A/N hey guys so i was bored and had just finished reading allegiant I was upset at the ending and decided to make this. I have a few ideas about where this is going but I would like to know what you would like to happen so I can get maximum reviews and likes so plesse review and I will continue and try to intergrate your ideas thanks.

Takes place one year after epilogue from Tobias' POV

Zeke and Christina are right I need to get over her. I need to move on with my life. But I can't. I spend all my time thinking about her.

How if I had of been there I could have prevented her from taking Caleb's place. I could of protected her. She wouldn't be dead if I hadn't left her side.

I run through the hundred excuses I have, which blame me for her dead.Its not your fault. Why couldn't I see this coming, I thought Tris had stopped trying to kill herself. I guess I was wrong. I thought she loved me.

You're being stupid! She did love you and you know that! Then why did she leave me. She didnt want to, you heard what Caleb said. Why should I trust Caleb. He's her brother. He didn't act like it. Why would he lie to you about Tris. He knows how she felt about you and how you felt about her. He wouldn't lie. I have no answer to this.

I have arguements like this every day. Every time I think about her. Tris. Her name still pains me to say it. I love you, Tris. I love you.

I am brought back to reality by a sharp knock on the door. No one visits me anymore. No one except, Christina or Zeke and Shuana. I feel something wet on my cheeks and realise, that I have been crying.

"Four!" Its Christina. No one calls me Tobias anymore. Not after she went. She began to call me Tobais, and now, that she's gone I don't want anyone else to call me that. And Christina, Zeke and Shuana know that.

She opened doors that let to the real me, and I have locked them doors, so tight, and I am sure I will never open them again. They are only for her to explore.

"Come on Four I don't have all day to wait on you!" I forgot, Christina wakes me every morning and takes me down to the grocery store. Without Christina waking me up every morning, I'm sure that I wouldn't be able to get up and I need to do something to take my mind off her. To keep myself from going mad.

"One second!" I yell, in an attempt to sound busy. But it fails. My voice cracks. I can't let Christina know I was crying over... Tris... again. They think I'm better. Not wholly but better than I was. But I am not and I never will be.

My eyes are swollen and red. I splash water over my face. It looks better, hopefully Christina won't notice. I pull on a fresh shirt, and sprint to the door.

By look on her face I suspect she knows that I was crying. But she doesn't mention it.

Christina softly shuts the door behind her and I am on my own again. I can't stand the deafening silence, so I pick up the phone, and begin to pester Johanna for some work to do.

Just as I begin to drop off to sleep, the doorbell goes. I don't feel like answering it. There are no second knocks or shouts, the silence and emptiness, startles me, it's not Christina or Zeke and Shuana this time.

Out of interest I go to the door to see if they are still there. At first, I see nothing through the peephole. Then I see the top of a blonde head.

My heart races and i feel a rush if excitment. Get over yourself she's dead. You're going to open the door and find that it is not her. She's dead.

I open the door.

"Tris." I breathe "but... it can't... You're ... but... but... You're dead...!" I thought I was past the hallucination stage I honestly did. But I'm clearly not. Because she's standing right there even though I know she's dead. She has been for the past three years.

"I... I ... " she begins. Tears begin to fall door her face. I reach foward to stroke them away then retract my hand. She's dead. She's an hallucination. But she's standing right in front of me.

I reach foward again and this time I really do touch her face. I touch her face. She's real! I'm not hallucinating or dreaming. I can touch her. I can feel her soft skin. She's really here. She's really here.

"I... I'm so sorry..." she trails off, sobs racking her body, "I... I can... I can explain," she whispers through her tears.

"it's okay," I whisper softly. I place my hand on the small of her back and guide her inside. She is here. She is really here. She's alive!

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