Alright everyone I do not own Sailor Moon, or any of the songs used in this fanfic. This is my very first. So be nice or mean it doesn't really matter I just write for the fun of it. The formatting may be a little off. Like a side this is my first time. So I guess enjoy. Oh! Its AU and probably OOC its been a while since I've watch sailor moon.

Everything seemed to be going pretty fast for the raven haired girl. Ever since she had left her home two years ago everything started moving at a fast pace. She told her friends that she needed to find herself and that staying would only cause everyone harm. She fought with every fiber of her being to continue to stay gone but it seemed fate had something else in store for her. The band she started to pass the time had actually become quite popular. She never expected anything like this to happen. The plane would be landing soon and she could feel that this trip home was going to be quite the experience. Looking out the window she sighed catching the attention of the first friend she had made when she arrived in the states.

"You okay Rei?" Markus asked with a raise of his eyebrow

"Yeah, it's just that I haven't been back here in two years. I'm not even sure if my old friends are still around." Rei stated never taking her eyes off the city below.

Rei was never going to get use to the flash of the cameras or the constant nagging of the reporters trying to get any kind of personal details from their lives. She would just smile and answer the questions as vaguely as possible. She wasn't in it for the money or fame. She sang because her heart felt at peace. She wasn't sure if a certain blonde haired girl even listen to her music but just the simple fact that she gets to release her emotions and feelings brings her great comfort.

Turning to Markus as she takes the sunglasses off her head and places them on her eyes. "Let's get out of here before we're over run with fans. I'm pretty tired and would like to get in a nap before we head to the concert hall to start rehearsing for tonight's show."

Rei was amused at the size of the hotel room, she wouldn't deny it she did like some of the perks of being a worldwide sensation. Walking over to the master bed room she set her bags down claiming the room as hers. As she started to shut the door she called out to her other band mates "I'll see you guys in two hours. Please do not let me over sleep, I would like to get in a couple hours of rehearsal before the show."

Rei had intended on taking a nap but found herself making her way to the huge bathroom with a rather large bathtub. She started to run the water making it as hot as she could stand. While the bath was filling she looked around and found some lavender scented bath oil. A smile came to her lips as she poured a few drops into the now full tub. After undressing she steps into the water and instantly her senses are over ran with lavender and the feel of the hot water on her skin relaxes every muscle in her body. Leaning back Rei closes her eyes letting the aroma therapy do its job. She couldn't help but remember the day that she left, the day she had decided to remove herself from a situation that should have never been.

~flash Back~

"Look, I'm sorry, but I have to go. It's just something that I need to do. I... I need to find myself." Rei stated while not really looking at one person.

"I don't understand, I thought you had a scholarship here at the University. You seemed pretty excited that you got accepted into their music program" Amy said being the first to speak with an emotion Rei couldn't quite place.

Sighing Rei replied "Yes, that's all true Amy, but my father is moving to the states and since we've been speaking a lot lately I thought it would be a great time for my father and me to really get to know each other."

It wasn't a total lie, her father was in the states but she wasn't going there to make up for lost time. She had to get away from the blonde haired girl that had captured her every thought and who she wanted so desperately.

~end flash back~

Rei was brought back to reality when there was a knock at the door. She looked around for a second not sure of her surroundings. "Hmm?" she was all she managed to get out. She was overly relaxed and felt like she could slip into a deep sleep at any moment.

"Reiiiiiii, it's been two hours and I am here to wake you from your slumber at your request." Markus yelled through the bed room door.

Rei rolled her eyes and stood up in the tub. 'I guess I won't be getting that nap after all' she thought to herself and let out a sigh. There was another knock at the door this time Markus entered without waiting for a response.

"Rei? Where are you… it's time for us to head down to the concert hall." Markus called out.

"I'm in the bathroom you idiot, now get out so I can put some clothes on." Rei replied walking out of the bathroom in just a cotton robe.

A smirk crept across Markus's face "hmmm… maybe I should stay and help you…"

Rei lightly smacked his arm and pointed to the door "get out of here you pervert"

Markus left while softly chuckling to himself 'she's so easily embarrassed' he thought while closing the door behind him.

Entering the concert hall she stopped to stare at the stage. It was the biggest one they have performed on since starting the tour. She wasn't sure why they had picked a big venue like this. Rei loved it when she could perform for a small crowd. It just seemed more intimate that way. All of their gear was already set up. Rei walked over to her microphone and lightly tapped on it to see if everything was ready to go. Practice would last for about an hour with the show starting at eight pm.

There was a knock at the door Serena turned her head away from the window and said come in. Mina walked over to the bed and sat down for a moment not saying anything just looking at the wall.

"So, there is this concert tonight…"

Mina was cut off before she could even finish her statement. "I'm not in the mood to go out much less go to a concert will hundreds of people smashing into each other" Serena said her voice flat as she continued to look out the window.

"Come on Serena everyone is going, it will be a good time. Besides I think you'll like this band. They're from America and their music as really taken off. It's not good for you to continue to sit around and mope about. It's been two years and she hasn't even tried to contact any one of us. You need this. You're going." Mina stated firmly she refused to take no for an answer

Serena Sighed and gave in, she knew that even if she protested she would end up giving in eventually.

Serena was surprised that everyone had indeed agreed to go she even wondered how Mina had managed to get seven front row tickets. She'd have to talk to her about it later. The show started at eight, everyone decided to save time they would meet at the concert hall. Mina and Serena walked over to the group and decided to hurry to their seats before they would miss the first song. Serena looked down at her ticket and read the band's name 'Conveyable? Why does this sound familiar' she thought to herself.

The place went dark and all you could see where silhouettes of the band on the stage. As the music began to play the stage lights came to focus on the two standing in front. Rei and Markus winked at each other as Rei began to sing

"Why….."

"Spend another night"

"Talking 'bout the times we had"

"We can go outside"

"We can feel alive again"

"From the start"

"Racing hearts"

Serena couldn't believe her eyes, there on stage was the girl who ran away from everything, ran away from her. She followed every move the girl made never taking her eyes off her for fear that if she did she'd wake up from the dream she was surely having. Mina heard her gasp and looked at her friend with a smile on her face and winked. 'Oh, so Mina knew about this, I'll have to get her back for this' Serena thought watching Rei move across the stage with great ease. It was like she belonged up there and she could tell Rei felt at peace. Serena completely missed the rest of the song because she was too deep in thought. Coming out of her stupor she had noticed the song had changed and now there was a man singing as the crowd went wild.

"Don't you think it's time for you?"

"And me to make some history"

"Tell me now what you say"

"Cause we can take anything"

"Just because we're growing up,"

"It doesn't mean we've had enough"

"When the time are hard we'll smile and say"

"We're not afraid of anything (cause we feel young and wild)"

At that moment Rei joined in

"I believe that I can make you scream"

"Oh oo-oo-oo, oo-oo-oo"

Rei had noticed that Mina came through and had all of her old friends sitting in the front row in awe of what they saw. Then she locked eyes with her. Then girl she had ran away from. There was something in those eyes that she couldn't quite figure out. She broke away from her gaze as another song started to play. Rei smiled and sighed before she started to sing the one song that she thought Serena would never hear.

Rei moved with the beat trying to clear her mind as she began to sing

"Songs in the street"

"A colorful scene"

"It's a perfect night to get carried away with me"

Markus grabbed Rei's hand and spun her around and winked at her before singing

"Don't dance alone"

"Don't take a cab home"

"Don't forget that the world is ours to own"

"Honey I want"

There was a slight pause where Rei and Markus stopped and stared at each other and smiled then both began to sing again.

"You, honey I want you, honey I want you"

"You, honey I want you, honey I want to"

Rei walked over to her Microphone stand placing the mic back where it belongs and started to sing again this time locking eyes again with Serena.

"Follow the sound"

"Run through the crowd"

"Look at me like there's no one else around"

Serena looked way when Markus started singing

"Making a spark"

"We'll light up the dark"

"Feeling high on a summer night"

"Screaming baby I know you're everything I want"

Rei and Markus began to sing again with all the passion they could muster

"You, honey I want you. Honey I want you"

"You, honey I want you, honey I want to"

Serena wasn't sure why there were tears running down her face. All she knew was that the song made her heart beat fast. She couldn't look into those eyes a moment longer so she looked away. She wasn't sure what was going on inside her but she was going to find out. The rest of the night was a blur for her she couldn't focus on anything but Rei. She watched her every move, watched her mouth form every word she sung, watched every smile or wink she'd give her counterpart. She was dying for the show to be over hoping she would get the chance to see the girl who has haunted her dreams for the past two years.

As the show came to the end, the band members had left the stage and the girls were getting ready to leave when Rei and Markus came back to the stage.

"Hey everyone, I'm Markus and this is the ever sunning Rei and we'd like to thank you for making it out to our show tonight. We hope you enjoyed the performance and we hope that we get to meet each and every one of you. We'll be signing autographs in the back in just a few minutes."

"How's it going out there?! Like he said I'm Rei and I'd like to personally thank you all for coming, if it wasn't for the fans our dream wouldn't have come true! Hope you see you in the back in just a few!" Rei said waving to the crowd and walked off stage.

Serena sat down not sure if she should wait to talk to her friend or if it would be better that they just left things the way they were. Serena wondered why they had decided to bring their tour here, back to where she ran away from. Serena was knocked out of her thoughts by Mina tugging on her arm.

"Come on Serena don't you want to go meet that Hunk Markus and say hello to Rei?!"

"Uhh…" was all Serena got out before she was dragged to her feet and the group made their way to get in line to see their old friend.

Serena stood there in anticipation not sure what she would say to the Raven haired girl. The line got shorter and shorter and there was no longer any more excuses Serena could come up with to keep moving her place in line. All that were left was her friends and the two band members. Everyone was standing in a circle talking amongst themselves happy to see their friend and meet her band member Markus. Serena stood away from the crowd not wanting to be a part of the festivities. She had decided that she wasn't going to talk to her. If she wanted to speak with her, she would have to make some effort and even then she wasn't sure she would acknowledge the girl.

Serena leaned up against the wall with her hands shoved into her pockets, closing her eyes for just a second she felt someone's presence. Slowly opening her eyes she saw Rei standing in front of her staring into her eyes. It felt like an eternity before either girl had said anything. Serena couldn't decide if she wanted to yell at the girl or take her in her arms and tell her she really missed her. But by the time she had decided, they were now joined by their friends so Serena just smiled at Rei.

"Oh, man that was a great show! I can't believe you get to tour with this hunk!" Mina stated excitedly.

Rei just rolled her eyes 'same old Mina' she thought. "If you had to spend your every waking moment with this guy you'd be saying something different" Rei laughed at the look on Markus's face.

"Hey I resent that Rei!" Markus pouted and excused himself stating that he needed to help the band take down all their gear.

"So, how long are you here for?" Amy asked

"Well this is the last stop on our world tour so after the four shows we have left they are giving us a break. I'm not sure if we've got any other obligations. So honestly it could be a while, it just depends on the band really" Rei said rubbing the back of her neck looking at Serena for some kind of approval.

"Well I sure do hope we get to spend some time with you in between shows and whatever else you have planned" Lita stated with a smile

"Well I wrote down the hotel I'm staying at and my phone number on the CD Mina forced me to sign. You guys are more than welcome to come hangout anytime I'm free."

Rei looked back at the stage as laughter could be heard throughout the concert hall. "I'm sorry to cut this short but I really need to get back up there with the guys and help break down the set so we can get out of here faster. It's been so long and I'm glad that you guys could make it. Let's get together soon alright guys" Rei said with a soft smile.

Rei hugged everyone expect for Serena and started to walk away. 'This is going to be harder than I thought it would. She didn't even speak to me.' Shaking her head so she wouldn't cry she reached the stage and started to get to work. She tried to not think about the encounter but she kept playing the night over in her head. She must have been lost in thought for longer then she realized because Markus was waving his hand in front of her face trying to get her attention.

"Huh? Oh… sorry" Rei stated absentmindedly

Markus was looking at her with an odd expression on his face "Yeah, so what's going on in that head of yours? I thought you would be excited to see them again. Honestly I thought the first meeting was going to be a little dramatic, maybe some tears or yelling but it played out pretty well."

The slightly taller man put his arm around her shoulder and pulled her into a hug. If it wasn't for her he doesn't know where he'd be.

Laughing a little Rei looked over her shoulder where her friends had once stood. "Yeah, I guess, but she didn't even talk to me. She looked me right in the eyes and just stood there."

"What do you expect, you ran away two years ago. You weren't even honest with them Rei. I know I shouldn't get into your personal business but since you arrived in the states I've always looked after you. You're like my little sister and I just want your happiness." He looked Rei in the eyes the entire time he spoke letting her know he had meant what he just said.

Rei sighed "Yes I know I didn't deal with things well and I know, I think of you as family as well. How about we stop all this emotional madness and get the hell out of here. The stage hands said they are finished loading up the trailer"

"You can put up those walls but you know damn well that she's only going to knock them down." He says softly releasing her from his hold. The pair walked out the back of the concert hall to the private car that was awaiting them. There were times where Rei wouldn't trade any of this for the world. She loved performing and then there were time she wished she would have never left. 'There are too many what ifs in this world. I need to focus on what is happening right now.' Rei thought leaning her head on the window. She was tired from of the lack of sleep from the plane ride. She was drifting off to sleep when her phone began to ring. At first she was confused, 'Who would be calling me this late at night' she thought but then remembered that she had given her number to the group and silently cursed herself for doing so. She didn't recognize the number but she was sure it was one of her friends.

"Hello?" Rei answered

"Hey… it's uh… I'm sorry I shouldn't have called" the voice for the phone stated and then there was a click and the line went dead.

The girls hung out in the back for a few minutes after Rei had left to go help out the band. Mostly just talking amongst themselves though Serena was staring at Rei while she worked and joked with the boys on stage. She noticed Rei had stopped working and looked like she was lost in thought. Serena was brought out of her own thoughts by Amara placing an arm on her shoulders and pulling her close. Serena looked up at the older woman and smiled lightly.

"I know how hard that must have been for you, though I had hoped you would have at least said something to her. I am glad that you didn't kill her either." Amara said with a chuckle

Seeing the look on her princess's face she continued.

"At least she's back princess. Maybe you can make her stay."

Amara watched the scene unfold on the stage Markus put his arm on Rei's shoulder bringing her close to him.

"Seems to me she has everything she needs up there." Serena said bitterly turning away from the stage headed to the exit. The rest of her friends followed suit. They were out in the parking lot standing around Amara's car talking about when they wanted to meet up again. Serena wasn't really active in the conversation thinking about how she was going to confront Rei.

Serena suddenly blurted out "Mina, give me the CD Rei signed for you."

All the girls stopped talking and just blankly stared at the blonde haired girl. It wasn't like Serena to make demands like that but everyone heard the seriousness in her voice. Mina frowned and handed over the CD.

"I want it back, after all Rei signed it for ME."

"Oh Mina I don't want your stupid CD, I want the number that's on it." Serena entered the number into her cell phone and promptly handed the CD back to Mina.

"I'm free tomorrow if anyone wants to meet up. I didn't sign up for summer classes, so I'm free whenever, I'll be right back" Serena stated before she walked away from the group. She dialed the number and listened to it ring about four times before the person on the other line answered.

"Hello?"

"Hey… It's uh... I'm sorry I shouldn't have called" Serena hung up the phone and mentally kicked herself for being so stupid. She walked back to the group with a lost look in her eyes.

"Princess, what did she say?" Amara asked.

"Nothing… I mean I hung up before she could say anything more than a hello. Ugh, I don't know what's wrong with me, I've waited for her to come home, to me, to us and when she finally does I don't say anything to her… I can't say anything to her." Serena say shoving her hands in her pockets and leaning on Amara's car.

"I'm sure that everything will work out in the end. You'll figure out how to talk to her and who knows maybe she will come around before you do." Michelle said looking at her friend with sad eyes grabbing ahold of Amara.

"Maybe, well it's getting late and I'm getting kind of tired. Could you give me a ride back to my place Amara?" Serena asked staring at the concert hall.

By the time they had arrived at the hotel it was well after one in the morning. Rei was so mentally drained she didn't even care that Serena had called and hung up before she could even say anything more than hello. She stumbled into her room and just flopped down on the bed. Not caring if she went to sleep in her clothes. The next morning Rei awoke with a Start almost forgetting where she was. She got off the bed and headed towards the bedroom door wondering what had awoken her from her sleep.

In the living room sat Markus still in his pajamas eating out of a box of cereal. Rei walked over to the over grown child and took the box out of his hand. "Come on Markus, what are you twelve?"

"Hey! Give that back, I didn't feel like spending money on room service and we don't have any milk!" Markus pouted.

"We'll go out to eat then, just let me take a shower and get dressed. Then I can show you around town, we don't have another gig for like two days so it will be nice to just relax a bit."

"I thought you told your friends you'd hangout with them in your free time. You really don't have to show me around town, the guys and I can manage."

"I'm sure we will meet up, it's still early and I'm sure they are all still sleeping. But if you like I'll give Mina a call and see what everyone is up to"

Rei went to grab her phone out of her room and headed back into the living room dialing Mina's number. For some reason Mina was the only one she stayed in contact with. She made Mina promise that she wouldn't tell anyone that they spoke on a regular basis.

"Umm hmm hello?"

"Hey Mina its Rei" Rei laughed at her half asleep friend giving a look of I told you so to Markus.

"Oh. Oh! Hey Rei man do you get up early!"

"He he well it's always been a habit from back when I worked at the shrine. So listen I was wondering what everyone was doing today. We have a few days off and I thought I'd show Markus and the guys around town and was wondering if any of you guys were free and could come along."

"Well I'm not sure about everyone else but Serena said she was free today and you know I'll be there have to spent as much time with that hunk of yours as I can"

Rolling her eyes at Mina's statement "Oh… well could you get ahold of everyone and see if they would like to come along? We're headed out to breakfast in a few maybe we could meet at the crown around noon?"

"Yeah sure thing… sounds like a plan. See you at noon Rei!"

"See ya"

Looking over at Markus she noticed he had a strange look on his face. "What is your problem?"

"Oh nothing… just that you're blushing. Is a certain someone joining us today?"

"Oh please" was all that Rei said walking back into her room then yelling at her friend "Be ready in thirty minutes!"

Stepping outside of the hotel with sunglasses and her typical beanie she looked like any other tourist. Rei learned quickly to blend in, the last thing she needed was a crowd following her every where she went. That was one of the things she hated most about being known worldwide, the lack of privacy. She shoved her hands in her pockets and waited for Markus and the guys to come down from the room.

The group walked through the doors of the Crown. As the door chimed Andrew lifted his head from the counter to great the new guests. There was five of them four men and one female who seemed oddly familiar. Smiling at the group Andrew motioned for them to take a seat wherever they liked. Rei wasn't sure if he had recognized her or not so she excused herself from the boys and headed over to the counter.

"Hey Andrew, it's been a while no?"

"Hey! I thought that was you Rei, how are things going for you? Glad to see you're back." Looking over at the group of boys sitting at the normal booth Rei and her friends would always sit at when they were younger. "So who are all those guys? Please don't tell me you still have a fan club following you about"

Rei chuckled at the statement and looked back over at the guys. "Those are my band mates" She motioned for Markus to join them. Markus nodded and walked over to the two unsure of who Rei was speaking with.

"This is Markus, he does lead vocals with me. Pretty much like a brother to me" Rei stated and she introduced the two. "This is Andrew, when we were younger we'd spend a lot of time at that very table." Rei stated turning her head back to look at the table the guys were sitting at.

"Oh well any friend of Rei's is a friend of mine" Andrew said happily shaking Markus's hand.

"Likewise, I'm excited that Rei is going to be showing a bit of her home town. You should come to our next show. We're going to be doing something a little different and it would be great if Rei's friends could be there to experience it." Markus stated then excused himself and headed back to the table.

Rei stood there a few more minutes talking to Andrew about the band and their tour and everything that has happened since she left. Looking at her watch she decided she should head back to her group. The girls would be here in a little while.

"Well I should probably head back to the boys, it was nice seeing you again. I'll have our agent drop off a ticket for the next show it really would be nice to see you there."

"Oh I'll be there! Thanks Rei. It was great seeing you!" Andrew replied and returned back to what he was doing.

The band had been idly chatting for what seemed like a good twenty minutes when the chime of the door was heard again. Rei looked up to see Amara, Michelle, Mina and Serena had walked into the crown. Her heart started to beat pretty fast and she wasn't sure if she was blushing. 'You can do this, just relax and act like everything is normal' she thought. 'But what is normal, life has never been normal' she nodded as the four girls walked over to the booth. Rei smiled up at the group and began to stand when Amara spoke "Oh need to get up we'll just grab some chairs." Mina sat down next to Markus with a dreamy expression on her face and Amara and Michelle forced Serena next to Rei which caused both girls to sigh.

"So where's the other three?" Rei inquired.

"Amy said something about a class she was taking with Lita, though I think that was just code for them being busy together and well Trista, you know her. I practically had to beg to come to the show last night." Mina stated always the one for gossip.

Again the group started to talk amongst themselves though Rei wasn't actively in the conversation. She was thinking again. Though she did notice that the blonde next to her wasn't speaking either. She decided that she needed to stop being such an idiot and speak. Shaking her head to clear her thoughts she turns to Amara and Michelle.

"So there is this show in a few days and Markus and I have decided that we're going to try something a little different from what we've been doing and I was wondering if you two would like to accompany me up on stage for a song, you both play so beautifully I think it would add a nice dynamic to our sound."

Markus looked at Rei with a curious look on his face. He wasn't sure what she had planned but it wouldn't hurt if he let her have some fun. It was the end of the tour and Rei loved to surprise her fans every now and again.

"We'd be honored Rei, what song do you have in mind?" Michelle asked excited that she'd be on stage again.

"Oh, well… we can talk about that at rehearsal, let's keep it a surprise."

"So mysterious Rei, I love when you cause mischief" Markus cooed a crossed the table.

Rei blushed and stuck her tongue out at her counterpart. "Such the flatterer, Markus."

Rei didn't notice the look she was getting from Serena. The playful banter kept up between the two for another couple of minutes and ended with everyone at the table laughing at Rei's embarrassment.

"Markus I could punch you so hard right now. How about we go visit the park and head over to the shrine. I've been wondering who took over the grounds" Rei stated as she tried to catch her breath.

The group got up to leave, Rei waved at Andrew and called out while they were walking to the door "I better see you at the show!" Andrew just winked and chuckled at himself. While walking down the street Rei fell back behind the group just watching her friends talking to her band mates about how being on tour is and if they miss the states. Serena had made her way to the back of the group as well and she looked at the raven haired girl from out of the corner of her eyes. She took a deep breathe and was just about to say something when she noticed they had reached the park and Rei had stopped dead in her tracks looking far off to the very spot they last saw each other. Rei shook her head again as if willing the memories to leave. Looked at Serena and decided it was time to bite the bullet.

"I remember that night like it was yesterday" Rei said as she started to walk over to their bench. She wasn't sure if Serena was following her or not. She sat down slowly almost as if she was going to break the bench just by touching it. Serena had followed but she didn't sit down next to Rei she just stood there over looking the lake. Everything seemed to come to a stand still as the two both remembered that night.

Mina noticed the two weren't with the group anymore and began to search the park. Realizing where they had gone she went back to the group pointing out the two girls down by the lake.

"I think we should give them some space no?" Amara said as she turned around to go sit by a tree giving the two girls the privacy.

~~Flash back~~

"I don't understand why you have to leave Rei."

"Princess, it's just something I need to do. I'll come back someday."

Serena began to sob and Rei just wrapped her arms around her and held her close. There were too many words left unspoken. Too many feelings and Rei wasn't strong enough to admit to the blonde beauty in her arms that she was everything she will ever want or need. She couldn't deal with rejection.

"Ma... may... maybe things can be different Rei" Serena stated through her sobs.

Rei shook her head 'how can things be different, my love isn't returned' Rei thought to herself but quietly stated "I'm sorry… i… just need to do this. Please understand" Rei didn't like the fact that she was hurting her love but she had decided that this was what needed to happen for everyone's sake. She'll understand someday.

~~End Flash Back~

It seemed like both girls were remembering the same scene and came to at the same exact time. Sometime while they were both deep in thought Serena had sat down and wrapped her arm around Rei's and rested her head on her shoulder. Rei naturally rested her head against Serena's. Both decided it would be best if they didn't say anything and just enjoy each other's company. The silence was beginning to be too much for Serena so she cleared her throat and sat up staring across the water.

"You know I should be extremely pissed off at you. I shouldn't want to talk to you or even have you be a part of my life. You ran Rei, you weren't going to the states to be with your father. You ran away from me. The fact that you tried to lie about it really hurts. I thought we were closer than that and I thought I meant more to you than that." Serena blurted out surprised that she was actually bold enough to express herself so freely.

Rei winced at the words Serena spoke she was right she had lied and she couldn't face the girl she loved most in the word. "I know that saying sorry will never make up for me leaving or for me lying. I just didn't know what else to do. I had to get away from everything I was feeling. I had to forget… I had to give you up." Rei couldn't bring herself to look at the blonde. She knew she was in the wrong and she knew she had hurt her. Serena rested her head back on Rei's shoulder and closed her eyes for a few moments and sighed.

"You know I could never stay mad at you and no matter how much I tried to hate you, I couldn't." Serena stated and she stood up. "I know there is more that you're hiding and I hope that someday you will be able to express what you feel. I'll be here waiting when you can. I'm going to go join the others"

Rei watched her leave and wanted to follow but she couldn't bring herself to stand. She sat there for another few moments looking out over the water. It was getting late and she still wanted to go visit the temple so she forced herself to stand and meet up with the others. Markus saw the expression on her face and wanted so bad to take her in his arms and tell her everything would be okay. Instead he just punched her in the arm and gave her a wink.

The visit to the shine went pretty well, it pleased her to find out that Chad had taken over the duties and was doing a fine job. She had said good bye to her four friends back at the shine and now found herself lying on her bed staring at the ceiling thinking about today events. 'At least she spoke to me' she thought. The conversation wasn't exactly what she had pictured but at least Serena didn't totally hate her for leaving. Markus entered the room and laid down next to her.

"You know it's a start right? She spoke to you that's something. I think you need to be honest and up front with your emotions. Everyone can tell she loves you Rei, I just don't understand how you don't see it. Maybe you do see it, maybe you just can't accept it because you feel like no one could love you like that."

Rei snorted and looked over at her dear friend giving him a look of don't you dare.

"Or maybe not. But still the facts are there. We all can tell I just think you need to man up so to speak and grow some balls and tell her your feelings."

Rei just rolled over on her side away from her friend. She knew he was right. They were all right but she couldn't bring herself to feel so unprotected.

"Rei everything will work out. Oh and what was that about inviting your friends to play with us?" Markus questioned.

"I figured they could help me out with one of the songs I am going to be singing at the next concert. You said you wanted to do something different so I figured we could pick songs that hold great meaning for us and do a semi acoustic show. Where we sit down with the crowd and talk and just share our journey with them. If I'm not mistaken this venue is a small one so figured why not get intimate with our fans."

Rei said rolling back on her back and looked over at her friend. Markus nodded in agreement, he liked the idea and loved how passionate Rei was about involving their fans. 'Now only if she was this passionate about her feelings for a certain blonde haired woman' he thought getting up from the bed to go find out what the other three were up to. Rei rolled over to reach her phone on the night stand quickly dialing the number before she had the chance to talk herself out of it. The phone rang for a few minutes but went to voicemail. Sighing Rei left a short message "Hey… its Rei… well I just wanted to invite you to the show… well give me a call." Without another word she hung up and threw the phone down next to her on the bed.

Rei woke up rather early the next morning. Rolling over she looked at the clock. 'Seven am, ugh' she thought getting out of bed and headed towards her bathroom. It wasn't often that she had the time to take a bath so once again she filled the tub and just as she was about to get in her phone started to vibrate on the counter. She was just going to ignore it and use the time to relax but she had a feeling that she needed to see who it was that just messaged her. Walking over to her phone she tapped the screen to see Serena's name. She took a deep breath and clicked on the message.

Serena: Sorry I didn't answer last night…

Rei: its okay, so can you make it?

Serena: are the others going?

Rei: Amara and Michelle are preforming and I haven't asked the others, oh Andrew maybe.

Serena: oh…

Rei: I just wanted it to be you, this show is something special, and I think it will help explain things to you.

Rei: just think about it, its tomorrow night. :)

Serena: I'll go… could I um… never mind…

Rei: could you what?

Serena: sigh. Can I come by later?

Rei: of course... Amara and Michelle will be here to practice as well.

Serena: oh well I kind of wanted it to be just us.

Rei: I see… anything for you princess… I will have them gone by two alright?

Serena: alright… well… I'll see you then.

Rei looked at her phone and read the conversation over maybe a dozen times before she realized what she had just agreed to. She set her phone down and got into the bath. 'Just relax' she thought to herself. Rei didn't stay in the bath near as long as she did last time. She figured she shouldn't take so long since two of her friends were bound to arrive any minute. Just as she walked out of her room there was a knock at the door. Smiling she walked over and answered the door.

"Hey guys, come on in. Markus and the boys had a late night last night so I'm pretty sure they're still sleeping."

"Wow, this place is bigger than any of the hotels we've ever stayed in!" Michelle stated in awe.

"Well I'm sure it was just the two of you huh? There is five of us and there is no way I'm sharing with anyone."

"Is that so, Markus and yourself where pretty cozy flirting back and forth at each other at the crown yesterday" Amara cooed.

"Ha-ha, yeah Markus likes to draw attention to himself and he knows how embarrassed I get when he starts acting that way. So I try to dish it back to make him uncomfortable, but it never seems to work. We always end up laughing so hard we cry. You know my feelings for our princess, he is really a big bother figure. He has been there for me since I arrived in the states." Rei explained.

"Uh huh…" Amara smirked.

Rei rolled her eyes at her friend's antics and showed them into the oversized living room where a baby grand piano sat. Amara ran her fingers over the ivory keys and closed her eyes for a moment playing a soft melody. As if on cue Michelle had her violin out and ready to play and moved the bow along the strings with little effort. Rei sat down and watched the couple play together. They complimented each other greatly. Rei smiled as the song ended and lightly clapped.

"That was so beautiful, the way you two play together, and it makes my heart sigh." Rei stated.

Both of the girls smiled and thanked her. While still sitting at the piano Amara turned to Rei.

"So this song you need our help with… what's the name?"

"It's called lost in Paradise. I wrote it just after I arrived in the states. I think if she heard the song she'd completely understand why things happened the way they have. The song starts out with the piano and vocals then the violin comes and then the band. It's a really moving song and who else to play the piano and violin parts then two of my dear friends. It will make it all the more special if she sees that you two are involved."

"Wont the fact of there being over a hundred people there take away from the song? Wouldn't it be better if she heard the song by herself?" Amara asked

"Tomorrow's show is different than any of the shows we've done since we've been on tour. There is only going to be fifty other fans there. It's a semi acoustic show where we sit down with our fans and get to know them on a personal level. We will explain our stories and how we came to be and some meaning behind some of the songs. We'll even have a question and answer section at the end. It's our way of giving back to the fans by opening up ourselves to them."

"You don't see to many performers these days that take the time out to get to know their fans like that. I love the idea" Michelle said happily.

The three of them spent the new few hours going over sheet music and Rei explaining them how the song was to go. It was around one in the afternoon before Markus and the boys had decided to show their faces. Rei had just shown her friends to the door when Markus came from the kitchen.

"You know we should talk to our agent and demand that wherever we stay has to be stocked with food. Room service is going to cost us an arm."

"Oh please you know very well the record label pays for everything and besides I was hoping that you and the guys would go out to lunch this afternoon."

"Is that so? Who's the hot date, some groupie you ran into and decided to bring back to the hotel?" Markus said in mocking tone.

"As if, Serena messaged me this morning and asked if she could stop by and asked if we could be alone"

"Ooo… well in that case I will get the boys asses in gear and we will be out of your hair in thirty!" Markus gave her a wink and walked off down the hall to force the other three out of the hotel.

Rei was beyond nervous, she had no idea what Serena could possibly want to talk to her about. She sat in the living room staring at a TV that wasn't on. Hearing laughter come from down the hall Markus and the guys where pushing each other laughing about something one of them had said. Rei smiled at their actions glad that Markus seemed to be happy, they all did. Things were going well for them.

"So we're headed out, I'll message you later to see if the coast is clear." Markus called out as he was opening the door. Turning back to give Rei a wink not realizing there was someone standing at the door he ran into Serena tumbling over her. They fell to the ground with a big thud. The other band members were laughing hysterically and helped the two off the ground.

"I'm really sorry Serena, I didn't see you there" Markus apologized while running his fingers through his hair.

"Oh no problem, I am the queen of the klutz's so if I'm not falling over someone I'm not doing my job" Serena laughed and smiled at the man in front of her.

"Well you two enjoy, come on boys lets go see what this town has to offer" Once again Markus winked at Rei causing her to shove him out the door closing it behind her.

Serena walked into the living room looking around at how big the place way. "Well you sure are taken care of huh Rei?"

"Yeah… I guess… though we don't really live like this back in the states. Just a perk of traveling the world I guess." Rei stated as she joined her in the living room.

"All of you share one hotel room?"

"I guess we do, never really thought about it. We're all so close. The boys normally double up, though they hardly spend time here."

"Are you happy with him?"

Rei blinked a few time. Not sure if she had heard the blonde correctly. She stumbled over her words trying to grasp what was just asked.

"Um I what?" was the only thing she could get out.

"You and Markus, you seem to be happy together." Serena stated as a matter of fact.

Rei couldn't help but laugh at the statement the girl standing next to her had said.

"Markus and I are not and will never be together Serena" she said laughing as she walked over to the couch to sit down.

"He is a brother to me" Shaking her head to get the thoughts of them being together out of her head.

Serena just stood there looking at the raven haired girl. Feeling kind of foolish for assuming that the two had been together. She couldn't help it, the way the interacted on stage and the scene at the crown yesterday.

"Oh, well don't I feel a little bit foolish"

"Don't worry your pretty little head, there is only one person I love."

With that statement Serena tensed. The look of panic quickly came across her face and she wasn't quite sure where this conversation was going. She wasn't sure where she wanted the conversation to go. Things had changed over the years, she had changed. Darien had been in the states for almost four years and she wasn't even sure he was going to return. They had decided to break it off before he left because when she asked him when he'd be back he had said he wasn't sure. Then shortly after Rei decided to leave. Sensing a change in mood Rei quickly changed the topic.

"So, what would you like to do this afternoon?"

Serena thought about it for a minute. She wasn't sure her reasons for coming over. She needed to make sure that her friend was actually here and that the past few days weren't a dream. She also wanted answers but seeing the girl she'd missed so much sitting there she'd lost her nerve she didn't want to do anything to make her leave again.

"I didn't really think about that. I just wanted to spend some time with you"

"You know you can sit down, I won't bite."

Serena laughed and made her way over to the couch and sat down next to Rei. The pair talked about many different things over the next few hours. Many pointless things. Neither girl spoke of the things they had been dying to ask or been meaning to say. Before long Serena had to leave, Rei reluctantly showed her to the door and asked once more if she'd be at the show tomorrow. Serena smiled and replied with only a nod and started to walk down the hallway. Unknowingly to Rei, Serena had stopped half way down the hallway and turned around to watch the raven haired girl walk back inside the room and shut the door. She leaned against the wall and closed her eyes for a second thinking to herself 'why can't she just speak what's in her heart.' Pushing herself off the wall and beginning to walk again she felt herself ran into someone. 'Great two people in one day, I'm on a roll.' She laughed at herself.

"I'm sorry… I should really watch where I'm going…"

"Serena, we should really stop meeting like this" Markus replied with a chuckle

"Oh… hey... Markus"

"So… how'd it go?"

"Well we didn't kill each other if that's what you mean. We still didn't talk about anything though. I'm not really sure where we stand either."

"It's not my place to say, but she loves you. Buuuuut you didn't hear that from me. Please say you'll be at the show tomorrow. It's going to be so much fun!"

"I probably shouldn't but I already told Rei I'd be there… I should really be going…" Without another word Serena walked down the hallway and out of the hotel she needed to get as far away from Rei as she possibly could. There were too many emotions stirring. She was so confused. 'Rei loved her? Why hadn't she just told her? Did she love Rei?'

Markus walked into the hotel room to find Rei staring out the window with a lost expression on her face.

"I literarily ran into Serena again in the hallway" Markus said trying to break the silence.

"Hmmm? Yeah, she has a habit of doing that. Where are the other three?"

"Oh they wondered off somewhere talking about some music store, I wanted to get back to see how you two were doing. Didn't hear from you so I wanted to make sure you two were still alive." Markus laughed a little.

"We talked for hours about nothing that mattered, tomorrow is going to be interesting to say the least. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do this. I couldn't even tell her when we were alone, how am I going to sing these songs and open up myself to these complete strangers? That's going to hurt her even more." Rei sighed and walked away from the window and headed towards her room.

"I'm going to go lay down for a while, tomorrow is going to be one for the record books, I can feel it."

Rei had told Amara and Michelle to meet them at the venue at five to set up and go over the set list and to get some last minute practice in. Rei's nerves were really getting to her today, she was overly jumpy and couldn't seem to calm down. Everything had to be perfect if this was going to work, she had only hoped that Serena would only understand. The four of them were standing behind stage talking about the order of the songs and any last minute changes to the show when the lead stage hand informed them that Serena and Andrew had arrived and where seated at a table to the left of the stage. Amara and Michelle excused themselves and made their way over to the pair.

"Hey you two, are you guys nervous?" Andrew asked excited to see the show.

"I'm more nervous about Serena's reaction then being up there playing, music is my element after all" Michelle stated confidently grabbing ahold of Amara's arm.

"Rei said this was a special show I wonder what she meant by that." Serena said looking at the stage noticing the chairs.

Amara just smiled and pulled out a chair for her love, Michelle smiled and sat. "Well I don't want to give anything away but it's their way of giving back to their fans. We don't perform till the second song so we're going to sit with you till then, that is if you don't mind."

As if on cue Rei and Markus walked out onto the stage waving to the small number of fans. The each took a seat and lowered the microphones to a comfortable level. The band shortly followed taking their seats.

"Hey everyone I'm Rei and this is Markus, we're Conveyable and we've like to start this evening out by explaining why we've asked such a small number of our fans to join us tonight." Rei started out.

Markus continued "We'd like to get to know each and every one of you by sharing are journey."

"Tonight we've picked out song's that mean a great deal to us and explain a great deal about who we are not only as a group but as individuals. We'd like to finish the night off with any questions you might have for us, so what do you say, let's get this party started?" Rei added

"I remember the first time I saw Rei. She was so confident. I remember the first time I heard her sing, I knew I needed to have her apart of my life. Getting to know Rei wasn't an easy task, she was very stubborn as first but she's grown into become my little sister. I would sit for hours and listen to her talk about her friends back home. Listen to her talk about how she left behind the girl she loved and how foolish she had been. Well based off those conversations I wrote this song. It's the first time I've ever played it for anyone, even Rei." Markus paused and looked at Rei and gave her a wink and continued.

"It's called A Drop in the Ocean. It's about a love for a girl and hoping that one day maybe you'd get to finally be together"

The music slowly begins to play, Markus closes his eyes for a brief moment and looks over at Rei and then at Serena and begins to sing.

"A drop in the ocean"

"A change in the weather"

"I was praying that you and me might end up together"

"It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert"

"But I'm holding you closer than most cause you're my heaven"

In that moment Rei and Serena locked eyes and it was like they were the only two that existed. Serena was searching deep into Rei's soul for answers to unasked questioned as Markus continued to sing.

"I don't wanna waste the weekend"

"If you don't love me pretend"

"A few more hour, then it's time to go"

"As my train rolls down the East coast"

"I wonder how you'll keep warm"

"It's too late to cry, too broken to move on"

"Still I can't let you be"

"Most nights I hardly sleep"

"Don't take what you don't need from me"

Serena couldn't look away from Rei there was too much emotion in those eyes. Too much pain on her face. She wanted to make it all go away. She was scared, she wanted to run but she couldn't move. She wasn't ready to feel what she was feeling but she wanted to know more. The sounds of clapping and sighing broke the trance between the two. Rei blushed a little and thanked Markus for such a beautiful song.

"I guess that means I'm up! I'd like to ask two dear friends of mine to join me on stage, Amara and Michelle are you ready? While they make their way up here the song I picked is called Lost in Paradise. I wrote it just before I left for the states so just a little warning it's full of emotion."

Amara and Michelle were getting ready so Rei took the chance to glance as Serena one more time before she looked back at Amara and nodded. Amara began to play a soft slow melody Rei shortly joined in after her.

"I've been believing in something so distant"

"As if I was human"

"And I've been denying"

"This feeling of hopelessness in me"

"In me"

"All the promises I made"

"Just to let you down"

"You believed in me but I'm broken"

"I have nothing left"

"And all I fell is this cruel wanting"

"We've been falling for all this time"

"And now"

"I'm lost in paradise"

Rei lets the music take her over she closes her eyes and sways in her chairs with the melody of the violin. Remembering all the reasons why she left seem so petty and so selfish. She couldn't bring herself to look at Serena, she knew she was looking at her she could feel it. She continued to sing.

"As much as I'd like"

"The past not to exist"

"It still does"

"And as much as I'd like to feel like"

"I belong here"

"I'm just as scared as you"

Rei suddenly opened her eyes and looked at Serena as if giving her access to every part of her. Letting down every single wall she has ever put up. Rei noticed that Serena had Tears running down her cheeks. It took all of her strength to not run off the stage and take her in her arms and tell her everything was going to be alright and she'd never leave again. The song had ended with the last strum of the violin.

Rei smiled "Everyone give a big hand to these two wonderfully talented ladies! Please you two take a bow"

Amara and Michelle walked over to Rei and gave her a hug before walking off stage and back to their seats. Rei turned to Markus and flashed him and smile signaling it was time to carry on with the show. They moved their chairs out of the way and Markus explained what was going to happen next.

"We wanted to sing a song off our new album, the song is called Monster, Rei and I wrote it one day after talking about how we hide who we really are to the people we really care about. If the song makes you feel like you need to dance please feel free, I'm sure we'll be dancing around the stage"

The music started to play and Rei started to dance around Markus and began to sing

"Don't forget me how I was"

"Before I turned into a monster"

"That I never meant to be"

"I'm not who I pretend to be"

Markus then started dancing around then stage and started to sing.

"Hold it in its hard to know"

"Who is really in control?"

Rei took is hand and spun around him and started to sing again

"You're not who I would like to see"

"You're everything I think I need"

They both start singing

"Tell me where you love have gone"

"Don't tell me that it's gone away"

"Baby what you waiting on"

"I'm running out of words to try and make you stay"

Rei danced around the stage for the entire song. By the end of it she was so out of breathe. 'I'm so glad that Markus is doing the next song by himself' she thought to herself as the song came to an end. Grabbing the chairs again they sat down and adjusted the microphones.

"So what did you think of that one? We've got one last song and then we'll get to the fun part. Markus the floor is yours"

"Jeez Rei you sound out of breath, no more running around the stage for you huh?" Markus teased.

"Funny, just sing" Rei laughed.

"Alright, alright, this song is called Wait for me. I wrote this for a special girl back home. Maybe someday it will work out."

Rei picked up an acoustic guitar and started to strum. Markus smiled at her and she smiled back as he began to sing.

"Well I just strum the chords and sing the words"

"It's probably gonna get much worse"

"Before the sun decides to shine again"

"Well I turned 23 this past July"

"And all my dreams they seem to fly away"

"For reasons I don't understand"

"This is not the way"

"That I'd hoped to be"

"This is not the way"

"So if you'd wait for me"

"Come on wait for me, I'll try"

"Maybe we'll find a simple answer tonight"

"If you just wait for me, I'll try"

Rei loved to listen to Markus sing, it's probably why they worked so well together. They both had such a passion for music. The song had ended with one final strum of the guitar, Rei set it down and stood up and looked over the crowd. They were all standing up clapping and yelling. Markus and Rei took a bow. Rei took a quick glance a Serena to make sure she was still there and smiled at her. Serena gave a small smile back. Markus announced they would be back in a few short minutes to stay in their seats that the show wasn't over.

Walking back out on stage Rei's heart sank when she saw that Serena was no longer sitting at the table. She looked at Amara and Michelle who had a sad expression on their face. Andrew didn't know what was going on but he knew he wasn't good. It seemed to Rei that they spent at least three hours answering questions from their fans when all she really wanted to do was go find Serena and find out why she had left, but she couldn't do that to her fans they did mean the world to her. Finally the show was over and everything was loaded up and they could get out of there. Rei checked her phone to see if Serena had left a message or called, there was nothing. As Rei and Markus were leaving the building when Rei noticed that Amara and Michelle had waited for them.

"Hey…" was all Rei could say.

"Are you okay? She said she needed to think about everything, that it was too much. She's just confused about how she should feel. Just give her some time Rei." Amara said giving her friend a hug.

A/N: That's all I've got for now.