Kiss it Better Chapter 4: Angel with a Shotgun, a mortal instruments fanfic

Song is Angel with a Shotgun by the Cab. Sorry if the fic is crap but I tried :) kind of an AU of City of Ashes…

(I'm an angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun
An angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun)

Get out your guns, battles begun
Are you a saint, or a sinner?
If loves a fight, than I shall die
With my heart on a trigger

She's my sister. She's my sister. She's my sister. I kept repeating it over and over in my head as I stood with her in the Battle Room. We were planning how to take down Valentine. I couldn't concentrate on the plans. I kept looking at her. Her flaming red hair fell in gentle curls around her face. Her emerald eyes shined with determination as she thought the plans over. She is my sister.

This is a sin. I shouldn't be thinking about Clary this way. She's occasionally glancing in my direction out of the corner of her eye. Every time I caught her gaze, I fixed my own back onto the battle plans. Clary and I had our own awkward conversation just a few hours when I told her I love her as more than a sister. She told me she only loved me as a brother, ripping my heart out.

They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, a soldier I will be

"Remember, Shadowhunters, that we are fighting for our people, our Idris, and we are fighting for our freedom from this man and his demon minions!" Aldertree said, motivating the Nephilim. All of us rose our seraph blades and yelled a "yeah!" in agreement.

I'm fighting for more than that. I'm fighting for Clary. She needs to know that I'm not going to give up. If it doesn't feel like she's my sister, then she can't be. I'm going to find out the real truth. Even if I have to torture it out of Valentine.

I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting til' the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe
Don't you know you're everything I have?
And I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight

I was strapping holsters around my gear when there was a knock on my door. "Who is it?" I called out.

"It's me," a quiet voice said. Clary. I secured the final holster before I opened the door. There she stood dressed in her gear, her blades secured in their holsters. God, she's beautiful. "Well need to talk."

"Actually, we need to go out into the field. The war is about to begin."

"We still have a few minutes. There's a reason I said what I said. I've been reading about Clave Law ever since we found out we were related. I was trying to find a way for us to be together. I lied earlier." I furrowed my browser in confusion. "I love you, Jace. And I don't mean as my brother." I gave her a big smile and took a step forward. But she placed a hand on my chest to keep me at arm's length. "They could remove our runes, Jace. If immediate family members have a romantic relationship with each other, their runes get removed."

"I've already thought about that, Clary," I admitted truthfully. "I don't care if I become a mundane. I just want to be with you. You are everything to me, Clary." Her green eyes glistened. She reached out for the front of my shirt, pulling me down to her height to place a gentle kiss on my lips. My arms circled around her waist, pulling her closer as hers went around my neck, deepening the kiss. Once I pulled away, I said, "I don't care what he said. I love you, Clary. You don't feel like you're my sister. Izzy is my sister. Before I kill him, I'm going to confront him about it. I will force him to admit the truth to me."

"He's going to admit it to both of us. I won't let you go alone." I smiled at her and kissed her again.

"If it's true, what about the Clave? I don't care about what happens to me. But I don't want them to hurt you for falling for your brother."

"There's a reason I chose now to talk to you. I was thinking about the difference between living and surviving. Surviving this war isn't worth it unless I truly lived my life how I wanted. If I die tonight, I might as well do something worth fighting for. Tonight, I don't just want to survive, I want to live. And once this is over, if I survive, then I want to live with you by my side. The Clave be damned." I don't think I've ever smiled so wide. I kissed her once more before grabbing my weapons, putting them in my holsters.

Sometimes to win, you've got to sin
Don't mean I'm not a believer
And major Tom, will sing along
Yeah, they still say I'm a dreamer

They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, a soldier I will be

We will win. I finally had Valentine cornered and disarmed. I stood on one side of him while Clary stood on the other. We were on the top of a large hill looking over the battlefield where our fellow Nephilim were battling demons. Mine and Clary's seraph blades were dripping with demon ichor. She was even able to snatch the Mortal Cup away from Valentine. Now, with the ability to control the demons, she held up the Cup and yelled, "Demons! Portal back to your home realms and never return!" The demons all disappeared back to their own realms. My seraph blade was against Valentine's neck, ready to end it. He's already under a death sentence. What difference does it make if I do it or the executioner?

"Tell us the truth. Is Clary really my sister or did you lie about that like everything else?"

"Fine. I lied. You are not related." I have never felt so relieved. "But, Clary, your real brother, Jonathan is really still alive. He has been hiding out at the Morgenstern Manor. And once I am gone, he will just follow through on my plans. Unlike you, Jace, he is very loyal."

"Thank you, I think we have all of our information." I looked over at Aldertree and saw him give me a subtle nod. I squared my shoulders and got ready to slit his throat. My blade barely pierced the skin when a runed arrow flew by and went straight into his heart. I jumped back at shock and looked to Alec who was in Magnus' arms. But for once, he didn't have his bow and arrow, only his seraph blades. He looked over at the real shooter. Jocelyn.

Clary and I backed away from his body and climbed down the hill, hand in hand. "Mom?" Clary asked.

"I should have done it a long time ago, Clary." She turned to me. "And I couldn't let a murder like that be on your conscience."

Oh, oh whoa whoa oh whoa

I'm an angel with a shotgun
Fighting til' the wars won
I don't care if heaven won't take me back

Clary and I went with Jocelyn to Morgenstern Manor to find Jonathan. But once we got there, there was no one there. We all decided to drop it until he decided to surface. But I could tell Jocelyn was going to continue searching. No matter how much she says that he is evil and that she could tell when he was little, she still loves him because he is her son.

The three of us went back to New York with the Lightwoods. Now that Clary and I know that we're not siblings, we don't have to worry about the Clave and we can finally start living.

And I'm gonna hide, hide, hide my wings tonight

They say before you start a war
You better know what you're fighting for
Well baby, you are all that I adore
If love is what you need, a soldier I will be

Sorry if this wasn't that great. And I am so so so sorry I haven't updated in like 2 years. I haven't been writing a lot of Mortal Instruments. I just finally started reading the Infernal Devices. Hopefully the show, Shadowhunters, will inspire me to write more. Had to write this after watching tonight's episode since it was amazing and heartbreaking! Please leave songs you like me to include in this I will really try not to disappear for another 2 years!