"If this marriage is about love and truth, then shouldn't Gabi be marrying the real father of her baby?"
Definitely not, Will thought as Chad's words echoed through his head. After all, he, Will, was the real father, and he only had eyes for one person… not Gabi, but the handsome, raven-haired, tan gentleman by his side – Sonny Kiriakis. And yet, from the moment Chad interrupted the ceremony until the end of the wedding, and then on the way home, Will couldn't stop thinking of how wrong this all was. Not the part where Gabi and Nick had gotten married (after Nick heavily insisted to Father Eric that Chad had been lying and Gabi's baby was his), but the part where this marriage was shrouded in lies. Everyone believed Nick and Gabi were going to live happily ever after and raise their little girl… except that she wasn't theirs, she was Will and Gabi's. Which Will had been forced to remain silent about.
After Chad crashed the wedding, Will struggled not to blow the lid off of everything. Tell everyone, right there and then, that he was the baby's father. He was so sick of the lies, of having to pretend he wasn't about to become a father and share in Nick and Gabi's happiness. In a few months, his daughter would be born, but he had to act like nothing was going on. The toll had become too heavy for him. And yet, he restrained himself from saying anything – allowed the wedding ceremony to be completed. No matter how upset he was that Gabi made him keep this secret, he couldn't do that to her… ruin her wedding and expose her as a liar in front of everyone. She was a friend he cared too much about. And more importantly, he couldn't do that to Sonny.
As the two entered Sonny's apartment, hand in hand, Will couldn't help smiling. As of today, it was actually their apartment – Will had gotten one of the best surprises of his life when finding a key of his own in the gift box Sonny had handed to him. His excitement had been so great, he couldn't even wait until after the wedding; he moved his things into Sonny's flat immediately. And now here he was, living with his gorgeous, loving boyfriend. They had all the time in the world to spend together. Things were perfect.
And that was exactly why he couldn't lie anymore. This perfection was incredibly fragile; it was built on the very delicate foundation of Will's secret, and if said secret came out in the wrong way, everything would shatter. He would lose Sonny and the amazing life they'd only just started together. He didn't know what he was going to do about the baby, but he did know that he couldn't just keep quiet and pretend he had nothing to do with the kid for the rest of his life. And if he was going to come clean about things, it absolutely had to be to Sonny first. He owed him the truth. He had to take a leap of faith that he wouldn't lose Sonny over it; living perpetually in fear that he might lose him someday would be worse, anyway.
"So…" Sonny mused while tossing his jacket aside and loosening his tie, "You said you had plans for us for tonight. I'm eager to hear what these might be." He stepped closer to Will and began helping him discard his own tie.
Will smiled bashfully, Sonny's voice having woken him from his reverie. "Oh yeah, I can think of a few things I'd like to do…" He had barely gotten that last word out as Sonny pressed his lips to Will's, kissing him slowly and tenderly, the kiss of a couple that's in no hurry because they've got all the time they could want. He began a caress from the sides of Will's neck to his shoulders, as Will tangled his hands in Sonny's hair and tilted his boyfriend's head slightly to the side to allow a better angle. God, all he wanted was to lose himself in this kiss, in Sonny, to forget all about what was bothering him… but he couldn't.
Sonny had already unbuttoned the top three buttons of Will's white dress shirt when Will stopped him, gently placing his hands on Sonny's. "Wait… wait."
Sonny let out something between a chuckle and sigh. "Will, c'mon, as much as I'd like to christen our apartment with romantic music and rose petals on the bed, I really can't wait one more minute. I want you so badly right now."
Blush crept into Will's cheeks, or maybe his body temperature simply went up. However much restraint it had taken not to tell everyone the truth at the church earlier, it was taking even more not to rip the clothes right off of Sonny right now. But he couldn't. This secret was like a dark cloud hanging over them, tainting every moment they spent together, and he was resolved to get rid of it once and for all.
"Sonny, we have to talk," he said softly, giving his boyfriend a meaningful look. "There's something I have to tell you, and it can't wait. Not even for tomorrow morning."
The passion in Sonny's hazel eyes gradually subsided to make room for a look Will had gotten to know all too well: concern. He had seen it multiple times after Gabi first told him that she was pregnant with his baby. Will typically wore his heart on his sleeve, and it had been easy for Sonny to pick up on how troubled he was after receiving the news. He tried to get through to Will, find out what was on his mind, but Will had to chalk it all up to being Gabi's concerned friend, bound by his promise to her. That was going to end now. He didn't care about his promise anymore; Sonny was more important.
"Are you okay?" Sonny asked gently, rubbing Will's shoulders. "Is something wrong?"
"I'm okay… I just need to tell you something." In spite of himself, Will disentangled himself from Sonny and sat down on the bed so he could remove his dress shoes more easily. Once they were off, he lay down with a sigh. "Sorry for killing the mood."
"No, it's alright." Sonny removed his own shoes and joined Will on the bed, lying on his side to face him. He knotted his fingers through Will's, giving Will that familiar, comforting feeling of warmth spreading through him. "If something's bothering you, I want to be able to help. I want you to always feel like you can talk to me, no matter what's up."
Will flashed a grateful smile in his boyfriend's direction. "I don't know how I got so lucky, to have someone like you in my life… so the least I owe you is honesty." After a beat, he mustered up the strength to continue. "There's something I haven't told you. I don't know how it's going to affect us, but I do know that you deserve the truth."
"Will… I'm not gonna stop loving you all of a sudden, no matter what you say," Sonny said earnestly, looking deep into the younger man's eyes. "Well, actually…" he seemed to catch himself, "I guess there is one thing."
Will's heart sank. "What's that?" he asked with trepidation.
"Well, if you tell me 'Blackout' is your favorite Britney album, I'm afraid I'm gonna have to call it quits. I mean, no offense – "
Will gave a shriek of indignation and pounced on Sonny, shoving him down on the bed. "Oh my god, I can't believe you just did that!" He and Sonny wrestled for a moment before Will placed his hands on both sides of Sonny's head and planted a long kiss on his lips. "You are unbelievable."
Sonny shrugged with a mischievous grin. "What can I say, a gay guy's gotta know his Britney music, you know?"
Will giggled and rolled off Sonny before pushing himself up into a sitting position. He grabbed his pillow and shoved it behind his back, since it was rather more comfortable to lean against than the wall, and Sonny soon followed suit. There was a quiet moment before Sonny spoke again, soothingly caressing Will's thigh as he did.
"Seriously, though… you can talk to me. I promise."
"Thanks." After a beat, Will tentatively continued. "Do you remember when Gabi showed up here, saying that she had to talk to me about some kind of problem?"
"Oh yeah," said Sonny, with a knowing gleam in his eye. "She could not have picked a worse time… I thought I was gonna strangle her for a minute there." They both laughed.
"Yeah, well… after I came back from talking to her, I was pretty down. And you were worried about me." Will fixed his eyes on the covers, away from Sonny's. This was it, he was about to bite the bullet and tell his boyfriend the truth. He couldn't hide his nervousness.
"I remember," Sonny acknowledged. "I told you that whatever Gabi was going through, you shouldn't be that upset about it because it's her problem, not yours… well, actually it was kind of insensitive of me to say that, I'm sorry."
"No, no, Sonny…" Will raised his eyes to Sonny's again and brushed his thumb against Sonny's cheek. "You were right. Yes, Gabi's my friend and I care about her, but I wouldn't have gotten so worked up if this wasn't about me as well."
"But I thought Gabi's secret was that she was pregnant," Sonny said slowly, looking a bit lost. "How does that affect you?"
Will gulped. "Because what Chad said today is true, just not in the way he thinks." He took both of Sonny's hands in his and forced himself to keep looking into the other man's eyes. "Sonny, Nick isn't the father of Gabi's baby… I am."
To Be Continued...