In between the constant small gifts given to him on a daily basis and the sweet words of affection his teammate and boyfriend muttered when nobody was around, there was one thing that Teshima Junta wanted more than anything else. He dared not tell anybody. Especially not his lover, beloved senpai, nor any of the other third-years. This was strictly for his knowledge only.

He wished that Aoyagi would kiss him. Not the kind of kisses that they gave each other before leaving for their own homes after a cycling date. Not even the casual kiss that he gave often gave Aoyagi when they were watching movies together and the plot was epically boring. He wanted Aoyagi to kiss him hard, to show him stars and pleasure and every other stupid shoujo cliché that people often experienced with a really good kiss. He hated to admit it, but it tormented him on a daily basis.

As a result, in true Teshima fashion, he came up with convoluted plots in order to make this happen. Teshima knew that writing down his thoughts about Aoyagi would be risky business, but he couldn't organize them any other way. He was too cautious to post them anywhere online. He used a discrete composition book he had gotten from overseas and labeled it simply "#1". He wrote on the second page:

Entry #1

The person I'd like to to talk about in this book will be referred to as "my number one" or just "one" in short. I love him so dearly. Some days I want to do stupid things and kiss him in front of the whole school. One is so much better than that! His words do so many things to me. My heart flutters every time he calls me Jun.

P.S. He looked really cute today, wearing the necklace I bought him for Christmas! (*°∀°)=3

P.S.S Still working on that miraculous plan to kiss him. Maybe he'd be enticed with chocolate? I bought some Hershey kisses the other day.

Teshima stopped writing. He blushed furiously. Even though he knew that this rambling on the page would be the best way to focus and get these incessant thoughts out of his head, he was still uncertain how much he should disclose to this journal. What if someone found it?

Despite his worries, he still wrote nearly every day.

He had written thirty-five entries into the journal, and had been in the middle of the thirty-sixth one when he realized that he had taken up the whole book. Teshima groaned.

"Ugh what a pain! Why are there so few pages in this book!" He shoved it into his school bag while looking for the extra notebook he kept there. "Aha! Here it is!" he exclaimed. He numbered this book #2 and began to write from where he left off.

The next day, he set down his stuff and sat in the usual chair. Aoyagi approached looking worried.

"Aoyagi? What's the matter?" Teshima asked. Aoyagi's eyebrows furrowed a little bit.

"I'm sorry to ask you this," he dropped his voice to a whisper "but I forgot to do last night's math worksheet. Do you think I could borrow yours, Jun?" Teshima's face colored a little at the nickname.

"O-oh of course! Here I'll get it right now." He sorted through his bag to find his math notes when Naruko came running through the door.

"Perm-senpai! There's a big problem with one of the bikes, and Ossan is asking you to help him fix it!" He shouted from the entrance way.

"What, Tadokoro-senpai? Tell him I'm coming right away!" He started to run before turning back to his boyfriend. "Aoyagi, you can find the worksheet with my math notes. I'll be right back, so tell sensei that something came up with the club!" With that, he left.

Aoyagi smiled at Teshima's retreating back. He would always be the one to help others, even if he hated to admit it. He turned his attentions back toward Teshima's bag. Now where was that worksheet? He passed the English, literature, and science books before finding a curiously rounded black and white book. What was this? Aoyagi opened up to a random page to see Teshima's scrawled writing.

Entry #25

God I am so stupid! Today was Hajime's birthday and I didn't have anything prepared! ヽ (*´Д ｀ *) ﾉ We ended up going out to dinner together anyways, but it was totally lame on my part. After failing to give him chocolate on Valentine's Day, I can hardly be considered a good boyfriend OTL.. The people in the restaurant were staring at us, but he didn't notice (which I am glad of). He lights up so much when he smiles. It's a wonder he chose me.

P.S. Mission: Get Hajime To Kiss Me still on standby until further notice.

Aoyagi reddened as he looked around to see if Teshima had made it back. Sighing in relief, he transferred the book to his own bag before looking for the math worksheet. He was curious about what sort of things Teshima wrote, but now was not the time to indulge in such pursuits. He had homework to copy!