Hallelujah – Imogen Heap

They were slipping apart. Out growing feelings that should have stayed for a life time. He could hear it those words even before they were said. The eyes said all. Not pained, or sad, or even kind. Just bored, dead. He knew.

A million excuses came out. Everyone a lie. Those were the hardest to get past. The tiny little barbs that drove straight into his heart till he was just numb and tired. So tired. He watched her stand at the front door with bags. She was looking at him. Watching him. He guessed she maybe wanted him to stop her. To tell her that things will work out.

More lies. He had enough of them.

He was tired.

"Goodbye Shinichi."

The door shut with a sort of finality that he knew there was no going back from. Walking to the kitchen he picked up their half empty mugs from this morning. Dumping the contents he washed and dried them and placed them where they belonged. For a moment he could only stare at them. Side by side. Perfect in harmony.

He closed the cabinet door.

He steps echoed hollowly through the manor. Reminding him of his now solitude. He looked into the living room.

"Shinichi stop, that tickles."

"Does it now?" He replied and pressed his fingers more firmly into her ribs exciting another laugh from her.

The image morphed from cuddles and playful teasing to something darker.

"I can't keep doing this! Hiding in plain sight! How much longer?!"

"I don't know, I don't know." Shinichi murmured as he tried to console her.

Her hands slapped his away and her glare finished their conversation.

He remember that night she had stayed at Sonoko's and he at the bottom of a bottle. Moving further into the house he paused at the music room. It had been shut for months. Untouched. Undisturbed by their negativity. Walking away from the happier moments in their relationship he continued till he reached the library.

"I love you, Shinichi. I always will."

She had said.

"What are you hiding?"

She had asked.

"You've changed, Shinichi."

She mumble, disappointed.

"Did you think I was stupid?! I wouldn't find out! You …Conan. Shinichi!"

She screamed. It was his fault for being stupid and not throwing the old gadgets away. That had been it. The crippling blow to their relationship. It was never salvageable after that. No matter how hard he tried. She wanted nothing to do with him. With the lies.

Standing in the middle of the room he looked around. The arguments outweighed the good memories now.

He was tired. Pinching the bridge of his nose he fought against the pounding headache.

"You need to take better care of yourself." She chirped at his bedside. "Hey," her hand on his bore was gentle and full of love. He opened his eyes fighting the fever to look up warily at her. "I love you."

Shinichi's eyes swam and he staggered into the desk. He loved her so much. His light. His life. He had destroyed that with un-trust. Covering his mouth he hid the sobs.

"Ran …"

Sweet kami I want to cry ...QAQ