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For the moment the world was silent and peaceful around us. The sun was shining for once in Forks, a thousand lightning beams radiating from our bodies. Thousands of tiny diamond seemed to be carefully placed on our skin. I had never seen anything like that. Jasper looked like a Greek Adonis and warmth spread itself in my chest as I studied him.

He was with me because of the sun which I was very grateful for. He would go back to school soon and I would see him less. I wasn't particularly looking forward to that moment.

We had found this meadow full of purple flowers we were currently laying in. His thumb running circles over my hand. An ant was crawling on my leg. I could lay here forever.

But there was something I needed to tell him.

" I'm going to change my name." I stated. His thumb stopped running circles. Jasper peeked his head up from his lying position, the grass underneath him groaning under his weight.

The frown on his face matched the question in his eyes. " Why? What's wrong with the one you have now?"

Well, what wasn't wrong with it? It was a hated name. It was a name that caused sadness. It was not me anymore.

" I want another name. Lexi is just too… It's just a reminder of a life I left behind."

He frowned again, the lines on his forehead deeper this time. " I don't understand quite well, darling. Why the sudden change?"

" It's just… my name holds too many memories. Lexi was human. And I'm not her anymore. I'm not Lexi."

A flash of guilt crossed his features. That's not what I wanted. Cupping his face, I pulled him closer to me. " Hey, don't feel guilty! I'm accepting my life now."

His fingers laced in min and I think he understood now. " So how do I have to call you know?"

" I'm gonna go by my second name: Nicole. Nobody ever called me Nicole, so it doesn't remind me of my human life."

" Nicole." " Nicole." " Nicole." He said my name in different tones, each of them rolling beautifully of his tongue. I like how it sounded. Nicole Brown. Nicole Cullen. Doesn't sound that bad.

His lips pressed against mine for a brief moment. I licked my lips to savor that taste.: " I think that's a wonderful choice."

" And my middle names is going to be Claire, after my aunt in Texas, who supported us all te time after the death of my parents."

I could already see the name on my ID: Nicole Claire Cullen. It was the start of something new.

" I shall arrange the necessary papers." His lips trailed my cheekbone sweet and gentle, lower and lower until his lips were pressed against the corner of my mouth.

" Wonderful." I managed to choke out between his kisses. My fingers wrapped in his golden curls, my nails scraping his scalp lightly. He seemed to shudder under my touch. My veins were burning from excitement.

I easily rolled him over without breaking the kiss. His lips pressed harder on mine. Needy. This was the type of kiss that could make a human girl faint.

My hands found the little buttons of his shirt. They were open as one heartbeat passed. My fingers roamed his chest, occasionally feeling a patch of skin that was a little less smooth and a bit thicker than the rest. Most of his scars were on his face, neck and jaw. I didn't knew that also his chest was scarred.

I could feel the muscles underneath my fingertips and I kissed him even harder trying to mask my pity and uprising anger.

How many vampires had tried to kill Jasper? My Jasper?! An angry hiss almost made me break up the kiss. He had been in more fights than I could have imagined and thankfully he had never lost. Thankfully he was strength and speed and death rolled into one.

His hands caught mine as my fingers trailed lower and lower until they reached the waistband of his jeans.

" Darling, I don't think this is a good idea."

I was so caught up in the feeling of his skin underneath my hands and his lips on mine that I had not realized my hands had almost wandered too…private territory. Not that I minded.

But he was right. This was not a good idea. I was not ready to lose my V-card yet and I definitely pictured it a little more romantic. Another shot of love for this man hit me as the fact that he respected me too much to have sex with me right here right now, pierced my thick skull. Any other man would've taken advantage of this. But not him. He respected me and he loved me.

" You're right. If you're gonna pop my cherry it has to be a bit more romantic, darling." The words passed between my lips before I really thought about them. No! Take them back!

Embarrassment was the only companion my fading lust had right now. I groaned " Please, ignore that."

He started to laugh loudly. The sound like music to my ears. His loud laughter slowly faded into chuckles as the embarrassment didn't seem to go away. His fingers traced the curves of my face.

" Don't feel ashamed."

With a sigh I got off him and started to put my Jeffrey Campbell plateau boots back on. I loved them. They were so high heeled but really comfortable and they had spiky studs on them. I smoothed my star printed skater skirt before I grabbed his hand and pulled him up. As long as my newborn strength was still lingering in my veins I would make use of it the best I could. Which meant being faster than Edward and Jasper and pretending that Emmett had a chance in our games of arm wrestling.

" Come on, before your family thinks I killed you."

He huffed " As if I can't take you!"

" Darling, don't be offended! It's really hard being deadly gorgeous, strong and magnificent but someone has to take the responsibility."

He laughed and playfully nudged me in the ribs, the same place were those mutts had bitten me and took off.

A series of giggles erupted as I sped to the woods, chasing him and eventually passing.

We ran back to the Cullens house. One step of mine was the equal of two and a half of his. We took longer than usually. Because I shoved him. Playfully ofcourse. Honestly I couldn't keep my eyes of him. Nor my hands. I blamed it on the fact that I was a newborn.

Alice threw the door open at the same moment I wanted to do the same. " Lexi, you have to see the skirts and shoes I've ordered for you on Net-A-Porter."

I chuckled. Alice's newfound hobby existed of roaming the internet in order to find the newest designer clothes that would fit my body. The ones she had already bought for me weren't good enough anymore. She had this rule that if you wore it twice you should give it to charity.

" Okay. But first I need to tell you guys something. My name is not Lexi anymore. I've decided to change my name to Nicole. I've made up my mind to start a new life. It comes with a new name."

They were perplex for a few seconds but I could see that they understood. Rosalie threw me a bitch glare before going upstairs to her room. I didn't bother to spare a glance at her. If I ignored her I couldn't start a fight.

" I shall call J. Jenks."

I didn't bother to ask who that was. Some sketchy dude I guess.

" Forge me a driver license too please. Edward is gonna teach me how to drive."

" I am?"

" You are!" I heard him grunt. " I shall be very careful!"

" I'm sure you will." With a roll of my eyes and a glare I shut him up.

" And if you're busy anyway make me one year older. 17 looks much better." A kiss was pressed against my cheek followed by a " Yes, ma'am."

I joined Alice first after that to take a look at the clothes she had ordered for me and then joined Edward in a game of chess, which I lost because he had a century ahead of me plus he was a big fat cheater!

You hear that Edward? You're a cheater!

As the days passed I started to became bored because Jasper and the others went back to school. I helped Esme clean the entire house. I read Carlisle's books becoming almost an expert in rhinology: the medical and surgical treatment of disorders of the nose and sinuses. Very interesting. I shopped online until I had every color of the rainbow in my wardrobe. I gardened with Esme. She was a landscape architect. She had the degree at least. I cleaned the house again. And I started to write on my own book under the pseudonym of Leni Brown. You got it? The first two letters of my name and middle name.

It was pure amusement and a way of passing time. I was sure my writing sucked but my idea was original.

A talented, female surgeon is assigned her first sex reassignment surgery. She botches the operation and is sued. As she cost her patient his chance at a female body, he starts to hunt her down for a chance at hers.

I had the story all planned out in my head and the writing came so naturally. I had only started to type today and I was already on chapter three. I even had this catchy title called ' A Killer Body'

In the distance I could hear rap music booming. That's definitely Emmett's jeep. Which meant Jasper was home from school!

A smile was instantly one my face. No matter how pleasurable my time with Esme was I really preferred time with Jasper. Two cars parked in the Cullen's garage followed by some doors slammed and then I felt a pair of muscular arms wrap around my waist.

" I'm home."

" I know I heard you. I have this amazing thing called vampire hearing." I turned around in his arms and kissed him on the lips, temporarily forgetting my surroundings. My fingers wrapped in his hair, they just needed to feel the luxuriant thick curls.

" I have an appointment with J. Jenks tomorrow." He said in between kisses and I actually had to focus on the words. My mind kept wandering off to other things…

" Hmmm." I pulled him closer again.

My lips parted. Someone cleared his throat, making me instantly irritated. I turned around to see who it was. Edward.

Edward? Are you like… turned on right now? I could barely contain my mental laughter. His face wrinkled. I could only imagine the pictures and thoughts in his head right now.

" Not in the slightest."

I liked Edward. Not only because he was pleasant to the eye with his perfect and angular features but he was also charming and polite and determined, which was not a bad thing to be. He was also overprotective of Alice, which was also not a bad thing to be. Reminded me a bit of myself. Picture me going berserk if someone tried to hurt Jasper… But he still wasn't a match for my Jasper. No one was.

It's a god damn shame he was so damn stubborn sometimes. And an annoying mind reader. And a cheater. And had the tendency to overreact. But over all his was a nice fake brother.

Edward was my favorite non-amorous male in the house. Plus I liked how he played the piano, probably his best feature.

The crooked smile on his face annoyed me: " Your kind words make my heart melt, Nicole."

" Fuck off, just teach me how to drive."

I was a surprisingly fast student. I managed to drive around without damaging something or killing someone. In the beginning I was on the very edge of pulling my hair out because Edward was so demanding and stern and he just wouldn't shut up.

We came to a mutual agreement after I screamed at him to shut the fuck up or I would rip his lips off.

" You want to take a selfie?" I asked as I pulled my phone out of my jeans.

" Sure, but why?"

" I'm planning to keep myself busy with scrapbooking so I need pictures."

" But you have vampire memory, you will never forget something again."

" Like I said it's a way to keep myself busy. Besides a scrapbook has its charm."

" Right." And he gave me a weird look.

" Don't give me such a weird look and come closer to me."

" You sure are bossy, women!" I couldn't contain my laughter. Sometimes Edward was also genuinely funny, another trait I liked.

Our heads came closer together until my bouncy hair was touching his jaw.

" Smile!"

It was a good picture. I saw two unearthly beautiful people with attractive smiles

" OMG! We look so gorgeous! That's totally a good one!" His imitation of an annoying teenage girl with a high pitched, shrill voice was striking and once again I burst into laughter.

" Another one." He suggested. This was nice. The interaction with my new brother who I was going to live with for centuries was nice. Bonding time.

I pressed my lips against his cheek, temporarily surprising him but he relaxed and put a broad smile on his face, his arm wrapping around my shoulders.

That was the nicest picture of them all. I succeeded in convincing him to take a few goofy ones. Pictures where we were acting as models on the cover of a magazine, pictures were we had this overly badass faces or were we pulled silly ones.

" You are crazy, Nicole."

" Is it good or is it good?" As I pulled off my best pork imitation. His hand pressed against my forehead, pushing my head back into the car seat.

" You're a born pig." We laughed together.

" This was nice." He admitted. " You have changed so much. I barely recognize you anymore apart from the few moments you threaten to rip people's lips off."

" Jasper makes you to who you are now. If I didn't knew better I wouldn't believe you are a newborn. But the most change I see in Jasper. He lives for his family and he loves them but there was always something missing. He never admitted it or complained but he wanted what we all had: a mate. Now he has you. His reason to live. Or as he describes you his bright star in a starless sky. I'm glad you are who you are, Nicole and I'm glad we are growing closer."

For once I didn't miss the feeling of crying because I would've been if I had been human. There was a lump in my throat from all the emotional words that even venom couldn't dissolve.

I opened my arms as far as the space of Edwards Volvo allowed it.

" Are you going to strangle me?" He joked

" Just hug me!" I wrapped my arms around his entire body. This was the first hug and he returned it.

We hugged for minutes I think and it was nice. It felt good. Not like it was with Jasper but like a brother hug.

I released him. Hugging longer would've been awkward. " Come on, we should better be going."

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