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Two days had passed since Rayna saw Deacon at the cabin and since Luke walked out. She had been rude to Luke and she was upset about that but he didn't trust her because he accused her of sleeping with Deacon. You can't be in a relationship with someone that doesn't trust you can you? Rayna hadn't heard from Deacon and she was worried. She wants to know what he wants but she isn't sure what she wants either. Sure, they love each other but there are way too many times that it didn't work out.
The only things that was running through her head were questions. Questions she didn't have the answers to. Was the fight with Luke a break? Or did she really break up with him? Was Deacon drinking? Was Deacon thinking about her? Was he writing music? Did he want her back? Did she want him back? Was he asking himself the same questions? She hugged the pillow and screamed into it. This was way too frustrating.
Maddie walked in, "hey mom." "Hey sweetie." Rayna replied as she put the pillow beside her. "How was your day?" She added. "It was okay I have some homework. But nothing else really." "Alright well, why don't you go start it while I make dinner?" "Okay," Maddie replied walking towards the door. "Maddie?" Rayna questioned before her daughter left the room. "Yeah mom?" Rayna hesitated. "You haven't heard from Deacon have you?" "Yeah. He is up at the cabin doing some work on it." Rayna sighed in relief that he was okay and wasn't drinking. "Why is everything okay?" Maddie questioned. "Yes everything's fine, I was just wondering." Rayna smiled. Maddie gave her a skeptical look almost as if she knew there was a deeper meaning behind the question. "Okay? Call me when dinner is ready. I'm going to do homework," she said as she walked out of the room. Rayna sighed and walked downstairs. She was waiting for Deacon to call her. She had told him to call when he was ready and she knew she had to wait but it was excruciating.
As she cooked dinner she got a text from Luke. 'I'm sorry about the other day. Can we talk?' Rayna sighed. She had been harsh and wanted to apologize too but she didn't want to give him the wrong idea. She was having mixed feelings about him and mostly about Deacon because she didn't know where that was going. She had kissed him for goodness sakes! She texted Luke back, 'yeah. I'm sorry too. I'll call after dinner.' She put the phone down and set the table.
"Girlllss, dinner is ready!" The girls ran in and sat down. They started eating and Maddie brought Deacon up again. "I was talking to Deacon about where he gets his inspiration for writing from." Rayna looked up, knowing the answer to that, "yeah? What did he say?" "He said that he gets it from his feelings. He digs deep and tries to find what exactly he is feeling and then tries to put that into music." Rayna nodded. He had left out the part about her being the inspiration. 'Maybe I'm not his inspiration anymore,' she thought to herself and tried not to cry. She asked, "is he writing right now?" Maddie nodded, "yeah he said that the cabin is inspiring and going up there always helped not only him, but also you, with ideas." Rayna smiled, "yes it's a beautiful place."
Maddie look at her mom and smiled "When was the last time you were there?" Raynas heart stopped. Should she tell her she was there two days ago? She she tell her that her about Deacon and her having dinner? So many things were running throught her head, but she wanted to make sure it was all out in the open. She sat down her fork and said " Actually I was there a couple days ago. Deacon and I had dinner and we talked about you and how your doing." Rayna sighed in relief that she had told the truth and didnt lie about seeing Deacon that night. Maddies eyes lit up when she heard that her parents were getting along. "You guys are getting along?" Maddie asked. Rayna smiled "ya we are getting along." Daphne spoke up. "Mom are you and Deacon going to get back together?" Rayna was shocked at the little girls question. "Well I hope so, one day, maybe." Rayna answered. Maddie smiled. "I hope so too." Rayna then added, "but don't get your hopes up girls because I don't know if we ever will." Maddie said, "I'm sure you two will figure it out." Daphne added, "yeah you love each other." Rayna nodded, "we'll see." Then she looked at the clock, "it's getting late girls. Time to shower and get ready for bed because you have school tomorrow." The girls groaned and went upstairs.
As Rayna washed the dishes she thought about what she wanted to say to Luke but came up short. She had to call maybe something would come to her then. She picked up her phone and he answered on the second ring, "hey Rayna." "Hey. You wanted to talk?" "Yeah. Um, I'm sorry about how things went the other day." "I'm sorry too," she said. Then she went on, "I don't want to give you the wrong idea. I like you, a lot. You're stable and a nice guy and great with the girls but I don't feel like us will last." Luke sighed on the other end, "because of Deacon?" Rayna shrugged her voice filled with emotion because Deacon was always the problem for her. She couldn't move on. "Yeah because of Deacon and because of me. I don't want us to go on because I know I can't give you all of myself." Luke was let down, "I understand. You have to do what's best for yourself." Rayna felt bad, he was being so understanding. "Can we end it on a good note? Maybe get coffee when you get back?" Luke said, "yeah maybe." She sighed, "ok. I'll see you soon. Have a good time with your kids." "Yeah see you soon." They hung up. Rayna sighed, she felt better getting everything out in the open felt good. Luke on the other hand felt like he should try to win her back. Not from where he was but he wanted to try when he got back.
Rayna's phone rang again and it was Deacon. Her heart started racing. 'Oh my God,' she thought. She answered quickly. "Hello?" She asked trying not to sound too excited. She wasn't sure if this was real. "Hey Ray." She waited for him to keep going. "I was wondering if you could come up here tomorrow. There's something I want you to listen to." Rayna's hopes shot through the roof. This was real. He was calling. She had been waiting and he finally called! She tried to sound normal again but he could hear the excitement in her voice, "yes, of course. I'll be there around five. Is that ok?" Deacon replied, "yep. See you then." She smiled, "okay. Bye." "Bye." She hung up and tried to relax. She had to calm down but he had written a song for her. She was scared and anxious and she knew she probably wasn't going to sleep tonight.
Rayna woke up the next morning, rolled over and picked up her phone to find she had a text message from Deacon that read, "Dress warm, its kinda cold here." She paused for a moment because Deacon was never into texting he either wanted you to hear him say it through the phone or watch him say it in person. She quickly replied, "okay thanks." She had tossed and turned all night thinking about what might happen tonight when she got there. He could either tell her that he needs to be with her or that its better that they stay friends for Maddie's sake.
She got up made the girls breakfast and packed their lunches. She took them to school and went out to lunch with Tandy. She told her what happened at the cabin, the kiss, and then that she broke up with Luke. Tandy told her she was moving too her opinion Rayna shouldn't have broken up with Luke until she was 100% sure about Deacon. Rayna took that into consideration and told herself that she would give herself time to make the final decision. But in her heart she already knew. It always was and always would be Deacon.
When she got the girls they asked her if they could go sleep over at Talia's because it was a Friday. Talia had a sister that was Daphne's age. Rayna dropped the girls off at Talia's at 2:30 and drove home quickly to get dressed. She wore jeans, her warm boots, a long sleeve shirt, and brought a warm jacket with her. While she was getting dressed she purposely thought to not wear a warmer shirt so that when she got there she could ask Deacon for a sweatshirt and that way she could have his scent blended into hers. It had always been her favorite. She smiled at the thought. She was being sneaky by doing that but it was a good sneaky. She wanted to be closer to him, as close as she could get. She quickly ran to the car and texted Deacon letting him know she was leaving and he said, "okay, see you soon. There might be a storm heading this way. Are you sure you're up to coming?" Rayna grinned, thunderstorms with Deacon were the best. "Yes! I'm already on the way."
She had been driving for 30 minutes and she was almost there. It had started to rain and she was excited. She was hoping that they could cuddle on the porch under a blanket with a cup of coffee watching the storm go through. She pulled into the driveway and she felt weak she was so nervous she was shaking. She felt like it was the first date again. She was so afraid that he was going to turn her down and she would have to go running back to Luke or some other guy to try and fill this void she would have from him not being with her. She was snapped back to reality when she heard a nock on her window. "Are you going to come inside or stay in your car the whole time?" She smiled and shut off the car. "Ya sorry." She opened her door and got out. "Is everything okay?" Deacon asked as he placed a hand on her shoulder. "Yep it's nothing. Let's get inside it's kinda cold out here." Deacon smiled, "I told you to dress warm. I'll let you borrow one of my sweatshirts." Rayna smiled, "thanks."
She smiled as she followed him inside. He knew her so well. She would always steal his sweatshirts so he used to wait for her at the cabin with one in hand for when she got home. When this used to be their home. Their clothes were damp when they got inside, the rain had gotten stronger. Rayna hadn't closed her jacket so her shirt was wet and she was cold. She hung the jacket up as she shivered. Deacon shook his head at her and she gave him a 'what?' look. As he walked to the bedroom to get her the jacket he said, "some things never change Rayna." Rayna was brought back to the morning when they were in bed together and how he had said that exact same thing to her and all she could think of were his hands on her body, warming her up. She shivered as a warm wave went through her. "Here's the sweatshirt. Go take the shirt off it's wet, you'll get sick. I'm going to finish dinner. Chicken, corn, and mashed potatoes." Rayna smiled and took the sweater from him, "thank you. I'll be right out." It was her favorite sweatshirt of his. She walked into the bedroom and gasped as she closed the door. Nothing had changed. Not one little thing. Memories of nights, mornings, afternoons, dusks, dawns, sunsets, and sunrises spent in that bed with him all came back in full swing and she almost cried. She sat on the bed slipped of her shirt and pulled on the sweater. It smelled like Deacon and she inhaled it as his scent got on her bare skin.
The picture of them that was on the bedside table was missing and she felt sad. She got up and opened the nightstand drawer and there it was. Deacon with his arms wrapped around her, kissing her cheek, and her smiling as she looked at him. She ran her hand over it, sadly and put it on top of the bedside table as she closed the drawer. She walked out and into the kitchen, "it smells good." Deacon smiled, "it's almost ready. Want to eat outside on the porch?" She grinned, "of course I do." They were acting so comfortable together it felt amazing to her but she was scared that it could come all crashing down.
They plated there food and walked onto the porch. They sat down on the swing. "This looks delicious Deacon!" They looked at each other and smiled. "Thank you." They sat and exchanged small talk about Maddie and Daphne and music. "That dinner was amazing! I miss your delicious cooking." Deacon smiled. Rayna felt her face turn beat red. She couldnt believe she said that out loud. They put the dishes back in the sink and went back onto the porch, "Ray, grab a couple of those blankets and I'll grab my guitar. I have something to show you." Deacon stated as he walked over to his guitar sitting on its stand. Rayna smiled and grabbed an arm full of blankets.
She sat on the outdoor couch they had and got comfortable. She was nervous. This is what he was wanted to tell her and she didn't know if she could handle it. She cried every time he sang to her because of the love or pain that he always put into his songs but this time she had no idea what to expect. Deacon walked out and sat at the other end of the couch. She passed him half of the blanket and he covered his legs. They looked out at the lake and she said, "I always loved when we were up here and there was a thunderstorm." Deacon looked over at her, "I know Ray." She smiled and looked away again, "it's so calming. I feel like I can leave everything behind." He nodded in agreement and whispered a "yeah." They still hadn't talked about the kiss and nothing was hinted towards it. Neither one of them mentioned it because they felt like the other needed space. "So, you wrote a song?" Deacon nodded and started playing, "yes I did." He inhaled deeply and Rayna gave him a reassuring look.
"You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you"
Rayna gasped. She was not expecting this. She was expecting a pain song but she got a love song instead. She felt the same way when she was with him. She knew who she was when she was with him. She looked into his eyes as he continued.
"Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too"
She smiled. Did he think she wasn't wanted when she was with him?
"'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted"
A tear rolled down Rayna's cheek. She felt so wanted when she was with him. The most wanted than with anyone else. Deacon kept looking in her eyes and she wanted to kiss him and wrap her arms around him and call him hers too.
"Anyone can tell you you're pretty, yeah
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the make-up
And I wanna show you what I see tonight..."
The only person she wanted to be pretty for was him and she only cared about when he said she was beautiful. She wiped another tear away. He made her feel wanted and loved and the ache in her heart grew taking her whole body up. She missed him. He gave her a small smile and continued.
"When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips.
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
'Cause, baby, I, I wanna make you feel wanted"
Deacon saw the tear roll down her face and she smiled and he smiled back. When he wraps his arms around her he feels love radiating from her into him and when she kisses him he feels gentleness and want creep into him. He wanted her; he wanted to make her feel that.
"As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted"
She wanted to make him feel better than he made her feel too. She didn't even know if that was possible. He is her fairy tail and all she dreams about is him. 'How can I be more than everything he needs? I hurt him.' She wiped another tear and moved closer to him.
"And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Baby, I wanna make you feel wanted
You'll always be wanted."
She wanted him and she needed him in every way possible. She had to tell him she wanted everything.
Deacon smiled as he put his guitar down next to the couch. Rayna smiled back as she wiped the remaining tears away. "What did you think?" Deacon hesitated to ask afraid of what she would say. "Deacon, you always make me feel wanted." Rayna spoke as she leaned in for a kiss. Once their lips touched it was like fireworks went off in the background. There was so much passion between them in that one kiss. Rayna moved onto Deacons lap, not breaking their kiss. Deacon made a trail of kisses down her neck she let out a soft moan. "I love you so much, Ray." Deacon said in between kisses. "Oh, Deacon. I love you too!"
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