...Hello, This is Rain

I know, I know - Such a bad writer I am - _ -

Publishing stories when I could update the others. Just to tell, I am currently editing and writing the next chapter of my previous Yullen fic Friends and Family - Missions and Duties

So: This fic is about a dream I had - It was about Kanda choosing to stay with allen and not let him be alone rather than living as a human, free of the lotus curse and of his duties as an exorcist. He chose to be with him - Not sure if it was to repay him for his help when it came to alma or not, but I don't think so :P

I woke up crying because of what happened after Kanda went with Allen.

I do not own DGM - This happens at the end. To people who didn't read the manga, their will be some characters that you might not know of/about. THERE MIGHT BE SPOILERS IN OTHER WORDS!

This is a Yullen story, I hope you guys will like it, on with the story

PS: you can read this fic while listening to different ost - those are some examples;

-DGM OST 1 - Shiawase na hibi

-DGM OST 2 - Eliade to no ai

-DGM OST 2 - Togaochi "Suman Dark"

-DGM OST 2 - Koigokoro

-DGM OST 2 - Saika

-Seiken he no kibou

-Chrno Crusade ost2 - #23 Saigo No Hibi

-Chrno Crusade ost - Chrno No Kanashimi (OST)

OR as well as what you want to listen to

You might need to play them again while you read the story seeing that there isn't a long version of those OSTs

For longer ones, try those:

World's Most Emotional Music Ever: The last leaf Falls

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Chapter 1: Why did you come? I was supposed to die alone, like I always did...

Long long ago, was a boy. Cursed he was, as soon as he found happiness, God took it from him. Rejected from the world, he was needed to live as the medium between the akumas and the humans.

Each time he died, he was resurrected as someone else, but no matter what, he was alone. The first time, he died of hunger, alone in the winter woods. The second time, of a sickness, the third he was assassinated. Trying to save a demon that only he could see, he lost his fourth life. The fifth, he died of a sickness once again as well as the 6th and 7th life he was given. The result of his eighth death was caused by falling from a cliff and the one after that, from the wounds he gained in a battle. His 10th death however, was different.

Allen Walker stood in the middle of the battlefield as blood from his wounds flew out of his body. Nobody dared to move as they were astonished by the view in front of them. The 16 years old teen stabbed the millenium Earl's soul with his sword, releasing him from the twisted word he himself was about to leave. He helped delivering the noahs - all of them were finally free of their burden.

The Noahs, Allen's second family were on the 'other side'...waiting for him and Neah to come. After Tyki and Road saved him from Apocryphos, Allen learned about his past, Neah, Mana and the Noahs. He came to help Lavi and Bookman while Kanda became a Gensui in order to get the permission to search for the Moyashi once again after he lost him in the street. So much happened in such a short period of time….

The sword Allen had in his hands disappeared. Returning to its proper place, His left arm had now the appearance of a normal human arm yet the skin was a rough light reddish color.

How ironic it was. His innocence was the heart during all this time and it crushed itself after so much time. Noah and Innocence were natural enemies, of course they would destroy themselves in the end if they were found in the same body...leaving Allen without much to live seeing that the hole in his heart appeared again because the innocence wasn't here to save its host any longer.

His black skin was slowly turning back to its proper snow white color as his eyes turned from amber to silver.

One by one, each exorcist lost their innocent because of the heart's disappearance.

Apocryphos did too disappear as he failed to protect the heart with whom he wanted to submerge with.

Everyone was now free, the war ended, but to what cost?

"Allen-kun!" cried the chinese girl to her comrade who came back to finish his task as the destroyer of time.

The one that they imprisoned and persecuted because he was believed to be a traitor had come back to save them and the world, yet now he was about to die, but to truly free the 14h, Mana's brother….the former Exorcist didn't have a choice.

"...Neah...lend me your power once again….it's...the last time, I promise…" panted Allen, as breathing became harder and harder.

'..A..llen..'

"...It's okay...Mana will be waiting for us...on the other side.."

'...I'm sorry...for me…'replied the 14th as Allen opened the ark's door...for the last time.

"What is he doing-de aru?!" yelled Krory as he watched Allen put his left arm on his stomach wound and his right one one the other side of the ark.

"He's planning to escape!" replied Lavi as he ran to stop the cursed boy. He still had some of his injuries from when he was taken as an hostage in the Noahs mansion for information, he wouldn't be able to make it. If only he still had his Odzuchi Kozuchi!

"Encircle him! Encircle Walker!" yelled Louverier to everyone. If Allen disappeared through the ark, he would definitely die from his wounds.

"Allen! - Walker! Allen-kun! Walker-san!" Miranda, Lenalee, Chaoji and the other former exorcists and finders called to him while the generals and Marie observed him

"That Baka!"

Turning his head, Lavi was surprised to see Kanda sprinting toward Allen. "Yuu?!"

"MOYASHI!"

Glancing at the man who went to such trouble only to bring him back, Allen smiled.

"Don't smile at me you idiot! Where do you think you're going?!" He was still far, he wouldn't make it.

"...Kanda" Allen stopped walking into the ark only to turn toward the japanese man, recalling through what extent he and Johnny did to bring him back.

"...I can go now, can't I? Tell johnny and the others that I'm sorry"

"If you want to apologize, Do it yourself!"

Still too far!

"...Bakanda, don't run...your wounds...they will get worse"

A bit more!

"...Kan..da…"

Please!

"...I'm..going"

PLEASE!

As he sprinted the distance between himself and Allen, Kanda cursed.

"Yuu! Take care of him!"

"Don't tell me what to do, Baka Usagi!" yelled Kanda as he wrapped his arms around Allen and jumped through the Ark.

"...why?.."asked Allen, closing his eyes - it was hard to breath, He wasn't able to reject the wannabe samurai's act.

"Dont talk"

Hiding his face in the crook of Kanda's neck, Allen couldn't keep it in him anymore. "...You...could've have stayed...you were free..so w-why?..." Allen scrunched his face as Kanda laid him on the ground of some unknown place. The older man was trying to manage Allen's heart to heal by using his own life energy, the lotus.

"...I..I'm not gonna let you die like this..."

"...Bakanda...you don't need...to.." panted the boy as he placed his hand on top of Kanda's to move them away from where his heart was.

"Shut up for a while, will you?" argued the japanese man as he looked at the younger's one chest for any amelioration in the short time he had left to heal Allen's heart before it gave out..

"..Please don't…Kanda…"

"If I stop, there's no way in hell you'll be able to survive!"

"But if you continue then you'll be the one dying!" yelled Allen with all the air he currently had in his lungs as tears ran down his cheeks

"...just shut your mouth and concentrate on breathing and staying alive" said Kanda as he gently took Allen's hand off his, only to put it on his side - ignoring as well Allen's worries.

"...Don't ignore me..Kanda.." replied Allen desperately. If he was the cause of Kanda's death, there's no way he'll be able to live on after all he did for him.

"..." No word were exchanged as the younger one was being healed by his comrade.

"...I was the one who was supposed to kill you…."said Kanda, breaking the silence between them as the white haired teen looked at the sky that was darkening by the minute.

Glancing at Allen, Kanda continued. "...If the Noah took hold of you that is, but it seem that God actually had something else planned for you.." revealed the man as he mocked the said divinity who was just a joke in his life.

"...kan..da.."

"...Even if I did not help you..it would not change anything" said the Japanese man.

"...What..do you mean?" panted the former exorcist.

"What I'm saying is, in the end, everyone is alone, right?" replied the Japanese, referring to death in general.

"...Kanda...you don't understand...you still have time, you can go back and live freely like you always dreamed of…if you leave me here-"

"Don't even think about that. I am planning on staying"

" You don't have any debt toward me, I don't want you here!"

"...Moyashi.. I don't care whether you want me here or not. You. Need. Me. How long are you planning on faking smiles?"

Allen was completely taken by surprise by that.

"The pain of being alone is completely out of this world, isn't it? I don't understand why you would accept to live in it for the sake of the world, people you don't even know…You and your messiah-complex..." said Kanda as he thought of the time when he lost Emma(1) and Alma.

Turning his face toward Kanda, Allen locked his desperate silver eyes with the other's deep cobalt filled with understanding and stubbornness.

"...I…" The white haired boy soon became silent as he thought of what he could reply to the man in front of him.

"...I can't say why, but it pisses me off to no end to see you throw your life away. Did you never think of what you wanted to do after this war ended? Did you seriously, from the beginning, think that you would die to fill your mission as the destroyer of time? Don't you have a will to live?! " asked the former exorcist through gritted teeth.

Allen panted before coughing.

"I'm not helping you because I am indebted toward you or anything...I won't leave you here."

"..Don't talk nonsense…When my time will com-"

"I will die with you and you'll be reborn with me."

Allen's eyes widened at what he just heard.

"...w-what?.."

Kanda glared at Allen. "...you heard me...in our next lives, you won't be alone"

"...What..are...you...What are you saying, Kanda!"

"Don't you listen when I talk?"

"That's not what this is about! You come and ask me if I have a will to live and then you are the one who come and tell me that you're gonna die with me?! *Cough Cough* Don't joke*Cough* around!"yelled Allen, desperate to make Kanda give up on this idea.

Kanda grabbed Allen's shirt before glaring at him. "Do you seriously think I would be joking about this, Moyashi?"

Allen wanted to say something but didn't know what. Even if he knew it was strongly something he needed to refuse or at least argue, the teen didn't find his force to reject the offer. He stared into his friend's eyes, looking for honesty...looking for the truth….Could he actually accept...did he have this right?...

Allen looked at his lap, letting his bangs shadow his eyes. "...There's no way you will stay will me…"

"And why not?"

"Because!"Allen's mind was racing. How could he make Kanda understand the seriousness of the situation? 'He can't stay with me' thought Allen

"Moyashi"

"Kanda.." Allen locked his eyes once again with the said man "I can't chain you to me like this"

"...please shut the Fu** up for a bit and listen." KAnda pinced the bridge of his nose. "You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel. To survive, your heart need my Lotus energy, and your mind will break if I am not here." Kanda stopped healing Allen's heart for a second to take his breath before starting was seriously getting pissed off. Why was he so stubborn?!

"I won't leave! Breathe and Let go. Can't you just realize that this very moment is the only one you'll have for sure between your grasp?...No one will take it from you. If you die then it would mean that My lotus life energy was used up completely to keep both of us alive...and if I die, then its the same thing. There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it's the beginning of a new life...Leave your old self, Moyashi...You're not alone anymore."

Allen opened his mouth only to close it not long after. Bringing the back of his own hand toward his eyes to hide them, he finally left the tears fall. They were falling and falling and falling…tears nonstop. After all those years, could he really have someone by his side? Allen the dog, Mana, Narein, Miena, Neah…..he lost so much people because they were by his side during the war. But now that it ended….could he really….accept this offer?

The white haired teen completely sat up , ignoring the man's speech about how he shouldn't sit but lay down because of the strain on his body. He turned toward the Japanese man before grabbing the said man's coat.

He lifted his head and locked his eyes with Kanda's as tear rolled down his cheeks and curse mark. "..Can I..?" He choked out.

"...What?" Kanda was surprised, he didn't know what to do.

"...Kanda...can..I?….may.I... really...take that offer?" asked Allen as his hands trembled. His eyes were now close tight as he waited for an answer.

Kanda pushed the smaller one's head to his chest as he clicked his tongue. "Tch - Am I being with you right now not a good answer enough?...I'm not going anywhere..."

Kanda sighed as he felt water falling on his lap. "You get even uglier than what you already are when you cry, Moyashi."

"..Ugh.."

After many minutes, Allen finally seemed to calm down. "You're done crying?"

"Shut up..Bakanda..."

"What? You're gonna tell me some crap like 'Those tears are the feelings my heart can't express?' " asked Kanda sarcastically before being interrupted by a fit of atrocious petite man let some more tears fall on his cheeks before finally collapsing of exhaustion on his comrade.

"Oi-Moyashi!"

"...Kan..da.." was the last thing Allen pronounced before closing his eyes

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I edited and added a part at the end...I hope you guys liked it (:3)

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By the way (1)Emma = Emma is Alma in his past life when he was a girl. We never got the chance to know her name so I decide to call her Emma.