Wow okay. So I haven't written fan fiction in about...well something close to many, many years lol. But I just cannot get this stupid season finale out of my head and so this is the result. I don't quite know where I'm going with this; whether it's just a one shot, or possibly a two shot, or god forbid a longer multi-chapter. But I just had to get it out and I figured I'd post it up here. Let me know about things :)

Regina retreated. She turned on the heel of her foot and all but ran out of the diner door, not stopping to grab her coat, just fleeing. She ran down the steps just as the first of her tears began to carve tracks down her cheeks. Stopping at the bottom of the steps, she bent over slightly. She placed her hands on her knees and took deep, ragged breaths trying to quell the panic attack she could feel rising.

'Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid.' A mantra playing in her head. 'How could you think you could ever be happy? How could you think that you deserved it? Stupid.'

She heard the door behind her open and quickly got back up to her full height before her continued walking away.

"Regina!"

She didn't stop. 'Just keep walking,' she thought. 'One foot in front of the other.'

"Regina stop!"

"Why did you do this to me?!" She yelled, turning back around the face the blonde.

"Regina I, I didn't know sh-"

"No! Why did you make me…good? I was perfectly fine being the Evil Queen. I didn't have to deal with all of this pain and hurt. I didn't have to feel al of this…this…" a sob wracked her body as she tightly held herself, her knuckles turning white as her fingers squeezed at the skin just below her ribs. "I can't do this anymore."

"Regina."

"I try so hard. I've done every thing I could. I've changed, I'm a hero now. So why can't I get my happy ending? Why does Rumple get Belle? Why does Hook get…you? And I get nobody. Every time I think I can be happy, every time I'm even close to feeling it, it gets snatched away."

"I'm sorry."

Regina gave a snort. "Don't flatter yourself, Miss Swan," she ground out through her teeth. "You're only one on a very long list."

Emma stood in front of Regina, lost for words. Regina's anguish was clear as day on the planes of her face, in the depths of her eyes, and she could feel an echo of her pain deep within her own chest. She'd done this. She'd caused her this pain. Rumplestiltskin and Hook both tried to warn her about changing the past, but she hadn't listened. Always trying to be the saviour. And this is where it got her.

"Regina, I'm sorry," she tried again to no avail.

"I don't care," Regina whispered, eyes staring into the space just above Emma's left shoulder. "I'm done. That's it."

Emma's eyebrows furrowed in scared confusion as Regina's eyes refocused on her face. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, that I'm done…with everything. I was good once. I was young, and carefree, and I thought…I thought I could be happy. I thought that I could run off with Daniel and get away from my mother. That we could live a life together with children of our own. Children I would love and care for in the way that I'd always wished my mother would with me. But it didn't work out that way, did it? And I was good then. I was pure, untarnished from all of this…evil. Now I'm…I don't even know what I am anymore."

"You're good! You can be happy, Regina."

"No I can't, Emma." She shook her head sadly. "This was my last chance. God I thought I was naïve then, but I'm just as naïve now. Thinking that I could actually be the hero and get my own happy ending after so many years playing the villain. After having ordered so many deaths and causing so much destruction. I don't deserve to be happy. I…deserve to die."

"Mum no!"

Regina and Emma's heads both whipped up to the diner door where Henry stood, torment in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, Henry," Regina whispered, just loud enough for him to hear. "I love you my little prince."

Regina squeezed her eyes shut and disappeared in a puff of dark smoke.