Start Again

Strategic Homeland Intervention, Enforcement and Logistics Division. The people who would rather die than see Earth crumble to the ground. The people who would exchange their lives with another just to save them. The people who would selflessly take on a whole army of aliens just to save New York City.

They are the ones who saved me in that China providence. They saved me even though I killed a village. They took me in even though I had a great chance, like all the other O-8-4s, to be a danger to the people on Earth. They were the ones who managed to keep me safe in the foster system. They were the only family I knew. My life began here, at S.H.I.E.L.D. I probably wouldn't be alive if it weren't for them protecting me every step of the way. LONG LIVE S.H.I.E.L.D.!

I can't imagine a life without S.H.I.E.L.D. by my side every step of the way. It has always been my home and always will be. But I can't let them be taken away from me. That is why I have to leave, so they will be safe from Hydra or any other organization that wants me, so they don't die because of me.

! #$%^&*!

It was night in San Diego, California. May parked the 'bus in some abandoned airfield in the middle of nowhere. The cargo ramp was down to let some fresh air in.

We just came back from a mission in Los Angeles. We were taking care of an O-8-4 "situation". Apparently some lunatic thought it was cool to play with an O-8-4 that could kill hundred people with the flick of a switch. We had to dodge bullets and shards of glass just to get to that hooligan. The mission was similar to the ones we had go to before, but this one, Ward wasn't there to protect us. Ward wasn't there to protect us when bullets came flying towards us.

May has been training me very hard. She taught me moves Ward probably never have taught me. She made me tougher faster and more lethal. She made me the whole solution. She made me what Ward was before he joined the team. Coulson has been trying to trust new people, but after HYDRA, he kind of forgot to give people second chances. Fitzsimmions…they're dead. Ward killed them because of orders.

Then again, Coulson isn't the only one with trust issues. S.H.I.E.L.D. has limited the number of people who are recruited. They are doing a full background check one each and every single one of them. To top it off, they are making loyal CS agents who are almost as good as me do the background check so there wouldn't be any false reports. S.H.I.E.L.D. even agreed to make me a level 6 specialist/CS agent.

The HYDRA invasion affect us a lot. Not only emotionally…but made us realized that you can only know the person to actually trust them. If only we had known this before.