Mia: Listen guys, a lot of personal things happened. I'm not the kind of person who would blabber my life story, or my personal stuffs, so I just hope that you understand! Assume what you want :,D

Now, I changed my name, also because of personal stuff. I'm now Mythia-san! But I'm still Mia. In a way. I just thought that, you know, I shouldn't try to be someone I'm not. I'm not a very happy person, if you think that about me. And I'm telling you this because there's a big chance that my writing is gonna be affected because of my personal changes.

But um, despite having very little love for the last chapter, I suddenly felt selfish and greedy. Like most writers, I initially wrote because I loved to. I posted some of my works because I thought that I'd like some feedback to improve and feel good about myself (one or the other, I got both). Eventually, I was kinda tired of writing, but I still wrote for YOU guys. And while that sounds nice, it drains the writer and makes him or her start to hate writing. That's how I felt. With what was going on with my personal life, I even considered ending this account. It was too stressful to manage.

But you know? I didn't. Why? Well, at first it was because of the friends I made here. I was afraid that I'd do something I'd regret. And in some ways, I regret making this account in the first place. But in other ways, I'm glad that I did this, or else I'd be much more terrible at writing. Really.

Now, the reason that I'm sticking with this fanfiction writing business is the reason I started writing fanfiction to begin with - because I love writing.

And maybe one day, I'll grow to hate it again. The cycle will come again, and I'll be selfish and want reviews. But that's okay. It shows just how human I am, and it also shows that I can overcome that selfishness and write again with more passion than before. Maybe my love for writing will grow by tenfold! (Maybe.)

Thank you for those who take the time to review and even read this alone. I really appreciate it. And yes, I will continue it, not for you, exactly... but because I love to write. :)

(Sorry that was so long ._.)

Ren stalled for a whole day. It wasn't because he wasn't as passionate as the others when it came to saving Haruka, hell no - it was because he was afraid.

Yes, Jingugi Ren, the flirtatious STARISH boy band member, was afraid.

It wasn't what one would normally assume from this. He wasn't afraid because he thought that he'd get hurt or get his hands dirty. He wasn't afraid of making matters worse by hurting Haruka, no.

He was afraid because of the science that came with time traveling.

You see, Ren was fully aware that this was some sort of magical thing. He was going back in time because of the magical glowing rune that Cecil wore around his neck, as crazy as that sounded. But see! There were some supernatural elements that came with this time traveling ability, but there was also the science.

If he went back in time, that meant that he was from the future, which meant that he was not supposed to be there - which meant that whatever he did, from breathing different air than he did when he was the Ren at that time to walking a different direction, he was affecting the world and the people in it. It would be slight, but eventually, time would catch up to him and punish him.

He was not ready to screw with time.

One would think that Ren would be the last person to think about this. His mind was mostly heart, one would think. He'd let feelings drive his actions. But in fact, it was the opposite. Ren wouldn't hesitate to get his flirt on, but he was strategic about this. He considered other feelings to get them to attract to him. His charisma was backed up by his genius... ness.

But that proved that Ren had a mind, and that mind was thinking rationally. After all, he was in the S Class a billion years ago.

It was probably Hijikawa's fault (Even though he was in the A class, sucks for him). But Ren didn't blame others often, even if he pretended to out loud.

He often blamed himself for a lot of things, and that was something Haruka figured out surprisingly quickly. The fact that she understood Ren, even though she had never experienced the things that he had, made Ren like her. That made him possibly... love her.

Know this: Ren would not throw love around as casually as one would think. He liked to satisfy women and make them happy - and their attraction to him just naturally came with it. But he was picky about the people he'd truly love and care about.

Because Nanami Haruka was one of them, Ren actually considered time traveling. Actually going into the forbidden parts of the world, which was anywhere but the present.

He could create a time paradox if he saved Haruka. For some reason, he suspected that he was the only one who thought of this and actually believed it. He thought that Tokiya and Masato would think about it, but they didn't seem to consider it at all. But then again, with a situation like this, Ren didn't think that STARISH's logic would rule over their emotion, their determination and desires of justice.

But it did for him!

How could he create a time paradox, you ask? Think about it. If Ren saved Haruka, meaning that Haruka didn't die that fateful day in May, then Haruka would be back in the present. No news would report her death, and so there'd be no reason to go back into the past to save her. It'd either be a loop or a time paradox, causing space to do whatever dance it did to destroy itself.

So yes, the Jingugi Ren, the flirtatious STARISH boy band member, was indeed afraid! And he had a very good reason to!

"Maybe I should go," Masato said.

"No. I will go."

"You said that yesterday every hour, and yet here we are Ren."

Ren scoffed. "Have you not thought of the idea of time traveling? Many things could go wrong."

"You actually considered the possibilities," Masato deadpanned, internally surprised. That actually gave him a whole other outlook towards Ren, but he tried his best to hide any signs of it.

"But don't you want her here again, Ren?"

"I do, but..."

"Stop hesitating with that fear, Ren," Masato prompted, having enough of his rare cowardly side. "Remember - Cecil's rune is something beyond science. Perhaps the magic will cover whatever could happen if science triumphed time travel."

"Shut up, Masa," Ren grumbled, pacing around the room in little circles. Though, he did consider Masato's words. Maybe the magic could cover it. Maybe if they saved Haruka, the world would revert itself to bright skies and happy smiles.

Ren's hand flew up to his face. "F*ck," he muttered.

After another go of internal turmoil and mental seizures, Ren stomped out of the room, only to find Cecil outside of his door, swinging the necklace in his hand. "Are you ready, Sir Jingugi Ren?" he asked for the twelfth time that day. "You're not going to chicken out and run away again, are you? Tokiya-kun has already offered to go back again."

Ren's answer was immediate. "No. Tokiya be screwed, I'm going."

"Not tomorrow, right?"

Cecil wore a challenging smirk. Ren did the same.

"No, silly Cesshi. I'm going now."

Masato heard their entire conversation, since the door was wide open. How stupid of Ren sometimes.

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure."

"Alright then." Cecil chanted something, not even bothering to bring all of STARISH together to witness Ren's departure, and brought the rune to life once more to envelop Ren in its light and have him fade away into the past.

"Good luck, Jingugi," Masato muttered, flickering his eyes as the door loudly shut.

It was two days before Haruka's murder, according to the date glowing on Ren's phone.

And his luck couldn't have blessed him enough - Haruka was seated on the piano in front of him. Ren remembered sitting before one of her practice runs, listening to her melodious music as her fingers danced along the keys. It was comforting to hear her influential music once again.

It filled him with determination.

"Hey, Little Lamb," Ren prompted. He didn't realize how abrupt his voice was, as it sliced through the air and cut off the music completely. Ren was utterly surprised at this, since the usual Haruka would've kept playing while speaking to him, humming in response.

Haruka seemed so... anxious. Afraid. Guilt-stricken.

But why?

"Y-Yes, Jingugi-san?" she squeaked in reply. Ren cleared his throat.

"Are you all right? You don't seem like your usual self, and you haven't been lately," he said, trying to sound like the usual him and half-concerned. He stood up and walked closer to her, so he could speak a bit quieter. "Is there something bothering you?"

The composer blinked, unsure of what exactly Ren meant. No one asked her about this, and it startled her rather badly that Ren of all people would bring it up so suddenly.

She tried to compose herself, and managed to say without cracking her voice, "I'm alright, Jingugi-san."

"You've been... out a lot."

"Y-Yeah."

"Saotome hasn't given you permission to do that half of the time, you know."

Crap. That just slipped out of Ren's mouth, and Haruka's eyes were alarmed.

"Oh! Um, well, see that's..."

Ren reminded himself why he fell in love with Haruka in the first place, and calmed himself. He had a full three hours, and had spent not even a minute to find her, unlike the others. He was sure to bring her back in that plenty amount of time. Confidence swayed powerfully in his heart and mind, and he tried to be slick through this.

He leaned forward, lifting his large, sexy hand to push Haruka's petite chin up. Her eyes refused to meet his, and Ren feigned an impatient frown, searching into her wavering, hypnotic eyes.

"Look at me, Haruka," he spoke with all the suave he could muster while pulling it off naturally. He smirked when he felt her gulp and blush deeply.

Her hands flew up to his chest, gently trying to push him away, but Ren kept himself from shrinking away, not budging even a little. Haruka was growing desperate, pushing with more force, but that was nothing on Ren. In fact, he thought this scenario was a bit funny and ironic, with how she was pushing her small, delicate fingers into his lean abs.

"J-Jingugi-san, what - "

"Haruka," he silenced her. His voice was getting lower by the second, but his determination didn't falter in the slightest. "You must tell me what's wrong, or else none of us can do anything to help you. This might affect our music."

"Us? Our...?"

"STARISH, and you," Ren chuckled with a nod, feeling his smile reach up to his eyes. He hoped he was getting to her, even if by a little.

And, even though he said he wasn't scared of Saizo, he hoped not to see the b*stard's face.

"We're a team, and we cannot function without each other," Ren continued, being more gentle to cup Haruka's flustered face. Despite her face being pinkish, his fingers told him that she was freezing to the touch. He couldn't stop talking now. "If there's something wrong, you must tell me. Or else, tell one of us. Us as in STARISH. Us as in QUARTET NIGHT. Us as in Shibuya. Us as in the people you've touched."

What a corny speech, Ren thought with a mental airy chuckle. But Haruka still faltered, stepping back from his grasp. From the looks of it, she was overwhelmed, so Ren didn't push it.

"Jingugi-san," she whispered, barely being able to hear, "I know you mean well. But I just cannot tell you... it's too personal..."

"That's what 'us' is for. You have your best friend, your boss, your family - "

"I can't tell anyone, Jingugi-san! I cannot have you worried - " Haruka stopped, slapping her hands to her pale mouth. It used to be so pink and moist, but it was chapped and colorless.

Ren tried to remain calm. "Worried?" he repeated. "Haruka."

"I - I..." Her eyes were wide, her body trembling. Ren wanted nothing more than to embrace her scared form, but she stepped back whenever he advanced forward. She was afraid of him.

And that scared him more than he knew.

Perhaps, that was what he was afraid of all along. That in the end, even if he did save Haruka, that she wouldn't be grateful, and would've wanted to die than to be back. His knowledge was becoming mushed all at once and yet it strung together in a senseless bond.

Whatever Saizo was doing to Haruka, it was affecting her character and who Ren knew her to be. And by all means, no way in hell was he going to allow that.

Should I be the one to ask further... or should I get someone else involved to talk to her?

Mia: PLEASE READ!

Not much happened, I admit. But I've been writing my original novel for quite some time and it's a psychological novel, so... it just kinda bled into these pages here haha.

Voting time! Here's a hint: of all things, remember Ren's fears... and that the narrator isn't to be fully trusted.

Will Ren:

1) Be the one and only one to reach Haruka (despite having plenty of time to explain the seemingly outstretched situation to someone else and having them to convince Haruka better)

OR

2) Ask for assistance from someone else to help Haruka (and risk the chances of affecting the present)

Thanks for reading! It really means the world to me.