Disclaimer: I own nothing except parts of the plot in this fan fiction. All the characters belong to the amazing Cassandra Clare!

"Hello?"

As soon as the familiar voice answered on the other end, Alec hung up. He did this to himself everyday. He would call Magnus as many times as he had to until he answered, but as soon as he heard a voice on the other end he would hang up.

It wasn't like he didn't want to talk to Magnus. That was the whole reason of why he actually called. It was just the fact that hearing Magnus voice made him remember the night they broke up, and it made him terrified of what the voice was going to tell him this time.

Alec picked up the glass of beer in front of him and downed it all at once. Alcohol was the only thing that gave him courage enough to call Magnus, and because he called him everyday, that meant a lot of alcohol. But Alec wouldn't exactly call himself a drunk just yet. Even though he had been doing this for over two months, it hadn't affected his shadowhunter abilities. He could run as fast a he did before everything with Magnus and he was just as strong, even though he didn't train as much anymore.

Alec got up from his chair and left a few dollars on the table before he walked out of the bar he had been drinking in. It was a mundane place he had never been to before, and he would probably never come back. Alec tried to go to a different bar everyday, and also tried to keep himself from going to Downworlder bars. In the beginning he had tried to go to Downworlder bars, but it seemed like the whole of Downworld had heard the story about Magnus Bane, the warlock, and Alec Lightwood, the shadowhunter. It was easier in mundane bars where no one knew who he was.

The walk back to the Institute was long. Alec hated times like this, when he wasn't drunk enough to not remember anything of what was bothering him. Everything he walked past reminded him of Magnus. The grass reminded him of the date they had once had just outside of Magnus apartment. The colourful leaves on the trees reminded him of Magnus colourful clothes and hair. And he could go on like that for a long time with his endless list.

When he got inside the Institute the only thing that met him was darkness. His parents, Isabelle and Jace were probably already asleep. Alec checked one of the clocks in the hallway. It was half past 2. He walked up to his bedroom, careful not to wake up any of the others. Once he was inside his bedroom he walked over to his bed and flopped down onto it. And then the tears came.

This also happened everyday after he had called Magnus. He would arrive home late and once he thought about what had actually happened, he cried. Some nights he cried for an hour, other days he cried himself to sleep and some days he didn't sleep at all because of all the crying. He really missed Magnus.

The next morning, Alec woke up wearing the same clothes as he had the day before, and his eyes were stinging because of all the crying he had done through the night. He sat up in his bed and looked around him. When his gaze fell on the window he saw that something was stuck to it. A note. He got up from the bed and walked to the window. A bright purple flyer read:

Magnus Bane, the High Warlock of Brooklyn

Invites to a magnificent evening you will never forget

This note is an invitation so if you want to come inside

you will have to show one of these to my doorman.

This invitation only lets one person come through

And don't try anything to duplicate it, I will know.

When there are enough people I won't let anyone else in.

If you in any way get on my nerves I will transform you into a mouse.

The party happens the same day you receive this flyer.

Much love,

Magnus Bane.

Alec stood frozen, staring at the flyer. It must have been a coincidence that the flyer had ended up at his window. Magnus was still really angry with him and there was no way that he would invite Alec to one of his parties. No way.

But on the other hand, he did answer almost every time Alec called. Maybe there was a tiny chance that Magnus actually wanted to forgive him and had he invited him to the party so that he could do it. No. Alec couldn't be that optimistic about it or else he would just be crushed when it didn't happen.

Alec walked back to his bed and sat down on it. He really wanted to go to the party. Not because he loved partying, but he wanted to talk to Magnus. He wanted to say what he had wanted to say for two months. He wanted to see Magnus and see if he was as miserable as he himself were. He was going to Magnus's party.

Once the evening approached, Alec tried to find something nicer than what he usually wore to wear to the party. He ended up finding a pair of jeans and a dark blue sweater without any holes in them and decided that was as nice as it was going to get.

He walked past Jace on the way out, but he didn't question where Alec was going. Jace was probably used to him leaving every night, and he'd stopped asking where Alec was going after he had refused to answer so many times.

Once Alec was outside of Magnus door he wasn't quite sure if he had made the right choice or not, coming to the party. Sure, he had really wanted to talk to Magnus, but a fully crowded party weren't the best place to talk about how miserable Alec had felt ever since that terrible day.

Without even knowing what he was going to say when he met Magnus, Alec pushed the buzzer. He immediately regretted what he had done and was about to run away when the door opened. A guy Alec had never seen before looked at him suspiciously.

"Do you have an invitation?" the guy asked, sounding tired and a bit irritated.

Alec handed him the flyer that had been stuck to his window without a word. The guy brought it up to the light, the same way Alec had seen some mundanes check if their money was real, and then stepped aside so Alec could enter. Alec walked past him and straight up the stairs to Magnus apartment. The guy tried to ask him if he needed any directions but Alec just kept walking. He could have found the way to that apartment in his sleep.

Once at the door of the apartment, Alec considered for probably the hundredth time if this really was such a great idea. But then he heard Magnus voice from the other side of the door and he immediately opened it and entered.

Nothing in the apartment had changed since the last time Alec had been there. The furniture was exactly the same as they had been the day he had gone to pick up his stuff. Which was kind of weird considering Magnus usually changed his furniture at least once a week. But all thoughts of furniture were gone as soon as Alec saw Magnus.

Magnus was wearing a pair of bright purple jeans, a blue sweater with a black vest over and a pair of golden shoes. He was wearing blue, sparkly eyeliner and a dark purple lipstick. His hair stood up in its usual spikes with the ends coloured in blue and purple and some of them were also covered in glitter. He looked beautiful.

Alec knew he missed Magnus, but seeing him standing there, right in front of him looking as beautiful as ever, made his heart ache. He just wanted to run to Magnus and kiss him like there was no tomorrow. But Alec knew he couldn't do that. If anything was going to be right between them again they had to talk out about what had happened and not just go straight to bed. And things were going to be right between them again.

Alec took a few steps forward and was about to go talk to him, when another guy went up to Magnus. Alec thought it was just one of Magnus guests, but then the guys lips were on Magnus's. Alec stopped dead. This guy that Alec had never seen before had his lips locked to Magnus. His Magnus. And the worst part was that Magnus was actually kissing him back. Alec wanted to run away, but his feet wouldn't listen.

"Magnus?" Alec asked with a small voice. He hadn't expected Magnus to hear him, and if he did he would probably just ignore him. But then Magnus turned around and Alec was suddenly staring straight into his eyes. Just like magic, Alec's feet would listen again and he ran out of the party.

He ran away from the apartment, the building, the guy he had never seen before and he ran away from Magnus. He had believed that the reason the flyer had been stuck to his window was because Magnus wanted to talk to him and maybe even forgive him. But no, that was definitely not what he had wanted. Either the flyer had just been stuck to his window by chance, or Magnus had wanted Alec to see that he had moved on and was completely done with him. Alec was really hoping his first guess was the right one.

Before he knew it, Alec was standing outside the Institute. He could see lights from the hallway, which meant that someone was probably inside there and that someone was going to see him cry. He tried to wipe the tears away from his eyes but they just kept pouring out. Alec decided to go inside anyways. He regretted it as soon as he did it.

The first thing he saw when he entered the Institute was Clary and Jace, locked in a passionate embrace. He tried to avoid looking at them, but he couldn't quite take his eyes off of the couple. The worst part was that he didn't see Clary and Jace; he saw Magnus and that other guy.

He ran up the stairs to his bedroom. Once inside, he flung himself onto the bed and just lay there, sobbing and feeling as bad as he had the first few nights after the breakup. He couldn't get himself to stop crying and he didn't care if his parents, Isabelle or Jace heard him. He was too heartbroken to care.

After a while he couldn't just lie there anymore. He had to get some answers from Magnus. But Alec couldn't call him and there was no way he was going to go back to the apartment.

Alec pushed himself off of the bed and went to sit by his desk. He figured that if he couldn't talk to Magnus on the phone or in person he would have to write him a letter. And so he did.

He sat at his desk through the whole night, writing and erasing, crumbling up papers and straightening them out again. When the morning came he was finally finished with a letter where he felt like he had expressed everything he wanted to say to Magnus. About Camille. About how he had just wanted to know about Magnus, how he had only considered Camille's offer because he didn't want to be yet another one of Magnus's lovers. And lastly how he knew that Magnus had moved on but he just couldn't get himself to do the same.

After reading through his letter again and again Alec went into the hall and found Jace. He asked Jace if he could somehow deliver the letter to Magnus. At first Jace asked why he wanted to send Magnus a letter instead of just going to his apartment and talk to him, but then he noticed the tears that were forming in Alec's eyes and he promised to get the letter to Magnus. Alec thanked Jace and went back to his room.

Once he was back in his room again, he lay down onto his bed and relaxed for the first time in two months. He wasn't sure what Magnus was going to say, but at least he had gotten to explain himself, and that was the only thing that really mattered to him at the point.

A/N: I was thinking of making this story into a three-shot, with the next two chapters being Magnus POV and the letter. Than you to everyone who's read this and I hope you enjoy the next two installments :)