Chapter 1 lost in time

It's been two years…. Since he… d…d… I can't, thought John. "I can't admit it." Two years gone by and he still couldn't admit it out loud. He refused to acknowledge it, childishly thinking that if he didn't think about it, it wouldn't come true. Stupid, right? Truth was, John didn't care. He didn't care whether he lived or died, as the reason for his living was already gone, lost, lost faraway in the backyard of time. The hand that he once used to hold while running, jumping off walls and chasing criminals at all hours had slipped away from his hand. The hand of Sherlock Holmes.

"So why should I live?" "He is gone forever. What am I supposed to do now? Move on? But how?" Millions of questions clouded in his mind, none of which he had the answer to. Feeling tired and exhausted, he looked out of his bedroom window. The night was dark and black, the moon hidden behind the dark clouds. There was a deathly calm silence all around. No sound of taxis rushing past, or footsteps pounding on the pavement. The night reminded him of his current state. Lost in the darkness, all alone, with no light to guide him. No purpose for him.

"I should just do it" he thought. "no more wasting time, ending this huge pain for once and for all." Feeling a bit more courageous, he stood up and took his pistol from his drawer. It was a stiff from not using it for years at a stretch, and he found its weight a bit unfamiliar. Putting on his coat, he silently walked downstairs and out of the house.

He just kept walking on, emotionlessly, with no particular destination in his mind.
Soon his feet stopped and he looked around, wondering where he was. He sucked in a deep breath, all his emotions coming all at once. It was an alleyway. The very same alley through which he and Sherlock had run together on his very first case, a study in pink. All the memories of Sherlock and this case came rushing back like a torrent of water and John collapsed to his knees, sobbing brokenheartedly. "please come back Sherlock, for me. Please… just one more miracle.. please….." he rasped, looking at the night sky as he spoke, praying to whichever god was out there. If only he knew, someone in the shadows was watching him silently, someone about to make a comeback very soon…

Okkkaaayyy, not much of a cliffhanger but still one! Please tell me if you liked it! ie: please review! - IreneAshlynn