Five years. It had been five years since he left. It was all Robins fault. He just couldn't put down his pride and admit to being wrong. So my BB left.

"What the fuck do you mean "I'm dead weight" Robin?" Beast Boy yelled across the common room.

"You are! You don't follow directions and always end up hurt." Robin retorted, crossing his arms and puffing his chest out defiantly.

"Then maybe I should just leave!"

"Friend Beast Boy! You mustn't! We are friends. We can work this out." Starfire interjected pleadingly.

"Don't bother Star. If he wants to leave it won't make a difference to this team."

"Robin! That is most inconsiderate. Of course-"

Beast Boy cut her off, "Don't worry Starfire. He's right. It won't matter." He spat.

"C'mon B! You don't have to-"

"Yes I do Cy." Beast Boy started for the door, but ran into me.

"What's all the commotion?" I asked.

"Don't worry Raven, there won't be any more commotion here." Robin said triumphantly.

"Wha-?" Beast Boy pushed past me. "What did you do Robin?" I asked dangerously.

"I didn't do anything. He's the one who decided to lea-" He didn't have to finish. I knew what he was talking about. BB was leaving. I never even had a chance… I still didn't have my powers under control.

Chasing our green friend to his room, I burst in, "Beast Boy! Don't do this!"

He looks genuinely surprised that I was showing such concern. "What do you care, Raven? You hate me, remember?" He looked back down and continued to pack.

"No! I don't!" I came over and grabbed his hand. He looked at my hand like it was from another planet.

"Then what?"

That gave me pause. Could I…? "I… I… I love you." The light bulbs in his room burst violently.

"What? Raven… you can't mean that."

I looked back up to him. I was sure he could still see just fine with his animal eyesight. "But I-"

"I'm green. And short… And dead weight…" He said sadly.

"No! Is that was Rob-"

"It doesn't matter Raven. Nothing anyone says could make me stay here with that ass. He's always hated me, he's just finally got his wish."

"It should matter…" He turned and hugged me tight.

"Yes it should… especially from you." He took my chin and kissed me. Some of his things exploded. "Cause I love you too, Rae."

"Then why?"

"I have to do this Rae. I'll make sure to see you again. Don't worry. Just stay a Titan and I'll be able to find you when the time is right." He turned and shoved a few more things into his bag, took his communicator off his belt and gave it to me. "Bye Raven." He flew out his window.

"Bye… BB."

Since that day, the team has fallen apart. Starfire and Robin, who now calls himself 'Nightwing,' were married but it was far from a perfect marriage. They fought day and night and Starfire more often than not stayed in another room. Cyborg was out for months at a time trying to keep up with technology and had lost his more personal connections to us. Well… as for me. I got my powers under control a few years ago. I now wear white and have perfect control of my emotions. But at a cost. Without close friends I unwillingly have been repressed by my emotions. I run on autopilot. With nothing to do I drift through the tower, unable to talk to my friends or even meditate. Sometimes I'm able to gain enough control to make sure I eat, bathe, and read a book. As for fighting crime… when something does come up, being adult super heroes we usually just go one at a time. I go as often as I can to get out. I gain precious clarity when I use my powers. However, despite my perfect control, BB still hasn't come back.

Since that day, I think about Raven all the time. She's who I'm doing this for. I always wonder if she found another guy out there or if she's thinking of me too. I fight crime alone now, in the shadows. I've tossed around using a new superhero name but since I'm not in the spotlight I've never used it. Maybe someday I will. Since I left the team, I fought more civilian crime; the drug dealers, human traffickers, etc. I also kept up with the team though reading the news. I knew when Raven gained control of her powers, when Cyborg was out of commission, even when Star and the jerk got married. I seriously thought of calling Raven after she gained control. But I stopped myself when I realized she probably had another boyfriend. I just couldn't barge back into her life after 3 years. Well, I should've. Cause now it's been 5 years… and I still haven't seen her. My Raven.

"Yea. They'll be meeting to do the deal tomorrow at the docks… yea. Sure thing." I hung up the pay phone. It was late, and I was wearing a hoodie and gloves to cover my more distinguishing features. I had just turned in another anonymous tip to the police. Walking down the dark street to my mini-hideout I thought of Raven again. She was on the news that morning and gods was she beautiful. "Maybe I should just go see her." I said wistfully. Maybe tomorrow…

I stopped abruptly. That's what I always say. If I keep saying tomorrow I'll never do it… just like these past five years. I don't have to see anyone else. So I finally made up my mind. I ran back to my hideout and changed into my new hero uniform. I didn't wear it much cause I didn't transform much anymore and I would stand out wearing a tight spandex suit anyway. The new one was black and had just small lines of purple lined in white.

I had really grown up I realized looking into my mirror. I had grown until I was now over 6 feet tall. I snickered about that. That ass would have to look up to me now. I also was much more filled out. A product of working out to pass the time, I guess. With one more glance at the mirror I transformed into an eagle and took off. I was going to finally fulfill my promise to Raven.