Say Something

Summary: Astrid is keeping a secret from her fiancé, Hiccup. He's noticed the changes in the way she acts and he turns to Ruff, hoping she knows what's going on so he can help her.

Disclaimer: I don't own How To Train Your Dragon.

*This is the sequel to For the love of Hiccup.*

Chapter One

Ruff grabbed Astrid's arm, dragging her away from Hiccup and their friends. She pushed her into the bathroom and locked the door, turning to glare at her "Spill it, Hofferson."

Astrid raised an eyebrow "What are you talking about?"

Ruff rolled her eyes "Every time you've looked at food you turn green. You aren't even drinking!" Astrid opened her mouth but Ruff continued "You cried, Astrid. Even Hiccup's concerned."

Astrid grimaced and folded her arms over her chest "I did not cry." she glanced at Ruff and shrugged "You're my best friend. Ever think I'm just emotional that you got married?"

"You weren't even watching the ceremony." Ruff pointed said with a laugh "Fish and I saw you and Hiccup making eyes at each other the whole time. Probably thinking about your wedding day."

Astrid wanted to avoid eye contact with her. Ruff knows. She was able to read her like an open book. She's surprised Hiccup hasn't figured it out yet, he lives with her and he doesn't know!

"How far are you, Astrid?"

Astrid sighed and dropped her arms "I don't know. I've been too scared to make an appointment."

"You? Scared?" Astrid nodded "Does Hiccup know?"

"No!" Astrid shrieked. Her eyes were wide and she was shaking her head "I don't want to him to know. Not yet."

"Astrid, chill. What happened?"

Astrid groaned. She didn't want to talk about this. Not even Hiccup knows, and she tells him everything. She bit her lip and motioned towards the door, her voice almost a whisper "Shouldn't we be getting back to the wedding? I mean, it is your wedding."

"Most of them have are family that I have to see every year, and I don't care to meet Fish's family. They can all wait." she grabbed Astrid's shoulders "You can tell me, Astrid. I won't tell Hiccup."

Astrid stared down at their feet. She should tell someone. Get it off her chest. It would make her life better. Maybe Ruff could even make her feel better about it. She already knows Ruff is going to tell her that it wasn't her fault, but she's positive that it is. She knows it is.

"I don't want to tell Hiccup just in case... In case it doesn't work."

Ruff titled her head, eyebrows furrowed in confusion "What do you-"

Astrid wasn't planning on telling her like this. She was just going to tell her about the first, the one that Hiccup knew about. "I've had four miscarriages." she didn't plan on just blurting it out like that.

Ruff's eyes were wide and full of shock. Before she could say anything, Astrid continued "Hiccup was so excited. I loved how excited he got." she could feel her eyes starting to water just from thinking about it "I didn't want to tell him the other three times because I didn't want him to feel like that again... I guess I made the right choice in not telling him."

"Four times? Astrid, are you crazy?!"

She shrugged and rubbed her eyes with the back of her hand "I didn't want to see that look on his face again."

"So you've dealt with it alone? That's not healthy, Astrid. You shouldn't have coped with something like that alone."

Astrid smiled and turned to the mirror, making sure her makeup still looked good. She didn't want Hiccup getting worried. She wiped under her eyes and took a deep breath "I'm fine, Ruff. Promise. I coped just fine. Hiccup didn't even know what was going on and he was there. That's all I could have asked for."

"He is good to you." she watched Astrid and studied her face. She's known Astrid for years now. She's seen her happy, sad, and worried, but never scared. She can see it in her eyes that she's terrified. She pulled Astrid away from the mirror and into a hug "You don't have to go through it alone, you know."

Astrid let out a small laugh "I know. I just made the mistake in letting you be the one to support me."

Ruff rolled her eyes but chuckled "I won't tell Fish. First lie of our marriage!"

"It's not lying unless he asks about it.. But I know you won't."

There was a knock on the bathroom door. Ruff turned and unlocked it, pulling Astrid back to the reception "But seriously, you need to tell him."

Astrid glanced over at Hiccup, who was talking to Fish, Lout, and Tuff. He had a smile on his face and a drink in his hand. He looked so happy, she didn't want to ruin that by telling her she's pregnant and then it fail again. He looked over at her, his smile growing. He motioned for her to come over and she nodded "I know... But look at him. He's happy. I don't want to ruin that."

"He's happy because he's engaged to you, Astrid. He'll be happy and excited again. He's going to be your husband, you need to trust him."

Astrid shot her a glare "I do trust him." she looked back over at him "If I make an appointment... Will you come with me?"

"Gladly." Ruff followed Astrid's gaze "Just not during the honeymoon. Let me know when" she gave her a push forward "Now go to your man! He's waiting"

Astrid was sitting on the edge of her bed. She was trying to move as quietly and slowly as possible so she wouldn't wake Hiccup. She had forgotten about Toothless and how excited he got when one of them moved while around him "Toothless," she whispered, pointing to her spot on the bed "lay down."

Toothless wiggled around, whining. Astrid frowned. All he wanted was attention "Later Toothless, now lie down."

Hiccup mumbled something before turning over and looked at her "Where are you going?"

She looked over at him and sighed. She really hated lying to him. She knew it would hurt when he finds out and she was dreading it "Ruff and Fish got back early this morning. She called and said I should meet her for some coffee."

Hiccup stretched and sat up, slipping and arm around her waist and placing a kiss on her cheek "I'm sure she could wait a few minutes, right?"

Astrid smiled and rolled her eyes. She turned her head, catching his lips "I'm sure she could." she wanted to stay, maybe cuddle with him, go back to sleep, or maybe she could just jump him. She knows he would like that "She's got something... Important. So any other day, I'd love to stay."

Hiccup pouted and nuzzled her neck "I wish you coil stay just five more minutes."

She lifted her hand up, running it through his hair before pushing him back down "Maybe tomorrow, lover boy."

Hiccup laughed and watched her stand up "Tell Ruff I said hey. When will you be home?"

Astrid glanced at the time "I think around three. I'm not really sure what time her thing starts."

Hiccup was watching her face as she talked. He could tell something was off about her but he couldn't put his finger on it "Are you feeling okay?"

Astrid nodded and forced a smile "Of course. Why?"

Hiccup sat up and moved towards her, pulling her to sit down next to him "You're looking kind of green."

Her smile fell. She couldn't tell him it was most likely morning sickness, then he'd know! She scrunched her nose up after smelling his cologne. She loved it, she really did, but it was making her feel pretty nauseas "It could be your cologne. The smell is pretty strong to me right now."

"Oh." he said, moving away from her "Sorry. I can stop wearing it if it'll make you feel better."

She grabbed his arm, pulling him back to her "You will not stop wearing it! I love it, I'm just feeling a little sick today."

Hiccup smiled and pushed her hands off him "Feel better. Go get your coffee, come straight home, I'll be here."

She smiled, kissed his cheek and grabbed her bag sitting by the bed "I'll see you later."

Hiccup called out a goodbye to her as she closed the apartment door. She was nervous, scared even. She was scared that she was going to get there and find out that she had lost another baby. She was thankful that she had asked Ruff to come along with her, she knew she wouldn't be able to do it alone.

She pulled up to Ruff's and honked the horn. She knew Ruff was awake, the girl stayed up twenty-four seven. She's sure Fish doesn't appreciate it. After a few minutes of waiting,a Ruff opened the front door and dragged her feet to the car "Morning. You sure do look lovely." Astrid said, smiling.

Ruff rolled her eyes, letting out a groan "Shut it. You're lucky you're my friend or I'd be asleep."

"Feeling the love, Ruff. I got you this" Astrid said, a smile on her face and holding out a coffee to her.

"You know me so well." she took a sip of the coffee and looked over at Astrid as she started driving "Fish is hanging out with Hiccup later."

Astrid smiled. Two weeks had been too long without Ruff, boring even. She needed to hear someone being judged at least once a week, and without Ruff, that never happened. Ruff being gone is about as bad as it was the time Hiccup went out of the country with his parents. She was invited, but she didn't want to go. After a day she had regretted her decision in staying with Toothless.

"How was the honeymoon?"

"Great." Ruff smiled at her "I'd even go as far as saying perfect."

"Oh wow, he must be doing something right to get you to say perfect."

Ruff nodded and stared down at the coffee "Are you ready to marry Hiccup?"

"I really am. I know he's going to be the best husband. I mean, look at him now."

Ruff couldn't keep herself from laughing "You're going soft."

Astrid smiled. She was glad Ruff was back, and she was glad Ruff was in her life. She was glad she had the support of her. She'd be freaking out if Ruff weren't with her "I'm really nervous."

Ruff gave her a sympathetic smile "Don't be. I know you have every reason to be, but you'll be fine this time. I have a really good feeling about this little guy. He's going to be a Haddock after all, and have you as a mother. He's got to be tough."

"Little guy, huh?"

"Yeah," Ruff started with a nod "it's a boy. I know it."

Astrid rolled her eyes and pulled into a parking spot. She turned the car off, hands shaking as she stared down at her stomach "I guess it's time for the first appointment."

Ruff nodded, opening her car door and stepped out, waiting by the office doors. Astrid slowly walked over and pulled the doors open, stopping before she could walk in "I don't think I can do this."

Ruff groaned and pushed Astrid through the door "You made me miss out on my early morning rest, my first day back with Fish, and are making me keep this a secret. And it's a huge secret, you know how bad at that I am! Now go! I'm not letting you stop now."

Astrid sighed. Ruff was right. It would have been a waste of gas to have drive here for no reason. She walked up to the desk, signed it, and then sat down. She started bouncing her knee, her nerves getting the best of her.

She felt like she was sitting there for hours, watching Ruff on her phone, probably talking to Fish. She wished she was talking to Hiccup, she knew he would keep her calm. But with her luck he was asleep. She bit her lip and pulled her phone out, staring at it before typing out a message to him.

I kind of wish you were here.

She stared up at the clock, her eyes glancing over to the desk and to Ruff. Hiccup has to be awake. She looked down at her phone when it vibrated.

Only kind of? What was so important that she had to kidnap you?

I can't tell you, it's secret. Okay, more than kind of. I'm really nervous.

"Astrid Hofferson."

She glanced up before looking at Ruff "Come with me?"

"Of course."

Astrid hooked her arm with Ruff's, practically dragging her to the room. Astrid was shaking and she knew Ruff could feel it. She can't even say the last time she felt this nervous about sitting in a doctors chair. She felt like she was going to break Ruff's arm if this didn't end sooner.

She wished more than anything that it was Hiccup instead of Ruff.

"Alright Ms. Hofferson, I'm going to start with some questions."