Author's Note: Well, here's a BBxRae fic.

Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans, it belongs to its legal owner.

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Chapter One: Emotion

Raven lay silently on her bed, her head facing the ceiling of her own room. Her mind was cluttered during the night, for the silent time she had, her bedtime, was one of the only escapes of her rampant emotional thoughts that would dare to influence her during the day.

Her powers were very sensitive to emotion, and it required patient meditation to control them at will, and thanks to her daily routine of self-meditation, she gained the ability to tame them. If not, Raven was powerless and her powers would become uncontrollable if given too much emotion. But now, it wouldn't hurt to feel just a small taste of all the colors hiding in her mind, all the feelings that she wanted to grow just a bit acquainted with.

No one was there to threaten her, and so she didn't have to use her powers, making bedtime the perfect moment to think and let go. The silence helped her concentrate and listen to her mostly left-out thoughts; silence was something she'd grown used to all of her life, and now, it didn't hurt a bit to just hear her thoughts out.

The first cart of her train of thoughts, though, was Beast Boy. Recently, Beast Boy's unfortunate attempts to redeem Terra had bugged the whole team. Though it was a joy for BB to see her alive after she was incased in stone (no matter how mysterious it was), it was a shame that she had forgotten everything that had made her life more cherishing yet more tragic. She had so much memories, so much to remember, and although she had so much to regret and be guilty of, she had no idea what her strange amnesia or flawless façade had brought upon Beast Boy's heart.

After knowing that Terra could no longer be returned no matter how much he tried, he returned to the Tower with the saddest, most rare type of frown that would ever bug the normally funny green boy. His fresh wound had bugged the Titans, and the noisy atmosphere of the Tower had toned down to disturbing degrees; Beast Boy's hopefully temporary depression made dramatic effects on his friends, effects notable enough for even Raven to think of in the night.

Raven sighed deeply, making her first sound since she entered the room. "I wonder what Beast Boy's up to…" She mumbled, thinking of his now downhearted teammate.

She hadn't talked to Beast Boy since then. Her sympathetic judgment told her to give his wounded heart much needed space to bear the weight of the unpleasant reality. Robin had tried to console him to make sure that BB was always battle-fit, physically and emotionally, but even with all of the comforting words, even Robin himself wasn't sure if it had done anything to soothe Beast Boy.

Cyborg, being the closest best-friend of Beast Boy, tried as well to put a smile on that once always-smiling face; he knew his best buddy more than most, and with all the failed attempts to make him smile with even just a small joke, Cyborg knew that his friend needed some time alone.

Starfire, arguably being the first-in-command of supporting the Titan's cheerful mood tried all she could to pacify the shape-shifter out of depression, even with the most pleasant and friendly attempts, she too had failed to make a sincere smile on his face, only cracking a smirk on his face that only faded away just as quickly as her attempts came.

Raven didn't try to fix Beast Boy at all even with seeing all her teammates trying futilely to stitch a newly-cut wound. She knew what it was like to be at his level—to be sad, frustrated, guilty, and alone all at the same time. And she knew well that the remedy for BB's mind was some time thinking all by himself before coming out to face others.

Well, in her terms, spending too much on emotion will cause her arcane powers to go haywire in a matter of minutes, and to let go of things for a bit, to clear the mind and to be patient, was one of the ways to deal with all these abrupt emotions. Raven hoped that Beast Boy did the same since she herself knew that dwelling too much on depressing thoughts brings unwanted consequences to those not used to having it.

Worry, it was the first emotion that came, linked to Timidity which concerned every thought depressing and sorrowful. Worry was the least of the Timidity's grey spectrum, the anticipation of something bad could do so much to the naïve mind lacking self-control and security. Raven realized that, and even with a bitter start, continued to allow her emotions to flow.

Strange though, her worry for Beast Boy was intense. It was either she had not felt this emotion for some time or Beast Boy really had it that bad.

A faint sound began to emerge from the Ops room, enough to be caught at the edge of Raven's earshot. A muffled sound of electronic music, rapid blasts, and exaggerated movement, it was familiar to Raven.

Someone's awake, she thought. Usually at an hour of 12:27 AM, seven minutes after Raven's meditation routine, she was always the Titan awake at this hour if the night was not at all special. She became curious, causing her to begin investigating the sound.

She stood up from her bed, landing her feet on the ground and placing her hood back. Sure enough, the sound wasn't from something dangerous, it had music in it, it seemed awfully familiar. Raven walked to her door, unlocked it, and the steel door automatically opened. The sound was no longer muffled as she took a step out. Her head turned to the left, where the sound was coming from, to the dark passage that led to the Main Ops room.

The sound was recognizable now and the bright light at the end of the passage marked activity in the room. It brought confusion to Raven. Beast Boy's video games… Why is he up so late? She thought, continuing to the passage and reaching its end, giving her a good enough view of the main room.

And there he was, sitting down on the couch, controller in hand, bashing the controller's buttons in front of the bright flat-screen now booming with the graphics of his video game. There were emptied bags of chips, a couple of bottled sodas, and some other wrappers on the ground in front of him. He was leaning forward, his attention affixed to the game.

Raven moved closer, but just enough for her to be still out of Beast Boy's senses (she took caution of his heightened sense of smell and hearing). She watched him, wanting to observe him first before catching his attention. He seemed to be silent, and unmoving, like a statue whose hands that moved only to press the buttons of the controller.

Raven knew that Beast Boy usually had an act of commenting every time he made a move in the game, but now he seemed to have his lips shut, as if he was in a trance as he played. This was the first time Raven had ever seen Beast Boy sneaking in the night to play video games, and she had never heard of him doing it, mainly because Beast Boy eventually grew tired of playing it all day.

Beast Boy then made the game pause, exited it, shutting the screen's light, now placing the room in moonlight and silence. And still, he sat quietly on the couch. "Raven, I know you're there. I can smell you." He said, almost emotionlessly.

Raven felt a nervous wave of shock. She had underestimated his senses, and now she owed him an explanation. "Beast Boy, you should get some sleep. It's twelve thirty" Raven said what she could. Now was not the time for a sarcastic remark.

"I don't need sleep. Leave me alone" Beast Boy said.

Raven was undaunted and instead continued to go closer. She could still see him, a moonlit silhouette of him at least. "Beast Boy, why are you doing this? I've never seen you stay up and play video games…"

"I need to get my mind off stuff. I don't want to go back to my room thinking of the same things over and over again…"

Raven took steps closer until she was already by the side of the couch. "It's about Terra isn't it?"

"Yeah…" Beast Boy's voice had the tone of sadness, but then he raised it up. "It's nothing you should care about, anyway."

Raven was now just enough for him to turn his head to see her. "Beast Boy… We all care for you because you're our friend. I care too, you know?" Raven spoke, her emotions were released at the moment, but she considered it a minor annoyance. But even so, she seemed to try hard to sound emotionless like she always was.

"Oh yeah? Starfire, Cyborg, and Robin tried to cheer me up the past few days and all you did was look at me." His voice turned angry. Beast Boy stood up, pointing a finger at Raven. She was surprised, not used to Beast Boy responding too sensitively. Her Worry had molded into Fear, and now this "minor" annoyance was slowly becoming a disaster. "You don't care, now do you? You can't even say anything nice to me!" He continued.

"Isn't that what you want?" Raven ticked off, her Fear now turned to Anger. In the back of her mind, her emotions were stirring as this conversation was getting a bad start. She couldn't believe that people can live a life full of these feelings running around in their heads. "I gave you some space to think. All the others-"

"All the others tried!" Beast Boy interrupted. "And you did nothing but ignore me!" He took a step closer, further pointing his finger at Raven.

Raven saw his reasonable point, but in her anger, didn't acknowledge it. "I didn't ignore you! I spent the past few days worrying about you!"

"Oh, so you reading your stupid books while Star, Cy, and Robin were trying to cheer me up isn't called 'ignoring' me, huh? " Beast Boy didn't give up the fight like he would do if he were in a better mood. Raven almost wondered how their arguments would be if they kept up with it, unconscious of their anger and with no one to stop them, but now she was slowly about to know.

Raven was thankful that her Anger didn't explode into Rage, or Beast Boy would have to face the wrath of her demonic side. Yet, she continued to argue. "Wouldn't you want some space? They tried to cheer you up but all you did was stay in that depressed state of yours!"

Raven paced forward. "From the start, I thought you needed time to think about Terra, and not just time, but space!" She continued on, Beast Boy stepping backward for her not to touch him. Her pointing finger faced directly to his chest like an arrow, and her tone of anger rose.

"And now you're here, wasting your time on that stupid game, when you should be in your head clearing your own problems!" Raven's powers were gathering up in the insides of her clenched fists. She noticed them, and she began to relax to control the dark energy that responded to anger.

Beast Boy couldn't take much more, and he didn't take the time to notice that Raven wasn't in her usual emotionless state, and now he had to handle her without even getting used to her now revealing emotions. "You know what? You're just jealous of all of them dragging their attention to me." Beast Boy moved, his pace being quicker and his point being sharper than that of Raven's.

"You're a lonely, creepy, emotionless Goth and even with us being your 'friends' you still shut everyone out like they're a problem to you! It's like not caring and being alone is something you need to do to live! And now I'm here, needing help the most because the only girl who ever loved me just dumped me and forgot about everything we ever did together!"

Raven began to raise her arm, as if trying to shield herself from the anger of Beast Boy, who was now almost cornering her to the window. His words hurt, not just because he directly assaulted her personality, but also because he tried to make her feel guilty.

"Everyone is else is trying to help, and every bit of their help keeps me away from hurting myself, and you on the other hand make me feel like I need to hurt myself because I know that one of my 'friends' doesn't even care about me even when she could see me drifting away! Because I know that someone out there, even though seeing me like this, can actually still not give a damn about me!" Beast Boy ended it there.

He was a few feet from Raven, but even so, the proximity emphasized his point. Raven was only backing away, first with a glare on her face then slowly, as Beast Boy progressed with his speech, with a guilty expression that faced down to the floor, shadowing her eyes.

He breathed heavily, his frustration nearly pulled him to tears as every word vented itself out like every letter had been written in pure anger. But slowly, like becoming sober, he realized the weight of all that he said to Raven, and by the time that happened, it was too late.

Raven looked up at him, her eyes looking not as a glare, but as a saddened glance. And with that glance, Beast Boy saw tears shining faintly in the moonlight. Her Anger had faded into Sorrow. Every word that Beast Boy had just said hurt her, and the way he said everything, was as if he himself didn't care, as if both of them haven't gone through the impossible together.

Beast Boy's pointing finger had become an open hand trying to reach out for Raven. He was now choking on his own words. "I… I'm sorry Rae, I… I didn't mean to-"

"I'll give you your space." She said bitterly, almost sounding like she tried to swallow a sob. She then ran for whatever passage was nearest, and that was the passage that lead to the elevator to the roof. The tears that welled up on her eyes loosely fell as she ran to the elevator, leaving a trail of falling tears as she ran. Beast Boy tried to catch up to her, but she ran too quick for him to catch.

The elevator doors shut and Beast Boy pinched the center of his nose in frustration. He then banged his head on the elevator doors, wishing he could take back what he just said. He breathed in and out, he had to fix this before morning comes or Robin will catch wind of this. He pressed the elevator button, and waited, thinking hard of what to say to her when he arrives up there.

Raven punched the button up, and now it responded with elevator going up the roof. She felt powerless with all these emotions, but too powerful if they got too intense. She didn't want it to feel like this, and she knew better not to talk back to a depressed, angered person, but now all was said and done, and she herself couldn't believe Beast Boy had just said such a volley of hate and guilt.

Raven wiped her tears. She hadn't cried in a long time and seeing the tears made her feel like she wasn't herself. The elevator stopped at the rooftop and she took a step out, breathing in the fresh air at her first step out. The city was beautiful, and the lights were glimmering in the distance, reflecting their rapt onto the mirror of water the sea brought. The city, the air, she felt the need to… Meditate, she thought. Yes, she had to control these emotions already, and the scene was perfect. She walked up to the edge facing the city and sat down folding her legs. Thankfully, Beast Boy wouldn't be up there to interrupt her, he didn't want to be talking to her anyway…

Just as she was about to say her incantation and feel her powers, she stopped. "Raven?" Beast Boy said. She looked back and saw him, standing limply, fumbling with his thumbs. Beast Boy caught Raven's look, causing him to look down on the ground as he couldn't bear to look at her remembering what he had just said. "Look, I'm sorry…"

Author's Note: Well, gotta end it from there, I need to plot out the next few scenes. Thanks for reading, hope you guys liked it, leave a review if you want to, concrits are alright, flames no.

Well, I wanted to respond to the reviews to show my gratitude to the few who have taken time to write their appreciation for this story.

Oro Rosa- Thank you very much :). It pays off if I put a lot of thought in my writing, and I do try to detail the emotions.

Reavus- Thank you so much for both your compliment and critique. As I wrote their arguments, that very thought crossed into my mind; at first, I thought that it was tolerable, but well, I guess I could take that back, he he. As for the line break, your personal preference was correct, and I thank you for that suggestion since I really wasn't able to think of that. Your corrections were applied and I again thank you for taking the time to write a concrit :)

MadMaxLaxBro- Thank you, and I hope your patience holds out ;)

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tsk91- He he, just as I wanted :)