuckle. I flashed a weak smile and looked down. He seemed to notice my anxious demeanor. "Caleb, something is wrong with me. I'm not sure what it is, but I fear that it might be a simulation." I looked at him. I could see his mind working like gears, each idea working itself into the front of his mind. "It has happened, at least three times now. I'm not sure because I'm not aware during them. But each time is worse than the last." Caleb started talking slowly then all at once. "What happens each time? Have you ever harmed anyone during these spurts? How often have they happened? Do you think Jeanine or Eric could be the cause of this? Is my sister in danger?" I stopped him there. "Woah, woah, Caleb I can't understand you when you talk that fast. The first time I just snapped at Tris, the next time I got angry at her, and the last time it happened, I, um, I almost stabbed her." Silence.

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